half blind

Zhou Nanchen was wearing a black woolen coat. The hem of the coat extended into the darkness where the street lights couldn't reach, and only one corner was raised when the cold wind blew.

Zhou Nanchen appeared so suddenly that Zhang Qing opened his mouth and didn't know what to say.

So the two of them stood in a stalemate like this, the atmosphere froze, and even the night wind stopped blowing.

It was He Fangqiu who broke the solidification. He stepped forward carelessly, and grabbed Zhou Nanchen's shoulders, "Long time no see! Ah Chen!"

Zhou Nanchen was staggered by him, and the expression on his face was red and white, "Let go..."

"You came here specially to visit my class? It's a pity that we have already finished work."

Zhang Qing was stunned... What's going on?They know each other?

"I'm not here to visit the class, and it has nothing to do with you!" Zhou Nanchen couldn't bear it and threw He Fangqiu's arm off.

"Then he came to look for Zhang Qing?" He Fangqiu let go of him with a smile, smiled at Zhang Qing, and made a gesture of three with his hands, "How about it, let me tell you, three days."

"You're cheating!" Zhang Qing blurted out.

"How can this be called cheating? Remember to treat me to breakfast tomorrow!" He Fangqiu waved his hands at the two of them proudly, "Then I won't bother you, see you tomorrow."

"Hey you—"

However, He Fangqiu slipped so fast that he disappeared in the blink of an eye.

Only Zhou Nanchen and Zhang Qing were left standing in place, and the atmosphere became stiff again.

"Are you going back to the hotel?" Zhou Nanchen finally spoke first.

"Ah."

"Where? I'll accompany you."

"it is good."

Just like that, the two of them walked silently on the streets of Liancheng, because it was getting late, and there was no one around, only a few dappled lights cast by vehicles passing by occasionally.

"Do you know He Fangqiu?" Zhang Qing asked.

"He is my college classmate." Zhou Nanchen said.

"College classmate."

No wonder that guy dared to bet him so swearingly that he was a classmate.

"We were roommates in freshman year, but he dropped out of school after only one year, turned around and went to the police academy, and we haven't had much contact since then." Zhou Nanchen said, "Later, I heard that he was involved in some troubles. In the incident, I was dismissed, so I went to become an actor."

"That's it." Zhang Qing felt that He Fangqiu was amazing for a while, "Amazing."

Zhou Nanchen glanced at Zhang Qing, "Didn't you hear what I said? He was dismissed."

"What's the matter with being dismissed?" Zhang Qing shrugged, "Didn't you also say that he was involved in the incident? Being able to be an actor shows that he is still a very good person."

"He's very dangerous." Zhou Nanchen emphasized his voice, "It's better for you to stay away from him."

"I can't do this." Zhang Qing exaggeratedly sighed, "I acted as a couple with him, hugging today and cuddling tomorrow... I just finished filming the kissing scene yesterday."

"Kiss scene?" Zhou Nanchen suddenly stopped in his tracks, his voice suddenly raised, "Did he kiss you?"

"Well..." Zhang Qing originally wanted to continue teasing him, but Zhou Nanchen suddenly pressed his shoulders and pushed him against the roadside tree.

"What are you doing?" Zhang Qing was taken aback. Although there were no people on the road now, it was not too late, and someone might pass by at any time.

"How did he kiss? Where did he kiss?" Zhou Nanchen's eyes almost burst into flames, pushing Zhang Qing tighter and tighter.

"Wait, are you crazy? This is on the street, there will be someone—" Zhang Qing struggled twice, but found that Zhou Nanchen had exerted all his strength and couldn't break free at all.

"Isn't someone better?" Zhou Nanchen exerted a little more force in his hand, and tightened Zhang Qing's wrist, "Don't you just like to be looked at and let everyone know? Let's see how the much-anticipated superstar Zhang Qing stretches his legs at a man wantonly!"

