Night Labyrinth

Today is Lu Fei's wedding, and she invited us to arrive earlier, but I still waited until the time was almost up before going out.

Li Han just went out to take a taxi, while I stood in front of the mirror and straightened my hair.

My complexion looks pretty good, just a little dark circles, but who doesn't in this society now.

We got off the train last night, and I didn't go to see Lu Fei, I directly found a hotel with him and stayed first.

This is the first time I slept with Li Han on the same bed, I don't care, he is a little nervous.

Later, I didn't care about him, so I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

But in fact, I couldn't sleep at all. At night, I heard Li Han calling me, "Shu Ling, Shu Ling..."

I pretended to be asleep and ignored him, and then he became quiet.

I don't know when I fell asleep, I only know that Li Han woke me up in the morning.

He approached me and smiled, "Little lazy pig, get up and have breakfast soon."

"Oh." I replied and got up from the bed to wash up.

After eating the breakfast bought by Li Han, I stood at the window and opened the curtains.

Today's weather is very good, the sun is bright and cloudless, looking at the streets and buildings outside the window, I can't help but think, is this the place where Lu Fei grew up?

She's 26 now, and so am I.

Our small thoughts back then are still piled deep in our memory, and so many years have passed in a flash.

Time is really a terrible thing. Those who once cared about it so much are gradually worn away, and some things that want to be worn away can't be worn away.

I, Shuling, am 26 years old, have a stable job, a boyfriend, and may get married in the future.

This is my life.

Well, the life I didn't suddenly realize until two years ago.

In fact, I thought I would be different, because I knew from a very young age that I was different from others.

It was around the fifth grade of elementary school that I realized that I actually liked girls.

At that time, I didn't feel panic or anything, I just simply felt that I was different from everyone.

Later, when I was in junior high school, I had a close relationship with my female deskmate. We usually went to and from school together, played and did homework together. I thought I liked her very much, so I said, "I like you, let's be together."

She thought about it for a while, then nodded and smiled and said to me, "Okay."

After that, our relationship has not changed much. We still go to school together, play and do homework together, but when a boy shows up to her, I will go over and say, "Hey, she is my wife." At this time she He took my hand and smiled at the boy, "Yes, Shu Ling is my husband."

In fact, children know what to love and what to like, but it's like playing house.

After graduating from junior high school, we "broke up" naturally, and then we gradually lost contact.

When I entered high school, my schoolwork became busy. I studied hard, and my ranking rushed to the top of the grade.

After a long time, I found that there was one person who was always ahead of me, and even once I got the second grade in the exam, and she was firmly on the top of the grade.

I looked at that name and couldn't help but wonder what kind of person that would be.

Her name is He Yuwei, and she is in another class on our floor.

Although the two were very close, they never met.

This situation continued until the second semester of high school.

That day the school organized us student cadres to have a meeting. I was sitting in the classroom when I heard someone shout, "Hey, Yuwei, come here."

Turning around, I saw a girl with a pink bow tie. She was smiling and walking towards the girl who called her just now. I thought to myself, so this is "He Yuwei".

Later, we started a meeting, and the teacher asked a question while driving, and then clicked on He Yuwei to answer.I saw her stand up, her face was a little red, she seemed very nervous, and I couldn't help but think that the first grade is nothing more than that.

But then she made me change my opinion. Although she was nervous, she answered clearly. I listened to her answer and felt that every sentence was like hitting my heart. The teacher praised her very much. When she sat down, everyone They all applauded.

I looked at her seriously, thinking that this person is actually quite powerful.

From then on, I began to pay attention to He Yuwei consciously or unconsciously.

And the meaningless weekly student cadre regular meeting also began to make me look forward to it.

Gradually, He Yuwei and I can be regarded as nodding acquaintances, and occasionally we will chat for a while when we meet.

I also gradually realized that I fell in love with her.

I'm not a procrastinator, at least not then.

So I spent the night writing a love letter and asking someone to deliver it to her.

Then the morning after she received the love letter, I suddenly discovered the seriousness of the matter.

