I'm a scumbag

Last night I slapped Li Yan severely, and tonight I was already standing in front of this city, but the moment I got out of the station, I just stood there stupidly.I don't know where to find him, and I don't know what to say to him after I find him, and how to make up for my ten-year mistake.

The wine has completely sobered up, and I questioned myself, if I were myself, would I forgive this heartless person.The answer is no!

I've been to the Emperor's side, and I definitely can't find it. I knew the result before I went in.The Gu family is long gone, and the apartment has been sold long ago. His mobile phone number is ridiculous to say the least, but I deleted it the day I went back. Oh, I'm so heartless, I didn't leave a way out.

I walked blankly on the strange streets of this city under the dim moonlight, but I didn't even know where I was going.

This is the result after getting drunk, everything is like a dream, so unreal when recalled!I even wondered if the words I heard last night were true?

So I went to two people, one was the fourth brother who was serving his sentence in prison at this time, and I brought him a pack of cigarettes and some things allowed within the scope of regulations in exchange for the answer I wanted.The other was the president of that university, who had exchanged a generous gift for his candor.

That day, from noon to night, I sat alone on the curb and smoked a pack of cigarettes.

I wandered in that city for three days and two nights, and finally straightened out my thoughts and calmed down my emotions.I know where I should go to find news of him, that person must know, just like three years ago.

It was already the fourth night when I knocked on the new house that Lin Zi prepared for the wedding, Lin Zi seemed to have expected it a long time ago, looking at me with a faint smile, "Two days later than I expected! "

"You know I'm coming for you?"

Lin Zi nodded confidently, with an expression as if he saw a fish being hooked, "Come in."

"No, tell me where is he?"

Lin Zi shook his head helplessly, walked to the sofa in the living room and sat down. In order to get an answer, I had no choice but to follow in.

This is one of Zhang Lin's two properties, not far from our hometown, only three hours away.I have seen another property, which was just renovated at that time, but it looks much more spacious and luxurious than this one.

"Xiaoyan, go get your brother a cup of tea. Do you want black tea or green tea? Your brother has a bad stomach."

Li Yan felt ashamed in her heart. From the moment she saw me, she didn't dare to talk to me, she just stood silently with her head down.Hearing what Lin Zi said, he realized that I was a guest, so he hurriedly turned around and poured tea.

"No, I'll be leaving in a while."

Lin Zi ignored my decision at all, and nodded at Li Yan, signaling her to continue pouring tea.

"Can you tell me now?"

"cannot!"

His answer was only two words, crisp and clear, I thought I heard it wrong, "Why not?"

Lin Zi looked at Li Yan in the distance and smiled inexplicably, "It may not be good to say some things in front of Xiao Yan, so why not make an appointment tomorrow to talk about it."

His expression gave me an inexplicable bad feeling, and my intuition told me that it might not be that simple for Zhang Lin to tell the truth. "Just tell me, how can you tell me?"

"What do you say?"

I was suddenly confused, but vaguely seemed to know his purpose. It was a very strange feeling. I knew it in my heart, but I was unwilling to admit it. I asked the question knowingly, hoping it was my illusion. "Don't play around with me, okay?" I really don't want to play this kind of word games with him now, I just want to find Han Yu, and I don't want to waste a minute or a second.

Lin Zi leaned close to my ear and whispered something: "Believe me, this is for your own good, and it is also for Li Yan's good! You don't want me to divorce her tomorrow, do you?"

My hands were covered with sweat, Lin Zi didn't allow me to speak, he smiled and took out a room card and stuffed it into my pocket, "I've already booked the room, you can go live there tonight , I will find you tomorrow."

My head hurts a little, and it's getting worse. I stood up and walked towards the door without saying a word.

"Brother, where are you going so late?"

I ignored Li Yan, opened the door and left this new house that made me feel uncomfortable.

I knew that Zhang Lin had plans, but I still did as he said. I wanted news about Han Yu, but Zhang Lin was the only one who knew about him, so I had to do as he said.

The next evening Zhang Lin arrived on time, walked into the hotel room and sat on the bed as if returning to his own home, "Did you sleep well last night?"

"If you have anything to say, just say it."

"You say that as if I'm threatening you. It's uncomfortable to hear."

"Isn't it?" I thought a lot that day, and some things seem to have gradually come to my mind, such as why Zhang Lin suddenly got together with my sister, and why it was so accurate that I would definitely come to him.A chill came from my heart, I don't want to admit my intuition, but this explanation seems very reasonable.

Lin Zi sighed, "How long have we known each other?"