There was a loud "pop", and Zhou Nanchen was stunned for a while before he felt the burning pain on his face.

Zhang Qing's cheeks were flushed with anger, and his fingers were trembling in mid-air.

"Zhou Nanchen, clear your mind for me!"

Zhou Nanchen was stunned for a long time before slowly lowering his eyes, "I'm sorry."

"Yes, I was a little impulsive about coming out publicly, but if you have any dissatisfaction, just say it!" Zhang Qing's eyes were red, "If you have any opinions or grievances, come and argue with me , or a fight is fine! As a result, you told me to forget it after a phone call during the New Year’s Eve, and disappeared without a trace for more than half a month without saying a word, and now you think about it and feel jealous? What are you doing? !"

"Then what should I do, what do you want me to do?" Zhou Nanchen raised his head, his face was already wet with tears, "You want me to stand with you openly, and then just watch the spit Xingzi put his face on the ground?" Are you drowning, ruining your last hope for the future?"

"Zhou Nanchen! Can you stop imposing your kindness on me!" Zhang Qing couldn't bear to push Zhou Nanchen, "Every time, every time, every time you are like this! Don't ask me at all I don’t take my opinion into account! I’m not your cat, and you’re not thinking of me like you’re letting yourself out of the flood, I must be grateful!”

Zhou Nanchen was stunned, and looked up at Zhang Qing.

"Do you know how much effort and courage I have put in to be with you?" Zhang Qing's tears fell one by one, "You do this as if everything I do and all my efforts are like Like a joke."

"But what if you are working hard on the wrong path?" Zhou Nanchen's voice was hoarse.

"Who defines right and wrong?" Zhang Qing took half a step forward, "Audience? Capitalist? Director? What qualifications do these people have to define my life? Even you are not qualified, Zhou Nan Chen!"

Zhou Nanchen was speechless for a while.

"I won't 'forget it'." Zhang Qing looked directly at Zhou Nanchen with red eyes, "If you really want to break up, say so now. Stand in front of me and make it clear to me in front of my face. "

There was silence in the air.

"If you don't say anything, you will still be Zhang Qing's boyfriend, the only boyfriend I officially announced when I came out." Zhang Qing said, "I'll wait for you, and when you wake up, come and tell me .At that time, no matter what you want, I will accept it."

As he said that, Zhang Qing took a deep breath and quickened his pace to walk forward.

After walking a few steps, Zhang Qing turned around and yelled, "The kiss scene is on loan, idiot!"

Zhou Nanchen's apartment was dark and there was no sound.

"Van Gogh, are you there?" Zhou Nanchen threw his coat on the chair.

But the only answer to him was silence.

Zhou Nanchen walked into the room and turned on the light in the living room.He stepped over the mess on the ground and walked to the coffee table in the living room.

He pulled aside the piles of food, takeaway lunch boxes, drink bottles, etc. on the coffee table, searched for a long time on the table, and finally found the crumpled business card.

The call was connected quickly.

"Hello, is this Mr. Xu Taosang?... Sorry to disturb you so late, my name is Zhou Nanchen, I heard that some time ago my friend showed you my painting..."

Van Gogh slid in nimbly through the crack of the window with a bird that had just died in his mouth.

He saw that his master was holding the rectangular object that he usually held in his hand, looking out the window, wondering what he was thinking.

Van Gogh walked over, put the bird at his feet, and meowed softly.

"Van Gogh." Zhou Nanchen picked up Van Gogh and stroked the hair on his back, "Where did you go?"

Van Gogh looked at him with his head tilted.

"He's not here. We may not see him for a long time." Zhou Nanchen said in a low voice, "Come with me to Anshi tomorrow. There lives a very powerful painter grandfather who is willing to teach me how to draw painting."

Van Gogh meowed, not knowing whether to agree or disagree.

"Maybe it's just a way to escape, but I really don't know what to do." Zhou Nanchen held Van Gogh in his arms and buried his face deeply in his fur, "I'm very confused."