Everyone looked at me like a monster, and He Yuwei also began to alienate me. There were two times when we met by chance and there was no one else, she stared at me in horror, turned her head and ran away.

From my initial ignorance to later disappointment to deep fear, I finally realized something.

Obviously when I was in elementary school, I didn't think there was anything wrong with this matter, and when I was in junior high school, I got along very well with my deskmate and no one made irresponsible remarks. Why did many things change when I arrived in high school?

None of my classmates stopped talking to me, and they whispered softly when I passed by.

I tried my best to ignore it, tried my best to devote all my energy to my studies, and tried my best to keep improving my grades.

So I was still a good kid in the eyes of my teachers and parents.

This situation improved at the beginning of the third year of high school.

Because a boy named Wang Ziming was transferred to our class. He is a repeat student who has already passed the college entrance examination once.

The teacher put him next to my seat, and he smiled and introduced himself to me. He said, "Hi, my name is Wang Ziming, what's your name?"

I looked at his smile and thought that it had been a long time since anyone in class had spoken to me like this.

Then I said to him, "Hello, my name is Shuling."

Prince Naruto lived up to his name, he really had a prince-like brilliance, and this brilliance almost stunned all the girls in the class.

So when Wang Ziming and I were getting closer, someone secretly told him behind his back, "Actually Shuling is gay".

In fact, I know it all, but I don't care, so what?It's nothing more than one more person who hates me. Anyway, there are already so many, and I don't care about one more.

However, Wang Ziming's attitude was beyond my expectation. He still talked to me, smiled at me, and discussed exercises with me, as if he had never heard what others said about me.

Once in physical education class, everyone else went out to play, and he and I stayed in the classroom to do the questions. I couldn't help asking him, "Why do you want to be friends with me?"

He froze for a moment, then smiled and asked, "You are my deskmate, the first person I met after I came to this class, why don't I want to be friends with you?"

I looked at him with a natural look, hesitated before saying, "You don't know them... what do they say about me?"

Hearing that Prince Ming laughed even more happily, I was a little angry and wanted to leave my seat and ignore him.

But he stopped me and said, "I know all about it, but what does that matter, I think you are a very good friend, so that's fine."

I looked at his expression, he was so serious, at that moment I decided, I am committed to this friend!

But in fact, our friendship only lasted until the end of the college entrance examination. I asked him which university he applied to on the day he filled out his volunteer application. .

He looked a little silent, and then he said lightly, "No, not even the winter and summer vacations."

I was taken aback and noticed something was wrong with him, so I asked quickly, "What did you just say?"

He raised his head and looked at me with a kind of forbearable sadness in his eyes. He said, "From today onwards, we are no longer friends."

I felt like my heart fell to a cliff. I questioned him why, and asked him that no matter what others say about me, as long as he thinks I'm a good friend, that's enough!

I grabbed his collar excitedly, but he just said softly, "I'm sorry, I always thought they were lying to me."

I let go of him in a daze, and watched him get up from the chair, and said to me, "You understand." Then he walked out.

I haven't seen him since.

And I began to understand that when we are hurt by others, we may also hurt others intentionally or unintentionally.

When I entered university, I no longer casually mentioned my orientation to others. Life is so scattered, so what else can I say.

I majored in Chinese Language and Literature in the Department of Chinese Language and Literature, and I was surrounded by girls who were more refined.I live in a top bunk for four people, and there is little B on the bottom.The upper berth on the opposite side is Little A, and the lower berth is Lu Fei.

I've never mentioned my sexuality to anyone, and it's not meant to be hidden, it's just unnecessary.

I don't plan to like anyone, I think it's good to live in peace like this.

But if I don't mention it, it doesn't mean others won't mention it.

Not long after the start of my sophomore year, I felt something strange about Lu Fei.

At that time, she said that she was going to study art, and later she said that a senior sister whom fellow villagers would know introduced another senior sister to join her.

Later, I discovered her excitement and anxiety every time she mentioned the senior girl named "He Lin".

I was sensitively aware that she might have fallen in love with that person, but I also thought that maybe it was just my own carelessness.

Then one day, I pretended to ask unintentionally, and I said, "Lu Fei, don't you like that He Lin?"

