I'm a scumbag

In fact, it's good to go out and find a job. I don't have so much time to think about it.

When I'm alone, Han Yu's figure is all in my mind, and I can't drive him away.Often when I was sweeping the floor and washing clothes, I would unconsciously start to be in a daze, and when I came back to my senses, the sun had changed its direction.

Is there really no chance to meet again?Did you really break up like this?Why don't you secretly call me?Even if it's a breakup, at least give me a word that makes me give up!

Even if he did change his mind, I wouldn't hold a grudge against him, because I wasn't good enough for him from the beginning, and I've always been very self-aware.Han Yu is always afraid that I will leave him. In fact, I am more afraid than him, but I don't say it.

How is he doing now?Will that person bully him?

If they really like each other, it is a kind of fulfillment for me to withdraw voluntarily.I'm afraid that Han Yu committed himself to seeking perfection for me, otherwise Gu Feng could not let me go so easily.It is said that Gu Feng has violent tendencies, and I have been very worried about it.The hateful thing is that I am so useless, but now I am hiding here like a mouse and can't do anything.

The world of little people is always sad!If you have no power or power, you can only let yourself be slaughtered!

I secretly called that phone number that I had memorized countless times, but it was a pity that the phone was always turned off.I have also sneaked outside the school gate many times, and even asked Li Yan to find out about Han Yu for me. She immediately dropped the phone, but she still sent me a text message with only a few words that night, <didn't come to class>!

I know that I'm being shameless for doing this, but I can't help myself not to inquire about him.

Lin Zi saw me staring blankly at the window every day, always putting on a hesitant expression, maybe he wanted to persuade me or maybe he wanted to scold me, but in the end he didn't say anything.Until that day when he came back drunk from outside, his extreme dissatisfaction finally broke out.

"Aren't you fucking a man? Isn't it just a lovelorn? As for you dying every day? I'm also fucking lovelorn. Who did I tell? What's the big deal?"

I silently put the pieces of his broken ashtray into the trash can, I felt a tingling pain from my fingertips, and the bright red blood slowly dripped down.It hurts!

Han Yu bleeds for me more than once, I remember he didn't seem to say that he was in pain.In fact, he is more manly than me, and he can endure everything.And in some respects, he is more courageous than me. When we were in love, he dared to drag me into the woods to kiss and have an affair when the crowd was over.

It hurts me to enjoy the stimulation he brought me, and at the same time carefully observe the movement around me, the kid smiled triumphantly, but said sweet words that made me go weak, "I've been thinking about you all day long. , I didn’t listen to a word of what was said in class. What should I do? I can’t leave you for a minute now.”

"Is it too exaggerated?"

"It's not an exaggeration at all. If I leave you for too long, I will definitely die. When I die, I will stare in the direction of your unit unwillingly with wide eyes, and then my soul will fly over to find you."

"Crow's mouth, don't say that word casually!"

"If you don't want me to die, then stay with me every day."

"Okay, I'll accompany you. Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow... I will always be with you as long as there is day after tomorrow in this world!"

"Hey, what you say means what you say, don't break the contract."

His face was full of happiness when he was smiling in my arms at that time, will he still show such a happy smile now?

"Did you hear what I said?"

Lin Zi's loud voice almost knocked down the house, no wonder he was so angry, I was distracted again, I didn't hear a single word he said just now.

"You're going to die and live for a man, can you still be a bit of a goddamn success?...or is it that he's more promiscuous than women when he's in bed, making you dizzy?..."

"You fucking shut up!" I stood up and grabbed Lin Zi's collar, so hard I wanted to strangle him to death!He can talk about me, even scold me, but I don't allow him to insult Han Yu a word! "If you dare to insult him again, I can't get around you!"

"Li Kai! You fight with me, are you fucking crazy?" We haven't touched since we were six years old, and today is the first time.

I don't regret doing this, and I even clenched his collar tightly, telling him with my expression that every word I just said was serious. "Remember my words, don't force me to break up with you!"

From the standpoint of a brother, I do value sex over friends, and it is reasonable for Lin Zi to be disappointed in me.Without another word, he turned and left, almost breaking the door.

