Face Blindness Observation Report

In the clinic, the psychological counselor Lin Xu quietly listened to Li Xiyuan's account of the cause and effect, and asked, "Xiyuan, since you chose to ask me for help at the first time, it means you trust me, right?"

"Yes," Li Xiyuan nodded, "Uncle Lin, I have trusted you since I was a child, and it was you who saved me from a desperate situation. So this time, I believe that you will also be able to help me from the most objective point of view. I fix that."

"In this case, let me help you sort out your thoughts." Lin Xu said, "First of all, what you have to solve is your own problem-do you like Ye Ming? How much do you like? You said that because you belong to Ye Ming The same kind of person, being with him gives you a sense of belonging, and you feel that Ye Ming needs a sense of belonging more than you, so have you ever thought that the initial motivation for you to agree to associate with him may not be love, but sympathy ?”

Li Xiyuan bowed his head and was silent for a moment, then said: "Uncle Lin, to be honest, when I agreed to Ye Ming at first, it was indeed out of sympathy. Because our friendship had changed at that time, when he confessed to me, I There are only two options left, either pull him tight or push him away. Either way, there is no way for us to become ordinary friends again.

"But I can't bear to watch him sad, let alone let him face this strange world alone - I know this feeling too well, and his symptoms are much more serious than mine Times. At that time, I thought, since I was worried about letting go of my hand, I had no choice but to hold it for now. In fact, I didn’t know what to do next, but at that time, I could only take one step at a time.”

Lin Xu pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose: "But Xi Yuan, love and sympathy are two concepts after all, and they cannot be compared. Love is the only one. If you recognize the other party, you have to stay with him for the rest of your life; while sympathy can be Multidirectional, you can have sympathy for a child, you can have sympathy for a patient, you can have sympathy for a beggar, but you can't stay with them for life because of sympathy. I mean, do you understand?"

"I understand." Li Xiyuan nodded, "Actually, in the process of interacting with Ye Ming, I have always kept in mind the self-analysis method you taught me, allowing myself to examine my heart objectively and calmly. I also know that sympathy cannot It is equivalent to love, but is it also possible to switch between sympathy and love?

"Actually, I have also thought about it myself. If the other party is not Ye Ming, but an ordinary person who needs my help, I may help as much as I can, but I will not keep holding his hand and be reluctant to let him go. I will not let him go because of I am afraid that I will never be able to be friends again and worry about gains and losses.

"So I think, I should not only sympathize with him, especially in the process of getting along with him later, I feel that I am not the one who is needed unilaterally, I also need him, and I am with him ,very happy."

Lin Xu nodded while listening: "So you have actually approved of this relationship."

"Yes, if I was a little hesitant when we first started dating, now I have confirmed my relationship."

"Then the next step is how to convince your parents." Lin Xu said, "Xi Yuan, you have to know that in this world, people accept strange things due to their different personalities, backgrounds, growth environments, and values. The degree and difficulty of acceptance also vary.”

Li Xiyuan asked: "Then is it possible for my parents...to accept homosexuality?"

Lin Xu frowned and thought for a moment, then said, "According to what I know about your parents, it is conservatively estimated that their acceptance rate may be below 50.00%."

"Not even half?" Li Xiyuan frowned disappointedly, "Isn't that difficult?"

"The conservative estimate I am talking about refers to their acceptance in the current state. But if we prescribe the right medicine to solve them, maybe the situation will improve."

Li Xiyuan suddenly became energetic again: "Uncle Lin, I know you will definitely have a solution, you must help me!"

On this day, after Ye Ming sent Li Xiyuan to the bullet train, he has been in a state of insanity. Although he knew that Li Xiyuan would not call him during the day, he still looked at his phone every few minutes nervously, for fear Miss any possible message.

But to his disappointment, there was no movement on his mobile phone for the whole afternoon, which was so abnormal that he wondered if he was in arrears.

After eight o'clock in the evening, he couldn't bear it anymore, and tried to send a text message to Li Xiyuan: "How's it going?"

Because he was worried that Li Xiyuan's mobile phone would fall into the hands of his parents, the content of his text messages was very vague.

A few minutes later, the phone rang. When he saw that it was Li Xiyuan on the caller ID, he immediately picked up the phone to answer: "Hello, Xiyuan?"

"Well, it's me." Li Xiyuan's voice seemed to be deliberately lowered.

Ye Ming also lowered his voice subconsciously, and asked cautiously: "How is the situation over there?"

"I hired foreign aid, Uncle Lin, my psychiatrist when I was young, and now Uncle Lin is talking to my parents in the study next door."

"...are you alone now?"

"Well, I'm waiting for the result in my bedroom." Li Xiyuan paused, "I've been lying on the wall before, trying to eavesdrop on what they were saying, but the sound insulation effect is so good that I couldn't hear clearly."

When Li Xiyuan said this, he laughed to himself first.Ye Ming could hear that he was invigorating the atmosphere, so he also smiled, and then the two fell silent again.The mood is too tense, no matter how relaxed the topic is, it can't change the fact that their lives are hanging by a thread at this moment.

