paranoid dependence

The following days were no different from today. The relationship between Gu Zhi and Shen Chongshan was still as good as ever. Because of Shen Chongshan's work, he often had to deliver the goods after picking up Gu Zhi, so it was not too early for them to come back. There was no change in Shen Nian, except that he no longer waited for them to eat, and became quieter.

It would be fine if the days continued like this, but after the first parents' meeting in the new semester, Shen Nian's tranquility was broken.

Shen Chongshan has always been pampering Gu Zhi, he said what he said, and never refuted it, but at the parent meeting, Shen Chongshan found out that his way of doing things was not good for Gu Zhi. , Saturdays and Sundays followed, and almost never completed homework. Although the test scores were good, they had already regressed.

One word awakened the dreamer, so Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi rarely returned home on time that day, Shen Nian didn't say anything about it, and when he returned to the room to finish his homework and prepare to cook, he realized that Shen Chongshan had almost finished cooking. Nian appeared in the kitchen and smiled:

"Did you finish your homework? The meal will be ready soon, just wait."

Shen Nian was suddenly not used to it, but he didn't say anything, and responded with a sound to help arrange the dishes.

After the meal, Shen Nian was about to clean up the dishes, but was stopped by Shen Chongshan:

"I don't need you, I'll do it, and Xiaozhi can do his homework too."

Shen Nian did not persist, and walked away.

When a paper was halfway done, someone knocked on the door, Shen Nian opened the door and saw Shen Chongshan standing at the door, Shen Chongshan was holding fruit in his hand, and asked Shen Nian:

"Are you tired from studying? Do you want to eat fruit?"

Shen Nian knew almost immediately that Shen Chongshan had something to say to him, but it was not easy to speak.Otherwise, he wouldn't make such a move that he doesn't usually do now.

In fact, Shen Nian would rather say what Shen Chongshan had to say directly, such an approach made Shen Nian a little uncomfortable, of course he also wanted to be cared for, but once he thought that such caring had a purpose, Shen Nian couldn't be happy.

But Shen Nian still let him in sideways: "Come in and talk."

Shen Chongshan seemed to have been exposed, but he didn't know whether it was embarrassment or relief, he didn't say anything, walked into Shen Nian's room with a smile, and put the fruit on the desk.

Shen Nian put away the paper, not going to do it.

"Dad bothering you?" Shen Chongshan asked after seeing Shen Nian's movements.

"No." Shen Nian tidied up the desk: "I finished my homework a long time ago, I just have nothing to do to do the papers, dad asked me for something?"

"It's a little thing." Shen Chongshan sat at the end of Shen Nian's bed and looked at him: "Today I went to hold a parent meeting for Xiaozhi, and the head teacher criticized me, saying that Xiaozhi's academic performance has dropped sharply recently, and he hasn't finished his homework yet. But, so I thought it might be the reason why I took him to deliver goods in a sports car, I come back so late every day, and wake up early in the morning, so I am not going to let him deliver goods in a sports car with me in the future."

Shen Nian has no objection, although he doesn't really want to get along with Gu Zhi, this matter is not up to him to decide, but he doesn't know the purpose of Shen Chongshan saying these words to himself now.

"What does Dad want me to do?" Shen Nian asked.

Shen Chongshan smiled unnaturally: "Nothing to do, just help the little director with his homework after finishing his homework, and let him improve his grades."

"If he wants, I have no problem." Shen Nian said.

Shen Chongshan looked at Shen Nian, and didn't speak again for a while, Shen Nian was a little uncomfortable being looked at by him, but before he looked away, he heard Shen Chongshan ask:

"Xiao Nian, don't you like Gu Zhi too much?"

Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds: "No."

Shen Chongshan still wanted to say something, but Shen Nian had already lost his sight, turned around and took an orange from the fruit plate and peeled it, obviously not wanting to talk about this matter anymore, Shen Chongshan didn't say anything more, stood up in silence for a few seconds and left.

The next day after school, Shen Chongshan sent Gu Zhi back early. He arrived home almost at the same time as Shen Nian. Gu Zhi's face was full of unhappiness. He even gave Shen Nian a glare when he met his eyes. Shen Nian pretended not to see it and went directly into the house.