It was in the dormitory at that time, I, little A, and little B were all there, and the evening fire was burning in the sky, and Lu Fei had just returned from the studio.

I saw Lu Fei's face turn red, and then she turned her head slightly.

But what I didn't expect was that she raised her head and smiled the next moment, and said, "That's right, I just fell in love with He Lin."

Her smiling face was so bright, so frank and serious, without a trace of embarrassment or embarrassment.

I watched the twilight reflected on her face outside the window, and suddenly felt that this girl was so dazzling.

Immediately, she told the story of her falling in love with He Lin in the excited inquiry of Little A and Little B.

But I looked at her and wondered why she could say such words so bravely, so frankly, and so simply.

I didn't share my sexual orientation together, because I felt that even if everything seems to be fine now, the situation may take a turn for the worse in the next second.And Lu Fei is just talking, who knows how long she can keep this matter in mind.

But the facts once again proved that I was wrong. No one had a hostile attitude towards Lu Fei, and until a long, long time after that, Lu Fei always remembered He Lin.

When it snowed for the first time that year, I met a senior named He Lin.

At that time, Lu Fei and I had just finished dinner and were walking from the cafeteria to the dormitory.

After a slippery road section, Lu Fei hung on my arm and yelled.

We were joking with each other when we heard someone call Lu Fei's name.

I turned around and saw Senior Sister Song Qian whom Lu Fei met at the hometown meeting was walking towards us together with another girl with short hair.

As soon as Lu Fei saw them, he immediately bounced off me and let go of my arm that had been holding me.

Song Qian asked what we were playing, and Lu Fei quickly explained that the road was a bit slippery just now, but her eyes were on the girl next to Song Qian.

I thought this was probably the "He Lin" she kept talking about.

Then Song Qian asked again, "I just heard what you said to overthrow it, isn't that what you told me about the little attack and the little shou?"

This time Lu Fei was more anxious, she waved her hands hastily, and said, "No, I'm just kidding."

I saw that her face was turning red with anxiety, so I wanted to help her out. I looked at the short-haired girl who hadn't spoken since just now, and asked, "Is this Senior He Lin?"

I looked at the girl, her facial features were delicate and delicate, but her eyes were indifferent and alienated.

She nodded politely at me and said "I am."

I think I suddenly understand why Lu Fei is so happy and so sad every time she mentions her.

Then I said, "Lu Fei always tells me that you are very good at drawing."

Then she talked about the award again, and said that Lu Fei's paintings were not bad either.

And Lu Fei immediately blushed when she heard the words, and she said, "No, Mr. He Lin is really good at drawing."

I saw that her head was getting lower and lower, while the girl named He Lin on the opposite side just watched quietly, her eyes were indifferent.

I suddenly felt aggrieved for Lu Fei, so when Song Qian said they were going to have dinner and asked if we had eaten, I replied before Lu Fei, "I have eaten, and I am going back to the dormitory."

Then Song Qian said, "Then let's go." And that He Lin walked to the cafeteria first.

Lu Fei kept staring at that person, but that person didn't look back.

It wasn't until Song Qian and the others disappeared that Lu Fei turned his head. I couldn't help but wonder if Lu Fei looked at that person's back like this every time.

I pulled her arm and said, "Go back." But my heart ached.

Lu Fei liked that person with a passion that everyone could see, and that person rejected Lu Fei with a coldness that everyone could see.

Lu Fei returned to the dormitory a little bored.

I wanted to comfort her, but I didn't know how to say it.

However, after a while, I saw Lu Fei take out the drawing board and start drawing. I walked over and asked her why she suddenly drew.

She smiled and said, "He Lin said that my painting is not bad, but I know she is just talking casually, and I want to really surpass her one day."

Looking at her smiling face, I immediately understood that some people don't need comfort from others, and she will bandage the wound by herself, and then continue to move forward bravely.

After that, Lu Fei still fell in love with He Lin silently, and I joked a few words from time to time, asked about their recent situation, and then watched her full of hope for a while, and despair for a while.

I think Lu Fei must be working hard.

I wonder how she is not tired.

