There is a terrible disease called control

The local news at [-] o'clock interrupted a piece of news. A frantic man was at the gate of the elementary school. When school was over, he drove madly into the crowd. Three people died on the spot and many people were injured.The picture shows a messy school gate, with lost shoes and scattered books and papers all over the floor. A dark blue schoolbag lying there on the side of the road is particularly eye-catching.

Two months ago, he and Meng Xiaoting went to buy the schoolbag for Meng Nan. The price was equivalent to three months of his living expenses.

Xu Xiu felt a sudden panic in his heart, goosebumps all over his body were aroused, and the remote control in his hand clicked and fell to the ground without noticing it. He grabbed the phone and called Meng Xiaoting while rushing to the hospital reported in the news.

He and Meng Xiaoting met at the door. Meng Xiaoting was wearing a suit, two buttons on the neckline were missing and he didn't know where they took them off, and his tie was thrown away somewhere.The two didn't say much, and rushed directly to the pediatric ward.

In the pediatric ward, in the corridor and in the ward, there were heart-piercing cries of injured children everywhere. The children who were originally hospitalized here also felt this inexplicable tense atmosphere and began to cry.

The two separated and searched for Meng Nan early. Looking at the children whose heads were bleeding from the fall, some of them hugged their arms and cried until they burst into tears.Some curled up in the arms of their parents and sobbed.For a while, Xu Xiu was afraid of seeing Meng Nan among these children. If there was anything that would scare him more, it would be that he couldn't see Meng Nan here.

He held the phone tightly with his hands, sweating profusely while holding it, his eyes frantically looking for a familiar figure among a group of little peas.

No, not yet, Xu Xiu's T-shirt was soaked in cold sweat, and he could even clearly feel the sweat slipping from his temples.The scene in front of him was like watching TV, flashing, but the brain did not respond at all.Although he liked Meng Nan, he really didn't reach the level of Meng Xiaoting, but this time, for some unknown reason, Xu Xiu just felt anxious, as if he was floating on the water but couldn't get to the bottom.

"Xu Xiu, Xu Xiu." Meng Xiaoting yelled twice before finally getting Xu Xiu's response, Xu Xiu turned his head to look at Meng Xiaoting with empty eyes, the kind of numbness that only looked at him with his body, but his soul wandered, still scared Meng Xiaoting .

Meng Xiaoting let out a breath, and whispered in his soothing voice: "Meng Nan is fine."

"Oh, as long as it's okay." Xu Xiu's response was a conditioned reflex. It took two seconds for his brain to fully recover. His eyes lit up, and he grabbed Meng Xiaoting and chased him: "Meng Nan is really okay?"

Meng Xiaoting's eyes dimmed, and he said, "Wanxin, you pushed Meng Nan out when the accident happened, and your calf was run over by a car, now you are in the orthopedics department."

The orthopedics department is not as chaotic as the pediatrics and emergency departments. There is only an old woman with slightly curly hair sitting on the bench in front of the operating room, and a child sitting next to her, holding the old woman's hand with two small hands.

"Father." Meng Nan saw Meng Xiaoting when he turned his head, and shouted excitedly, although he obviously wanted to rush over, but he was worried about something, turned his head to look at the old woman, and did not let go of his hands.The old lady was sitting on the bench, and when she heard the voice, she turned her head slowly, her eyes were dim and dim, and the despair overflowing from the depths of her heart almost drowned out the thin old woman, Meng Nan held her tightly, to prevent her from falling into the abyss.

"You came."

Although Xu Xiu had never seen this old man before, it was not difficult to guess who she was. Based on her [-]% similar face to Sun Wanxin, it was superfluous to say anything.

"Auntie, how is Wanxin?" Meng Xiaoting walked over, picked up Meng Nan and sat beside Sun Wanxin's mother.

Meng Nan lay in Meng Xiaoting's arms to say hello to Xu Xiu. He had no shoes on one foot, other than that, there was no injury on his body, which showed how well Sun Wanxin protected him.Xu Xiu nodded in response. He thought he wanted to give Meng Nan a smile back, but the reality didn't allow him. He just stood a few meters away and watched, feeling a strong sense of unease.

All TV dramas are performed like this. Everyone sits in a row at the door of the operating room. The doctor comes out, takes off his mask and says to you solemnly: "We did our best."

This sentence is to tell you that the person lying in the operating room is done playing, and his life or life will be explained here in all likelihood.Xu Xiu leaned against the wall and watched the doctor's mouth open and close, completely unaware of what he was talking about. He had no feeling for Sun Wanxin, but he had an inexplicable sense of tension, which came from instinct.

Most of what the doctor said was academic language, so Xu Xiu might not be able to understand it, but he could clearly hear things like the loss of walking ability.

