Face Blindness Observation Report

It's not good for him to make too much noise.

He rolled his eyes, looked left and right, he and Liao Bin were the only couple seats in the last row, so he got up and moved in front of Liao Bin, bit his lips hard, and then quickly sat back.

"Ouch!" Liao Bin woke up from the pain, rubbed his lips and muttered, "Who bit me?"

Chen Yining looked like she was watching the movie very attentively, and without turning her head, she taunted, "Who bit you, you're having sex dreams."

Seven hours later, outside the cinema.

Sitting in the passenger seat, Chen Yining was still immersed in the sad movie just now, and asked quietly: "Liao Bin, tell me, which of us will die first?"

"You die first."

"What?!" Chen Yining got angry, and pointed at Liao Bin's nose, "Say it again!"

Liao Bin smiled, and stretched out his palm to wrap Chen Yining's fingers: "You idiot, you can neither cook nor do housework, you have very little social experience, you can't take care of yourself at all, if I die, Leave you alone in this world, and no one will help you when you are bullied. Why don't you let me stay behind you, I will take care of your funeral, and I will bear the pain alone .”

Chen Yining looked at him for a moment, sniffed, and the original arrogance suddenly subsided.

Liao Bin rubbed his hair: "Xiao Ning, are you very moved?"

"I'm touched by your sister," Chen Yining turned her head to look out the window, "You can't do anything else with your mouth, you can fool people with sweet talk."

"Who said that besides sweet talk, my mouth can also eat, sing, and serve people. The night before yesterday, you were naughty..." Before Liao Bin finished speaking, Chen Yining rushed over and covered her tightly mouth.

☆The play within the play "Spring Dreams Without Trace"

(05)

A prophecy.

Liao Bin got himself drunk, and his mind was full of these four words.

He underestimated the extent of his attachment to Chen Yining, and also overestimated his ability to bear the pain alone after losing Chen Yining.

If time could be turned back, he would rather he hadn't said the bastard words "you die before me", he would hug Chen Yining and say, you won't die first, and neither will I, we two will grow old together, Then hold hands and go down to Jiuquan together.

If a wish can be fulfilled by talking about it, he can take the trouble to say it a thousand or ten thousand times.

But there is no if in this world, and time will not go back. Chen Yining has already left, no matter how many times he gets himself drunk, there is no way to really hug him again.

Liao Bin locked himself in the apartment for several days, drunk and daydreaming every day, until all the wine and food reserves at home were exhausted, and he reluctantly went out.

When he came into contact with the sunlight outside the house, he raised his arms to cover his sight, and suddenly felt that a century had passed.In the outside world, people come and go, looking hurried, no one wants to do anything with him anymore, and he seems to no longer adapt to this society.

"Liao Bin!" Someone behind him called him.

Liao Bin looked back and found that the person chasing him was Zhao Yong, Chen Yining's former attending doctor.

"Liao Bin, I was going to look for you at your house, and I met you here unexpectedly." Zhao Yong had a sunny smile on his face, which made Liao Bin feel very dazzling.

"What do you want from me?" Liao Bin asked coldly.

Zhao Yong did not answer him immediately, but walked up to him and looked him up and down: "I said, Liao Bin, have you never been out of the house during this period? The back is familiar, I really don't recognize you."

Liao Bin was not in the mood to deal with him, and asked again with a cold face: "What do you want from me?"

"Oh, it's like this. When I was sorting out the patient's information yesterday, I suddenly found some relics left by Yi Ning. I thought, maybe you will need these, so..."

Liao Bin grabbed his arm: "Where is the thing?"

"Still in the hospital, why don't you go with me?"

Liao Bin agreed without saying a word.As long as it's Chen Yining's stuff, he doesn't look like he's left behind.

Along the way, Zhao Yong kept trying to communicate with Liao Bin, but Liao Bin always used simple monosyllabic words to perfunctory him, which made Zhao Yong feel very helpless, thinking that Liao Bin was already mildly autistic. Is it really okay to be so decadent?

After arriving at the hospital, Zhao Yong did not take Liao Bin to his office, but took him to another consultation room. Liao Bin had been looking down and wandering, but when he realized that something was wrong, he asked: "Doctor Zhao, what are you doing?" The one who brought me here is...?"

"Oh, this is the office of a colleague of mine. My place is messy, so some important items are stored here with my colleague." He said, and motioned, "You sit first, I will look for things, and I will be there in a while." Bring it here for you."

Liao Bin thought he couldn't fool himself, so he sat down on the sofa beside him and waited. While waiting, he looked around and found that there were tea tables, sofas, and recliners in this consultation room. The consultation room with the cold equipment is quite tall.

