Yameng who guards the transformation of Sweetheart

Rui, I said sorry countless times in my heart, really, I didn't mean to hurt you, I really couldn't help myself, in fact, I already knew that you had investigated me, I didn't blame me, really Yes, it's just for your own protection, everyone will protect themselves, so I don't blame you.

I also gradually forgot because of too many things. When I remembered it again, I found that this is a good material to use.I know that sooner or later, I will have a real understanding with Kaoru Chihiro.

But when the time comes, I don't know if I will return safely. I don't want you to worry. Although it is a very happy thing to have someone who cares about yourself, that kind of happiness may sometimes be mixed with bone-eroding pain. do not want to have.

You will care about me, like a sister, no, it should be said like a real sister, I respect you, love you, this will not change, but what I don't want is that one day you will be hurt because of me .

Although I believe that you have the ability to protect yourself, that kind of self-protection is only limited to some human beings. In this world, there are too many people who are strong and stronger than us.

Moreover, you are the one who is transformed into the guardian sweetheart, so in order to protect you, I can only make you feel disappointed in me and make you think that I am not worthy of your devotion, because I don’t want you to be mine weakness.

Moreover, I also want to sever ties with some necessary people, because they are all my weaknesses. I can’t recognize my former friends now, because I don’t think I’m strong enough to protect the people I want to protect. I’m not a strong person. By.

A truly strong person is lonely. He has no emotions, no friends, and no one he wants to protect. That's why he is called a strong person, because they have no scruples and can only do their best.

Just because there are not many such people, it should be said that I don't have enough courage to give up all of this, I don't have enough faith, which may make it impossible for me to hit Chihiro Kaoru, if it is not because of this belief, the current self It may be a ray of soul, blown to all parts of the world with the wind, but it is not happy, because there is hatred in the heart.

Limo, I don't expect you to forgive me. Although the words are not particularly vicious, but for two people who were once close, such words are also very hurtful. Although I know it hurts you and your heart hurts, please believe that my heart is not Not easier than you.

Of course, I can't tell you these words. After you hear them, you will continue to be friends with me without hesitation, even if you will be hurt. I don't want to do this. Your happiness is my happiness, Limo, As long as you don't get hurt, I can silently guard you behind you.

But in the end, I still hurt you, Limo, no matter how many reasons I have, no matter how many excuses, no matter how persuasive I am, I still hurt you, this is an undeniable fact, even if I am not in own true emotions.

Rimo, if Chihiro Kaoru and I get to know each other, if you want, I will continue to be your friend. I will be your friend for the rest of my life. If you don’t leave, I will never give up, but the premise is that I am still alive of.

In the fight with Chihiro Kaoru, I have almost no chance of winning. Chihiro Group's time in Japan is not a year or two. It has a long-term running-in process. It will take time to bring him down.

In fact, in my heart, I still worry about Chidou the most. I am afraid that Chidou will be hurt by Chihiro Kaoru because of me. It's not that I don't believe in Jidou's ability. means.

In the eyes of Chihiro Kaoru, whom I haven't seen for four years, I can clearly see shrewdness. The phrase "no evil, no business" is tailor-made for Chihiro Kaoru. For money, you can do anything.

However, for Jidou, now Jidou has become much smarter, and can detect any subtle expressions of yours, so I can't face Jidou face to face like I did with Limo, maybe I didn't achieve my goal, and even betrayed myself It's too risky, so all I can do is to alienate Gebai and Jidou.

Even if I have tens of millions of reluctance, I still have to give up. If you are willing to give up, you will gain, and what you get will eventually be lost.Therefore, I gave up the love and friendship that I think are the most precious, and hope that I can become a strong person, a person who can be invincible and abandon my own selfishness!

In my heart, I silently recited thousands of times, tens of millions of times, "I'm sorry", I didn't mean to repent or pray, but I just hope that you can forget me and the Yameng who once hurt you .

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