"Take Meng Nan to eat something and go back to rest. I'll stay here with auntie." Meng Xiaoting handed Meng Nan to Xu Xiu, took off his coat and put it on Sun Wanxin's mother.

Seeing that he was useless here, Xu Xiu hugged Meng Nan and left first.Along the way, Meng Nan didn't speak, but dozed off with heavy eyelids leaning against Xu Xiu's arms. He couldn't understand what kind of results such a tragedy would lead to. He just knew that everything today was different from the past. .

After Xu Xiu coaxed Meng Nan to fall asleep, he sat in the dark living room holding his mobile phone. He was a little tired.The phone lights up in the dark, and the word Xia Yi dances in the dark, and then subsides.Xu Xiu stood up and felt a big hole suddenly appeared on the sole of his foot, and all his physical strength was lost from there.

The next morning, Xu Xiu woke up.

After a good night's sleep, his brain had recovered to its best condition, taking a deep breath, he sat up from the bed.Meng Xiaoting didn't come back, and presumably she stayed in the hospital all night. After all, Sun Wanxin had no other relatives besides her widowed mother.

After much deliberation, Xu Xiu woke up Meng Nan, settled Meng Nan's place, and bought some money to rush to the hospital.

Meng Xiaoting was sitting on a chair in the hospital corridor taking a nap, wearing only a white shirt, which looked a little thin in the early autumn morning.Perhaps feeling cold, Meng Xiaoting shrank back towards his arms.

Xu Xiu had already considered this problem before he came and brought his jacket.But before he got to the side, Meng Xiaoting woke up.He waved to Xu Xiu, motioned Xu Xiu to sit beside him, then took the jacket and put it on, rubbed his face to make himself look more energetic, and then said: "If you don't come, I will probably freeze to death here, it's only the end of September , why is it so cold here?"

Xu Xiu took the porridge he brought out of the plastic bag, and said casually, "A hospital, it's inevitable that it's cloudy."

This sentence was heard by a passing nurse, who gouged out Xu Xiu's eyes before pushing the cart into the next ward.Xu Xiu rubbed his nose in embarrassment and said, "Cough, what a coincidence."

Meng Xiaoting was also extremely hungry, and poured everything into his stomach regardless of his demeanor. He said, "Wanxin may not be able to leave in the future."

"En." Xu Xiu responded, but Meng Xiaoting's voice fell silent.

Xu Xiu didn't hear Meng Xiaoting's words for a long time, turned his head just in time to meet Meng Xiaoting's eyes, and was startled by Meng Xiaoting's burning eyes.

"Do you have anything to say?" Xu Xiu asked cautiously.

Meng Xiaoting shook his head and turned away, saying, "I'll hire a nurse later, and send my aunt back. Then I'll go to the company to ask for leave. Meng Nan will be counting on you in the next two days."

Hearing this, Xu Xiu finally heaved a sigh of relief: "I thought it was a big deal. Let Meng Nan take care of me, I'm sure I'll make him fat."

Meng Xiaoting paused for a long time, turned around and hugged Xu Xiu's shoulder and said softly, "I'm sorry."

In the past few days, Xu Xiu has almost fully assumed the responsibility of being a father. Every morning, he breaks up early in the morning to make breakfast for Meng Nan, and then sends Meng Nan to class. Go to bed in time.After Meng Nan went to bed, he made pictures for the princes of the Fenghuo Opera, repeating the same content every day.

Sometimes Xu Xiu wondered why people always need regular days. Thinking about it now, it is probably to make the painful life not seem too long.Ever since Meng Xiaoting said the meaningless sorry that day, Xu Xiu had thought of countless possibilities, and these speculations were wiped out in the repeated life of the past few days.

Xu Xiu also visited Sun Wanxin in the hospital, but did not enter the ward. Sun Wanxin calmly accepted the fact that her legs might be disabled. No matter what, Xu Xiu felt that her calmness was a bit too much.Of course, it is not so much calm as it is a kind of despair.Like a dying swan that lifts her proud head even when she's about to die.

Seeing Sun Wanxin in such a state, Xu Xiu was a little scared. This fear was deeply buried in his heart. Did he show his head to tease Xu Xiu's heart? As long as Xu Xiu was free and closed his eyes, It's just the pale walls of the hospital, and Sun Wanxin, who is even paler than the walls, that's all for him, but what about Meng Xiaoting?

Xu Xiu went to bed early at night, and dimly felt Meng Xiaoting beside him sitting up in the dark and pushing his arm.

"Xu Xiu?" Meng Xiaoting said softly.

"Huh?" Xu Xiu was sleepy, and when he heard Meng Xiaoting calling him, he turned over and turned to Meng Xiaoting's side, pretending that he was awake, and closed his eyes, waiting for Meng Xiaoting to speak.

