[Hokage] Summer Festival

"What's wrong with Xia Zi? I've been in a daze."

Sitting down beside Ah Duan, he asked jokingly.

He once said to him, "Xia Zi has grown up a lot in the past few years, but she is too serious and cautious in everything, and she is not like a girl of this age at all." Xia Zi was not a lively girl in the first place. He is cautious, and he can't wait to be cautious when dealing with things, lest there will be any mistakes. Therefore, from the perspective of this brother, Ah Duan, he must think that his sister "Xia Zi" is too old.

On Xiazi's birthday last year, Ah Duan gave her a pink beaded flower headdress, and was almost dumbfounded. No matter how he and Haruna encouraged him, he didn't have the courage to wear it.

At this time, he was caught in a daze by him, and he had the expression of a caring and good brother, sitting over as if he was ready to listen to his sister's troubles in his heart at any time, which made him dumbfounded for a moment.

Perhaps in his concept, being in a daze is also a manifestation of girlish feelings?

In fact, just thinking about some things is not tricky, but it is somewhat embarrassing.

The man asked if he would clean his white teeth for him as his mother had done for his father.

I don't know what kind of expression he was facing at that time, but I was so surprised in my heart that I couldn't seem to find any words to answer for a while.

After a long while like this, when he realized that the sudden silence was actually very impolite, the handkerchief in his hand was taken away.The man across from him lowered his head and wiped his knife carefully and softly, as if treating it like a treasure.

The profile of his face reminded me of the unusually beautiful jaw curve that left a deep impression on me when I first saw him.

After the water droplets on the blade were wiped dry, he raised his head, he was much calmer than the embarrassment, and smiled lightly as if nothing had happened:

"It's not something terrible, is it? It's like facing a big enemy, what a look."

Then he held back his smile, but his tone was still very gentle:

"Xia Zi think about it slowly before answering, okay? Don't worry."

I never thought of falling in love here, getting married and having children.Even if you become more and more familiar with this world and get along more and more harmoniously with each other, you still feel that you are not as happy as you were in the previous life.

Probably a lack of something called a sense of belonging.It may sound hypocritical on the lips, but it is undeniable that there are some inexplicable stubborn emotions in the heart.

Besides, there wasn't much time left to consume.The condition of this body is not optimistic, even if there is no reminder from Orochimaru, it is very clear.A few years is not too short for a relationship, but it is too short for a serious relationship based on marriage.

Maybe it won't be long before he meets a woman with whom he can grow old together. They will walk a long, long way hand in hand, and their children and grandchildren will be around their knees when they are old.

Hatake Sakumo deserves such a future.

This is the future that we know that we cannot give and enjoy.

So why not just say no?

After I came back, I kept asking myself, since I knew that I was not destined for this relationship, why I couldn't say no to it.

It's still selfish, I'm afraid that I'll be a stranger to him from now on, and never get in touch with him forever.

Moreover, being looked at by that man's gentle eyes, any rejection would be an unforgivable sin.

Indecisive and indecisive.

Of course, this cannot be told to others, especially Ah Duan who cares most about Xia Zi.No one misses Xia Zi more than him, and no one misses him more than peace of mind.

There have been many, many words accumulated in my heart, and I am afraid that one day I will not be able to resist digging a tree hole to confide.

"It's nothing, I'm just thinking about the closing ceremony of the ninja school tomorrow."

So answer Ah Duan.

"Are you worried about being a Jōnin instructor for the first time? Natsuko will be fine."

——If it is, it must be fine.

Can't help but smile, they all like to be comforted like this.

It's hard to say if there are any problems, but it's really worrying, and the expectation and nervousness of being a teacher.

Imagine Xiaochun treating those three children the same way Xiaochun treated Xiazi.Maybe there will be no chance to get married and have children in the future, and I want to teach them as my own children.

***

Due to the task of guiding Jonin, I was unable to watch the graduation ceremony with Kushina on the day.The girl pouted and said "Oh", she let go and ran to Mikoto who was waiting for her under the tree on the side of the street, halfway she turned around and waved her hand and said:

"Teacher, find ramen if you have time!"

Smiling and saying "Okay", seeing her and Miqin walking away, he turned around and prepared to go to Hokage Building.Xiaochun said that there are still some things to pay attention to.

When he turned around, he saw Hatake Sakumo coming from another street, the morning sun shone on him, golden like the sky descending from the mortal world on the clouds - not implying that he is like Monkey King, he is half similar to the Sun Family Great Sage Nowhere.

"Go to the graduation ceremony?" he asked.

"No, it's not. Teacher Xiaochun told me to go to Hokage first. Where's the senior?"

"I'm going there too, I'm looking for Sandaime."

While speaking, he took two steps forward, paused in his footsteps, turned his head and said:

"Want to go together?"

His eyes were gentle and calm, and he didn't care about what happened yesterday, but he was a little more gentle than usual.Just like before going out on a weekday morning, when my mother tied my father's tie, my father stood up straight and looked down at her busy hands.

Hatake Sakumo, a man, always inadvertently reminds him of the warmth between his parents.

"Ah."

Walking on his left side, his left hand was in his trouser pocket, and his elbow lightly brushed against his arm inadvertently.

The wind in March has already carried the warm breath of spring, blowing on the cheeks like catkins.

