I'm a scumbag

There was no room for rent on the [-]th floor, so I had no choice but to choose a room on the [-]th floor, upstairs and downstairs with Han Yu, and I was ready for a long battle.

It was already the evening of the third day when all arrangements were made. I packed up everything and waited early at the stairs on the twelfth floor.

When Han Yu saw me, he was surprised for a moment, and then his face became expressionless.To my surprise, this time he didn't run away, but came over and took out two cigarettes from the cigarette case, one for him and one for the other.

At that moment, I was so happy that I wanted to open the window and jump out.

"I was really at a loss when you suddenly appeared that day, and I didn't calm down to talk to you. In fact, some things have to be settled sooner or later. Since you came today, let's talk thoroughly, save the trouble You don't give up."

"Okay, I'll listen to you." As long as he is still willing to talk to me, I have hope.That's what I thought, and I calmed down and listened carefully to every sentence he said next, without interjecting a word.

"To be honest, it was because of you that I saved Li Yan back then. Who made me like you back then. Oh, I'm a fool, I'm obsessed with feelings, I can't see the person I like suffer, so I just do it after thinking about it I made a decision like that, and I regretted it not long afterward."

He flicked the cigarette ash, sighed and continued, "Sometimes I ask myself, is it worth doing so much for you? After the money is spent and the body is sold, I only end up complaining all over, but sometimes I am very proud of my greatness! Young people, it is inevitable that they will have some unrealistic dreams, imagining that one day you will come to me like this after you know the truth, and you will even cry bitterly when you are moved, and then say to me , Han Yu, I will never let you down in this life!...Until I heard what you said to me that day, I will never talk to you! I am afraid that you will know the truth, but I really want you Knowing my painstaking efforts, I hope you can believe me, even if you tell me, I will wait for you, it will not make me feel so uncomfortable. Later, when I knew that you were married, in the third month after breaking up with me, At that moment, I completely regretted it, it turned out that all I did was to make wedding dresses for others!"

Han Yu didn't cry, and didn't even show the slightest bit of aggrieved expression, as if he was telling someone else's story, with a flat expression. "I've missed you for six years, and your child is five years old. I think I'm the most idiotic fool in the world. Then I forgot about you, completely. When I remember you, I can’t even call out your name. Feelings are a strange thing, and they disappear in no time!..."

"Did you really forget me? I don't believe it!"

"You hurt me so much, I still think about you every day? How many times have I been squeezed by the door? No matter who gives affection, they want to return it, because people are selfish, Me too. I gave so much and got nothing in the end, will I give again and again?... I used to be stupid and naive, and that was also the past. I was honed by the society in the past few years. I have seen through it all, people do not destroy themselves, you have forgotten me, how could I still hold on to that feeling so hard to make myself uncomfortable. "

"I haven't forgotten you. I haven't forgotten you for ten years!"

He smiled, and his eyes were a little more unflappable: "Li Kai, ask yourself, if Li Yan hadn't told you the truth, would you still come to me?"

This question made me unable to answer. I asked myself, will I come?The answer is no, if I really wanted to come, I would have come sooner, so why wait until the day when I know the truth.

Han Yu nodded, "It seems that you have understood. In fact, you, like me, have forgotten me after so long, and you come to me now because you feel ashamed."

I had no words to defend, and looked down at my feet in shame.

"Maybe you want to make up for me, maybe you want to rekindle your old relationship with me, no matter what, I hope you can give up these unrealistic plans. Because it is impossible between us!"

"I'm sorry~"

"Needless to say I'm sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for me. In the past few years you have been with others, I have not been idle, and I have also reaped a lot of benefits. Gu Feng treats me well, although he has Sometimes he was violent, but when something happened, he was the first thing he thought of me. Not only did he transfer a large amount of money into my account, but he also transferred the house to my name, so that I could live comfortably. For the rest of my life. Although I don't have any feelings for him, I can't watch him die because he still cares about me. Later... what happened later has nothing to do with you, don't worry about it." "Li Kai, you have already married and established a business. Don't be so selfish. Think about your wife and children. They still need your care. You should stay by their side now instead of coming to me."

"I just think......"

"Want to thank me? Well, I'll accept this thank you, and you can rest assured." He picked out his cigarette butt and looked up at me, "I've finished what I need to say, do you understand what I mean?"

I nodded, and he smiled gratifyingly, "Just understand, I hope you won't bother me again in the future, is that okay?"

I didn't answer, and he didn't wait for me to answer, "Take care!" After saying these two words, he turned and left.

I watched the door close in front of my eyes, and stood stupidly for a long time before walking up the stairs to my room.I didn't sleep that night. I thought a lot. I have never seen myself so thoroughly in my 30 years of life.I found that I was an extremely selfish person, like this to Han Yu, to Zhang Lin, to my parents, to Qin Xiaoyu, and even to my uncle.

Before that, I always felt good about myself, and I felt worthy of anyone, but they were all sorry for me. I always complained about the injustice of life and the cruelty of reality, but I never looked beyond the surface to explore the truth inside.I do everything according to my own wishes, never consider for others, and never consider from the standpoint of others.