He wondered why the hospital had such an out of place place, but before he could think about it, Zhao Yong had already come over with a small square box: "Liao Bin, Yi Ning's belongings are all here, please take a look."

Liao Bin opened the lid of the box and looked through it, and found that most of them were small items that Chen Yining carried with him during his hospitalization. Among them, a small notebook made of kraft paper caught his attention.

"This is..." Liao Bin picked up the notebook and flipped through it, and found that except for two strings of numbers written on the first page, the rest was empty.Moreover, Liao Bin felt that this notebook looked familiar, but he couldn't remember where he saw it.

Zhao Yong explained: "Yi Ning hid this notebook close to his body during his hospitalization. On the night when his condition suddenly deteriorated, he entrusted this notebook to me and said that if he couldn't make it through, he asked me to hand over the notebook to you. , tell you to keep it well. I think this notebook should have some special meaning."

Liao Bin frowned and stared at the two series of numbers for a while, and gradually saw some tricks - the second series of numbers seemed to be a combination of Chen Yining and his birthday; but the first series of numbers really had no rules to follow.

When he looked up again, he found that Zhao Yong had left at some point, and he was the only one left in the whole room, which was strangely quiet.

"Doctor Zhao?" He stood up and called a few times, but no one answered him.

He wondered if Zhao Yong was busy with something, so he put away the box and planned to leave, but at this moment, there were footsteps outside the door.

"Doctor Zhao?" Liao Bin blurted out.

A young doctor in a white coat came to the door, paused in his footsteps, and then smiled: "My surname is Song, not Zhao."

Liao Bin was stunned for a moment, and it took him a while to realize that this might be the colleague Zhao Yong mentioned.

The young doctor did not show any surprise at Liao Bin's appearance, walked up to him, stretched out his hand and said, "You are Mr. Liao Bin, right? My name is Song Xinshu. You can call me Doctor Song or Xiao Song .”

Out of politeness, Liao Bin extended his hand and shook him: "I don't know if Dr. Song has seen Dr. Zhao. If he has already left, I think I too..."

"Don't worry, since Mr. Liao is here, why don't we sit down and have a chat?"

"Talking?" Liao Bin looked at Song Xinshu suspiciously, always feeling that the spring-like smile on this person's face looked very suspicious.

"Mr. Liao, don't you know what this place is?" Song Xinshu said, pointing to the house number.

Liao Bin looked in the direction he was pointing, and was suddenly dumbfounded—there were five big characters clearly written on the door plate: "Psychological Consultation Room".

"I think I'd better take my leave first." After Liao Bin said, he picked up the box and started to leave.

"Is Mr. Liao very afraid of me?" Song Xinshu didn't stop him, but just asked lightly, "Afraid that I will erase your memory of your lover?"

Liao Bin paused, and instantly realized that he was being tricked by Zhao Yong. He turned around and glared at Song Xinshu holding back his anger: "I don't know what you and Dr. Zhao are plotting, but I don't need any psychological counseling. Thank you for your kindness."

Song Xinshu smiled lightly: "You said the word 'thank you' with such gnash teeth, I didn't feel your gratitude at all."

He said, his eyes fell on Liao Bin's hand holding the box: "You are holding that box very hard. I can understand that you care about the things in it, or that you care about it. Afraid of them being taken away. This box, like all your memories of your lover - if you really believe that your love is faithful, you will not be afraid of it being taken away."

Liao Bin squinted his eyes: "You don't have to use aggressive tactics against me, I won't be fooled by you."

Song Xinshu showed a harmless smile, and spread his hands: "I'm just analyzing based on facts. Mr. Liao, I found that you have inexplicable hostility towards psychological counseling, and you have a very strong resistance mentality. Previously, Mr. Hu told me When introducing patients, I have been waiting for you, but you have not come, I think, maybe you lost the business card after you got it. Now Dr. Zhao contacted me again, it can be seen that they are very concerned about you and want to help You, why are you so repulsive?"

Liao Bin said with a tense expression: "You just want me to forget about Chen Yining, I won't do what you want."

Song Xinshu laughed: "Mr. Liao, I think you have misunderstood. I am just a counselor, not a hypnotist, and I am not a thief who steals memories. I just want to help you calm your emotions, and I have no ability to deal with your memory. What are you doing, are you a little alarmist?"

Liao Bin's tense expression loosened slightly, he hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Can you... help me?"

Song Xinshu thought for a while, and made an analogy: "For example... help you find some things that you originally owned, but you accidentally lost."

☆The play within the play "Spring Dreams Without Trace"

(06)

Because Song Xinshu promised not to take away his memory, nor to erase Chen Yining's existence in his heart, Liao Bin gradually let go of his guard and accepted Song Xinshu's help.

