I caught a sea king's fish

"Master An?"

Shi Yao looked at the person in front of him with a bitter face, a little at a loss.

When he woke up again, Shi An was sitting in a wheelchair not far away and looking at him.

The person who just realized that he likes Shi An's heart jumped in response to the situation, and the fingers hidden under the quilt were nervously pulled together because of Shi An's gaze looking at him.

Facing Master An's gaze, Shi Yao was glad that his complexion was paler now, and the sudden flushing of his face would not look abrupt.

But soon Shi An didn't say a word, but the mood of the superior was brought back to the normal level with a faint gaze. Shi Yao looked at the person and shouted: "Shi An?"

The other party didn't react too much, at most, he raised his eyebrows slightly at the beginning, signaling him to speak, but Shi Yao realized that he was angry.

Because of his sudden change of mood before, the alienation he implemented without telling him, and the turn and leave that he directly ignored his pursuit.

Pile and piece.

Shi Yao only felt that his head hurt badly.

How to say this?

Facing Shi'an's innocent eyes, how could I tell people bluntly that because I didn't believe that I was a closet, I struggled with myself and even avoided reality for a while, so I alienated him; now that I have recognized my true nature and realized the meaning of love It's beautiful, so you want peace again?

Leaving aside anything else, if Shi An wasn't so angry, he would probably ask what the deep cabinet is.

Besides, the man looked very angry.

If he had heard his true mental journey, he would have been even angrier, because his choice at the beginning represented the alienation of giving up.

But facing Master An's indifferent gaze, Shi Yao suddenly felt that he seemed to be in the wrong direction again.

Because of Shi An, it seems that he is not a crooked...

I can't explain it, I'm afraid to scare the innocent child, but the other party is very angry...

Shi Yao could only call Shi'an's name over and over again, although every time he called, the other party's eyes turned colder.

Seeing Shi An's stern expression, and his cheeks that were slightly puffed up because of being unhappy, Shi Yao suddenly felt that he was very brave, but when he was about to die, he felt that such a lively Shi An was very cute. Every time he shouted, There was his response, even if the gazes received later were faintly murderous, but this matter itself was very beautiful.

Thinking about it, Shi Yao raised the corners of his mouth again, his brows and eyes curled up unconsciously.

Shi An looked at the man's emotional expression and was completely angry.

He learned the truth behind the siege from the housekeeper's grandfather. Although he had already informed the master, Shi'an still had cold eyes and asked someone to teach Zhuang Jin a lesson.

Shi Yao's wounded appearance kept flashing in front of his eyes, and finally got the consent of the housekeeper's grandfather and the doctor's permission, and he came to Shi Yao's ward in a wheelchair.

Unlike the seemingly strangers on the surface, the way Shi Yao fell asleep was exactly the same as the feeling he brought when he laughed, it was a very soft feeling.

Shi An suddenly realized that this person hadn't smiled at him for a long time, and even ignored him with cold eyes, turned and left without saying a word.

Thinking of this, the sulking that had been accumulated in my heart emphasized my sense of existence again.

It's really contradictory. He was so determined when he turned around, but when he obviously dragged his feet and rushed over, he didn't blame him, nor did he feel alienated like when he turned around. Instead, he held himself tightly and blocked the attack with his body.

He could feel that Shi Yao should have encountered something, and alienation was his attitude.

And Shi An hated this kind of notification-like treatment very much.

Since it is related to oneself, why do you have to decide by yourself? Isn't his feeling and his thoughts important?

It was like this every time. When he was a child, he was directly sent out of the country. In order to get better treatment, he stayed until this year. There, the farthest place he has been to is the entrance of the hospital.

Occasionally, when he returned to China, all the invitations were rejected. It was obvious that he was the one who rejected others, but every time he was the last one to know that someone else had asked him out.

I thought Shi Yao was different from them.

Shi An frowned, turned around and was about to leave, he didn't want to be so hypocritical, but the feeling of grievance was almost unstoppable and rushed out.

He hates dealing with people.

There are always so many unsatisfactory things, Shi An even wondered if his decision to try hard to return to China was wrong from the very beginning. Although there was nothing happy in the hospital where he was treated, he would not be sad either.

The turbulent emotions rushed forward again without his permission.

It turned out that I misdiagnosed it from the very beginning, not because I was suffering from emotional apathy, not because I couldn’t feel the love of others, but because I was in a state of indifference for too long, so that I didn’t get over the jet lag and didn’t respond for a while after returning home. Come over; so that the long-dry land tasted a little nectar, and the desire that had been suppressed for a long time began to wake up and eat back, greedy for more; so that now, when I wanted to return to the original state, I was hit by the emotion that was no longer numb defeated.

"Master An?!" Shi Yao looked at the man who was about to get out in the wheelchair, struggling to get up.

If he wasn't dazzled, he just saw Shi An's eyes turned a little red.

Just such a little bit of color immediately dragged Shi Yao, who was still flabbergasted just now, into reality.

He was so frightened that he forgot that he was still a patient.

There was a lot of movement, but Shi An couldn't hold back his fingers and pressed the pause button of the wheelchair.

