I'm a scumbag

In the autumn of 2007, I was distraught!

There is nothing to look forward to other than salary, and I live in a daze for three days as an emperor and half a month as a beggar. Seeing colleagues in pairs busy spending time together, I feel bored and unreasonable.

Occasionally, I was dragged to the next room by colleagues who were single like me to drink and play cards or watch A-movies. I always wondered why watching that kind of scene with them didn’t feel awkward and weird.

The topics among men are always inseparable from women and pornography. Listening to them bragging about which girl they used to date, and which girl in the karaoke room they were molesting yesterday, I always just laughed it off and was speechless.If they know that I have been pursued by a man, I wonder if they will show admiration and envy me.

Conscious that I have no common language with them, I always find an excuse to leave at this time, and go back to bed and lie alone in a daze.

The only buddy, Lin Zi, is so fascinated by his girlfriend that he has no time to pay attention to me, a guy with a depressed face.The phone calls to my little sister were busy five times out of six times. I really don't understand why she seems to be busier than the Prime Minister when she is supposed to be free after going to university.

The family's conditions are still stretched beyond what to make ends meet, and every time the parents call, they hesitate and speak in a low tone.The next day I put down the phone, I had to empty out all my pockets and send it home, even if it was only 100 yuan, it could temporarily relieve my urgent need.

When I was so poor that I had no money to eat, I always recalled the days when I was with Han Yu. I was always stingy with spending money, but why was I so generous to him during that time? On the other side, I also want to buy it for him to eat.

Looking back today, I don’t feel that I was too extravagant or even willing at that time.Now that I think about it, it’s not entirely his fault that he has the kind of thoughts he has towards me. It’s only my fault that I treat someone too thoroughly and indiscriminately.

The frequency of Han Yu appearing in my mind is increasing day by day, as if the spread of cancer cells is becoming more and more difficult to control.

That night, I dreamed that he was stabbed and fell into a coma. I woke up in a cold sweat. There was salty liquid on my face. I don't know if it was sweat or something else.

Li Yan's phone call came in by coincidence, as if she had a heart-to-heart connection, and the harsh voice made the colleague on the next bed cover his head irritably, I quickly rubbed my face and got up and went to the balcony.

The little girl’s voice sounded like she was out of her mind, speaking in this tone at three o’clock in the middle of the night made me worry that she was telling her last words.

Where do I still have the mind to sleep, and where do I still have the mind to care about whether the person in the dream has really encountered an accident? In my heart, relatives are always the most important.

I stayed up until five o'clock in the morning, I hurriedly washed my face and went out.My little sister's school is on the other side of the city. I caught the earliest bus to go there, and it took me an hour and a half to get there.

As soon as Li Yan saw me, she threw herself into my arms and was wronged. She was crying with rain and Lihua tore my clothes with both hands. Fortunately, there was no one around early in the morning, otherwise people would not think that I was just playing. A heartless man who is dumped when he is perfect.

"Don't cry, tell me what's wrong first?"

The little girl's usual arrogance of unreasonable arguments is gone forever, but now her mouth is so stiff that she doesn't utter a word.I had no choice but to find a 24-hour porridge restaurant and sit in, ordered two breakfasts and patiently waited for her to finish crying.

"Someone bullied you?"

The little girl nodded and shook her head, which made my head full of question marks.

"If someone really bullies you, tell me, and I will help you deal with him!" Just kidding, anyone who dares to bully my sister is courting death!I'm sure he hit him so hard that even his mother didn't recognize him!

Seeing the fierce look in my eyes, the little girl quickly shook her head and waved her hands, "It's not what you think."

"Then you can tell me clearly?"

"... He, he suddenly ignored me." Li Yan said this sentence after hesitating for a minute, and it took me a full minute to sort out the cause and effect of the matter after listening to this sentence .It's not that my brain reacts slowly, but that I don't believe it.

In my impression, the little girl has always been proud and arrogant, and no one looks down on her self-esteem.Back then, a rather handsome guy in the village had pursued her for three months, and he almost knelt down to her. She didn't even look him in the face, and finally said that he was overconfident.

I can't imagine who has such a great ability to make my sister so fascinated that she can't sleep at night.

"Are you in love?"

The little girl blushed and nodded, "It started last month."

No wonder the phone is always busy!I was so angry that I said, "Okay, you're promising! The family spent so much money to send you to college, hoping that you will be famous, but after learning and learning, you will learn how to fall in love?"

"I......"

"What me! Are you still reasonable?" I poked the cigarette butt in the ashtray angrily, "Our father is seriously ill in bed, and our mother wipes tears every day. You still have the mood to cry for a man? Why are you so big? Ah ah?"

"I, I didn't do anything out of the ordinary, why are you scolding me?" As he spoke, the tears that had just been withdrawn were about to come out again.

"Am I scolding wrong? You're still stubborn!" I lit a cigarette irritably, and took a deep puff, "Your task now is to study, don't punish those useless things, and break up with him immediately!"

"We are in a normal relationship, why do you want us to break up?"

"Because I'm your brother!" She was even more fierce at me, blowing her nose and staring at me for an outsider, this is the first time I've seen her like this.For her, I dropped out of school to work, for her I endured cold and hunger, but in the end she dared to criticize me, of course I was angry! "You want to talk about dating after you graduate. Let me tell you, if you let me know that you put your mind on this place again, I will never forgive you!"

Li Yan burst into tears on the spot when she heard it. She has been the closest to me since she was a child, because she knows in her heart that on the surface I seem to earn everything from her, but in fact I leave everything to her, and let her dote on her. She didn't even blush with her.Of course she felt wronged and could only complain to me as a brother. She didn't expect me to scold her instead of comforting her. Of course she felt uncomfortable.

Seeing her cry, I softened my heart. In fact, thinking about what it is to fall in love in college, it is normal for youth to be young.

But she can't, she shoulders all the future and hope of the Li family, if she is distracted at this time, wouldn't our family's efforts be in vain.I tried my best to explain the truth to her, and hoped that she could take back her heart and not be tripped up by feelings on the road of life.

But in the end, she got a face full of complaints. When she left, she pointed at me and complained, "You cold-blooded animal, you don't even know what it's like to like someone!"

Maybe she's right, I'm really cold-blooded, I can't understand why the illusory thing "love" can make a person suddenly lose himself, and even become crazy.

She refused to answer my calls for five whole days after that, and on the sixth day she took the initiative to call me.It sounded like she was in a better mood, and I figured they might have reconciled.

In order not to have the conflict last time, I calmed down and asked about that man. The younger sister praised him wildly, his appearance was better than Pan An, his literary talent was better than Tang Bohu, and most importantly, his character was better than Liu Xiahui.

Hearing this, I was temporarily relieved. If the younger sister was obsessed with her appearance instead of her character, then even if the siblings broke up, I would definitely interfere to the end.

But I still don't believe my little sister's words, saying that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, how can she see the essence of a person clearly when she is in a daze in love.I have to see this person in person to give a correct review.

The little girl refused at first, and she got tired of talking shyly and shyly, but then she reluctantly agreed in a soft voice.

Look, I'm not wrong, with a sweetheart, she has already hidden her stubborn, self-willed and rough voice, and if that kid finds out about this girl's true nature later on, I don't know if she will regret it Want to cry?

The time we agreed on was on a Sunday afternoon, when there was no school and I happened to be off work.

In order not to embarrass my sister, I deliberately wore decent clothes and waited outside the school early.

When he was dragged out of the school gate by Li Yan with great reluctance, when he and I looked through the crowd and intertwined, at that moment, we were both stunned!

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