I'm a scumbag

After crying in my arms, Qin Xiaoyu finally signed the divorce agreement.After all, we had an agreement a long time ago. As a husband, I have never had her in my heart. She also knows that the ties for so many years are only out of family affection. Some people will accompany her for the rest of her life.

I left the house according to the agreement, and I didn't take any property with me except the few mobile phone stores.By the time the parents of the two parties heard the news, we had already completed all the formalities. In order not to make things too complicated, Qin Xiaoyu went to do the ideological work of her parents, and my parents' ideological work was naturally done by me. to do.

I pulled Li Yan and asked her to tell my parents exactly what happened back then.Then I firmly said to them, "I only love him in this life! I want to be with him!"

In the end, my parents reluctantly compromised after I knelt for more than 20 hours.It seemed simple to say, but it was actually a storm of thunder and rain, and this storm lasted for nearly five days.

After that, I went to my uncle's house.Uncle still refused to forgive me and even refused to let me in. I stood guard outside the gate of his house for four hours until eleven o'clock in the evening. Unbearable, my aunt finally came out to listen to me.I handed her a document bag and asked her to pass it on to my uncle, which contained what my uncle wanted most, the agency rights for certain products.Let her convey my sorry for me, and tell her that I will come to pay New Year's greetings during the Chinese New Year.

In the end, I went to my sister's house and stayed downstairs until my brother-in-law Zhang Lin came back.

He obviously didn't expect that I would come to him in just a few days, his face was full of disbelief, and then he was overwhelmed with embarrassment.In fact, I was not much better. When I saw his car drive through the door, I retreated because I didn't know how to speak.

Emotion is a strange thing, it will make people have many associated emotions, such as pity, such as guilt.

I feel sorry for the ten years of Zhang Lin's youth that was delayed by me, and I am ashamed of Zhang Lin's infatuation with me. When I face him at this moment, I always feel that I am a sinner, an unforgivable sinner.

"What? Did you regret not doing anything to me that day?"

Is my expression so vicious now?I'm obviously trying my best to make myself laugh again, okay?Well, I admit that I am really scary when I am not smiling. "You think too much, I just came... to see you, and talk to you by the way."

Seeing me like this, Zhang Lin's alienated expression disappeared instantly, "Just say what you want to say, I will listen with all my ears."

I sighed, took two more puffs of the cigarette, hesitated for a long time, and finally said, "I'm sorry."

"What do you mean?"

"It has delayed you for so many years. If it weren't for me, maybe you would have found someone you like to marry and have children."

"Are you not angry with me that day?" Zhang Lin was obviously surprised that I would say this to him.

"I was very angry at first, but later I figured it out. The main fault was still mine. I have to apologize to you. Although these ten years cannot be made up with three words, I still want to say, say I'll feel better...I'm sorry!" Zhang Lin was stunned by me and didn't respond for a while, so I walked over and patted him on the shoulder, "Although I can't accept your feelings, we You can still be friends, as long as you want!"

After I finished speaking, I smiled at him and turned to leave.When I got on the train, I received a text message from Zhang Lin, and he said (I wish you happiness!)

Blessings are good, but unfortunately the reality is cruel. It was already early morning when I returned to that city. I didn't care about rest and hurried home to throw away my luggage. After taking a shower, I went downstairs to knock on the door of Han Yu's house.

I heard him walk to the door, he seemed to hesitate for a while before opening the door, "Why are you here again?"

I smiled and asked him, "Did you see the note I left you a few days ago?"

He nodded.I just said the purpose of my trip, "Are you free tonight? Let's have a meal together."

Unexpectedly, this time he only hesitated for two seconds before agreeing.I immediately felt that the spring was bright, and even the smoggy air outside made me feel extraordinarily refreshed.

I didn't do anything that day, the bathroom wardrobe, the wardrobe bathroom, I ran back and forth between the two places until dark.

As far as I know, Han Yu gets off work at 05:30 in the evening. I wanted to pick him up at the gate of their company, but after thinking about it, it was not very good, so I obediently went to the restaurant we agreed upon.At that time, Han Yu hadn't come yet, so I ordered a couple's set meal and a bottle of red wine on my own initiative.

At that time, I was still happily imagining that after drinking for three rounds, we could walk side by side on the way back, recalling the past together under the dim light, and then slowly rekindle the old relationship.But my naive idea was killed in the cradle by the cruel reality in less than 5 minutes.

Han Yu walked into the revolving door of the restaurant with a man talking and laughing side by side. I watched the man smile at me stiffly and then shook my hand politely.Never seen it, not the one from last time.That's definitely just a colleague, this...

"Let me introduce, this is my boyfriend, Liu Jun. This is Li Kai, my friend, but I haven't contacted for a long time." After Han Yu's formulaic introduction, we met and sat across from me. The chair pulled out to signal Liu Jun to sit down.

