Unsatisfactory hp

For Ah Luo, you don't need to love me, but if you choose to be with me, then I'm sorry, you can only be tied with me.If you find true love, then easy, divorce.

What he wants is not love, but each other's loyalty, that is, you treat me well and I treat you well, and that two people rely on each other.

It is true that Gellert will be kind to him, but it is also true that Gellert will never forget the cinnabar mole named Albus Dumbledore in his heart.

Think about Long Xiaoyun in Xiao Li Feidao, although everyone said he was sorry for Li Xunhuan, but any man who calls another man's name in his dreams at night can bear it?No matter how girlish A Luo is, she can't tolerate this.Betrayal is betrayal, and so is spiritual betrayal.

In fact, if Gellert can really abandon that failed + hopeless love and stay with A Luo, A Luo feels that she may not agree to it.Husband and wife respect each other, but Ah Luo thinks carefully about the relationship between him and Gellert. He always feels that Gellert treats him as a child, a pet, and a dodder flower that depends on him, but like Shu Ting The same as the words in To the oak tree, what he wants to do is an equal tree.

Status, identity, property, and strength all have to exist on an equal footing.

As for whether A Luo herself likes Gellert, A Luo doesn't know for sure, but at least one thing, he cares about this person, very much, more than anyone else.

Because a few years ago, A Luo was able to firmly express that if death could let him go back, he could point his wand at his body and recite the death curse without hesitation, and press down on his temple with a gun. The knife pierced into his heart.

There will be no hesitation.

But if it is now, he will waver and hesitate, because he is reluctant.

Because he couldn't bear Gellert, he couldn't bear it.

Ah Luo sighed softly, feeling confused for the first time in her heart.

A Luo thanked Gellert, because Gellert rescued him from that hell on earth, because Gellert tried his best to help him recover, and because Gellert took care of him for so many years.

Don't say that A Luo's injury is for Gellert.Yes, what A Luo did did help Gellert and the saints, but in the final analysis, A Luo’s tragedy was found by him and Alfred himself, even if Gellert didn’t save him, he would Nothing to say, because Gellert owed him nothing.

For the same reason, even after Gellert rescued him and threw him in the hospital to fend for himself, A Luo also had no reason to resent him, that is, when A Luo's magic power was exhausted and he was almost a squib, Gellert threw him into the Muggle world to live , Throwing him to a certain subordinate to raise him, he also wants to be grateful to Gellert.In the final analysis, A Luo at that time was just betting on Gellert's heart when she was most desperate.And the fact is, it's the best outcome.

But this doesn't mean that A Luo has to agree with her body, and it doesn't mean that A Luo has to sacrifice herself to become the other party's toy.A Luo thought of those beautiful boys and girls who slept with Gellert. He is a human being, he also has ambition and dignity, and he also has his own desires. He doesn't want to be the one who lives by each other.

But what if Gellert really wanted him?What should he do?

A Luo has self-knowledge, and he has never changed this point. He will act like a spoiled child to Gellert, complain, make him a little angry, and show intimacy and dependence, but that bottom line has never been crossed.

He will not forget his own identity or the other party's identity because of Gellert's kindness to him.In any case, Gellert Grindelwald is the Dark Lord who has the power to kill and kill, which is why A Luo started working hard to make money and develop the plan so early.

The cunning rabbit still has three caves, but people cannot live without backhands.He wants to live a better life in the future, so he has to think more about himself and himself.

People who have no long-term worries must have near-term worries, and this is the truth.

So no matter what kind of feelings he has for Gellert, it must be based on mutual equality. Therefore, he needs to work harder to make himself stronger in all aspects.

"Alo?"

Ah Luo blinked her eyes, looked up and saw Alfred who looked up.This Christmas, Alfred put a lot of anti-pregnancy potion in the cake he gave to his grandfather's family. Under A Luo's own preparation, the potion with the sweet taste of apples could not be tasted at all.In this way, Alfred, who accompanied his grandfather Vincent in England, prevented the birth of uncles, cousins ​​and nephews that might appear in the future.

This child who has lived with him for three years has really become what he once believed in: under his sunny and enthusiastic surface, he is calm and not impulsive, acting insidious and ruthless.

However, Ah Luo felt a little sad in his heart, and he suddenly understood Gellert's feelings when he left Germany for England: the child he watched grew up.

"What book is this?" Alfred pointed to the book in A Luo's hand.

"Adolf Hitler's "Mein Kampf", I bought a copy when I went to Germany to buy a wand, because the Germans almost regarded it as a bible." A Luo smiled: "I read it, it's quite funny .”

"Funny?" Alfred didn't quite understand.He knew Hitler, the German head of state who excluded Jews and was worshiped by almost everyone in Germany.So he didn't understand what was so funny about what could be called Hitler's autobiography.

"Yeah," Ah Luo hugged Garfield and said casually: "Adolf Hitler's words are full of power, but when you think about it carefully, it's the pure fascist thought and the extreme racial discrimination concept. What makes me want to laugh the most Yes, he changed his words and said he was a wizard."

A Luo cleared her throat and lowered her clear baby voice: "The Germanic nation is the most outstanding race, and should rule those inferior nations." Then the voice returned to normal: "Change 'Germanic nation' to 'pure blood', 'inferior race' "Ethnicity" is changed to "Muggle and half-blood", if you read this sentence again, do you think those pure-bloods talk about it all day long?"

