I'm a scumbag

Everyone has a very clear memory of their first time, but I am just the opposite. I can't always recall the details of the time afterwards.

The hazy excitement and madness is the only memory of that night.It wasn't until I helped him reach N times of orgasms with my hands and got the same return that we fell on the bed exhausted.

Kissing, looking at each other, kissing, looking at each other, just like this over and over again until the sky is bright.

When I woke up, I was at a loss for a moment.When I saw Han Yu who was sleeping soundly next to me, I was sure that the scene in the early morning was indeed a fact that happened, and not just an illusory dream after being drunk.

It was inevitable that I would be embarrassed for the first time. I was too nervous and hurriedly put on my clothes and pants. It was a dilemma whether I went or stayed or stayed.

"Get up so early?" Han Yu rubbed his eyes and looked at me with a smile on his face.

"Oh, you, you go to sleep." I only dared to glance at him hastily, then turned and left.

"Li Kai!" He probably sensed that I was avoiding him, and chased me out sleeplessly and hugged my body, "What's wrong with you?"

I'm a coward, I don't have that much courage without the help of alcohol, "Nothing."

"Are you regretting it?...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to seduce you, I just... just couldn't help it, I'm sorry..."

I can't stand listening to it anymore. It's obvious that the two are in love, but now he has to bear the consequences himself. If he dares to do it or not, what a fucking man I am!

"Don't think about it." I turned around and hugged him who was cold and shivering, "I'm just rushing to work."

He looked at me in disbelief, as if looking for a reassuring expression on my face. "I'll come back when I'm free."

"Really?"

I gave him a reassuring smile, "Why lie to you...Go to sleep, I'm leaving first."

When I walked out of this building, I was still reminiscing about the smile Han Yu gave me when I left, and I always felt that it was full of temptation after lust.

It sounds like a bit of a taste, but I couldn't help but run to Han Yu's house in those few days, the reason was to protect and take out to change the door lock.In fact, everyone knows that this kind of thing can be settled with a phone call, and there is no need for a layman like me to fiddle with it.

It is estimated that if it is a professional, it will be done in half an hour. I spent two and a half hours, and I don't know if the installation is right.

What made me lose my focus was the kid next to me. I really don't understand the thinking of those fashion designers. Winter pajamas are also designed with such a low neckline, which doesn't protect against the cold at all. It's better to just open your arms.

He was not impatient, squatting quietly beside me, handing me a screwdriver and pliers for a while, and asking from time to time, "Are you tired?"

After changing the lock, it was already too late to go back, and Han Yu was too kind, but I naturally stayed overnight.

The embarrassment happened at the door of the bedroom. I accidentally touched his hand when I took the new towel from him. I was shocked by something inexplicable and fell to the ground without holding the towel.

Fortunately, he squatted down in time and didn't notice my abnormal breathing rate and strange eyes. In order to cover up, I hurriedly left a sentence, "It's late, go to bed early." After that, he hid in the bathroom in embarrassment.

He slept in his room and I slept in my guest room that night, and no one bothered anyone.

In the dream, Han Yu's smooth and well-proportioned body was wrapped around me tightly, getting tighter and tighter, until I woke up suddenly because of difficulty breathing, my head was covered with sweat, and my lower body was also wet.

The longing for Han Yu has spread from reality to my dream, and ethics and morality can't resist his temptation to me in the end, I lose completely, and I lose willingly!

I want to hug him, desperately want to hug him, just like that time.But seeing him sleeping so soundly, I couldn't bear to wake him up after all.I went to the balcony early in the morning and smoked three cigarettes in a row, and finally suppressed my animal nature. As a result, I no longer felt sleepy, and I went back to work before noon.

I don't know what went wrong, I found that Han Yu became more and more cautious in front of me, he became cautious in speaking and acting, and occasionally deliberately avoided physical contact with me.I've never been in love, let alone with a boy, so I really don't understand what he's thinking.

But the more he is like this, the stronger my feeling for him is, sometimes when I see him walking into the bathroom and locking the door vigilantly, I even have the urge to kick the door open and push him to the ground.

His originally inflexible mind was occupied by him, and there was a period of time when I opened and closed my eyes and it was all about him, forgetting about my friends, my work, and even forgetting that it would be Li Yan in a few days. On the day of returning home, if Han Yu hadn't called to mention that I would have almost forgotten my twin sister to Java.

"Don't worry about it, I'll tell her later." It's different now, how can I have the heart to let Han Yu alone solve the trouble we caused.

"What do you say? Do you want your sister to hate you to death?"

"That's not enough." In fact, I didn't have the slightest idea, "She still listens to me more."

Putting down the phone, I was preparing my words and thinking about how to explain to Li Yan, the relationship between me and Han Yu must not be told to her, let alone let her know that she is just a stand-in.The only way is to use his elder brother's identity to stop her. After all, he is a relative, even if there are complaints, ten and a half days will pass.

