I'm a scumbag

I compromised and resigned myself to lying on the bed staring at the ceiling blankly.

Although he tried his best to tease me, I still couldn't give the slightest reaction. He opened his mouth a little dissatisfied but didn't say anything.Turned over my body and pinned my arms behind my back. This posture seemed to be rape-rape. Maybe he was afraid that I would resist halfway, "I'm going in!"

I sighed, and finally persuaded him: "Have you thought about it? After tonight, we don't even have to be friends."

"I never wanted to be your friend!"

As soon as he finished speaking, he stabbed fiercely into my body, and the unspeakable pain instantly eroded my reason.I don't want to resist, but my hands are restrained even more immobile.

Panting heavily, he moved violently a few times before he stopped, pressed my head rudely, and asked me in that gnashing voice, "Why can't I? Why?"

My head was pressed into the pillow, not to mention talking, even breathing was very difficult, and that part hurt like a fire. It turned out that this feeling was so uncomfortable. I remembered when Han Yu was under me, he Endured this pain and said to me over and over again, "I love you!".My heart suddenly felt so painful, it was more unbearable than the pain on my body.

"Do you know how much I like you?" Zhang Lin lifted my hair and forced me to look at him, and I found his eyes were red, "You were beaten unconscious, Han Yu patted his butt and left, I carried you up twelve floors and walked more than ten miles to take you to the hospital, but when you opened your eyes, the first thing you said was where is Han Yu!...You are going to die every day I didn’t even eat food, I felt uncomfortable seeing it, I knelt in front of my fourth brother and begged him for an hour to see Han Yu, but when Han Yu came back, you didn’t even leave me a word, leaving me alone on the road sat up all night!"

I was shocked to hear these words, my nose was sour, and tears rushed out of my eyes in an instant.

"Even if you don't care about me so much, I still like you. I regard all those who hurt you as my own enemies. I do so many outrageous things just to express my anger for you, but how much do you know about what I have done? Do you have any?" Have you really cared about me? Have you ever thought about the reason why I, Zhang Lin, have been single for so many years?" "I have worked so hard to buy a house and a car all these years for you. I want to wait until I have the ability. Just confessed to you, but you didn't give me any chance at all, you would rather be with that woman you don't love at all... For ten years you only had Han Yu in your eyes, even if he was thousands of You are still willing to sleep with him when there are thousands of people riding, but you don't even look at me at all!"

I was crying, swallowing hard and unable to say a word.

"Ten years, ten years, can't you see the slightest bit of my thoughts for you? Every time I call you, I will say that I miss you. Don't you really understand what this means? No !" He smiled wryly and shook his head, "When you're doing business, you're thinking so fast, how could you not see that I like you? You know it but you never want to admit it, right?"

Maybe what he said is right, how could I still be as slow to emotional matters as the idiot I was back then after what happened to Han Yu? We have a great relationship.

I didn't speak, and I stopped resisting. I let go of all the strength in my body and let him do whatever he wanted to me.

Lin Zi's mood is very unstable, he sometimes sheds tears and sometimes smiles wryly, sometimes vents to me crazily and sometimes gently caresses my body, as if his soul is hovering between love and hate at this moment!

I don't know when I fell asleep, and when I opened my eyes, it was already daylight. He was sitting alone on the opposite sofa, smoking a cigarette, as if he hadn't slept all night.

"He has been living in that apartment and never left, you can go to him now!"

It turns out that the answer is as simple as that, the desire to see him has never changed, but at this moment I didn't get up immediately, I don't want to leave Lin Zi here alone, even though he tortured me severely last night. "Not urgent."

Lin Zi was a little surprised, looked up at me, and looked away again, "What else do you want to know?"

Actually, that's not what I meant, forget it, I don't know what to talk to him at this moment, "Is there anything else you want to say to me?"

"The person who sent Gu Feng to prison was Xu Shengli, Xu Ming's father. He is also my boss now. Maybe you can guess the rest without telling me. It was me who told Xu Shengli the real cause of Xu Ming's death. I was the one who told Xu Shengli about Gu Feng's shady things, and I was the one who worked with Xu Shengli to bring down Gu Feng! As for why Han Yu went to drink with him..."

Lin Zi paused for a moment, and took a puff of cigarette before he stabilized his trembling hands, "He did it to save Gu Feng's life, to change Gu Feng's death sentence to death sentence with reprieve...Xu Shengli proposed to him An insulting request, to be a male prostitute for three years, and to sleep with different men every day, Han Yu, he agreed." After he finished speaking, he sighed, thought for a while and said: "Although this is not my idea, But I can't get away with it. I'm sorry, I didn't know at the time that Han Yu left you to raise money for Li Yan's operation, I just wanted to get revenge on him, because I thought he was sorry for you..."