The same is true including Li Yan. She lied to me for ten years and made me miss the fate with Han Yu. I hate her so much but never push things to the beginning to think about my own faults. How could the widowed Han Yu have the opportunity to know her? If I can sincerely apologize to Li Yan after knowing the truth, and dissolve the resentment in her heart a little bit, how can she finally lose her nature due to this resentment and hatred? To do such a thing against conscience.So much so that in the end they were regarded as my substitute, and I could never find true love in my life!

If I can care more about Zhang Lin, see his intentions clearly, and bring the relationship between me and him back on track in time, how can I let him pay the price of ten years of youth, or even a lifetime, in vain.Lost her nature in that unrequited secret love, and did all kinds of things that hurt others and hurt herself and are irreversible.

If I can calm down and have a good talk with my parents when I am forced to marry, and express my determination with my sincerity, after all, I am their own son, and a tiger does not eat its own child, how could they really take me? Forced to death.

If I hadn't been fascinated by money and wealth at that time, hadn't maintained that marriage in order to obtain the support of the Qin family, and ended the relationship between me and Qin Xiaoyu early, why would I have delayed her life for nothing? Born me, gave me affection, and I was destined not to love her, and probably to abandon her before long.Not only delayed her but also our next generation!

If instead of complaining and prejudice against my uncle, I had a grateful heart when he found me, I would think about why he, who has sons and daughters, wants to teach me maintenance techniques hand in hand.He is my relative, how could he use me and how could he harm me? What he did was to teach me a skill that I can use for the rest of my life. He was helping me.But I saw that Qian's eyes were wide open, and I fell into trouble.As a result, our two families broke up completely, and we have no contact with each other to this day!

If I have always believed in Han Yu's feelings for me, if I have always believed in Han Yu's feelings for me, and after those things happened, I also firmly believe in the old vows of eternal love instead of the farewell of old age and death, if I have been waiting for him instead of marrying other women, if I can meet him Perseveringly chasing after...

If, there is no if in life!I have committed too many mistakes, irreparable and unforgivable mistakes!

In the early morning of the next day, I slipped a note under the door of Han Yu’s house, and I told him, (I’m going to deal with some things, and I’ll be back in ten days, and then I have something I want to tell you personally, I hope you can wait for me !)

I bought a train ticket and took the train back to my hometown. I want to try my best to make up for the mistakes I made, and to break some things that I should have broken long ago.

I want to divorce Qin Xiaoyu, but it is obviously difficult to do this, because she has already given me affection.

Li Yan had expected my plan a long time ago, maybe in order to make up for the mistakes she made, she had already started negotiations with Qin Xiaoyu unilaterally before I did.And that's exactly what I saw when I opened the door of my own house.

"You know in your heart that my brother doesn't like you, and if you continue to entangle, it will only hurt both sides. I advise you to sign the contract as soon as possible. The Li family will not lose you a penny of the compensation."

"You don't need to worry about our affairs. If you really want to divorce, let Li Kai come and tell me in person."

"Sister-in-law, it's not good for everyone to tear your face apart. If you start a lawsuit, you will never win the case. Xiaolong is not my brother's child at all. Don't think I don't know. If I sue you for fraudulent marriage, you should know What are the consequences."

"I have an agreement with your brother on this matter, so don't try to threaten me."

"It's just a verbal agreement, right? Hmph, what the law pays attention to is evidence. It is said that my brother was a green hat voluntarily. Who would believe it! And..."

"Li Yan!" Judging from the current situation, it was obvious that Li Yan had been arguing with her for several days.I can only say that this girl is doing bad things with good intentions, even if it is a divorce, I don't want to hurt Qin Xiaoyu, if Li Yan is allowed to continue to make trouble like this, then things will be even more troublesome.

The two people in the room looked at me a little surprised. "Brother, why are you back? Have you seen Han Yu?"

Qin Xiaoyu didn't speak, and continued to fold the pile of clothes.

I sighed, I really couldn't get angry at Li Yan, "Apologize to your sister-in-law!"

"elder brother!"

"hurry up!"

Li Yan didn't apologize, she gave me a glare, turned around and left.

The room was quiet, I sat by the bed and folded clothes with her, neither of us spoke until the pile of clothes was folded and put away.Qin Xiaoyu sat on the other side with my back behind her back, and it took a long time before she opened her mouth, "If you have anything to say, just say it."

"I think Li Yan has already told you everything?"

She nodded, "Well, it's all said."

"I haven't forgotten him all these years, and I won't in the future. If I continue to deceive myself and be with you, not only will I hurt myself, but I will also hurt you. So, let's get a divorce."

"Will you two be able to stay together after a divorce?" Perhaps she was mentally prepared, her voice was very flat.

"Maybe not, but I still want to leave. If he refuses to forgive me, then I will keep him like this for the rest of my life. At least I won't feel guilty in my heart. "

"what about me?"

"I'm sorry, I will compensate you. After the divorce, I will give you all the house and car deposits, and I will leave the house. We have one child each, and I will treat Xiaolong as my own son, and send him monthly maintenance fees on time. If he likes being with Xiaoyu, he can live with me, and I can take care of both children.” My eldest son is named Li Long, and my second son is named Li Yu. , As for the name Li Yu, in fact, I was also very confused at the time.

"You're really thoughtful!" She smiled suddenly, and after laughing, she turned into crying, and couldn't stop no matter how hard she tried.

If I have to choose between her and Han Yu, sorry, I can only choose to be sorry to her!

I, Li Kai, are destined not to die well in this life, because I hurt one after another, and killed one after another!

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