Shen Nian was doing homework in the room, Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi also entered the room, Shen Chongshan coaxed Gu Zhi a few words, then walked to the door of Shen Nian's room, and said:

"Xiao Nian, I have to deliver the goods, I'm leaving first, you help your brother after you finish your homework."

Shen Nian said: "Be careful on the road."

After Shen Chongshan left, Shen Nian didn't go to see Gu Zhi, and just went about his own business in the room. He didn't need to ask to know that Gu Zhi didn't need him to assist the homework, so he didn't waste his words. His enthusiasm and kindness It was also worn out in the first few times and Gu Zhi's performance.

After Shen Nian finished his homework, he went out. When he passed by the door of Gu Zhi's room, he was lying on the desk and staring out of the window in a daze. Suddenly he spoke again:

"Are you annoying too? If I don't follow Uncle Shen, I can only face you at home."

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi, he was still in a daze, as if what he just said was just an illusion.

Shen Nian went shopping, saw a new casserole of crispy fish in the grocery store, bought two, and sent them to Grandma Qin after returning to the alley, and then returned home, Gu Zhi was sitting in the north room On the steps, when I heard the sound, I raised my eyes and looked over, then looked elsewhere.

Shen Nian ignored it and went straight to the kitchen.

Perhaps it was because Gu Zhi didn't run with him, and Shen Chongshan came back earlier at night, not long after Shen Nian finished cooking. Gu Zhi pressed the water for him, and he washed by the water cellar in the yard. After holding hands, the two talked and laughed:

"Have you finished your homework?"

"En." Gu Zhi nodded heavily: "Is it finished?"

"Did Brother Xiaonian teach you?"

Gu Zhi didn't speak immediately, he glanced at Shen Nian who was serving food in the kitchen, and when he looked away, he smiled at Shen Chongshan: "That's right."

Shen Chongshan was very happy and ate half a bowl of rice.

The days went on like this, and for Shen Nian, it was no different if Gu Zhi came back so early, they basically didn't talk, and Shen Chongshan's so-called tutoring homework didn't exist at all, Shen Nian didn't take the initiative, Gu Zhi was even more so.

But even this kind of life didn't last long. After the [-]th holiday, the factory where Shen Chongshan worked ushered in a peak, and Shen Chongshan could no longer drop by to pick up Gu Zhi home, and sometimes he might not be able to come back at night, so Shen Chongshan gave Gu Zhi enrolled in a cram school near the school, and the matter of taking Gu Zhi home fell on Shen Nian's head:

"Your school is not too close to his school. I don't feel relieved to ask Xiao Zhi to wait outside the school. This cram school will last an hour. If you pass by your school, he will leave school after a while, and then we will come back together."

Shen Nian didn't have much reaction when Shen Chongshan finished saying these words. He didn't ask him what to do with my homework or dinner, because apart from seeing Shen Chongshan's troubled face, he couldn't solve these problems. In these cases, there may not be such a requirement.

Furthermore, Shen Chongshan didn't go out for a sports car like before, but if he went for a sports car, the pick-up and drop-off job would be his own, and now it's been so long since it fell on him, it's already earned by him.

When thinking this way, Shen Nian was not so hard to accept.

Liang Qiu has been obsessed with playing basketball recently. Yesterday, he asked Shen Nian to play a game with him. Shen Nian was actually not interested, but Liang Qiu insisted that Shen Nian agreed, but when he agreed, Shen Nian did not expect to go to Picking up Gu Zhi, so he had no choice but to release Liang Qiu's pigeons after school:

"I can't play today, I have something to do temporarily."

"What's the matter?" Knowing that Shen Nian is a person who won't break his promise if he promises, Liang Qiu didn't force it, and was a little more worried: "Do you need help?"

"No, you play, I'll go first."

After speaking, he walked away. Liang Qiu stared at Shen Nian for a few seconds, still not at ease, and threw the basketball in his hand to a few classmates he had made an appointment with: "You guys play, I have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

In the carport, just as Shen Nian pushed the bicycle out, he saw Liang Qiu also walking over, and was stunned for a moment:

"Aren't you going to play basketball?"