"Ye Ming..." After a while, Li Xiyuan opened his mouth softly.

"Ok?"

"I can't guarantee that Uncle Lin will be able to convince my parents. Now I can only passively wait for the result."

"Well, I know." Ye Ming's voice was very low.

"How about, let's talk about something else." Li Xiyuan suggested.

"What are you talking about?"

"Ye Ming, when I asked Uncle Lin for help, Uncle Lin asked me a lot about the two of us, and he even asked me if my feelings for you were an illusion."

Ye Ming immediately tensed up: "What did you say?"

"I said... Maybe I didn't like it that much at first, but then..."

"Huh?" Ye Ming was very anxious by Li Xiyuan's half-sentence.

"Later, I found that I liked you more and more, so that, now that I have been separated for less than a day, I miss you very much."

"...Me too, I miss you very much." When Ye Ming said this, his nose felt a little sore.

"So, I won't give up. No matter what happens this time, I won't give up. Don't worry too much."

"Hmm." Ye Ming's voice was slightly choked up.

Li Xiyuan was infected by him, and his eye sockets gradually became moist.He blinked and forced himself to suppress his sadness, making his voice sound like an ordinary person: "Ye Ming, I suddenly have an idea."

"what idea?"

"Let's each state our three wishes and write them down, shall we?"

"Record what?"

"As a motivation for self-encouragement when encountering difficulties in the future." Li Xiyuan said, "I remember one summer in primary school, the weather was extremely hot, and I wanted to eat ice cream. My mother told me that if I wanted to eat I don’t want ice cream, so I finished all the math problems in the homework first. So I worked hard to do the problems in order to eat the ice cream quickly——In retrospect, I feel that this kind of motivation is very good, do you want to try it?”

Ye Ming smiled softly: "Okay, you go first."

"I'll say one, and then you say one, okay?" Li Xiyuan thought for a while and said, "My first wish is that you can buy me a big cake for my birthday every year in the future."

"You are really obsessed with cakes." Ye Ming said with a smile, "Then my first wish is to successfully complete the recording of "Shallow Sun". Agree with me to change the BE ending to HE, so this is the first HE radio drama we collaborated on."

"It turns out that the original text of "Qian Yang" is a tragedy. Fortunately, I didn't go to read the original text, otherwise I would definitely be tortured to death." Li Xiyuan said with a smile, "Then my second wish is to go on a long journey with you Travel, and then make a photo album of the photos along the way, as our anniversary."

Ye Ming was taken aback for a moment: "What anniversary?"

"Of course it would be best if there is a wedding anniversary." Li Xiyuan joked, "If there is no wedding anniversary, then the dating anniversary will be fine."

"Okay." Ye Ming readily agreed.He paused and said, "My second wish is to make a model according to your face. When I miss you, I keep touching that model. Slowly, I can outline you in my brain." Even with your facial features, you will be remembered forever."

"This method sounds good," Li Xiyuan agreed, "When I get old, don't touch me, just touch that model, so that I will always be so young in your heart."

"That can't be done. No matter how good the model is, it's not as good as the real person. No matter how old the real person is, it's still my Xiyuan."

"Tch, I can only talk sweetly." Li Xiyuan complained nonchalantly, and then said, "My third wish...well, my third wish is a bit greedy."

"What wish?"

"I hope my parents can accept you and we can get along like a family. Even if we can't live together every day because of work, at least we can go home once on weekends or holidays and eat a meal cooked by my mother. Of course, if possible, after your father retires and no longer has the strength to run around, we will take him over and be with my parents, so that at least they won't feel lonely."

Ye Ming was silent for a long time, as if he was recalling the dream that Li Xiyuan longed for.

After a while, he said in a low voice: "My third wish is also very greedy. I hope to be your legal partner, our love can be protected by the law, and the family's blessing; we can hold hands openly , Kiss, you can say I love you in front of everyone in three dimensions, not just in the online matching circle.”

Li Xiyuan imagined such a scene, and murmured in a low voice: "Such a life must be very beautiful."

"Yes, we can have true love freedom without being interfered by public opinion."

"But it seems impossible to become a legal partner in the country."

"It doesn't matter, we can wait slowly until the day our wish comes true."

Li Xiyuan smiled: "I hope we are still alive at that time."

Ye Ming also smiled: "Didn't you say before that as long as you have a dream, you can have the motivation to live."

"So when we are both gray-haired and old, we are still struggling to survive."

"It's not bad even if you are dying, at least you have a companion."

"Pfft, I'm sorry, I thought about it, and I really feel a little happy..." Li Xiyuan finally couldn't help laughing.

Ye Ming seemed to be talking about something, when Li Xiyuan suddenly heard the door of the study next door being opened.

"Ah, they came out," Li Xiyuan said, "Ye Ming, I'll hang up first, and I'll report the results to you later."

"Okay." Ye Ming paused, and added, "Come on."

"Well, come on." After hanging up the phone, Li Xiyuan took a deep breath, like a warrior facing life's challenges, he bravely opened the door and walked out.