Why didn't you let go after struggling for so long.

Then one day Lu Fei was happily typing on the computer for a long time, while listening to something with headphones on.

I leaned over and asked what I was doing, I was having such a good time.

Lu Fei replied, "He Lin's birthday is two days away, and I'm going to give her a song. I changed the lyrics of the Divine Comedy. Does it rhyme?"

In fact, Lu Fei is quite creative in some things, and her creativity seems to be fully stimulated when she encounters He Lin.

I looked at those lyrics, they were very catchy and ingenious, so I asked, "How did you come up with it, didn't you spend a lot of effort?"

"No, I suddenly thought of this idea, and then wrote it out of nowhere." Lu Fei raised his face, rather proud of himself.

And I couldn't help but feel a tinge of envy looking at her.

I think I'm a little jealous of He Lin. She just does nothing indifferently, but she can get a crush who is so dedicated to Lu Fei.

So I said, "Well, it's good, she should be very happy to see it."

After I finished speaking, I went back to my bed, lay on it and watched Lu Fei continue to sit on the lower bunk opposite and tap on the computer.

I thought to myself, if only I could have such a suitor, if someone likes me so much, even if it is just a relationship, it would be a very good thing.

On He Lin's birthday a few days later, Lu Fei compiled the content into an MMS and sent it.

I sent it early in the morning, but He Lin didn't come back until evening.

I felt aggrieved again for Lu Fei, but she directly called back the next moment she received the text message.

I heard Lu Fei talking on the phone in a tense voice that was almost out of breath, and I thought that it was a sudden impulse without thinking about what to say, so I dialed it.

Lu Fei said "Happy Birthday" to He Lin in a very gentle tone, and the fire in my heart came up unconsciously when I heard it.

After she hung up the phone, I walked over and asked directly, "What do you like about He Lin?"

Lu Fei froze for a moment, then turned her head to look at me seriously, and she said, "Actually, at first I just thought she was polite, indifferent, focused on doing things, and had a nice voice, but then I gradually realized that there was something in her that was not open to outsiders. Yes, I think she is actually a bit lonely... Maybe it's just my illusion, but I really want to open that door, even if I can't do it in the end, I still want to try..."

It wasn't until much later that I realized that I probably fell in love with Lu Fei at that time, but at that time I just joked, "Heart of Our Lady~"

And Lu Fei followed me with a smile and said, "Yes~"

Lu Fei continued to be entangled with He Lin, and I gradually paid more and more attention to their affairs.

Another incident happened on May 21.

It was a bit hot that day, and there was no class in the afternoon. Lu Fei went to take a shower at noon, and the phone was left in the dormitory.

After one o'clock, I heard her cell phone ring, it should be a text message.

When she came back half an hour later, I reminded her, "Your phone rang just now."

She took a look at it, and said doubtfully, "It belongs to He Lin."

I know that He Lin basically never took the initiative to send her any messages, so I'm also a little curious about the content.

Then I heard Lu Fei laughing happily, saying, "It's a greeting text message, saying that it's hot and pay attention to heatstroke prevention. But why did you suddenly think of sending this?"

It suddenly occurred to me that that day was May 5st, and He Lin, who had always been indifferent, sent a greeting text message to Lu Fei at this time. Even if the content was ordinary, it would be misleading, right?

Lu Fei looked at it for a while, then put down the phone, and took a towel to wipe his hair, as if he didn't realize the issue of the date at all.

I thought about reminding her, but under the influence of an inexplicable emotion, I decided not to tell her.

At this time, Little A suddenly asked Lu Fei, "What time did you post it?"

While brushing her hair, Lu Fei picked up her phone and glanced, "It's past one, she should be in class soon."

My heart skipped a beat.

Then I heard Little A ask again, "What time is one o'clock?"

Lu Fei glanced again, "14 points, what's wrong?"

After she finished speaking, she raised her head to look at Little A on the upper bunk, but her expression froze in the next second.

Immediately afterwards, Little A began to shout excitedly, "5211314! He Lin loves you forever and ever!"

Little B also yelled, and the two of them surrounded Lu Fei asking for text messages.

