I'm a scumbag

Maybe I should say something to make myself look less shocked and embarrassed, but I can't do anything but be in a daze.

"I just, just came to see you... It's okay, I'm going first." He said so.

The moment I turned around, I grabbed his wrist, almost using all my strength, afraid that he would disappear from my eyes in the next second.

"Xiaoyu!...Since you're here, let's go in and sit down." Maybe it's really just a look as he said, I dare not expect too much.

The house was clean with only two beds and a table, and the living room didn't even have a sofa, so I had to ask him to sit in the bedroom, and he was relatively speechless after pouring a glass of water.

It's just over a month, why do we feel so much strangers between us.Has he changed or have I changed?If it were before, he would definitely throw himself into my arms, even if there were outsiders around, he would at least secretly hold my finger, but at this time he is so distant from me.

I have lost a lot of weight, and my whole cheeks are sunken, which makes me feel so distressed.Doesn't that man like him?Why do you still take care of him like this?

"You...how are you doing?"

Han Yu nodded, staring at the water glass in his hand without speaking.

"Have you eaten yet?" There was nothing to say.

He nodded again without making a sound.

This one-on-one conversation lasted only 10 minutes, and I had exhausted all the language. In fact, I still had a lot of things I wanted to say to him and ask him, but I don’t think I have this identity anymore. That qualifies.

"Don't disturb your rest, I'll go first."

When his figure was about to disappear at the door of the bedroom, I rushed up and hugged him, "Don't go~" I thought I must be crazy, but I couldn't control it, I really couldn't control it.At this moment, I was shaking with excitement, and he in my arms seemed to be shaking more than me.

"...Would you still want me?"

He actually asked me such a question, I nodded foolishly, and was pressed on the bed by him in the next second.

The feeling for him is still so strong, coupled with the excitement of cheating, I have completely lost my self-control.At the same time, my weak self-esteem was also shamelessly violated by the inexplicable despicableness and shame.

When I started to tear his clothes, he regained his composure, grabbed my hands tightly, and reluctantly left my lips.It was very similar to the first time, looking at each other without saying a word, as if to imprint each other deeply in my mind.

"I'm sorry, I just, just miss you so much." As God testifies, it's not just his body that I miss.

"I'm a little tired, how about a few days?"

Of course there is no problem, as long as he is still willing to stay by my side, even if I am a monk, he is willing. "I'll get you something to eat."

We spent most of the afternoon in the kitchen, perhaps because we were afraid that we would lose control of each other when we returned to the bedroom.

We had such a tacit understanding that neither of us mentioned that man, and I didn't even ask him if he needed to go back tonight.Then it is logical to let him stay here, as if we have been together all the time, and the separation of these dozens of days is just to move to another house.

Lin Zi came back in the evening, holding a delicious gluttonous duck in his hand, and shouted happily as soon as he entered the door, "After waiting in line for half an hour, I finally bought it."

But when his eyes touched Han Yu's face, his smile disappeared instantly.

We ate dinner together, Han Yu sat next to me, and Lin Zi sat opposite me.After the meal, no one spoke, the instant noodles were half eaten, and the poor duck didn't even move a bite.

"I have to work overtime tonight, so I'll leave first." His work never required overtime, and I knew he didn't want to be a light bulb here.I am grateful in my heart, and I thank him for giving him a look.Lin Zi's expression was inexplicably disappointed.

"Han Yu, come out with me, I have something to tell you."

It's a pity that he forgot that the sound insulation of this building is not good at all, even if he didn't want to, he could vaguely hear the conversation between them.

"At the beginning, I begged you to come and see him, but you refused to come. Now that he has just recovered, why do you still come? Do you want him to die?"

"I didn't come because I couldn't come..." The voice behind became indistinct.

I hesitated for a while and couldn't help but walked out the door.

"If you dare to let him down, I can't spare you!"

"Lin Zi!" I understand what he did out of brotherhood, but I don't allow him to grab Han Yu's collar and threaten him with a fierce look like now.

Before I got angry, Lin Zi let go of his hand, put on an unfriendly smile and straightened Han Yu's collar, "Remember what I just said, I'm not joking with you! Don't blame me for not reminding you......"

"Enough!" I pulled Han Yu behind and stood between them, "Besides, I'm angry!"

Lin Zi rubbed his forehead, smiled helplessly and desolately, "You are really crazy!" Finally, he took out the keys in his pocket, untied one and handed it to me, "Let's use it for him first, there are a lot of things at work recently. , may not have time to come back."

"I'll match one, and I'll send it to you tomorrow." Lin Zi quickly disappeared around the corner as if he didn't hear it.

"I didn't do anything to be sorry for you!" Han Yu said to me behind me when the door was closed.