Because he was very concerned about the notebook that Chen Yining left behind, and he wanted to know what was in that notebook, or in other words, what was there that he ignored.

Liao Bin lay down on the recliner according to Song Xinshu's instructions.Then Song Xinshu closed the curtains, dimmed the lights, and guided him to close his eyes slowly and softly, slowly diving into the countercurrent of memory recall.

—— "Liao Bin, I may not have much time left, so please kiss me."

——"Liao Bin, the doctor said that I have rectal cancer, which is in the advanced stage... Liao Bin, I am very scared, I don't want to die..."

——"Liao Bin, I've been feeling unwell these days, am I sick?"

——"Liao Bin, it will be the seventh anniversary of our acquaintance in three months, don't forget like last time!"

——"Liao Bin, what gift do you want for the Qixi Festival? Let me tell you first, I won't write any more love letters, the last letter I wrote made my teeth ache."

——"Liao Bin, I can't find my password. I remember which book I wrote down the password in..."

——"Liao Bin, I decided to apply for a QQ mailbox. If I have something to say in the future, if I am too embarrassed to tell you in person, I will write it in the email and send it to you. How about it?"

——"Liao Bin..."

——"Liao Bin..."

Liao Bin opened his eyes suddenly, his chest heaved and he seemed very excited.

Song Xinshu asked from the side: "What, did you remember anything?"

Liao Bin didn't speak, just opened the lid of the box to find the brown paper notebook, and asked eagerly: "Doctor Song, can you lend me your computer to go online?"

Song Xinshu shrugged: "The computer is on, please do what you want."

"Thank you."

Liao Bin sat down in front of the computer, opened the QQ mailbox, entered the first string of numbers in the QQ number column, and then entered the second string of numbers in the password column, and the login was successful.

Chen Yining is a lazy person. Although he once vowed to write an email to Liao Bin, in fact he rarely logged in to the mailbox.

Therefore, except for one email in the draft box and one email in the outbox, the rest are all kinds of advertising emails in the inbox.

Liao Bin clicked on the development box, and the email inside was the so-called "love letter" that Chen Yining wrote to him on Valentine's Day at the beginning of this year. Although the email had only a few nasty words, Liao Bin had read it many times. It has been treasured in my mailbox all the time, and it is marked with a five-pointed star.

Then, he opened the draft box again, and found an unsent email lying in it, with the title: "Leave it to my dear".

Liao Bin's heart skipped a beat, and he clicked the mouse to open the content of the email——

"Liao Bin, in fact, I originally wanted to set a sending time for this email and then send it to your mailbox, but I don't know when I will leave. It doesn't matter if I send it early or late. Appropriate, so I can only save it in my draft box first, I hope you can see it when you sort out my belongings.

"Liao Bin, do the math carefully. We've known each other for almost seven years, right? Remember last year's anniversary, I even bickered with you and said that we definitely won't survive the seventh year. I didn't expect that I was really hit by what I said. , my damn crow mouth.

"Two months ago, when I heard from the doctor that I had advanced rectal cancer, I almost collapsed. I didn't dare to see you all afternoon, so I hid in the study with my medical certificate and cried. I know how to tell you this. I even thought that instead of watching myself slowly die from the disease, I might as well jump off the roof of the building and kill everything.

"But later, I dismissed this idea because I couldn't bear you. Since I only have two months left in my life, I can only cherish the precious time of these two months and watch every minute and every second. Thinking of you, remembering you, even if I go to another world, I can't forget you.

"Liao Bin, I admit that I have a bad temper and often yell at you for no reason, but you have never turned against me once. I know, you love me very much, maybe there is no other person in the world A person can love me more than you.

"Actually, I'm not a dissatisfied person. I often reflect on my words and deeds in the dead of night, wondering whether I have wronged you again, abused you again, and whether I should treat you better next time. Stop throwing your temper at you so casually...but I always think a lot and do very little.

"You cook every meal at home, every cleaning is done by you alone, all living expenses are borne by you, and I, like a real rice bug, eat Yours, who lives with you, is pampered by you, and bosses you around.

"I know I have a lot of bad habits, I want to change, but I can't. I often think, now that you love me, you can tolerate these shortcomings of mine. Attracting you, am I going to be kicked out by you?

"But now, I am completely relieved. I have this disease and I don't have many days to live, so I will always be engraved in your memory as a young man. I don't have to worry about being abandoned by you one day. That's great, everyone's happy!... Well, I know you're going to call me stupid again.

"Actually, I'm not happy at all, but in life, there are countless unhappy things. I have to think of some reasons to be happy, to make myself happy, right? You can just treat me as self-consolation.