"Sir, is the food ready to serve now?" The waiter came over and asked me with insight.I sneaked a glance at the two people across from me and shook my head at him, "Bring me the menu."

Han Yu was not polite to me like meeting an old friend, ordered his favorite food and ordered another for Liu Jun, and then handed me the menu.I don't have any appetite anymore, I just randomly ordered something and asked for a bottle of good wine.

"Have you known each other for a long time?"

If I don’t speak again, they will treat me like nothing. I have no choice but to find a way to go down by myself. Han Yu responded, looked at Liu Jun and said to me, “It’s been more than a year.”

"Really." I took a sip of the wine, it was so astringent and hard to drink.

"Is there anything you want to say to me when you asked me out?"

"There was originally, but now, I still don't talk about it."

"It doesn't matter, if you have anything to say, just say it, Liu Jun knows a little about the things between me and you, he won't mind."

I raised my eyes to look at the man who was smiling all the time, he was very good looking, he was Han Yu's favorite type, and he was a good match with Han Yu.After hearing Han Yu's words, he suddenly realized, "Oh, so you are Han Yu's former... Heh, Han Yu mentioned it to me a few times, and to be honest, I was quite jealous at the time."

"It's all in the past, there's nothing to be jealous about." Han Yu smiled shyly, blushing unconsciously.

My heart fell to the bottom in an instant.

I didn't take a bite of the food, but drank most of the bottle of wine.Three people who shouldn't be sitting together sat together peacefully at this time, but most of the time I was listening to the two of them talking, and the topics they talked about were nothing more than how they got to know each other. The process of falling in love is plain but real.

It would be false not to be jealous, but at the same time I felt that I deserved it.You are married and have children, do you still hope that someone will wait for you alone?

"It's getting late, if nothing else..."

"Wait a minute." Han Yu finally couldn't bear it and issued the "Exit Order". If I don't speak again, I'm afraid I won't have a chance in my life. "I have something to tell you."

"...Speak, I'm listening."

I looked at Liu Jun, smiled and said to him, "Can we talk alone? A few minutes will be enough."

"Go pick up the car first, I'll be out in a while." Liu Jun didn't object, nodded and got up, "Then I'll wait for you outside."

It can be seen that Liu Jun is very personable and well-dressed. He should be a person with a successful career.Compared with him, temperament, demeanor, style of conversation... Forget it, there is no comparison at all, I am willing to bow down.

"Just say what you have to say. However, I hope this is the last time."

I nodded with a wry smile!

I originally wanted to tell him that I'm divorced, and I will wait for you wholeheartedly from now on, but I just swallowed the words back into my stomach and didn't plan to say any more.He already has his destination and I'm pestering him, isn't that intentional to cause trouble for him? "Is he nice to you?"

"Very good, give me what you want."

"In addition to material things, what about feelings?"

Han Yu glanced at me with the eyes of a villain, "Last month his family forced him to get married. He disagreed and fell out with the family. It hasn't stopped until now. I think he is sincere enough to me. !"

I couldn't utter a single word when he pushed me down, I hurriedly hid the embarrassment on my face with a wry smile, "As long as he treats you well, that's fine."

"Is that all you want to say?"

I shook my head, organized my words well, and said: "Actually, I have never forgotten you... Wait, listen to me first." Seeing that Han Yu was about to speak, I raised my hand to stop him , and continued: "In the past, I was the one who was sorry for you. I didn't believe in you. All my mistakes were my fault. It's a pity that I didn't realize it until ten years later. And the last time I was in a hotel, I treated you like that... ..Forget it, I won’t mention it. I think you can tell when I came to you this time. Apart from expressing my gratitude to you, I really want to rekindle my old relationship with you. I still thought so at least an hour ago. But I I didn't expect you already had a lover."

I took a deep breath on my cigarette and tried to keep myself calm, "You're right, you shouldn't be so selfish, you can leave as you want, come as you want, I should think for you from your standpoint, after all, after all You already have a lover, maybe my appearance will make you feel troubled, troublesome, and even cause some misunderstandings between you. I don’t want to hurt you anymore!” Saying these words in one breath, I thought I would be relieved , As a result, my heart became more and more panicked.

I was selfish again, because I couldn't help myself not to do that, I took a business card from my pocket and pushed it across the table, "I will leave tomorrow, and I promise I will never bother you again ...This is my phone, if you need you can call me at any time...It's okay, if you don't want to, you can just throw it away, but..." I calmed down, Otherwise, I'm afraid tears will fall, "But please wait until I'm gone before throwing it away, don't let me see it, at least I still have something to look forward to."

He didn't speak, and I finished what I wanted to say, I didn't want to leave, but I had to force myself to stand up, and the waiter hurriedly settled the bill, and finally said to him who was silent: "Be sure to take good care of me." Own!"

