Face Blindness Observation Report

When Li Xiyuan saw the drama post, he was eating a typed box lunch in front of the computer.

He swiped the mouse to read the comments one by one, and found that the expected fight did not appear. Everyone was attracted by the plot, and even after reaching the 250th floor, the content of the comments had already moved in the direction of honest plot discussion.

As for who is Hualufen and who is Erhuafen, anyway, everyone is wearing vests, no one knows anyone, and the atmosphere has become much more harmonious.

Li Xiyuan hadn't had time to express his feelings about this, when he suddenly heard someone knocking on the bedroom door.

He ran to open the door and found that the person who came was very familiar. He greeted with a smile and racked his brains...

"Hey, you haven't woken up yet, why are you looking at me with such weird eyes?" The other party shook his hand in front of him, "I'll just ask, how is your course paper doing? There's a month left."

"Emma, ​​paper!" Li Xiyuan suddenly slapped the back of his head and screamed.

The other party looked at him with disgust: "Li Xiyuan, have you completely forgotten about this?"

"I was busy with other things a while ago, and after a while..."

"Hey, I thought that someone who listens so carefully in class like you would be more active in writing papers than me. I originally wanted to come to you to ask for advice and experience. Now it seems that we are two brothers in trouble."

"I'll start writing tomorrow!" Li Xiyuan clenched his fists to express his determination.

"Tomorrow after tomorrow, there are so many tomorrows..." The other party walked away shaking his head.

After closing the door, Li Xiyuan thought hard for a while before he came back to his senses: "Oh, this guy is Zhang Yang." There is only one elective class a week, so I really can't remember him.

Then he resolutely closed the forum page, dug out the reference books he had borrowed from the library, and gritted his teeth to start writing tonight.

An hour later, Li Xiyuan lay down on the table in frustration, completely devoid of inspiration... _(:з」∠)_

Just when he was at a loss, the phone rang.

"Ye Ming?"

"Tomorrow is Saturday." Ye Ming said something, but there was no more text.

Li Xiyuan looked puzzled: "That's right. What's wrong?"

"Tell He Tai, let's go out to gather folk songs together tomorrow."

"Okay, he must be so happy if he knows."

Li Xiyuan was about to hang up, but Ye Ming added: "Remember, you are an assistant, so you have to come too."

Li Xiyuan looked at the information books spread all over his desk, and bit his pen in pain: "I'll forget it, I still have to write a thesis."

"Aren't you a junior, why are you starting to write your thesis now?"

"Course paper."

"About what?"

"The Observation Report on Prosopagnosia."

"..." Ye Ming was speechless.

"Why don't you speak?"

"Why do I feel that you seem to be very proud of yourself being face-blind?"

"Haha, I'm face-blind, I'm proud!"

"Young poor, you are not allowed to ask for leave tomorrow, you must come."

"Don't, big brother..."

"It's useless to call me uncle, you promised yourself, don't go back on your word."

Seeing that he couldn't accommodate, Li Xiyuan rolled his eyes: "Well, let me go tomorrow, but I want to ask you for a favor."

"What help?"

"Can you provide me with the case materials of patients with prosopagnosia? In terms of the specificity of symptoms, no one can compare to you..."

"...Li Xiyuan, are you courting death?" Ye Ming began to grind his teeth.

"Oh, take it easy and listen to me. As long as you are willing to provide me with the material, I... I will do whatever you ask me to do!"

Ye Ming's voice fell silent for a while, and he asked quietly, "Really?"

"Of course it's true. Once a word is spoken, it's hard to follow!"

"Oh, I hope you don't regret it."

"Yeah?" Li Xiyuan suddenly had a bad feeling.

On Saturday morning, Ye Ming met Li Xiyuan and He Taisui at the gate of the school as scheduled, then drove them to the suburbs and climbed a small hill on foot.

Along the way, He Taisui ran around holding the camera that Ye Ming lent him, taking pictures of everything he saw, and soon left the team and disappeared.

Li Xiyuan was afraid that He Taisui would get lost, so he looked around looking for someone while walking, Ye Ming couldn't stand it anymore: "I said you can't do it, He Tai is such a big man, can he still get lost?"

"He's not a worry to worry about. In the past, when the college organized summer practice, he was lost alone."

Ye Ming didn't speak, but turned to look at Li Xiyuan.

Li Xiyuan felt a little inexplicable: "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." Ye Ming looked away unnaturally, "I feel that your mentality of protecting the young is really weird for He Tai."

Li Xiyuan smiled nonchalantly: "We are all good buddies, we should take care of each other."

Ye Ming changed the subject: "I heard from you last time that He Tai is one of the few good friends of yours. Didn't you have any friends before you went to college?"

"I've made friends with you..." Li Xiyuan was half-spoken, and suddenly fell silent.

"What?" Ye Ming raised his eyebrows, keenly feeling that Li Xiyuan may also have some past that he doesn't want to recall.But Li Xiyuan didn't open his mouth, so he didn't ask any further.