Perhaps Van Gogh didn't understand the word "confused", but he just felt uncomfortable being held all the time. He patiently endured for a few seconds for his master, and finally broke free unbearably.

Zhang Qing spent the most quiet months since "Sound of the World" in Yu Daping's crew.

The enthusiasm for his coming out at the reception has basically disappeared by now. The memory of the Internet is very limited. In addition, he has not shown any face in public in the past few months. People will soon Forget about the turmoil between him and Zhou Nanchen, and focus on new entertainment gossip.

Now the most favored new star in the entertainment industry has become Bai Mahuai, his name is on the hot search all day long, today he stirs up cp with Lu Yu, tomorrow he has a scandal with a male artist from the same group, fans of various families quarrel It was a joy, the traffic was once comparable to Zhang Qing in its heyday.

No need to think about it, Kong Yishan has a new puppet toy.

It's just that seeing these gossip news now, Zhang Qing always feels far away from himself.

His life has returned to calm. He doesn’t need to wear a mask and no one pays attention to him when he walks on the street. Even if he takes the subway and bus alone, only occasionally people cast suspicious glances. There is no longer a large group of paparazzi fans blocking him. up.

After that quarrel, Zhou Nanchen finally reacted.

Under the little flower he replied every day, Zhou Nanchen replied with a little heart.

He posted on Weibo and Moments that he was going to Anshi recently, and apologized to fans and friends for the suspension of the live broadcast.

Many fans are very concerned about the emotional status of Zhang Qing and Zhou Nanchen, and worry that Zhang Qing's public coming out of the closet will affect their relationship.

——My mother's missing person suddenly returned, Brother Chen, where did you go? I'm so worried about us!

——You two won’t quarrel over coming out, will you?Brother Chen, don't be impulsive, ah, Qingqing may be a little impulsive, but he must be good for you two!

——Brother Chen, don't be so angry, both of you should be fine.Don't pay attention to those who scold you, we will always support you behind!

Zhang Qing saw that Zhou Nanchen replied to one of the comments.

——Relax, there is no breakup, we are all fine.

"Scumbag." Zhang Qing muttered.

During Zhang Qing's filming in the past few months, the recording of "The Promised Land" has not been interrupted, but Zhang Qing and Zhou Nanchen recorded their own, and handed over the dry voice to Momao for post-production.

Fans don't know that the relationship between Zhang Qing and Zhou Nanchen has been stiff recently, and they only regard each issue of "The Promised Land" as a treasure trove of sugar, imagining their flirting in the recording studio over and over again.

"...my brain has never been able to truly forget you." Li Xu's voice was hoarse, and it was disturbing to hear, "Fate may be able to erase my memory, but it cannot erase my soul. Do you think you can just lie to me? Have you ever lied to me? Lin Yingan, after so many years, loving you has long been a part of my instinct."

Lin Ying'an—Zhou Nanchen's voice trembled, "I'm sorry, I was too scared. I was afraid that you would know the truth, that you would be hurt, and that you would leave me. For me, I would rather you forget me than Better than you leave without looking back."

Zhang Qing listened to the last issue of "The Promised Land" over and over again, and a worthless person cried and wet his pillow.

Relying on the popularity of "The Promised Land", Qiankun and the others established Fanyin Studio 2.0, and it has become more and more prosperous. It has received many different cooperations, and its reputation has grown. It has also begun to gradually transform from non-commercial to commercial.

It is said that Yin Ling had a big fight with her father recently, she terminated the contract with her father's company in a fit of anger, and flew to Phuket Island alone, stopped filming and acting as endorsements, and left their family members Worrying around.

But Duanmurou couldn't bear to answer Yin Ling's crying calls in the middle of the night for a week, so she flew to Phuket to try to persuade her to come back.

As for Zhang Qing himself, in the past few months, he has gotten acquainted with the actors in the crew much faster than expected.Among them, He Fangqiu contributed a lot.