But for some reason, I was suddenly restless and felt that something bad was about to happen.Thinking carefully that today is the last weekend before the holiday, Li Yan can only choose to go to Han Yu's house today.

As expected, when I hurriedly asked for leave and rushed over, I saw Li Yan questioning Han Yu with tears in her eyes.

"If you don't like me, why did you block that knife for me?" The door was not closed, and I became an eavesdropper of course.

"That's just out of responsibility. If something happens to you, I can't explain it to your brother."

Li Yan relentlessly sought for the last hope, "Did my brother force you to break up with me? Tell me, and I'll go and talk to him."

"It's nothing to do with your brother, don't think about him." Han Yu's words were a bit of a cover-up, and I don't know if Li Yan could hear it or not.But standing outside the door, I was ashamed to be shielded by Han Yu. "I do have someone I like, and I will be with you only because you look like him."

"Who? You tell me!"

"I said you don't even know each other... What happened before was that I was sorry for you, I apologize to you, and I will make it up to you when I have a chance in the future... It's getting late, you should go back quickly. "

"If I want to die, I have to die to understand. If you don't tell me who that person is today, I won't leave."

Li Yan is more serious than she was when she was a child. This is indeed her character, which is extremely scary.I couldn't bear to let Han Yu suffer this kind of condemnation alone, so I opened the door and walked in as if I were returning to my own home.

The eyes of the two fell on me at the same time, and colorful expressions flew by one after another. "Don't ask, that person is me!"

"Li Kai, you!"

I walked over and put my arms around Han Yu's shoulders, and said to Li Yan, "I am the one he likes." After a pause, I added, "I like him too!"

Neither of them reacted, as if petrified.I sighed and reached out to wipe away the tears on Li Yan's face, and patiently told her the truth of everything.

"No, no, you're lying to me, aren't you?"

The words I wanted to defend were stuck in my throat by the kiss Han Yu sent up. I didn't evade at all, not even the slightest resistance.How could such a smart Li Yan fail to see that we were not acting.

Any woman who sees two men kissing may be as shocked as Li Yan and can't react, (except for rotten girls, they will scream with excitement!)

Han Yu looked at me affectionately, and said to Li Yan, "If you want to hate, hate me, I was the one who seduced him first."

I didn't expect Li Yan's reaction to be so big, she almost collapsed, and for the first time, she yelled in front of Han Yu regardless of her image, "You lied to me!" Then she ran out like crazy.

I caught up with her in the garden of the community. At that time, she was crying so hard that she lost the strength to speak, and even beat me fiercely.I don't have any reason to stop, and I don't have the heart to stop, letting her vent her grievances against me.

"Brother, you have given me everything since you were a child, why did you want to earn money from me this time?...I like him, I really like him, don't you fight me, okay?... ..You are both men, you will not have good results together, don't hurt him..." In the statement just now, I avoided some key parts, such as who takes the initiative first, Whoever pursues first.Although Han Yu confessed that he took the initiative first, it is obvious that Li Yan is more willing to believe my words.

"He won't harm me, he will only treat me well." Han Yu said firmly, leaning against the pillar behind him and smoking a cigarette, "I only like your brother in this life, even if he doesn't like me, I don't like you either. Will change your mind. Don't waste your time on me."

What he said gave me an urge to cry, that is, it was a bit inappropriate. "Stop talking!" I'm afraid that Li Yan will completely collapse if I continue.

We have lived together for 19 years, and it is the first time in my memory that my sister cried so sadly and so miserably.I should have expected that as twins, we not only look alike, have similar personalities, and even have the same aesthetics. The type I like is also the type she likes.It's just that I underestimated Han Yu's influence on our brothers and sisters.

Li Yan kept crying from afternoon to night, and finally she was tired from crying and fell asleep.I asked the girl who slept with me to take care of her temporarily, and left the girls' dormitory building before the lights were turned off.

On the way back, Han Yu and I walked side by side under the full moon, smoking cigarettes silently, neither of us spoke.When he approached the gate of the community, he suddenly stopped and asked me, "Li Kai...is what you just said true?"

"Which one?"

"You said...you liked me."

The voice behind was barely audible, I recognized it by the shape of his mouth. "What do you think?"

He smiled wryly, "I'm just pretending to be sentimental, when I didn't ask...you can rest assured now, I won't bother her again in the future."

His comprehension ability is really poor, and it was the first time he discovered it.

I didn't explain, just entered the community on my own, went upstairs, and opened the door.Then he turned around suddenly and rubbed the frustrated Han Yu into his arms roughly, pinched his chin and kissed him viciously until he suffocated.

In fact, I've been wanting to do this for a long time!

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