Li Xiyuan was silent for a while, then spoke again, as if he had decided to tell the story: "Actually, I realized that I was different from others. It was when I was in primary school. Because I couldn't remember my classmates, I would often admit my mistakes People, made a lot of jokes in the class.

"But at that time, I didn't know it was a disease. I just thought it was my bad memory. After graduating from elementary school, because I hadn't contacted my former classmates for a long time, even if I met them later, I couldn't recognize them. Looking back later Speaking of it, compared to junior high school life, my primary school days have been smooth sailing."

"Did something happen in junior high?"

"After entering junior high school, I still couldn't remember the faces of my classmates, but in order not to make jokes, I tried not to greet people proactively. Gradually, my personality became more and more introverted. Then, I was called by the class next door. The boys are watching."

Ye Ming frowned: "Watch?"

"Children in that age group are often bullied. It may be because I am too introverted. People think that I seem to be easy to bully, so for a while, when I came home from school almost every day, I would be blocked in the alley. They either robbed me of my pocket money, or tore up my homework, or left my schoolbag on the ground with footprints all over it..."

Ye Ming looked at him in disbelief: "Aren't you going to tell the teacher, and just let them bully you?"

"I can't remember their faces," Li Xiyuan shrugged helplessly, "Because I don't belong to my class, I don't even know their names. This kind of feeling that they recognize me but I don't know them, really It's terrible. And because I want to cover up my flaws, I dare not tell the truth, so I just keep my head down and pretend nothing happened.

"So no matter how many times I was bullied, I still couldn't remember their faces. If I couldn't recognize them, I couldn't avoid them in advance, so the bullying happened again and again. After a long time, the whole grade was rumored, saying Li Xiyuan turned out to be a fool, no matter how he bullied him, he would not sue him.

"Later, my parents may have heard rumors from the teacher and called me over for questioning. They were so anxious that I told the whole story with sobs. My parents thought it was strange and thought I I had intellectual problems, so I took me to see a doctor, and I found out later that this disease is called prosopagnosia.

"At the same time, the doctor found that I had suffered from mild autistic symptoms due to being bullied for too long and under great psychological pressure, so the doctor suggested that I take a break from school for half a year and follow the doctor for psychological rehabilitation. It was also during that time , my psychiatrist helped me a lot by teaching me to correctly understand my condition and helping me find ways to overcome the social barriers caused by this condition.”

Ye Ming was a little curious: "Then how did you overcome it?"

"Actually, there is no special shortcut. I can only put in more effort than others. The facial features that normal people may remember in their minds after meeting once or twice, but I have to remember them dozens of times, even on the Internet. Hundred times.

"So later, whenever I entered a new environment and met a group of strangers, I would try to secretly get their roster and photos, and then hide and memorize their names by myself. After using this method, my Sure enough, the interpersonal relationship has improved a lot, and I no longer often make jokes, and I have become more confident and cheerful.

"However, when I was in high school, I still took a little precaution and didn't dare to get too close to someone, because I knew that I could remember these classmates because of the temporary memory of repeated contact. I have become good friends, but have been separated for a long time because I went to different universities. If I meet on the road, I will definitely not recognize each other. This will make the other party sad. It is better to keep a little distance from the beginning, so that even if you recognize each other in the future If you don’t come out, it won’t hurt too much.”

Ye Ming listened silently, and felt that Li Xiyuan in high school had many similarities with his present state of mind. No wonder he easily exposed his pretended indifference back then.

"Then why did you get so close to He Tai later? And you told him everything about your prosopagnosia?"

A warm smile floated on Li Xiyuan's face: "When I reported to the university on the first day, He Tai was a senior from the same department arranged by my tutor to receive us. He Tai is very enthusiastic and easily got along with everyone. .

"At that time, he found that my junior seemed a bit withdrawn. Every time I participated in group activities, I would sit alone. So he came to play with me every day, and forced me to participate in various activities and join the school club What.

"Once I was really annoyed by him, so I broke the jar and told him that I couldn't remember faces. No matter how close I got to him, I still couldn't recognize him after a few years of separation. He was stunned at that time. After a while, he yelled loudly: "Fuck, what a big deal I am, if I don't recognize you, then I don't recognize you. I can recognize you, isn't it enough?""

Ye Ming listened, and burst out laughing, thinking that it really is a typical He Taisui's style of handling things.

Li Xiyuan also laughed: "I didn't expect him to react that way. I was so moved for a while, but when I get along with him later, I will pour my heart out for him."

When Ye Ming heard the words "pick his heart and lungs", his heart was suddenly pulled.

"Li Xiyuan..." he called softly.

"Ok?"

"after……"

Before Ye Ming finished speaking, he suddenly saw He Taisui running over with his camera in the distance, and yelled, "Master, look, I took a lot of photos, please help me to see how I did!"

Seeing He Taisui who was sweating profusely and innocently came to ask for praise, Ye Ming squeezed his fists, took a deep breath, and resisted the urge to slap him on the face.