The house is on the third floor, and the living room faces the two willow trees downstairs.Lin Zi has been lingering under the tree for a long time, but he still refuses to come up.Like me, he has nowhere to go except here and the dormitory in the mining area. It will cost hundreds of dollars to take a taxi back to the mine in the middle of the night. In fact, I should be the one who should go.

We were both much calmer by the time we walked downstairs with his coat on, smoking one cigarette after another and refusing to look at me.I put my coat on him and sat quietly. In order to break the embarrassment between each other, I reached out and asked him for a cigarette.

"I'm sorry!" Not because of the actions just now, but because she cared too little for him.He was laughing and joking every day, I thought he didn't care about anything, but it turned out that I thought he was too free and easy.In fact, like me, he will also be injured.

Lin Zi turned his head to the side and still ignored me, but I think his expression was more like anger.That’s how he was when he was young, because he was older than me and he would let me do everything, even if he was furious with me, he would never do anything to me, at most he would just kick the crooked neck tree at the head of the village to relieve his anger, no matter if I recognized him or not It will be fine after a while.

It was the same this time, a few minutes later he threw over a box of painkillers and threw me the half bottle of mineral water next to it.The contradiction was resolved in this way, and there was never an overnight feud between us.

"Go home, don't sit here, it's cold."

"You go back first, take the medicine and go to bed early, I have something to go out."

What is he doing out alone in the middle of the night?Could it be that you haven't calmed down yet?Of course I was worried, "Where are you going? I'll accompany you."

If I had known that he was here to meet my girlfriend, I wouldn't have come to be a light bulb, let alone meet in this situation.

I always thought that Lin Zi was dumped by his girlfriend, but according to the current situation, the opposite seems to be the case.

In fact, it was also the first time I saw this girl, she was quite good-looking.At this moment, tears were pouring down like rain, but Lin Zi had an impatient expression on his face, and he didn't even try to coax him.

"Don't you want to know who I like?"

The girl immediately stopped talking, waiting for the trial with tears in her eyes.

I was thinking about what reason Lin Zi would say to break up, but suddenly he pulled my hand, and I heard Tian Lei rolling in my ear, "It's him!"

I instantly petrified!

"Now you understand? Don't call me again!"

It was a reason for breaking up that was so invincible that people had no power to fight back, thanks to him thinking of it.Poor me became a scapegoat, and I suffered all the resentful eyes from that girl before I left.

Lin Zi was walking on his own, but after a while he suddenly turned around and asked me, "What's the reason?"

"It sucks!" Honestly, I really don't like Lin Zi breaking up with his girlfriend with this trick, because I also used this trick at the beginning, and Han Yu told me how he felt at that time, I really wanted to jump off the [-]th floor , die! "Actually, you can find a better excuse."

"You think what I just said was a lie?"

This sentence immediately knocked me out of battery, Lin Zi was behind the light, I couldn't see the expression on his face, and I had no chance to find evidence that it was a joke.His tone was too serious, which made me a little scared.

"Hehe, I'm just kidding you, I think it scares you." Lin Zi punched me hard, "You're crazy, I'm not crazy! Hurry up and go."

I quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

Lin Zi and I slept in separate rooms that night, for the first time in half a month, in his words, my injury is almost healed, and I don't need to accompany me to the bed.In fact, I really can't bear that kid's sleeping position like a fight, I'm really afraid that he will have some dangerous dreams and punch me to the core and kill me.

It's also rare for me to have a sleep that can be regarded as a solid sleep, if the person in the dream is excluded.

"Get up and eat."

It's so fragrant, I opened my eyes and saw that breakfast was on the table.Lin Zi looked at me with a welcoming smile on his face, "Get up, eat your meal first."

Neither of us had the habit of eating breakfast because of our previous working hours. Why is this kid so crazy today?He even cooks for me by himself.

"I'm going to work first, wait for me to come back to eat together in the evening."

I who was still in a daze said yes, and Lin Zi didn't say much, and emphasized that I ate the meal while it was hot and went out.I randomly took two bites and took two pills with serious side effects and continued to sleep until I was woken up by a short bell ringing at midnight.

When I opened the door, I was still rubbing my eyes. The silence of the person outside made me a little uncomfortable. Can't it be quicker to charge the water bill or the electricity bill?

I looked at him with lazy eyes, one glance, one glance, when I saw that face clearly, my whole brain stopped!

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