Summer says winter warmth

I figured out that he was not the same as usual, so I didn't get to the bottom of it, so that day, I fell into his long-standing trap.

In the early morning, I should have woken up with a headache as usual, but just as I was about to struggle to open my eyes, a pair of warm hands covered my forehead and moved to my temples to massage me. I have to say, hangover It is natural to be able to have such treatment in the end.

But I was amazed, because I never take people home for the night, and those people who cling to me, I also tried after I completely lost Leng Feng, but no matter how handsome he is, he is not even like his shadow , so, I can't accept being with them, even if it's just a kiss.

However, who is the person appearing on my bed now? I opened my eyes and looked. It was him, the bartender who only listened to my thoughts but never expressed his opinions.

The second I regained consciousness, I kicked him out of the bed. I would never allow anyone other than Leng Feng to sleep on my bed, but the bartender just frowned and smiled at me, saying sorry .

I can see that his waist is uncomfortable, and he has been enduring the pain and rubbing a certain part of his back. I was shocked, and I slept with him last night?

The memory seems to be starting to recover. Although the situation last night is not very clear, I have the impression of holding him in my arms. Those who can resist, why are they willing to be someone else's substitute.

Somehow, I seemed to understand the meaningless look in his eyes last night. I turned cold and said to him who fell on the ground: "Even if we did, I would never fall in love with you."

In an instant, the handsome face that was still smiling lost its color. He is not very old, he is still in college, and he only works part-time in a bar at night. It’s smaller, but so what, he’s not Leng Feng, and I don’t love him either.

144.叶凡自述续[本章字数：2170最新更新时间：2014-06-2721:14:20.0]

I thought this was the last meeting between us, but he seemed to be a different person, he would take the initiative to talk to me every day, even if he was beaten up by me and turned around, he would still smile and say a lot to me.

For some reason, probably because I was afraid of being quiet, listening to him making noise beside me made me feel at ease.

I used to think that he was not good at words and looked a little indifferent, but now he is clearly a big boy in his infancy. I have to say that he is really good-looking, and his temperament is beyond expectations. I can't figure it out , just one night later, his changes made me unpredictable.

Although he pesters me very much, he understands my temper very well, and he can always shut up obediently before I explode. Seeing his aggrieved appearance but having to endure it, I smiled softly. I didn't expect to be seen seriously by him. So, I hurriedly pretended to be indifferent and ordered another glass of strong wine.

But he didn't take it seriously, as if that smile had already meant that I had changed my opinion of him, and my chances were greater.

I don't want to expose his intentions, maybe I still find it interesting for the time being, because he is the only one who approaches me without making me disgusted, there is no shadow of Leng Feng on him, except for the indifference at the beginning, now he can only Said like his own brother.

I don't know where he fell in love with me, maybe it's my money, or my appearance, or my story, anyway, I don't care, I never thought of being together, but it's rare to find Some fun, just play with him.

He gave me a hint, I pretended not to see, and the man obediently mixed the wine. Sometimes I want to have the impulse of a child and ask him what he loves me, but then I will laugh at myself and ask Does it make sense? It's just an indifferent answer.

I still went to that bar as usual, maybe because he was there, I drank more alcohol than before, he persuaded me, I shook my head, and shouted out of my mind: "Don't think you slept with me, You are qualified to control me!"

I saw his face froze, and then he smiled again and said, "I know you're in a bad mood, it's okay."

Yes, I was in a particularly bad mood that day, because the person I loved and the person he loved went to country E to get married. What a good news, but it became bleak when it reached my ears. Finally, the person I loved for many years It's so sad that people and other people finally get married.

That night, I took him home, and while I was still conscious, I took him as Leng Feng again and again. I saw him lying under me crying all the time. Whenever I called Leng Feng, he I just cried more miserably, it didn’t hurt that much, he was sad because I called someone else, somehow, my heart softened, I wiped his tears and said: “Stay with me, I will treat you well .”

There was no joy as I imagined, I saw his eyes turn from shock to sadness, and his eyes gradually dimmed, but he still replied: "Okay."