"More than 20 years!"

"Yeah, it's been more than 20 years. If I can, I really want to be friends with you forever."

"Now we are not only friends, but also relatives." I am warning him, hoping that he can recognize his identity!

Lin Zi shook his head, "Actually, you should already know very well that I don't like your sister."

"Then why do you...?"

Lin Zi sighed again, "Maybe if I don't take the initiative to say something, you will never understand it in your life."

I thought, I probably knew what he was going to say, but I didn't want him to say it, but I had no choice but to listen.

Lin Zi leaned on the bed with both hands, looking at the ceiling, as if recalling something far away, "I used to really only regard you as a good friend, the best and the best kind, until I found out that you were with Han Yu, I suddenly found out I'm so angry about this, and I'm so angry. I was so distressed during that time, I didn't know why I was like this, and I even wondered if I had some disease. I just don't like you guys together , I just want you to separate, I... can you feel that feeling? I'm going crazy!"

"Linzi, don't talk about it, it's better to keep some things in your heart." If you were suspicious just now, you can be sure now.Don't say it, say it, our friendship can only end today.

"No, I have to say it today!" Lin Zi looked at me, his eyes became very strange, he was looking at me from top to bottom, "Do you know? There is something about you that attracts men in particular."

"Big breasts?"

Lin Zi rolled his eyes, "I'm not joking with you." I really wanted to make a joke to break this weird atmosphere, it would be best if I could divert this topic, but it is clear that Lin Zi is determined today To tell the whole story. "That feeling can't be put into words, but it can make people unable to pull out once they get stuck in it." He smiled wryly, and said again: "You know? It's been ten years, and this feeling hasn't diminished at all, on the contrary, it's getting more and more."

He got up and walked to me, gently stroked my hair, "I like you, no, it's love."

Even though I had been mentally prepared, I was still shocked when I heard this sentence from his mouth. "Yes, I'm sorry!" These three words are not because I haven't noticed his feelings for ten years, but because I can't accept his feelings.

Lin Zi shook his head, "At first I thought that as long as you separated from Han Yu, you would definitely be with me, but I didn't expect you to get married. Later, I thought that as long as you completely forgot about Han Yu, I would have a chance. I didn't expect you to have sex with that woman and have a son. At that time, I knew that it was impossible for us both in this life. "

"I'm sorry!" Apart from these three words, I really have nothing to say.

"Don't say I'm sorry, I don't need those three words, and I don't blame you, because it's normal, this is the path every man should take, I have no right to make you gay again except to bless you. .....I originally wanted to be like this for the rest of my life, change my identity to stay by your side, as long as I can look at you every day, I will be content..."

"That's why you married my sister?"

Lin Zi's complexion suddenly changed, becoming very gloomy, "Yes, but Li Yan told the story, I know you will definitely go to him, divorce and be with him again... I I can bear you being with women, but I can't bear you being with other men. Maybe it will be difficult for me to see you in the next few decades!"

"I don't intend to leave here, I just want to see him, thank him for saving my sister..."

"Li Kai, I know you too well! If you just want to thank you, you don't need to go through so much trouble!" I don't think any amount of excuses I have can change his determination at this time! "Don't you want to know about Han Yu? I can tell you, but there is a condition."

I asked him stiffly, "...what condition?"

"Let me hug you once, just once, and I'll tell you everything after that!"

"Zhang Lin!..."

My face was livid, and I called his name in a very heavy voice, I hope he can understand what he is talking about at this moment.Lin Zi smiled indifferently, "According to what I know, Han Yu may be going abroad in a few days, time is limited, you'd better think about it, and what will be her reaction if Li Yan finds out the truth ? She has only been in love twice in her life, but she was treated as someone else's substitute. She has always been proud and arrogant. I don't know if she can bear this blow?"

"Do you know what you're talking about?"

If he was confessing his love implicitly just now, he is now threatening, "Of course I know, I have been thinking about it for several days, no matter what price I pay, I will get you, even if it is only once in this life! "

"Zhang Lin! You are forcing me!"

"Whatever you think, I'll give you a few minutes to think about it, and then I'll reply!" Lin Zi bent down and patted me on the shoulder, "Think about Han Yu, then think about Li Yan, as long as you promise, tomorrow morning I will tell you everything. Besides, I promise that from now on, I will treat Li Yan well and not let her suffer any grievances." He straightened up and went straight to the bathroom, then suddenly turned around and said, "Oh, yes, About why the Gu family collapsed, and why Han Yu went to drink with you, I think you must be very interested in these things, right?"

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