I'm a scumbag

The bus leaves at 10 o'clock in the evening, and the arrival at the station happens to be early in the morning. I should be able to get things done in one day and come back the day after tomorrow. That's my plan.Even if you can't find a buyer for the time being, you can mortgage the house to my richer uncle first.

He is the only capable person in our Li family.It's a pity that he is a businessman, he only talks about business and not about feelings, a person with no human touch.I know in my heart that if there is no collateral, even if it is a real brother, he will not pay a penny. I have personally experienced this point more than ten years ago.When my father was seriously ill, he refused to borrow any money until my mother gave him the family land, but it was too late by then.

This world is so realistic, the world is so cold, it is better to ask for others than to ask for yourself. If it is not urgent, I really don't want to deal with him.

When the appointed time came, Han Yu didn't come back. Seeing that the time was running out, I had no choice but to send a text message to Han Yu to change the meeting place to the station, and hurried out the door.

There were a lot of people in the station square, and I was afraid that Han Yu would not be able to find me when he arrived, so I stood at the entrance and waited anxiously for him.I don't know why he didn't answer my call that day, and there is always a vague feeling of uneasiness around my heart.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the anxiety and fear gradually surrounded me.The noisy sounds around him became more and more indistinct, and finally turned into silence.I feel as if it's getting colder and colder. I can't explain the feeling. It's cold for no reason, and I'm restless.

No, I should trust him. We agreed that he will definitely come.

When Han Yu finally arrived 10 minutes before the departure, my heart seemed to fall into my stomach, and all the anxiety and fear disappeared in an instant.I laughed at my wild thoughts, and went to hold his hand with a smile on my face, "Hurry up and get in, it's almost time."

"Li Kai!"

I turned my head and looked at him inexplicably, but he stopped talking and lowered his head as if hesitating.

"What's the matter? Let's talk about it after we get in the car."

"I, I'm not going."

"why?"

"I mean...we..."

"What's the matter with you?" His expression was so strange, cold, yes, cold, a kind of alienation and coldness that I had never seen before, he even waved my hand away.

"...Let's wait for you to come back to say some things. The car is about to leave, so go in quickly."

"Is there still class tomorrow?" It's not right, they are already on vacation.

"Don't ask, just go."

How can I leave in this situation, I took his hand and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I didn't think about it that much, if you have other things, I won't make it difficult for you." I took out 100 yuan from my pocket. The yuan money was stuffed into his hand, "I'll be back in two days at most, you take good care of yourself."

"Li Kai! Let's break up!"

The whole world suddenly became quiet, as if there were only the two of us left in the whole space, everything around me was blurred in my vision, and I couldn't even speak at that moment.The coldness that had just disappeared hit me doubled, taking away all the warmth in my body in an instant!

He put the money back into my hand, and said with a wry smile, "Actually, I've had enough."

"What did you just say?" I just digested the first sentence, but I haven't had time to sort out the second sentence.

"You should get in the car first." Han Yu didn't explain too much, leaving only one sentence at the end, "I'm sorry!" He turned and left.This time he left without hesitation, and didn't look back at me until he got into the taxi.

At that moment, my whole world seemed to collapse!I feel cold, helpless and dazed, and have some unreal illusions, the world in front of me is blurred, and I can't breathe because of the suffocating air.I didn't know when the luggage fell on the ground. I bent down to pick it up and walked into the station in a daze.

I don't know how I got on the train, but at least I still know that life-saving is the most important thing. At this time, you shouldn't be in love with your children.When everything was arranged properly and the train started, I endured the extreme emotions before breaking out completely.

I will never be separated for the rest of my life, and this promise has only been a little over a month so far.I don't understand, I really don't understand why people's hearts change so quickly, why promises are so vulnerable!Why is he leaving me?Why did you give me a fatal blow when I was the most difficult and helpless!

I couldn't figure it out, I couldn't help it, I called Han Yu, and this time he answered after ringing for a long time.

"Give me a reason." In fact, there is no need to do so much, if I can be more careful, I can discover his changes earlier.He was not quite right these few days, he left early and returned late, and some days he didn't even come back at all.Now that I think about it carefully, I can probably guess where he is going. "Is it because of Gu Feng?"

"......right."

"He threatened you again?" Like last time, otherwise Han Yu would not have left me, yes, it was him, it must be him.

"You misunderstood, he did look for me, but he didn't threaten me." He sighed a long time, and said softly, "He just wanted to send me to study abroad."

"You, you agreed?" I tried my best not to let my voice go out of tune, but I had already guessed the result.

"I'm not young anymore, it's time for me to think about my future..."

"I'm sorry, I know I'm not capable, but..."

"Li Kai, I'm really afraid of that kind of poor life."

My chest seemed to be hit hard by something inexplicable, and the pain pierced my heart and went deep into the bone marrow.But I still suppressed my low self-esteem and sought even the last sliver of hope, "He must have no good intentions in doing this. You have to know that he has always harbored ill intentions towards you, Han Yu, have you thought about the consequences?"

"If you want to get something, you must pay a corresponding price. It depends on whether it is worth it. Li Kai, I am responsible for my future, and I don't want to drag you down. You and I know very well in our hearts. You can't afford my tuition and living expenses at all in this situation."

I have nothing to say, a poor word has killed all my dignity.

"I'm sorry to leave you at this time. I wanted to tell you a few days ago, but I couldn't open my mouth all the time. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"You clearly said that we will never be separated for the rest of our lives!" I questioned him, knowing that this was just a dying struggle.

"Oh, don't be stupid, that kind of thing can't be eaten!"

He annihilated my last glimmer of hope with a sneer. I held the phone in my hand tightly, and my tears couldn't stop falling on the ground. "I understand!"

"That's good, I hope you don't blame me!" He hung up the phone without even saying goodbye.

For the first time in my life, I, a big man, hid in the toilet and ruthlessly suppressed my almost collapsed voice, crying heartbreakingly. 20.00% is because of my self-esteem that I can no longer pick up, and the other 80.00% is all because of my love that passed away in a hurry.

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