And Lu Fei just stood there in a daze and wouldn't move.

"It's okay to meet each other, don't miss you all the time..." Little B read out the text message, "Wow, this is Chi Guoguo's confession!"

"I'll study the back..." Xiao A also said, "The back seems to be just a heatstroke prevention... Well, but the first two sentences are enough!"

"Together! Together! Together! Together!" I watched Little A and Little B booing around the dull-faced Lu Fei, and suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

Obviously, I have always felt sorry for Lu Fei for being so unrequitedly in love with He Lin before, and now she has finally got a response. As a friend, Wu Luan should be happy for her, but I really can't be happy at all.

Little A said, "Quickly text her back, just ask her what she means by sending it at this time, and see what she says!"

And Lu Fei suddenly yelled when he heard the words, "It's broken, I didn't realize it just now, the text message has already been replied, and the reply is 'Thank you, you also pay attention to your health', what should I do?"

Looking at Lu Fei's shy and helpless look, I frowned unconsciously.

Little B said, "You are such an idiot! Why does your IQ drop when you meet He Lin!"

"Then what should we do?" Lu Fei was at a loss.

Little B read both text messages, and then said, "Since this is the case, there is no other way, you can only wait."

"Wait?" Lu Fei asked puzzled.

"Because now you have sent the text message of 'no response', no matter what you say at this time, it is wrong, you have missed the opportunity, and now the initiative has returned to He Lin." Little B explained , "But it's okay, you pretend not to know, if He Lin is interested, she will be anxious, so you just wait for her to send you another text message."

"Then what if she doesn't send it? What if she thinks I'm pretending not to know and rejecting her on purpose?" Lu Fei looked anxious.

"If that's the case, you can ask her again at night, what's the matter, she makes you anxious every day, what's wrong with you making her anxious all afternoon?"

"But..." Lu Fei was still about to say something, but was interrupted by Little B, "Calm down, be obedient, put the phone aside now, what should I do."

So Lu Fei sat aside with his wet hair in a daze.

But in fact, there were two people who were in a daze all afternoon that day, one was Lu Fei and the other was me.

Fortunately, Little A, Little B, and Lu Fei all focused on that text message and didn't notice my strangeness.

I looked at the distraught Lu Fei, and thought that they might be together after today.

After so long, she and He Lin are finally going to be together.

what about me?

Does it mean that I don't need to comfort Lu Fei anymore, or rather, does Lu Fei no longer need my comfort?

I was taken aback by the thoughts in my heart, but what followed was a kind of pain that tore my heart.

It was the pain as if something was about to be taken away, as if something very important was about to be forcibly separated from me.

And something that I didn't realize before came to the surface at this time.

I... like Lu Fei?

I fell in love with her because she likes He Lin so much?

This is really a desperate secret love. From the beginning, I knew that the other party would not like me, but I fell in love with the other party because the other party would not like me...

At the end of that day, Lu Fei didn't wait for He Lin's text message, but waited for the truth from Song Qian's mouth in the evening.

I heard Song Qian casually mentioning the text message at noon, as if she was saying "Today I ate scrambled eggs with tomatoes", but the expression on Lu Fei's face gradually became depressed, as if she was being scrambled from head to toe. Like pouring a whole basin of cold water on it.

Song Qian said that He Lin originally made up a text message for her to read in the morning, but then she thought it was 521 today, so she wanted to play a little prank, so she deliberately asked He Lin to send it at 13:14, but the guy was so stupid He was fooled.

Listening to her words, I thought that it was not just one person who was fooled that day, but several.

After Song Qian left, little A said dissatisfiedly, "Why is this, such a prank." And little B said, "It doesn't matter if it was a prank or not, He Lin posted it, and I don't think she didn't know it."

Lu Fei just smiled and then fell silent, but this kind of silence was very different from the one he was expecting in the afternoon.

But I looked at the dormitory where the atmosphere suddenly became dull, but I felt a burst of joy from the bottom of my heart.

I understand that Lu Fei is still my good friend, nothing has changed, we can still be the same as before.

The only difference is that from now on, my feelings for her will no longer be pure...