I nodded without hesitation, "I believe in you!" I turned around and held his face in my hands, letting him see my expression clearly, "I believe in you no matter what."

I didn't know the ins and outs of the matter that night, he told me everything while lying on the bed and hiding in my arms.

As an illegitimate child, Han Yu has always known about Gu Feng's existence, but the two have never met.Until that night, that is, the second day after the karaoke hall was smashed up and I was injured.

The last time someone followed and picked the door lock, Han Yu already guessed that it was Xu Ming (the lunatic who had been chasing Han Yu for half a year).At that time, Han Yu actually kept this matter a secret, and he solved it in private without telling anyone.Xu Ming failed several times and failed to make threats, and finally became angry from embarrassment. In order to retaliate against Han Yu, he sent someone to smash up the Gu family's karaoke hall and vowed to show him a little bit. Coincidentally, this incident accidentally affected me, so Han Yu was furious. .This is what Han Yu said to me.

But I guess there might be something hidden in it.Looking back now, when those people saw me, they immediately used their knives. It was obvious that they came prepared, and their target was very clear.Maybe they came here specifically for me who has a very close relationship with Han Yu.

In order to express this anger for me, it was also the first time for him to visit Gu's house to look for Gu Hailong, who was still his father at that time.Gu Feng, who was out of town, got the news a long time ago, but he didn't come back in time because of important matters.After Gu Hailong made a phone call, Gu Feng never dared to delay and rushed back to Gu's house overnight.

Gu Feng met Han Yu for the first time that day, and it may have been love at first sight. Since then, Gu Feng has never forgotten Han Yu, but because Gu Hailong was here, he never dared to take any practical action until Gu Hailong passed away due to illness.In fact, Han Yu and Gu Feng have been dealing with each other for a long time without my knowledge.

I don't know if it's a coincidence or an unavoidable fate, but the result really makes people want to cry without tears.

Speaking of it, Han Yu is also concerned about it, but even if he doesn't go to Gu Hailong personally for such a big matter, Gu Feng will not let Xu Ming go after he comes back. people.It's just that the results may not be so extreme.

"I said, I don't allow anyone to hurt you, including me!"

It's not a taste to have all kinds of emotions in my heart. I couldn't say a word except to hug his body tightly.

I remember when we first met, Xu Ming, a lunatic, pursued Han Yu crazily, and finally wounded him with a knife.Afterwards, Han Yu didn't pursue his responsibility at all, and he didn't even tell Gu Hailong.The same thing happened to me, but Han Yu refused to let it go, which shows how much Han Yu really cares about me!

"Gu Feng asked someone to teach him a lesson... It's cheap for him!" Han Yu told me so, and I believed his words at that time.

Until many years later, I heard some rumors about the Gu family. Someone who offended the Gu family was sentenced for illegal possession of drugs. Within a few months, he committed suicide by swallowing chopsticks while serving his sentence!Only then did I know that Han Yu's vicious side never showed in front of me.

"I made an agreement with Gu Feng, as long as he doesn't bother you anymore, I will leave with him, and I will make a clean break with you from now on."

The previous speculation has been confirmed, Han Yu is really making compromises for me, I feel ashamed. "...Then, now?"

Han Yu smiled wryly, "It's over. He may think I'm too boring. Some things look good, but when you touch them, you will find that they are like white water, and they have no taste at all."

"So simple?" Did Gu Feng give up so easily?

Han Yu paused for a while, "It's that simple, and I was quite surprised...Really. In fact, he was very polite to me, and he never touched me. I said go, he was a little angry, but in the end he didn't Let me go, maybe he's not gay at all, just for fun at first."

Han Yu lightly described his life in the Gu family for dozens of days. It was so simple that he mentioned it in a few sentences, and I didn't ask any questions. In fact, I would think too much.I don't believe that people like Gu Feng would put away the meat that was brought to their mouths, but I believe every word Han Yu said to me, if he said no, then he didn't.What's more, most of the things that lead to today's situation are because of my incompetence. I can't even protect my beloved in the face of a rival in love. What qualifications do I have for being a coward!

We talked until very late before getting ready for bed.

Han Yu was wearing a black shirt and jeans and refused to take it off. He has always liked the first-level sleep, and he didn't know when he developed this habit.I respect him, but of course I am afraid that I will lose control.

When I passed him to turn off the light, I didn't know where I was pressed. I heard him gasp, and then I endured it back.

"what happened?"

"No, nothing, go to sleep."

His tone was obviously wrong, and I became more and more uneasy.This time I didn't listen to his perfunctory, I just tore off his clothes under his strong resistance.

There were bruises, scars, and bloodstains all over my chest... My eyes were blurred and then clear, clear and blurred, and there was a "boom" in my mind!

The author has something to say: Daily update starts today!It's eight o'clock in the morning, on time~~