I'm a scumbag

No one thought that at this moment, a family from a neighboring village came to ask for marriage.

What surprised me even more was that his daughter was a college student who had just graduated, with impeccable body and appearance, and his family's financial conditions were not bad.Would such a person be willing to marry me?Not to mention that my family is dying of poverty, I have a lot of foreign debts, and I am worthless and can't even find a job. My reputation alone is enough to make people shy away. Even a fool can see that there must be something wrong.

And my confused parents agreed after only looking at the photo, without asking me for any opinions at all.

In those few days I was locked in a small room, the door was locked tightly, I didn’t even know what they talked about next door, I only saw them very happy when they left, and I probably guessed the two families We talked very well.According to the situation, if things continue to develop, I will definitely not be able to escape.

So one night, I ran away.I knew in my heart that what my father said was just a moment of anger, and my parents would forgive me when I came back in a few years, after all, I was their own flesh and blood.

I bought a ticket for the first bus and planned to go far away so that no one could find me. After I settled down, I would call my parents to report that I was safe.

But at this time I received a call from my mother, and my father was in a hurry and fell ill.

The doctors in the village and relatives at home all gathered in the house, making a mess, and my mother stood aside and kept touching her tears. At this moment, I realized how stupid and selfish my decision was.

"Dad! Don't be angry, I will never leave again." I knelt on the ground and told him the promise he wanted.

This time my father didn't scold me again, nor did he complain about me, he just said: "I know you don't want to, but it's for your own good."

"I know, I know everything. Stop talking, Dad... I will listen to you." I gave up the last struggle and gave up the right to control my own life.

A woman named Qin Xiaoyu walked into my life, and she came to me on her own initiative that evening.She is also called Xiao Yu, probably because of this coincidence, I followed her to the entrance of the village by a strange coincidence, standing by the dry well against the dim setting sun.

She was wearing a snow-white skirt, with long hair in a shawl, and she was slim and graceful. To be honest, she looked very good-looking.But the expression on her face was very cold, and her words were also very cold, "I know you don't want to, and neither do I."

"Then why are you still marrying me?"

"Because I'm pregnant."

It's so direct, it catches people off guard. "Do you have someone you like?"

"Yes, but he can't marry me."

This time I reacted very quickly, and immediately understood the cause and effect, "I understand, you don't want to kill the child, and you don't want to ruin your reputation, so..."

"you can say it this way."

"Heh, buy one get one free, do you think I'll be that fool?"

She sneered, "I heard that your family is very poor, I can give you a sum of money."

"Let me eat soft food, then I will not agree. Although I am poor, at least I still have some backbone."

"Just two years is enough. We will divorce when the time comes. You can treat this as a formal marriage."

I also sneered, laughing that she was the same as me, she was obviously abandoned by someone but she still held on to her illusory feelings and refused to let go, "You should have heard the rumors about me, aren't you afraid?"

"I've inquired about it a long time ago. You're just a homosexual. It's not as scary as they say."

"What about your parents? Do they know about you?"

"You know, they, like your parents, think that face is more important than anything else."

It turns out that we still have a lot in common, which is also a kind of fate. I changed my attitude at the beginning, lit a cigarette and persuaded her kindly, "Actually, you don't have to do this. If you beat the child, you will still be the same in the future." If you can find someone who likes you and live a good life, why bother to..."

"Emotions are not something that can be let go. You don't have to persuade me... think about it carefully. It's just a certificate. It's helping me and helping yourself. You don't want to be hurt by those people. People's spitting stars will drown, right?"

After saying this, she left without any hesitation or hesitation from the beginning to the end. She fell in love with someone who couldn't marry her, kept that promise, kept that longing, and raised the crystallization of their love alone. , should I say she is great or should I say she is poor?No, it's not called love. If that man really loved her, he wouldn't let her marry someone else.

It turns out that there are fickle lovers everywhere in this world!

Withered vines, old trees, dark crows, small bridges and flowing water, people on the ancient road, westerly wind and thin horses, the sun is setting, and heartbroken people are at the end of the world!Han Yu once read a poem to me, and this scene is very similar to the artistic conception of that poem.Before, I never understood why Xiaoyu was always so sad. The lyrics he liked, the poems he read, and the tunes he played all had a touch of sadness.

He said he had no sense of security, he said he always dreamed that we were separated from each other, looking at each other, and forgetting each other.I laughed him silly, because I have always believed that as long as we truly love each other, we will stay together forever and never be separated.It turned out that the stupid person was me, how can we grow old together without love.

He said that he once liked me, although he only emphasized a little bit, but he did not deny its existence. At least we had a certain period of time when we were sincerely relative to each other. I should feel relieved.

Thinking about it made my eyes wet. Han Yu, who used to laugh at him as a man, cried like a woman, but now he does the same.I finally understood that the tears were born for love. He cried so many times for me, and now I seem to pay him back a little bit, with interest added.

I didn't want to think about him anymore, and I didn't want to inquire about his news, but I pressed the call button on the phone anyway, and Lin Zi answered it by the time I regretted it.

I haven't called him for so long after returning home, but now I call him for someone else. As a friend, I am really "ungrateful".

"You still know to call me? I thought you were dead!" Lin Zi cursed me to death as soon as he opened his mouth. It seemed that he was really dissatisfied with me.

"Hehe, don't worry, even if I really die, I will leave you a suicide note first."

"You really have a heart!...Tell me, what's the point of calling me so late?"

I hesitated for a few seconds, unable to open my mouth, "I can't call you if I have nothing to do?"

"Pull it down, you can think of me when you beg me, so hurry up and don't beat around the bush."

"Oh, I'm really fine, it's just... I just miss you a little bit."

"...Really?" His tone suddenly softened a lot, and I thought I had heard it wrong.

"of course it's true."

"Wow, that's gonna give me sleepless nights."

"It's less nasty, how are you doing recently? Are you busy with work?"

"It's nothing to be busy all the time. You also know that what I do is idle work. It's okay to play cards every day. In addition, the boss is not here during this time, and no one cares about me."

"Is your boss not here? Did you go out?"

"Yeah, I've been away for half a month and I just came back."

I blurted out, "Did you go to Canada?"

Suddenly there was no movement on the phone, I checked the phone screen to make sure I didn't hang up, "Why don't you talk?"

"...Do you want to know if he went to Canada to see Han Yu? You want to ask how Han Yu is doing now? Is that why you called?"

I was speechless, I didn't know how to conceal my purpose, "You think too much."

"Forget it, I don't know you yet! If you want to ask, just tell me why you go around so much with me?" He sighed, very helplessly, "How many times have I persuaded you, forget him as soon as possible." Don't worry about it, why don't you listen?...We broke up and asked him why, aren't you looking for abuse for yourself?...You just want to know What about him? Okay, let me tell you, Gu Feng just came back from Canada the day before yesterday, and he looked very proud, so you don’t need to ask, the two of them must be doing well now. I also heard that Gu Feng ordered the fourth brother to buy special products For snacks, ask him to post them to Han Yu, saying that he is not used to the food there, and also ask him to send money to Han Yu on a monthly basis, saying that he is spending a lot of money now, and he goes out to scan the goods every day, afraid that he will not spend enough... "

"Stop it, I didn't call you to ask about him, I wanted to tell you... I'm getting married!" At that moment I made the most fatal wrong decision in my life , I want to get married, with that woman whom I neither love nor love me!

"......What did you say?"

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