"Come out, we've got a taxi." Li Han said to me on the phone, and I put down my phone, closed the door of the hotel and walked out.

The sun outside was getting higher and higher and it was dazzling, Li Han opened the car door for me, I sat in and looked at the scenery outside the car window and thought, Lu Fei, we will finally meet again.

In fact, after I realized that I liked Lu Fei, on the surface I still lived as I wanted, she was still obsessed with He Lin, and I was still her good roommate.But in a place where none of them knew, my desire for Lu Fei became stronger and stronger. The more I hated her mentioning He Lin, the more I hated her putting down her self-esteem and liking He Lin.

Obviously I fell in love with her because of this before, but now I wish she never had this trait.

Not long after the junior year started, one day Lu Fei came back from the studio a bit late, and her expression was not right, so I asked her what was wrong, but she said that He Lin drank too much during dinner, so she sent He Lin back. bedroom.Then she hesitated and said, He Lin kissed her.

Looking at Lu Fei's slightly red face, I immediately felt a rush of anger.

Lu Fei is so obviously in love with He Lin, does she really not know about He Lin?

If she knew that the other party was interested in her, but still teased her like this, it would be too much!

That night I was disturbed by my restless mood until late to fall asleep, and even when I fell asleep, I couldn't sleep peacefully.I had a dream, I dreamed that I was with Lu Fei, I dreamed that I kissed her deeply, and she responded cooperatively...

When I woke up in the morning, I was a little bit disappointed, because I knew that the scene in the dream would never happen in reality.

On the other side of the bed, Lu Fei came over suddenly, and asked me with wide eyes, "Boss Shuling woke up so late today, what's the matter, are you feeling unwell?"

I looked at her approaching face, feeling embarrassed, and quickly turned my head and said, "It's okay, I'm a little tired from dreaming too much."

Lu Fei continued to ask, "What kind of dream are you still tired of? Fighting zombies? Or being chased by aliens for [-] streets?"

I didn't know how to answer, so little A interjected, "What kind of zombie is alien, it must have fought with the handsome guy for [-] rounds, right?"

The three of them laughed, and I said "Get out!" and got out of bed to wash up, taking the opportunity to avoid Lu Fei's question.

With everyone's forbearance and persistence, time quickly slipped to the end of the semester, and it was Lu Feidong's birthday.

Before that, I was thinking about what to give her, but I didn't make up my mind after much deliberation, so I finally decided to send a bouquet of flowers.After all, girls like flowers, and my selfishness is to hope that Lu Fei's first bouquet of flowers can come from me.

So I decided to send her a bouquet of lilies, preferably 13, with corn lilies that symbolize perseverance and bravery. I think such flowers are suitable for her.

I went to a florist near the school and asked, and the owner told me that there were no corn lilies, but he could get them in for me if I wanted them.

I said yes gratefully, thinking that I would definitely surprise Lu Fei.

But what I didn't expect was that on that afternoon, He Lin actually gave Lu Fei a small sunflower. I saw Lu Fei holding the flower and couldn't put it down, and I completely gave up the idea of ​​giving her a lily.

Because I know that no matter how many lilies I send her, it will not be worth that little sunflower, even if the flower has withered later.

Ever since I realized my feelings for Lu Fei, I've been conflicted.On the one hand, I hope that Lu Fei can make it clear to He Lin earlier, but on the other hand, I am afraid that one day they will make it clear.

What I hope is that Lu Fei can let go of He Lin completely, and what I fear is that she will be sad because of He Lin's attitude.

I don't want to see her sad even if her happiness is not because of me.

In this way, it went until the second semester of our junior year, and the second semester of He Lin's senior year.I finally calmed down and said to Lu Fei, "You and her, it's time to make it clear."

He Lin is about to graduate, I think this matter should not be dragged on any longer, no matter whether it succeeds or not, Lu Fei should be relieved.And if it doesn't work out, Lu Fei still has time to heal.

Lu Fei finally went to say it, but he couldn't say it.

Just as I guessed, she was rejected by He Lin.When she came back, she lay down on the bed and cried loudly, and my heart throbbed with pain from crying.