"Indeed." Alfred thought that some purebloods in Slytherin looked superior to him, and even made trouble for him.But so what, didn't he still have a few bones broken by this so-called Mudblood?

"The Jews are regarded as enemies by the Germans because of their beliefs, customs, and their excellent money-making minds. The extermination of the Jews has become the 'justice' in their mouth." A Luo sneered: "The sound is nothing but a matter of interests."

"Justice is always written by the victor." A Luo raised her head and looked ahead, her dark eyes were cold and rational: "So Al, when you were in Gryffindor, never fight for some justice." It's just stupid to jump in with a hot head."

"I understand what you mean, don't do stupid things for the illusory things like justice, A Luo, I'm not an idiot." Alfred put away the hippie smile that always hung on his face, the expressionless face was the same as A Luo , with indifference and sobriety in the blue eyes.

"The weapon in my hand is only to defend everything I cherish." He leaned over and hugged Ah Luo: "But if it is your wish, Ah Luo, I will fight for you, willingly."

A Luo's heart softened for a while.

After returning to school, there is the Quidditch competition, and after that, it is the final exam.

The first weekend after Alo returned to school, and Baba submitted his own jump application form ————————— he really had too little time. He felt that he really needed a time converter to help himself, and Those who are eligible are those students in the third grade who have chosen courses with conflicting schedules.

But what made Ah Luo sad was that this application was decisively rejected by the old principal. A Luo was unconvinced and wanted to argue for it, but the old principal refused to agree.

A Luo has been a person with obsessive-compulsive disorder all her life, and her pursuit of perfection has even reached a pathological level. Almost all the professors who teach him know this.Because as long as A Luo's homework grade is "E" {good} instead of "O" {excellent} (as for grades such as "A" {pass} "P" {poor} "D" {very poor}, A Luo Never got it), A Luo will go to the professor with her homework, insisting on clarifying the reason why she didn't get an "O", once the professor can't answer, A Luo will ask the professor to change the grade .The degree of extreme pursuit of perfection in learning has reached an unparalleled level in the history of Hogwarts.

Professor Dumbledore has also experienced A Luo's questioning of the reason, so he knows how persistent and stubborn A Luo is. If there is no reason to convince him, he will not give in.

So Mrs. Lyon made a move.A dense and detailed list of medical records made A Luo shut her mouth, and she bowed her head obediently when Mrs. Lyon kept nagging about A Luo's body.

Because Ah Luo knew that his physical condition was his biggest problem.

Huge workload, long-term high-load busy life, and almost no rest life, A Luo successfully created a miracle of supporting two factories and a company in one year, and at the same time, her physical condition was declining day by day.Other little wizards can be alive and kicking after drinking a bottle of potion after catching a cold and getting sick, but A Luo has to live in the medical wing after drinking bottle after bottle, which is equivalent to a hospital examination.

His cold hands and feet became more serious. Although he ate every meal and never missed a snack, he was getting thinner and thinner.So even though Ah Luo's height is tall among her peers, she looks more and more like a clothes rack now.

So, A Luo had no choice but to obediently study in the second grade after graduating from the first grade......

Ah Luo, who failed to achieve her goal, was very sad, and was in a very annoying and bad mood, so when he returned to the bedroom, he looked in the mirror and felt that his long hair was particularly obtrusive.So click, click, and a few scissors cut.

So on Monday, everyone saw the elusive first-year Slytherin half-breed student with a neat and capable short hair, still parted at a slant, but the hair on both sides did not reach the earlobe, and his slender and slender neck was exposed behind.

Ah Luo looks good with both long and short hair, but it's not something everyone can bear to turn from a delicate and delicate beauty with long hair to an elegant and powerful queen with short hair.

"Is there really such a big change in a hairstyle?" An Ning looked at A Luo who had a new hairstyle in a daze, and murmured. Turning her head, she saw Alfred eating a sandwich calmly, with his elbows touching. Peng: "Aren't you surprised?"

"What's there to be surprised about?" Alfred raised his head and looked at An Ning inexplicably: "Ah Luo is always like that, you really thought he was not a Slytherin when you saw him smiling before?"

She always thought that this fellow entered Slytherin only because of his blood... An Ning turned her eyes to the opposite side, A Luo, who was eating pancakes, raised her head in a feeling, and when she met An Ning's eyes, she showed a nobleman It can't be more in line with the elegant smile of the nobleman, but it has the arrogance of the nobleman without arrogance, and the calmness of the nobleman without making people feel artificial and annoying.

Fellow, which one are you playing?

Ah Luo wasn't playing anything, he was just tired of his long hair, and after cutting his hair under his rare impulse, he found that he was unexpectedly relieved in his heart.

He doesn't like to laugh, he doesn't like any kind of smile, but in the first half of the semester, he didn't smile less, all of them were fake.He suddenly felt that it might be more comfortable to cut off the disguise of long hair to reveal a little bit of his real self.

He has lived enough to be fucking depressed, why can't he relax a little bit?

He suddenly understood why Reinhard liked flying such a dangerous sport, and even had the possibility of death in the end, because he was the same as him at this moment.

They all want to die, but they all want to live.

Well, he could just pretend he was stimulated when he was on vacation, but he was stimulated.

In short, he wanted to be himself a little bit, just a little bit.