Night Labyrinth

After reading the last word, I have cried until my scalp is numb.

He Lin, I finally waited for your words, but in this way.

Ignoring the strange eyes of the people around me, I went to the bathroom and washed my face.

When I got home and fell into bed, the first thing I did was to call the company and ask for a month-long vacation.

Then I took out the notebook that I had put away for a long time, opened it, and gently stroked the withered sunflower.

I hugged the notebook and fell asleep in the dim twilight.

When I woke up at 11:[-] in the night, my mother came over worriedly and asked me what was wrong.

I told her that a senior who was very kind to me in college passed away, and I asked for leave from the company, and I wanted to take a break.

"Then take a break. Your work is too tiring." My mother sat on the edge of the bed and gently touched my head. "Birth, old age, sickness and death are normal life, and no one can avoid it. We are alive, and there is always someone who wants to be the first." Leave us. Don't think so much, she will find peace in another world."

"Hmm." My mother's voice was reassuring, and I gradually regained my calm as I lay in her arms.

Mother turned off the light for me and left the bedroom.

And I look at the ceiling until it's dark.

I got up and walked to the window, thinking that a new day had begun again, and everything about He Lin might just be a dream.

But I know it's not, because I'm not asleep at all, so how can I dream.

After dawn, I called Lin Yue and said, "I want to see He Lin."

A few days later, I finally returned to City H.

The moment my feet stepped on this land, I clearly felt a kind of kind tears of reunion after a long absence.

Exhale lightly, it is already the end of November, there have been several heavy snowfalls here, and the temperature is about to drop to minus 20 degrees.

Lin Yue held my shoulder and said, "Let's go."

I nodded and got into the taxi he summoned.

On the train, Lin Yue took care of me all the time, giving me something to eat from time to time, but I shook my head and said I couldn't eat, so he advised me to sleep for a while, saying that I would be there when I woke up.

I climbed onto the bed, but just looked out the window with my eyes open.

I'm going to see He Lin, just like every time I thought of seeing her again soon when I returned to school, I was so excited that I couldn't possibly fall asleep.

I watched the scenery outside the window gradually change from gray to snow-white, to the color I am familiar with, and thought to myself, He Lin, I am getting closer and closer to you.

The scenery outside the taxi was speeding. At first, it was the road I was familiar with back to school, but then it gradually changed direction.

I asked Lin Yue, "How is He Lin's family...?"

Lin Yue said, "He Lin's sister and brother-in-law are taking care of her, don't worry."

I nodded and looked out the window again.

The scenery became more and more desolate and remote, and finally, the car arrived at this destination.

We got out of the car, wrapped in thick cotton clothes and walked into the cemetery.

As soon as I entered the gate, I felt that the air was several degrees lower than outside, but I was happy in my heart, and I was going to see He Lin at last.

Lin Yue led me through rows of tombstones that were almost the same. The lawn of the acres of land had withered and was covered with a thick layer of snow.

Until Lin Yue stopped in front of a tombstone, I knew that it was He Lin, my dear He Lin.

"He Lin, I brought Lu Fei to see you." Lin Yue stepped aside after saying this.

And I walked over, bent down, and gently brushed off the snow on the tombstone.

Then squatted down, looked at He Lin's name on the tombstone, tried to smile, and said to her, "He Lin, long time no see."

The tombstone is cool, as if He Lin had frozen eyes.

"This is the second time you have caused me to travel such a long distance. The first time was from here to Beijing, and the second time was from my house to here. The weather here is still so cold, but it's good, so I can It looks like winter, right?"

The cemetery after Xuehou was very quiet, and He Lin didn't answer, so I continued on my own, "I've seen everything you want to tell me, and I haven't missed every punctuation mark. It's a pity that it wasn't you who told me directly. You said it, your voice is so beautiful, if only I could hear you say it."

"I didn't know you talked so much, I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore." My eyes filled with tears, "You didn't tell me so many things before, you really bastard."

"By the way, do you know what day is today? You must know that today is my birthday." I reached out to touch the cold and hard tombstone, "Although you have told me happy birthday, there is still a bouquet of flowers , Didn’t you agree to give me another big bouquet of small sunflowers? Why don’t you mean what you say?”

"Fool, you only know that the flower language of sunflowers is silent love, but there is one more thing you don't know, right?" My tears flowed out, "Waiting for a lifetime, until death."

"I used to think that the future would be long. If I didn't make it clear this time, then I would have another chance next time." I looked at He Lin and laughed, "Actually, the reason why I haven't confessed my love to you is that as long as I don't say it , you can't refuse me directly, then I can wait forever, as long as I wait, there is always hope."