I knew she needed time to recover, so I didn't say anything and just passed her a tissue.

After Lu Fei finished crying, she told me what happened.

I think He Lin probably realized it, so he used the bad excuse of "I don't believe in love" to stop Lu Fei's mouth.

And Lu Fei actually believed it too.

I don't know what else He Lin said to her, and Lu Fei refused to say.Even at this time, she did not forget to promise He Lin some ghost condition of secrecy, even I can't say it!

I clearly felt a pain in my heart, and unconsciously said harsh words, I said, "Anyway, you should understand that she is rejecting you in this way."

Lu Fei was silent and didn't speak, but I knew that she actually understood everything.

I added, "The reason why she didn't point it out is probably because she still wants to be friends with you, but whether you want this friend or not is up to you to decide."

I looked at her with a hesitant expression, felt sad for a while, turned around and went back to my bed.

Lu Fei didn't sleep well that day, and I saw her tossing and turning in bed most of the night.

And I didn't sleep well, because I suddenly had a thought that made me panic.

Seeing that Lu Fei was rejected by He Lin, I didn't feel the slightest bit of joy in my heart, but was overwhelmingly panicked.

I began to worry that Lu Fei would give up the involvement of the whole university because of He Lin, and I was especially afraid that she would give up on me because of this.

The next morning she was listless, I didn't say anything, I knew she needed time to digest.

But I am also afraid that she will really be depressed all the time, so she may bid farewell to this memory and all the memories of college after graduation!

Including me too!

At noon, Song Qian came to our dormitory suddenly, and I looked at her nervously, my heart was messed up by all kinds of inexplicable emotions.

Before, every time she came to Lu Fei, she would casually chat about He Lin, so what would she say this time?

She came to ask Lu Fei to borrow books, but she mentioned He Lin again, and then I learned from Song Qian's description that there was a third person who didn't sleep well the night before.

I was a little confused about He Lin's attitude towards Lu Fei, but then I saw the weakness and depression on Lu Fei's face disappeared. She asked Song Qian to convey "I'm sorry" to her, and went to get He Lin a piece of paper. Box of cold medicine.

There was a burst of jealousy in my heart, and after Song Qian left, I jumped off the bed and walked to Lu Fei's side, and I said, "Why are you so nice to her?"

I think I must look like a vinegar vat, so sour that the whole room smells of vinegar.

But Lu Fei didn't see it, and I even wanted her to see it at that moment.

She reacted for a while before realizing what I meant, and then she lowered her head and said nothing.

So I said viciously, "Don't tell me you're still going to see her."

But this time Lu Fei actually acquiesced.

I was very sad, but I could only poke her on the forehead pretending to hate iron and steel, and I said, "What is in your head? Is she worthy of you? What are you planning?"

I asked three questions in a row, but Lu Fei only answered me with one sentence.

"Because I like her," she said.

I looked at her sad smile and felt that I couldn't say anything anymore.

Yes, this one reason is enough.Nothing else is needed.

For He Lin, Lu Fei put himself in such a humble position.

And I don't even dare to show that I like Lu Fei, so why am I not like her?

Song Qian came to return the book that night, and brought back the answer to the "I'm sorry".

He Lin said, "No, it has nothing to do with you."

This parting was another refusal, Lu Fei smiled and said that the weather is bad, let He Lin pay more attention to his body.

I could see that she was smiling forcedly.

I can't help but think, Lu Fei, how long will you like her?

Why are you so stupid?

And what right do I have to say that about you?

Because I am more stupid than you.

After that, Lu Fei calmed down a bit, and didn't mention He Lin again, as if she was determined to forget, but I could see that her sadness was still hidden under her calmness.

I think just take it slow, time will help her heal the wound He Lin left, and so will I.

Then one night, Lu Fei came back from the studio, holding a wet umbrella, with a distraught expression on his face.

When I came back, I didn't say anything, just turned on the computer to watch something.

I think she probably thought of He Lin again because she went to the studio.

I got out of bed to go to the bathroom, and when I passed Lufei, I glanced at her computer screen, which should look like a funny caricature.

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