"Stop it!" I couldn't listen anymore, I had a feeling that I was about to collapse, what has Han Yu been through these years?But I just ignored him and let him be persecuted, threatened, insulted and tortured by those people!My whole body is in pain, I'd rather die than live!

"No, I want to say, if I don't say these words, I may not even be able to close my eyes! You must not have imagined that I bought his first night in order to get revenge on him. I told him that you are married and have your own. My child, his eyes were swollen from crying, but I felt extremely happy. I tortured him severely for one night, and he was admitted to the hospital the next day..."

"Zhang Lin!" I still felt guilty towards him last night, but now I am full of hatred for him!I staggered up to him, wanting to punch him hard, but facing those two lines of tears, I couldn't do it at all.

He was crying, but there was a bitter smile on the corner of his mouth, "I know you hate me, heh, even I hate myself! If you want to hit, hit me, I will never fight back!"

"How could you do that to him?"

"sorry!"

I shook my head wearily, sorry?Heh, what is the use of these three words now?

I left, no more nostalgia!I'm going to find Han Yu, I'm going to say sorry to him personally, and I'm going to use the rest of my life to make up for all the mistakes I made.

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The high-end residence ten years ago looks a little old now. I stood downstairs and looked up at the window, but I never had the courage to go up and knock on the door. I stood like this until dark.

How can I have the face to see him today, the words of "I don't know each other until death", "I'm willing to be degraded" and "Male prostitutes" are splashing water, those hurtful words are engraved on my heart like a knife, what should I do now To mend those wounds?

"Han Yu, why don't you leave?"

I froze and raised my head in a hurry to find the source of the sound.Under the dim street lights, Han Yu stood there quietly looking at me sitting on the steps.It's been another three years, adding up to a full ten years. The scene at this time is surprisingly similar to that at that time, the only difference is that he has matured, and I have also grown old.

A well-fitting suit made his figure even more uneven, and with a neat hairstyle, he looked much better in this way than in the translucent clothes of the young master of the nightclub.I couldn't help but look straight, and even forgot to speak.

There was a man standing behind him, looking at me and then at him, "You know him?"

"No, I don't know him!" Han Yu immediately denied and turned around to leave.

"Han Yu!" I couldn't care about anything else, I got up and chased after him.I stumbled on the steps in my panic and he was already in the elevator. "Xiaoyu, wait a minute!"

The elevator door pinched my hand and bounced open again, Han Yu took a step back and looked at me warily, "What are you doing here?"

I don't want to talk in this atmosphere, let alone there is an outsider present, no matter who he is, I don't have time to care about it at the moment, I smiled at that person, "Excuse me, can we talk alone?"

The man looked at Han Yu and saw that he had no objection, so he nodded and got off the elevator.

I immediately went in and closed the elevator door and pressed the number twelve. I finally breathed a sigh of relief watching the elevator slowly ascend.When I arrived at the gate of 1203, Han Yu didn't intend to open the door to let me in. He stood against the wall with his head bowed and said nothing.

"I haven't seen you for a few years, how are you?"

"Didn't you see everything, I'm doing fine."

"Aren't you asking me to come in and sit down?"

"It's not necessary. My friend is still waiting downstairs. If you have anything to say, just say it."

I sighed, seeing that face suddenly felt hot again, the years have left ruthless marks on his face, he is much more mature than three years ago, his eyes are no longer as clear and flawless as they were back then, instead What is deep and melancholy. "You're still so skinny."

"If you're talking nonsense, then I don't need to listen." He turned to open the door, and I quickly took his hand, "I'm sorry for making you suffer so much."

"What do you mean?"

"Li Yan told me about that incident a few days ago, and I realized that those surgery fees belonged to you...Thank you for doing this for me."

He smiled and took my words away, "Oh, you said that, you think too much, I owe her already, and doing that is just to repay her debt of favor, it has nothing to do with you relation."

"Don't lie to me, okay?"

"Why did I lie to you? That's the truth. If you feel guilty because of this incident, then you don't have to. If you are here to pay back the money, then there is no need. Li Yan already gave me all the money back last year." .”

"Xiaoyu~"

He waved my hand away impatiently, "It's late, I'm going to rest, can you please let my friend come up when you go downstairs? No more."

With a bang, the door closed in front of my eyes. I was a little lost, but I was relieved after thinking about it.Everything can't be rushed, it doesn't matter, take your time.

When I went downstairs, I took a closer look at the man. His expression was not defensive, and he greeted me warmly. I think he is just Han Yu's friend.So I let him go with confidence.Looking up at that window, I think I know what to do.

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