Night Labyrinth

"What?" I really couldn't think.

"I said, be my girlfriend." He Lin's voice rang in my ears.

"why?"

Why are you telling me this?I don't understand, really don't understand.

"Didn't you always like me?" He Lin seemed puzzled.

And there was a bang in my head, and something that had been tense was broken.

she knows!So she knew all along!

So every time before was not my illusion!

Neither is her rejection!

All of this was done on purpose by her!

All in all, yes!

She has been playing tricks on me!Take me for an idiot!

And when she knew everything, I carefully pondered over the words again and again, carefully hiding myself!

But in fact, she can tell it at a glance. She understands every time I hesitate to speak, but deliberately pretends not to understand!

Just when I was struggling and tossing and turning, she stood by and watched my joke!

I still hoped that one day I could see her shocked expression because of me, but in fact, she has been reaping my surprise!

Yes, this is the truth of the matter!

This is the truth of my secret love for the past two and a half years!

so bad!

He Lin, you are so bad!

Suddenly, my anger flared up like wildfire, raging and intensifying.

"What do you mean!" I asked him fiercely.

"Don't you like me?" Her voice was still puzzled, and it was a very calm doubt.

Why!Why can she use this tone to ask me if I like her!Why!

At this moment, I suddenly heard the voices of other people around me.

"Can you do it, He Lin!" a woman shouted.

"Don't make noise, don't make noise." Someone said in a low voice.

what happened?

They... are playing games?

"Are you playing Truth or Dare?" I speculated.

There were whispers on the other side.

"Tell you to keep your voice down, you hear me."

"Sister, you guessed it!" a man shouted.

My sense of shame rose to the top of my head in an instant.

It turns out she was just playing a game!

It turned out that she just lost and accepted punishment!

It turned out that only in this case, she might call me.

Hehe, it turns out that she also turned on the speakerphone!

"Well, it's playing a game." He Lin replied, "But what I said is true."

I couldn't tell if she was joking or serious in what she said, and my brain was already burned out with shame and anger.

But I heard a detail that I ignored just now because of nervousness, she was drinking!

Her voice was drunk and light, with a smell of alcohol.

enough!I've had enough!

It was just a drunken game, a nasty joke, and through it I finally saw who it was on the other side of the phone!

I saw how the person I liked for two years trampled on my self-esteem again and again!

But this is the last time!

I try to calm myself down, try not to sound aggressive, and I say, "Thank you for calling me. I liked you before, but it was a long time ago. I'm Now that I have a boyfriend and work, I am living a good life, and I hope you will not disturb my life."

I said it in one breath, as if admonishing an entangled little gangster.

But only I know how much my heart hurts every time I say a sentence or even a word.

"You have...a boyfriend?" He Lin's voice was a little puzzled.

"Yes, I have a boyfriend." I repeated it firmly, as if telling an undeniable fact.

"how come?"

He Lin's words made me very angry. Why can you have a boyfriend but I can't? Are you laughing at me?Do you look down on me?

I don't want to entangle with this drunk anymore.

"So, if you have nothing else to do, I'll hang up." After I said this, I felt that the fire that had been suppressed in my heart could no longer be suppressed.

"By the way, there is one last sentence." I gritted my teeth, "He Lin, you are a bastard!"

After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, blocking He Lin and the booing that was magnified several times in an instant in another city.

I inhaled and exhaled vigorously, calming down the emotions that were about to explode.

Every time I was about to fall into despair, you gave me hope, and then when I rekindled my hope, you personally pushed me into deeper despair.

For you, I lowered the bottom line again and again, betrayed my self-esteem time and time again, and contradicted myself.

But this time is the last time!Really is the last time!

The phone rang again, it was He Lin again.

I slammed down the phone, then opened the back cover directly, and pulled out the battery.

What do you want to say to me!What else do you want to say!

Say "I'm sorry"?

I do not need!

You'd better feel guilty for a while, then I'll be happy!

You can just treat me as an ostrich hiding because of fear, or just treat me as angry with you!

It's over He Lin, this time I'm really over with you completely!

I angrily walked downstairs several times, bought a bottle of iced drink from the supermarket and drank it all in one gulp. I finally felt a little calmer. I looked at my watch and it was not too early, so I went back slowly. Home.

After washing up, I lay down on the bed and fell asleep.

Usually I don't go to bed until 12 o'clock, but now it's less than 10 o'clock.

But I was really tired and sleepy.

The emotions that have been entangled for two years have grown into a part of my body, and now I have finally thrown them away, as if I have cut off something that has been riddled with holes from my body.

I'm tired and I need to rest.

Falling asleep was unexpectedly smooth, and I fell into a drowsy sleep within half an hour of lying down.

It seemed to be a very short dream. In the dream, He Lin looked up at the sky, and I looked at her back, and then she turned around and said to me, "Lu Fei, there are really no stars in the sky in Beijing. .”

Just as I was about to say something, I saw her wryly smile at me, and then disappeared.

I opened my eyes, the sky was bright outside the window.

Reaching out to touch the head of the bed, I wanted to take the phone over to check the time, only to remember that I took the phone apart last night and threw it in the bag, and never put it back.

I simply got up from the bed and stretched myself.

Except for that inexplicable dream, I slept very well this time.

And I've made a decision, starting today, I'm going to start over.