Cherry blossom petals kept falling from the top of the head, like a rain of cherry blossoms.

This scene is as beautiful as a picture, and it is hard to walk through it without recalling the throbbing that was carefully cared for like a stealing cat when I was young.But memories come back to memories, what I feel now is more embarrassment.

I don't have enough morality to take it with equanimity like the man next to me.It is unknown whether he is as calm and calm as the surface.Ninja's emotions are always more difficult to guess.

Mrs. Shiranui passed by with the baby in her arms, and stopped to say hello to them. The 8-month-old Kogenma was still unable to speak, waving her hands and babbling and laughing.

"A little more like my father." Hatake Sakumo said.

The young woman is full of smiles:

"Does Mr. Shuo Mao feel the same way? Everyone says that this child and his father were carved out of the same mold."

Gently shook the baby's little hand and said with a smile:

"Boy, there's nothing wrong with being an excellent and reliable ninja like your father when you grow up."

"Really? Mr. Xuanjian."

The little baby didn't know if he could understand, and his brows and eyes were crooked with a smile as he grabbed his index finger.

The young mother smiled "hehe":

"I hope to inherit Xia Zisang's precious words."

Before leaving, her eyes lingered for a moment with Hatake Sakumo, and she sighed sincerely:

"Suo Maojun and Xia Zisang are really an enviable match."

A little embarrassed:

"You misunderstood."

Covering her mouth and chuckling, she glanced at Sakumo Hatake and said:

"Everyone thinks so."

Think too.Her eyes are exactly the eyes of "everyone" who have been familiar with them for the past six months. They all think that they are so close and familiar with Hatake Sakumo, and they are a natural couple.

I also thought about whether Hatake Sakumo said that he wanted to be together because he was influenced by the slightly ambiguous eyes and words of the crowd.If this is the case, it is too sad for him.

After Mrs. Shiranui left, we walked for a long time without saying a word to each other. When we came into view not far from the Hokage Building, the man beside us suddenly stopped.

"Xia Zi, I don't mean to urge you. It's just... I hope you can think about what you said yesterday."

"However, if you really feel troubled, just pretend you haven't said anything."

He was half a head taller than Xia Zi, and when he slightly raised his head to look at him, a pink-white petal fell on his shoulder, and his fingers moved, and he almost couldn't help but want to brush it off for him.

But what such a move means, no one knows.

——If you feel troubled, just pretend you didn’t say anything.

——Okay, just pretend you don’t know anything, and let’s continue to get along as before. ——If you answer like this, even your parents will feel ashamed for giving birth to this daughter.

I have always believed that the worst and most shameless thing to do emotionally is not to reject other intentions, but to deliberately ignore them knowingly, and to pretend to be the same as before, enjoying the kindness of others with peace of mind.

To put it in a less elegant way, I want to be a XX and want to set up a memorial archway at the same time.

Looking at him fixedly, after deliberating in his heart for a while, he slowly asked:

"Did senior really think about it before saying those words? Could it be that he was influenced by everyone in the village? Everyone thinks that we should be together, so that's why we came up with 'Since everyone thinks so, maybe we should be with you." It’s not bad to be together’? Did you really think it through?”

He listened patiently, looked with some surprise in his eyes, then shook his head and laughed:

"So Xia Zi thought so? Xia Zi thought he wanted to be together because of the influence of those gossips?"

"No, it's not like that."

"Xiazi, it's not an exaggeration to say that in the past two or three years, I have gradually grown into what I am today. I may feel that I am not perfect enough in practice or in dealing with things, and I may even think that I am It's not good here, it's not good there, is it?"

Yes, he was absolutely right.

Insecure about this world, always feel that I can't meet the requirements of this world.

"Xiazi gave me the same feeling. No matter how he treats others, he has never been soft on himself. Excuse me, it's too presumptuous to put it bluntly."

"I don't know where Xia Zi's inferiority complex comes from, but the Xia Zi I see, know and understand with my own eyes has always been a girl who is working hard and constantly growing and improving. Hey, whether it’s cultivation or dealing with other things, I’ve done a good job.”

"It has nothing to do with anything else, ah, I probably like this kind of Natsuko."

If you want to describe the feeling in your heart at this moment, it is probably as surging as when the sea is at high tide.

Unexpectedly, this man knew a lot more than he thought, and he could even feel the inferiority complex that he deliberately suppressed.Because of the lack of security, because I was not born and bred in this world, I felt that I was a lot worse than others from the very beginning.

I have been working hard and even going astray, all I want is the ability to be able to sit on an equal footing with others and fight side by side.

I never dared to tell others, I always thought that only I knew all the hardships and unwillingness, and I never thought that there was such a person who could see it so thoroughly.It's like suddenly meeting a reliable companion in the ocean alone.

However, even so, it can't change the fate of only a few years left in the fetters with this world.It was too late to develop and manage a relationship, or in other words, it was too late from the very beginning.

He opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted by him before he could speak:

"So, Xia Zi should think carefully before answering."

His eyes are very soft, and his voice is extremely soft:

"I know, if Xia Zi opens his mouth now, he must refuse."

The author has something to say: Ah Fei is really a bitch! ! ! ! !Nima...I feel like I won't love again...o(︶︿︶)o