Suddenly I understood why he loves me, just like I love Leng Feng, for no reason, just because of love, but what can I promise him, I still don't love him.

After that, he smiled at me as usual like a normal person, my heart ached slightly, and I seemed to see my own shadow in him, so what am I doing right now, I can’t give him anything, Would keeping him by his side only make him sink deeper and deeper, and in the end there would be only scars left all over his body.

I began to be afraid, afraid of hurting this young man who only listened to me and was so kind to me. I have already tasted what pain is, and I don't want him to repeat my past again.

That day, I said to him who was carefully tying my tie: "Let's leave, I'm tired."

I could feel his fingers trembling, but he still pretended to be very calm and tied my tie, and smiled deeply at me: "I see, I promise to disappear before I get off work."

I don't know why, at that moment, my heart hurts, I don't want to see him forcefully smile, when I was with him before, he was really smiling, knowing that I may break up with him at any time, but he is trying his best to live every day One day there is my day, but when that day really came, he still trembled uncontrollably and said yes with a wry smile.

My heart was tightly grasped by his smile. I don't understand, I don't understand why my heart hurts. After brushing shoulders and leaving, I was thinking, I will never see him again. I used to be able to watch him at any time in the bar. Yes, but after today, he will definitely not appear in the bar again.

When I go to work, my heart and mind are full of his figure, what about Leng Feng, I am thinking, why is Leng Feng's figure covered by him, has that person already lived in my heart, although I still think about Leng Feng, But that man obviously worried me more than Leng Feng. I was afraid that if he left, he would be overwhelmed, and would hide and cry in disgrace.

I threw myself into work crazily, but the figure of that person would appear in the documents and reports I was looking at. I thought I was really crazy. At the moment I was crazy, I seemed to understand one thing.

So the next moment I was already driving a sports car on the way home, I opened the door suddenly, looking for his figure, no, without his figure, even all his clothes disappeared, as if he didn’t exist at all existed.

I was really heartbroken, did he disappear, but only two hours later, he finished cleaning up and even the room was spotless, I started to miss him crazily, rushed out the door like a fool, only thinking that he hadn't gone far , calling his name loudly over and over again.

No response, no response, the current self is the most ridiculous, only after I lost the person who loves me so much, I realized that I really don’t deserve love.

Suddenly, the sound of crying and slight sobbing appeared behind me. I turned around and saw the person who had been hovering in my heart for a long time pulling the suitcase and looking at me pitifully. , I hugged him tightly, hugged his trembling body tightly.

He froze, and said cautiously, "I'm sorry, I'll be leaving soon, and I won't bother you again."

My heart was sad along with his crying voice, I hugged him tightly, and I said: "I'm sorry for you, I'm a bastard, I didn't understand until now, I think I can't do without you."

He was stunned again, and it took him a long time to reply tremblingly: "Really...?"

I let go of him, but didn't let go of the hand around his waist. I thought it was a serious look I had never shown before, and I said, "Stupid, of course it's true."

Seeing you appearing behind me, thinking of you hiding in a corner and looking at the home we used to live together, you cried, and my heart ached, I think I fell in love with you, from the beginning of indifference, to Later, I looked for my own shadow in you, and then, I couldn't bear to see you sad. Up to now, I think I can't help falling in love with you.

Maybe I betrayed my love for Leng Feng, but I have to admit that I really love you...

He heard my answer, looked into my eyes, and hugged me back, I thought, I have him again, this time, I will never let go, just like Leng Feng loves Xia Xi, I will always love You, never leave.

145.后续[本章字数：2554最新更新时间：2014-06-2721:14:43.0]

Xia Xi and Leng Feng had been to country E for several days, and under pressure from Lan Luo, they had no choice but to return to the country.

Although Leng's father has approved them, and Yiming should be handed over to Leng Feng as a matter of course, he still wants Leng Yan to act as an agent for a while, saying that when he gets married in the future, he will hand over the company to his future precious nephew.