The moment I walked out of the gate, I finally couldn't help crying. Even though I used my hands to cover the tears, they kept flowing from the cracks in my fingers.I didn't want to be the focus of everyone's attention on the street, so I hurriedly stopped a taxi and threw myself into it, and hurried back to that cold home.

There is a kind of love called letting go, but it is very difficult to really let go!In those few days, I kept myself bored in that empty house, doing nothing but smoking and drinking.Han Yu didn't know that I lived here, I told him to let go, but in reality I couldn't do it, I couldn't just leave like this, and I didn't have the right to appear in front of him anymore.

Every day, I stand at the window on time and look at the path downstairs, take a look at his leaving or returning figure, sneak to the corner of the twelfth and thirteenth floors and listen to him open the door and enter the room, and then Back to my dark world in a daze.

One day it suddenly occurred to me that when Han Yu was chasing me, he stood by me every day on the way home from get off work just to catch a glimpse of me. Is that the same feeling?It's a pity that I didn't realize this feeling until today.The nose was sour, and the tears burst out again.

It's been like this for a month, lost and lonely, but in some respects I feel very relieved, he is doing well now, and that is enough.I am also very content to be able to secretly look at him like this every day. I have never thought about it in the future, but at least at this time I want to continue this kind of life.

It was the hottest day in August, and a salesman from a manufacturer suddenly called me. The cooperation between me and her has been going on since three years ago, so the relationship has been very good.Occasional phone calls, of course, are usually business matters.But this time is an exception, she called me to ask for help.

In fact, it was not a big deal. Her relative's mobile phone store took over a repair job, but he didn't have the matching parts for this mobile phone, so he needed to find another one.

She kind of found the right person, I happen to have this accessory in my warehouse, and I happen to be in the city at the time.It's just a little effort, of course I am obliged to help if I can, not to mention there is still money to take.As soon as I received the accessories from the store manager, I took a taxi and delivered them to the address she said.

The store was opened by her younger brother, a very cheerful big boy, he warmly served me tea and water as soon as he saw me, and handed me the mobile phone by the way, knowing that I am a professional, he also let me repair it .

It was a mobile phone that was too old to be worth repairing. It was at least ten years old just by the model number, and no one would use it anymore.However, the maintenance is very good, there is no trace of dust in the gaps between the keys, and the film on the screen is still new.It can be seen that the owner of the mobile phone has always cherished it and loved it very much.

"It's so old, it probably won't work after it's repaired."

I placed a death notice on that cell phone, and the boy hurriedly explained, "He mainly wants the recordings in it, not for making calls."

"What recording is so important."

"I don't know either, but he said that it's fine to bring that recording to him if it can't be repaired. Do you know how much he opened for me?" He gestured two fingers exaggeratedly, "2000 yuan, I guess he has searched all the mobile phone stores in the city, and no one can find this accessory. No wonder they can’t find it. This item has been discontinued. Where can I find it? Fortunately, my sister was there at the time, and she said your store It must have been open for a long time, so I took it."

"Two thousand is enough to buy a smart phone. There are everyone in this world." I really couldn't understand it, but I still took this job because of the [-] points.

It was very troublesome to repair the mobile phone, and it was getting dark and there was no effect. In order to go back and have a look at Han Yu, I borrowed his repair box and took that mobile phone home.

I was busy all night that day, and I didn't fix my phone until it was daylight.I became curious and eager to know what recording was worth the 2000 yuan repair fee.

Click on the recording player, there is only one recording, and there are some noisy sounds slowly coming out of it. It sounds like the reverberation that only occurs on certain occasions. It may be too old, and the sound quality of the opening part of the music is not very good. Well, even a little messy, I was feeling boring and wanted to turn it off, and the ensuing singing attracted me again.

The voice was a little hoarse, but it was still in my ears... Five seconds, ten seconds, until No.30 seconds, I suddenly trembled all over, and stuck the phone tightly to my ears in disbelief!

"On a cold night in early autumn, memories slowly come back, true love is like fallen leaves, why do they have to separate, the gray sky wanders alone, the old place in the city...... Miss you At night, I cried so weakly, let the autumn wind take away my thoughts and tears, and I have been quietly waiting at the meeting place..."

It was my favorite song ever, and it was a voice that belonged to Li Kate. After more than ten years, when I heard my voice when I was young again, I felt strange, but that voice did belong to me.

I found the recording time, June 2007, 6 at 17:[-] am!

I gritted my teeth and opened the SMS mailbox of the mobile phone in the blurred vision, and then opened the phone book with trembling fingers. When the facts proved all my guesses, tears fell instantly!

In the dark bedroom, there was only a faint blue light from the screen of the mobile phone. I sat on the edge of the bed and covered my face with my hands. I suppressed myself to the extreme but still couldn't stop my screams.

My heart hurts like being torn apart!

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