No one in the group seemed to dislike He Fangqiu. Li Shu had a bad temper and often quarreled with actors and production managers. Every time at such times, He Fangqiu always came out to persuade the fight with a smile, and both parties would always take a step back because of the face he gave.

In Zhang Qing's eyes, He Fangqiu seems to be a perfect big brother. Not only is he good at acting, he is serious and responsible for his work, but he is always active at the scene, making everyone laugh.

But Zhang Qing still remembers the loneliness in his eyes when he said "I also know such a fool" that night.

Sometimes he was really curious, what kind of person would make the heartless He Fangqiu look like that.

After being together for a long time, He Fangqiu often invites Zhang Qing to drink.He is not very interested in eating, but he is a full-fledged alcoholic, and even dragged Zhang Qing's drinking capacity up a bit.

"Zhou Nanchen posted on Weibo?" He Fangqiu held his wine glass and smiled, "That's really good, I thought this guy would always be a turtle. It seems that he has changed a lot since meeting you."

"It has changed a lot?" Zhang Qing asked, "What was he like when he was in college?"

"It's much more gloomy than it is now." He Fangqiu laughed. "When he was in college, almost no one talked to him. He was always alone. He could count the words he said in a year with one hand. Because no one wanted to talk to him." I was in a group with him, so he couldn’t complete any cooperative homework. Later, I felt that he was really pitiful, and I offered to be in a group with him, so he was willing to talk to me.”

He Fangqiu took a sip of his wine, with a smile in his eyes, "At that time, people in our class nicknamed him Ghost Man, and some people wondered if he had facial paralysis. At that time, he was indeed a little scary, and he didn't seem to know how to laugh. , I don’t cry, and my tone doesn’t fluctuate when I speak, the whole person is like an empty shell.”

Zhang Qing didn't speak, but lowered his head and drank all the wine in the glass.

"But thinking about it now, his appearance is actually too scary."

"Afraid?" Zhang Qing was taken aback.

"He has lost too many things." He Fangqiu said, "Father, mother, paintings that were once more important than life, and then you. An artist with delicate emotions like him must tear his heart every time. The more The more important things, the more you are afraid of losing; the more you are afraid of losing, the less you dare to have them. I think eight years ago he just didn’t dare to face the reality of losing you, so he ran away in a panic. Then he was like a ghost Like wandering on the fringes of the crowd, I feel that as long as I don’t connect with anyone, I won’t lose anything.”

For a moment, Zhang Qing's chest hurt so badly that he could hardly breathe, "Does he think so?"

He Fangqiu glanced at Zhang Qing, "It's not easy for you, but compared to him, you are quite happy. At least you have fans and friends around you, but he only has you, so he is particularly afraid of losing."

Zhang Qing didn't speak, and there was silence in the air, only the sound of He Fangqiu pouring wine.

"What should I do." After a while, Zhang Qing muttered to himself, "How can I tell him that he doesn't have to be afraid anymore?"

We are already so close, why do I often feel that there is an inaccessible wall between me and you?

You on the other side of the wall will show despairing eyes when you think I can't see, as if your time stopped in that year, the night when your mother died.

"If you keep covering the wound, not only will it not get better, but it will fester and stink more and more." He Fangqiu took a sip of wine and said, "Open the wound and face it, although it is painful, but the only way .He is not an idiot, this truth should be understood."

Zhang Qing was silent for a while, then looked at He Fangqiu, "I don't know what he looked like when you knew him, but the Zhou Nanchen I know has always been brave."

"Really." He Fangqiu smiled, and pressed his lips to the rim of the cup.

"Not everyone who has gone through his pain can be as brave as him. At least for me, I can't do it." Zhang Qing said, "He is the bravest person I know, so I believe in him. I will always Waiting for him to make the right choice."

He Fangqiu smiled and raised his wine glass, "Then, respect to the brave."

"To the brave." Zhang Qing clinked glasses with him.

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It will be over soon.