I'm a scumbag

I admit that I am really unfeeling, but any normal man's reaction to this kind of thing will only be stronger than mine, not worse than me.

You treat him kindly as a friend and love him as a younger brother, but he has been harboring secrets about you, treating you like a woman, and even taking your first kiss away without even saying hello one day.Thinking about it, the past scenes seem to be no longer pure, full of deliberation and deceit.

I'm really stupid. Thinking about it carefully, his excessive dependence and intimate behavior have already revealed his original intention inadvertently.But my blind eyes can't see anything.

Even smoking three cigarettes couldn't cover the vanilla smell on my mouth, which invisibly aggravated my depression.I didn't feel nauseous, and I didn't have the urge to brush my teeth and rinse my mouth, it was just a simple disturbance.

I have a good impression of Han Yu, and being with him even makes me happier than being with Xiao Linzi.I think if he was a girl, maybe I would have started to pursue him before he fell in love with me, but it is a pity that he is a boy, and this alone is the obstacle that can never be overcome between us.

The gate of the community has been locked on time, and if you want to take a shortcut to go back, you can only go through the back door of the unit.Whenever my colleagues see me, they will enthusiastically ask, "Where did you go off duty?"

Annoyed, I dropped a sentence, "What a fart!" and hurried past.

"Li Kai, I'm looking for you, come here!"

"Oh, fourth brother."

The fourth brother's name is Gao Bing, who was given the nickname "ice-drug". He is currently released on bail pending trial. He is cruel but very loyal.He is our boss's confidant (to put it bluntly, he is a thug). He is currently watching the scene for our boss. He has no position but has more power than the manager. He can also be regarded as my immediate boss. Therefore, I have to pretend to be in a bad mood when I see him Send some smiles.

Following him into the office door, the fourth brother threw me a dagger in a plastic bag. It was something I gave him a few days ago. Han Yu's blood was still on the knife engraved with English letters.The fourth brother is very active in this area, if you want to investigate someone, just ask him, you can't go wrong.

"I did a search for you. His surname is Xu, and he is the third eldest in the family. It is said that his father is quite rich, so he is not easy to mess with..."

"I'm sorry to trouble you, fourth brother." When I asked fourth brother to help with the investigation, I did have the intention of revenge. It was impulsive, but now, I don't think it is necessary.

"He stabbed your friend?"

"It's just an accidental injury, it's nothing serious."

"That's good. If you really have something to do, you can tell me, and I will help if I can." The fourth brother is enthusiastic, but even if I have something to do, I dare not ask him for help.

"Thank you fourth brother, I'll treat you to a drink another day."

"It's all about brothers being polite."

After a good meal of thanks, I left the unit. My colleagues were all at work, and there was no one in the dormitory. It happened to give me a quiet space to calm my mind.The result of being calm is a sleepless night.

I forgot to pick up the station the next afternoon, and when I arrived at the station, my little girl was already covered in cobwebs and had been waiting for me for two hours.

This gave her an excuse to complain about me. The price of two hours is three hours of complaints. Knowing that I was wrong, I could only listen to her training absent-mindedly, and finally let her take it away on the grounds of spiritual compensation. All the money in my pocket.

After settling down my little girl, I went back to work, and for two whole days I was out of my mind and lost my mind. I made continuous mistakes at work. Unfortunately, I was reprimanded by the manager again.

It's been three days since we lost contact, which is the first time since we officially became friends.The longer time passes, the more frequently Han Yu appears in my mind.

I don't regret what I said that day, and I don't feel sorry. I will repeatedly think that he was just worried.There are some people in this world whose ideas are too extreme. If you don’t succeed, you will succeed. I’m not sure whether Han Yu belongs to that type.If the consequences are too serious because of my rejection, wouldn't I be oppressed by guilt and self-blame for a lifetime.

It wasn't until 02:30 that night that I saw that familiar figure in a corner that the 76-hour worry was completely over.

He leaned against the cold wall and smoked a cigarette. When he saw me coming over, he quickly threw away the cigarette butt and pretended to be a good boy. "Li Kai."

"Why are you here?" I didn't have anything to say, knowing that he was fine, I no longer had any psychological burden.In fact, the moment I saw him, I wanted to turn around and leave, "What can I do for you?"

"Are you still angry with me?" With his hands in his trouser pockets, he lowered his head and didn't dare to look at my distant face.

"No."

I know full well that a nonchalant no is even more painful than a yes, but I have to say that I can't give him any hope.

"I'm sorry about that day."

"Forget it in the past... Is there anything else? Go back if you don't have anything to do."

Han Yu lowered his head and kept staring at the shadow under the moonlight. I couldn't see his expression clearly at the moment, but I could feel his longing, "Will we meet again in the future?"

"If you only treat me as an ordinary friend, I'm happy to drink and chat with you." To me, if he can take back that kind of thought that he shouldn't have, I think I can accept to continue to be ordinary friends with him, if he doesn't If you are willing to change your mind, then we can only say goodbye to him tonight!

"I'm sorry!" There was a trembling smile on the corner of his mouth, but he secretly wiped away the tears that flowed down his chin when I wasn't paying attention, "I can't do it!"

"...After that, we still don't want to meet each other!" After saying this, I turned and left.

Originally, I thought that this time I would walk away as coolly and mercilessly as last time, but I didn't expect that there would be an inexplicable pain in my heart.I think I may be reluctant to let go of the friendship that lasted for several months, and the impression of Han Yu's innocence and purity in my heart.

That night, Han Yu cried for a long time in a dark corner.I have never seen anyone cry so sadly, the tears flowed down line by line as if there was no end, and the sad eyes would be unbearable even if they saw the hard-hearted eyes.The line of defense in my heart was defeated by him bit by bit. I wanted to rush up and scold him for not being a man enough several times, but some stubborn excuses thwarted my impulse time and time again.

The distraught Han Yu left at dawn, I think he must have completely given up this time.

The next night, he appeared again on my way back to bed, looking at me from a distance in an inconspicuous dark place.I just paused for a while, then pretended I didn't see anything and left.

Since then, he in the corner has become a unique scenery in our community, a scenery that only I can see.

I have never been in a relationship, and I don't understand his persistence and stubbornness at all. I was drenched all over my body during the heavy rain and majestic night, but I still wanted to guard my way back, just to catch a glimpse of me.I was so angry that I wanted to go up and slap him and scold him severely, "Why don't you bring an umbrella when it's raining heavily?".

Think about it later, forget it, why bother, so as not to hurt the friendship that has become a memory.

In the end, I did nothing and hurried past with the umbrella on my head down.I couldn't fall asleep that night, and listened to the symphony of rain beating glass until dawn.

I thought that this heavy rain would completely break his already weak body, but he didn't expect that on the second night, he was still stubborn and leaned on the tree that was about to be felled by him on time, looking at me silently.

Day after day without interruption!

It wasn't until one night that I walked with a female colleague, talking and laughing as if we were lovers, that the sad scenery completely disappeared and never appeared again!

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