"I'm sorry!" Shi Yao looked at the people who stopped, and apologized immediately.

Because his throat was dry for too long and his emotions were too agitated, Shi Yao didn't even pronounce the word "Qi".

"Twice." Shi An adjusted his breathing, forcibly suppressed the shameful sore nose, and said in a cold voice, anger and rationality.

Shi Yao didn't understand why, but all his nerves tensed up, and he was serious. The wound on his body was very painful, and he probably just pulled it somewhere, but those who had a clear understanding of the priorities chose to ignore it, and looked at it seriously. After leaving Shi'an, he didn't dare to breathe heavily.

Shi Yao felt that if he wanted to solve the problem, he should ask why. After all, he still didn't understand what Shi An said twice, but his desire to survive told him not to ask such a question, and the result must be to add fuel to the fire.

But he didn't dare to continue the stalemate, he was afraid that the silence would force the other party to leave directly.

"I'm sorry." Shi Yao could only apologize in a hoarse voice.

Shi An pursed his lips and said, "I don't know why you are upset, it's always sudden, but I know there are reasons for me, even if I didn't do anything."

Shi Yao was dumbfounded, and Shi An's voice was not even loud, and his tone was still calm as usual, but he could hear the slight tremor in the end.

He has no way to quibble, his decision has already been implemented by himself, Shi Yao can only apologize again in a dumb voice: "I'm sorry."

But this weak apology again seemed to directly ignite the anger in Shi An's mind, and it was this sentence again.

Sorry was the most rascal sentence he had ever heard.

Obviously I have done everything, and the injury is also hurt, and the result is a sorry.

"The first time, you vented your anger about Zhuang Jin and left the classroom angrily. The second time, you didn't know why, you suddenly became cold and violent, and then left without communicating."

Shi An raised his voice and continued: "I hate this kind of behavior very much. I hate it. It's obviously a matter for both parties, but if you want to make a decision alone, just inform me of your decision, and then I will bear the burden of this sudden decision. emotions to deal with this inexplicable situation.”

Shi An was very kind, he gave the cause and effect of his anger, he did not cover up at all, and did not let Shi Yao guess or deceive, but he was very cruel, because it was no less than a public execution.

Shi Yao had no words to turn around.

Because these are all facts, even though these things are not a big deal in reality, Shi Yao knows that Shi An's emotions have collapsed, even if the emotional characteristics of him are red eyes and raised, trembling voice.

But for Shi Yao, leaving Shi An in this state is already a big mistake.

Neither of them spoke immediately, Shi An was calming down his emotions, but Shi Yao was unable to explain.

After a while, Shi An was about to turn around and leave, but Shi Yao said, "Shi An, I am in pain."

Shi An's finger that was about to press the start button paused, and he said in a stiff voice, "I'll call you a doctor."

"The doctor can't do anything, he said I can't take painkillers."

"Then what are you going to do?" Shi An said in a cold voice.

Shi Yao's injury this time was caused by himself. Shi An, who had regained his sanity a little, endured his emotions and asked, and decided to wait for him to go out. Shi Yao's follow-up will be left to the housekeeper's grandpa, including compensation and comfort.

Seeing that Shi An didn't speak immediately, Shi Yao just bent his eyebrows and moved his fingers towards him.

"What?" Shi'an said impatiently as he was thinking about going out.

Shi Yao didn't stop his movements because of his indifference, but smiled weakly and said to people, "Come here."

Shi An stared at him for a while, then frowned and steered the wheelchair towards Shi Yao.

"Can you raise the bed for me? The remote control board is there." Shi Yao said.

"What are you going to do?" Shi An said impatiently.

Shi Yao answered quickly, "I don't want to look at you while lying down."

Shi'an didn't reply, just had an impatient expression of "If you keep talking, I won't care about you", but in the end, the bed was raised.

Shi Yao borrowed his strength and suddenly approached Shi An with his face, and his movements were not fast, but Shi An was still worried that he would hurt the wound if he moved again, so he didn't move.

Shi Yao didn't move forward because the wound on his body hurt too much. He looked into Shi'an's eyes and said solemnly: "I know you don't want to hear sorry, but I still have to apologize. I'm sorry. The reason why I asked you to come , because the apology has to look into people's eyes seriously so that one's apology can be seen.

Thank you, I don't have the realistic conditions to approach you right now, so I can only wrong you for approaching me kindly despite being angry, this is thanks.

I'm sorry for my anger and sudden cold violence.I know emotions are irrational, so I don't excuse my actions as a result of this, but give me a chance at redemption, okay? "

Shi Yao's gentle and hoarse voice caressed Shi'an's tense nerves one after another, and the three words, like a hook, penetrated into his heart.

Shi An had a premonition that his high unhappiness this time would come to an end without any cause. Perhaps he was unwilling, so he pursed his lips and asked in a stiff voice, "Why?"

Shi Yao lowered his eyebrows, looked into Shi An's eyes with a smile and said, "Because I like to make friends with you."

because I like you.

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Shi'an: I'm angry!

Shi Yao: I like you!

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