"Liao Bin, sometimes I look back and think about it, I'm actually not that unlucky, at least I met you and lived with you for nearly seven years as I wished; at least your parents and I are very open-minded, they acquiesced to us and occasionally ask us to have dinner; at least the boss of your company has a clear distinction between public and private, and he knows you are gay, so he will not look at you with colored glasses; at least our friends are very tolerant and treat us very easy-going, It never made us feel uncomfortable. Thinking about it this way, aren't we particularly happy?

"You once said to me that God is fair. When he opens a door for someone, he closes a window. I think maybe my good luck has been used up in the first 20 years , so God intends to take my life hereafter as compensation. You see, even God is jealous of my good luck, so what can I complain about?

"But Liao Bin, what should you do after I'm gone? I guess you must be very depressed. This is normal. If you are not depressed at all, I am not happy. However, being depressed for a while means It’s all right, I received the intention. After this period of time, what should you do? You still have to go on with your life. It’s not popular to die for love these days, and I won’t wait for you at the same place. So don't follow me, you won't find me if you come.

"Okay, Lala Zaza said so much, it's much longer than last time's love letter, you love to praise me! Anyway, I just want to tell you that I've figured it out, and you should figure it out as soon as possible. Don't hang yourself on this tree of mine in your life, and look at the scenery outside. Of course, I don't mean to ask you to forget me completely, just a little... Leave me a small place in your heart, secretly, don't let you The next one knows.

"Finally, I wish: Ankang. I love you Ning."

After reading the email, Liao Bin fell down in front of the computer, tears streaming down his face, and wept bitterly.

But Song Xinshu had already closed the door empathetically and left, leaving him room to vent his sadness.

(end)

In the next half a month, Liao Bin lived a busy and fulfilling life.

He first carefully sorted out all of Chen Yining's belongings, and classified them according to nature, keeping the part that he and Chen Yining jointly owned, and then returned the part that Chen Yining owned exclusively to Chen Yining's parents, especially He burned a copy of Chen Yining's many recent personal photos and VCR, and sent them to the two old people respectfully.

Because he felt that the pain of bereavement of the two old people was not much less than his. As Chen Yining's former lover, he could only do his best to heal the pain in the old people's hearts.

While arranging the relics, he also reviewed the bits and pieces that happened since he and Chen Yining met, and revisited many places they visited together in the past, and took pictures of those scenes that had left good memories. And assembled into a thick photo album.

Although the people are no longer there and the scenery is just a scenery, Liao Bin feels that as long as he still remembers Chen Yining in his heart, these photos will have life and become lively.

Half a month later, Liao Bin cleaned himself up and went back to work in the company.

When he walked into the general manager's office, Li Yue was still waiting for him with a smile on his face, and greeted him respectfully: "Mr. Liao, good morning."

"Morning." Liao Bin nodded to him.

"Mr. Liao, this is the backlog of documents for more than half a month, please have a look."

"Okay, thank you for your hard work." Liao Bin took the documents and browsed through them one by one.

"If Mr. Liao has no other orders, I'll go out first." Li Yue said, turning around to leave.

Liao Bin raised his head and stopped him: "Xiao Li, wait a minute, I have something to tell you."

Li Yue turned around and looked at him in confusion.

"Well, last time I was in front of my house, I didn't have a good attitude. I apologize to you, and I hope you don't take it to heart."

Li Yue smiled: "I don't remember that incident for a long time. Mr. Liao, do you want to tell me about this?"

"What's more... After more than half a month, I want to understand a lot of things. I used to be too stubborn, so the things I did were very extreme. Now, I have figured it out and let go of some things. I also kept some. Xiao Ning persuaded me not to hang myself on a tree, which I think makes sense. However, I don’t intend to force myself to start the next relationship right away. Whoever I meet and fall in love with in the future, it’s up to fate .Maybe I can meet someone who makes my heart move again, maybe I will never meet in this life, and I will not be entangled in this kind of thing anymore. So..."

"So?" Li Yue frowned.

"I hope that Secretary Li will not hang himself on a tree, and take a look at the scenery outside. For things like feelings, let's go."

Li Yueding looked at Liao Bin for a long time, and then smiled: "Mr. Liao, have you just stepped out of the shadows and started to enlighten others? In fact, as long as you can look away, can I find the tree that belongs to me?" Tree, just like what you said, let it go." He said, bowing slightly, "If there is no other order, I will go out to do something first."

Liao Bin nodded: "OK."

Li Yue turned around and walked to the door. The moment he grabbed the doorknob, he turned his head and smiled at Liao Bin: "Mr. Liao, welcome back, sincerely."

Liao Bin smiled back: "Thank you."

-Finish-