Meng Xiaoting touched Xu Xiu's eyebrows, and after a long silence, he said, "I have something to tell you."

Usually happy events do not use such opening words.

Xu Xiu, who was still terribly sleepy, suddenly widened his eyes, found Meng Xiaoting's face in the darkness, stared at him seriously and said, "You want to remarry Sun Wanxin?"

This idea has been in Xu Xiu's brain for a long time, but he has not been able to ask it out, and he doesn't know if his brain is not clear, so he said it with a bald mouth, which scared Xu Xiu himself.

It took a while for Meng Xiaoting to reply: "The meaning is similar."

"Ci'ao. Do you think it's appropriate for us to talk about this topic when we are lying on the same bed and under the same quilt without any clothes?" Xu Xiu reached out and grabbed Meng Xiaoting's neck, turned his head and turned him over to ride him under him. , asked through gritted teeth.

"You still have a pair of legs, you can continue to walk, continue to find a more suitable person, Sun Wanxin can't walk anymore, I can only stay with her."

Before Meng Xiaoting finished speaking, Xu Xiu hit her head and face twice.Xu Xiu wasn't willing to make a real move, he only heard the impact of palms and cheeks. Although the sound was loud, it didn't have any lethality.

Meng Xiaoting lay there like that, letting Xu Xiu ride on him, and he said: "I have one thing to apologize to you, in fact, on the night when the accident happened, when I knew that Sun Wanxin might lose the ability to walk in the future, I had already done it. I made this decision, but I still ask you to take care of Meng Nan, these days let you accompany me to assume the responsibility that should not belong to you, sorry, I..."

"Did I say you are a godfather?" Xu Xiu interrupted him.

"often."

"Did I tell you before that you were an idiot?" Xu Xiu continued to ask.

"the first time."

"I'll just say it a few more times for you to listen to, you idiot." After punching the pillow next to Meng Xiaoting, Xu Xiu couldn't say anything anymore, he felt that all the air in his chest was backlogged After going out, an unknown liquid fell on Meng Xiaoting's face along the cheeks.

Meng Xiaoting hugged him in the current awkward position, his head was pressed tightly by Meng Xiaoting's shoulder socket, where it was damp.

After a long time, Xu Xiu finally calmed down, and he finally knew how much a man's crying could be suppressed. The voice that pressed his voice to his chest and throat, with endless penetrating power, felt the darkness , crashed into Xu Xiu's heart, making it difficult for Xu Xiu, who was already short of breath.For a man who has passed his thirties, it seems obvious that love and responsibility are more important.Sun Wanxin ruined his future for Meng Nan, and Meng Xiaoting was going to sacrifice his love, whether it was because of his responsibility or out of compensation. This is the philosophy and balance of life.

At that time, Sun Wanxin tried his best, and Meng Xiaoting did not compromise with all kinds of threats, and her love was still the same. Now, Meng Xiaoting took the initiative to break up. Xu Xiu was not an accident, but more emotional about the loss of love to life in the end.

Meng Xiaoting is not a bad person, what is even more frightening is that he is a good person, a good person takes more responsibilities, and will hurt more people.

Xu Xiu knows that he is a weak and incompetent person, he has neither the courage nor the strength to face other people's gossip, but he has his persistence, as long as Meng Xiaoting does not give up, he can do his best to follow Meng Xiaoting closely and not let himself fall behind .Meng Xiaoting decided to let go, but he didn't have the ability to hold Meng Xiaoting again.

It was Friday again, and the gate of Yunan Elementary School was full of people who came to mourn with white chrysanthemums and candles. People waited in a long line to put the white chrysanthemums and lighted candles by the gate. Xu Xiu didn’t know that these people How many people really lost their loved ones in this incident, only know that the nearby flower sellers made a lot of money from it.

The girl with ponytail standing beside Xu Xiu, her immature face was extremely pale against the backdrop of a black dress.She didn't show sadness, but stared blankly at the floor tiles not far away, where a small piece of blood had seeped into the floor tiles.

"I have a younger sister who is only eight years old this year." She spoke suddenly, her voice was as young as her face, and equally lifeless.

"She's so cute."

"she……"

Ponytail suddenly stopped and asked, "Have any of your relatives left?"

Xu Xiu knelt down and put the flowers down, raised his head and said with a long breath, "Yes."

I man.

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Next is emotional flip time:

Many years later, when Xu Xiu and Xia Yi were bored on the sofa watching Grandma Qiongyao's Dreaming of a Curtain, Xu Xiu's nose burst out with a smile, and he said to Xia Yi: "Do you think the plot is very interesting?" familiar?"