"Secretly tell you, I actually imagined many ways to express my love to you. I even thought of seeing you again in a few years. At that time, you had a successful career and I also had a financial foundation. Then one day I suddenly appeared in front of you. , directly domineeringly said, 'Hey, He Lin, hang out with me.'" I said while pretending to be very domineering. "Maybe I will push you to the table and kiss you forcefully when you are in a daze, believe it or not?"

He Lin still didn't answer me, I tried to smile, but the tears welled up more and more, I wiped it casually, and then said to He Lin, "At that time, I always wanted to see you because I was panicked. The facial expression, because you are so annoying, you always pretend to be calm and noble when you have nothing to do, and you say you don’t believe in love. Every time I make you panic when you see it, you must have laughed at me in your heart, right? "

I simply knelt down on the ground, Lin Yue came over as if trying to pull me up, but then backed away.

"It's really unfair. I fell in love with you from the day I put on a raincoat with you, but you hesitated for so long before you realized that you liked me, and now you just leave, you are so irresponsible It's gone." I covered my face and cried, "Didn't you still say you want us to hang out with Lin Yue and the others, you liar!"

The sky began to snow again, and the snowflakes fell on the tombstone, so I reached out to wipe them off, but there were more and more, so much that I couldn't wipe it off, "He Lin, why don't you put the scarf on my head Well, look, the snow has fallen all over me."

I heard Lin Yue walk a little further away, probably because he couldn't bear to disturb my conversation with He Lin.

"I went to Beijing to look for you because the day Song Qian lived in my dormitory, I told me that you told her that you rejected a person's confession in college. Thinking about it, I felt a little regretful. I think there should be no one else but me, so I I went straight to it. I worked hard to learn painting, in fact, a big reason was my agreement with you, and I got an excellent graduation thesis, because I wanted to write as well as you did." My face was full of tears and tears Snow, the temperature outside is very low, and ice is hanging on the eyelashes. "There is one more thing you absolutely don't know. I took the umbrella to the library that day to pick up someone else, just to pick you up. How about it? Didn't expect that? I I just came back from the studio, and I was eating in the cafeteria. Suddenly, it rained so heavily that many people were trapped under the eaves. I suddenly remembered that you might be coming out of the library at this time, and then I picked up the umbrella When I rushed out, a girl asked me, "Student, I'm sorry, are you going back to the dormitory?" I interrupted her and said, "I'm sorry, I still have something to do." Then I went straight to the library, but I didn't expect that you had already found me. Others gave me umbrellas, and they didn’t even look at me.”

The snow wet my clothes, and I cried as I spoke, my face was cold and painful, "He Lin, have you heard what I have said? Can you answer me, even just one sentence."

Snow flakes were cut off from me suddenly, I raised my head and saw Lin Yue spreading a black umbrella over my head.I didn't care, and touched He Lin's tombstone again, "Actually, I regret it very much. I should put down my self-esteem and promise you directly that day. You never play cards according to routines, and I can't figure out your tricks at all." Thoughts. If you follow the plan, send the diary and flowers over on my birthday, and then show up in front of me the second I'm crying to death, wouldn't it be all right? Why are you so early?"

I put my arms around the tombstone, "Say it's impossible, but do you know? If I could do it again, I would rather you never loved me, I just want you to live in peace and health. Even if I am here from now on You disappear before your eyes, even if we never meet again. I don't want you to feel any pain because of me! I don't want to!"

Lin Yue wanted to help me up, but in the end I almost fell, and the back umbrella fell to the ground.

I cried and was dragged up by Lin Yue. Seeing the pity in his eyes, he said, "Let's go back, you're almost frozen."

Am I really about to freeze?

But I felt tears pouring out continuously, obviously hot.

I supported Lin Yue's arm and tried to stand up, then nodded to him and said "OK."

Lin Yue let go of me and raised the umbrella above my head again.

I leaned forward and said softly in a vast expanse of snow, "He Lin, I love you." Then I lowered my head and kissed the cold tombstone.

I saw He Lin seemed to be smiling at me in the heavy snow, her skin was still so white, her eyebrows and eyes were still so handsome, her short hair was very refreshing, her lips were slightly raised, and she was smiling gently at me, her eyes It is full of pampering.

I stretched out my hand to her, and then the world spun...

Before I close my eyes, the last image in my field of vision is Lin Yue rushing over in a panic...

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