"I won't fight anymore." Liang Qiu said, "I don't worry about you."

Shen Nian stared at him without saying a word, Liang Qiu pushed the bicycle out, saw that he hadn't left yet, and clicked his tongue: "What's wrong? Did I hit the mark?"

In fact, Shen Nian didn't really want Liang Qiu to pick up Gu Zhi with him. He couldn't describe Gu Zhi as dislike, but hated it. Although Shen Chongshan brought the child back, Liang Qiu witnessed that he was hurt because of Gu Zhi. And after the unfair treatment he suffered, he could still maintain basic politeness towards Shen Chongshan, but he didn't hide it at all towards Gu Zhi.

In such a situation, Shen Nian didn't think it would be a good thing to let Liang Qiu know that he would go to pick up Gu Zhi in the future.

But Shen Nian didn't make a sound, Liang Qiu decided something: "Could it be the oil bottle?"

Shen Nian sighed helplessly: "I'm going to pick him up from school."

"What a face?" Liang Qiu laughed angrily: "Is the foster child a son under your name? You have to take care of it so wholeheartedly? Can you have a little temper? Can you just leave it alone? Can you go, you don't have no place to go, my home is your home!"

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu and said nothing, Liang Qiu also looked at Shen Nian, his eyes seemed to have a calming quality, so that Liang Qiu gradually eased his emotions.

"I'll go with you." Liang Qiu said.

Before Shen Nian opened his mouth to refuse, Liang Qiu emphasized again: "I won't eat him."

Knowing that Liang Qiu would not change his mind, Shen Nian did not insist anymore, and went to Gu Zhi's school with Liang Qiu.

Less than half an hour before the cram school ended, Liang Qiu and Shen Nian entered the cold drink hall next to him. Liang Qiu ordered two drinks and came back. Shen Nian was already lying on the table and started doing homework. Liang Qiu knew that He also had a lot of things to do when he went back, and he didn't have much time to write, so he didn't bother him, and sat opposite him.

He really couldn't understand Shen Nian, he hadn't understood it since a few years ago.

Their relationship at the beginning was not so good. Shen Nian was not very talkative and socialized since he was a child. He usually responded only when others talked to him, so he didn't have many friends in school.

One will be bullied without friends, and Shen Nian has also been bullied before. The pranks of elementary school students have always been so boring, throwing homework, tearing up books, booing and swearing, but Shen Nian seems to have been resigned since then, being bullied terribly He just stared at them with red eyes.

After a long time, even the eyes will not be red.

It's like getting used to it.

Liang Qiu also used to be the one who bullied Shen Nian, it's not that he hates Shen Nian, it's just that he finds it boring, and Shen Nian has no friends, so he naturally stood opposite to Shen Nian.

When did you stand with Shen Nian?One summer, when he secretly went swimming by the river and almost died, Shen Nian passed by and jumped into the water to save him. He choked on the water and cut his calf.

He was still young at that time, but Liang Qiu still remembers how he felt at that time. He felt that he was such a jerk that he would bully him.

Since then, Liang Qiu has kept Shen Nian behind him, and no one in school dared to bully him again. At that time, Liang Qiu felt that he was a hero who could keep Shen Nian from being bullied and keep him calm. There was a smile on his face, and he was even complacent about it.

But he ignored why Shen Nian had such a character.

Later he found out that no matter how much he protects Shen Nian at school, Shen Nian will still be bullied at home, that kind of bullying is different from that at school, there is no scolding, no action, just not talking , without looking at him, the damage value is already unparalleled.

Liang Qiu still remembers You Xiaoyue's appearance to this day. Shen Nian's appearance actually followed her. She is so beautiful that people can never forget her. Shen Nian's appearance has also been praised since she was a child. Liang Qiu's mother has been praised more than once Looking at Liang Qiu with emotion, he said:

"If only you grew up like Xiao Nian, you won't have to worry about not having a wife in the future."

But You Xiaoyue, who is a biological mother, doesn't like such a cute child. She thinks that Shen Nian's voice of reciting is too loud, that he is annoying when he is sick, and that he just stays in front of her without saying a word. I feel an eyesore all the time.

Shen Nian's temper was caused by You Xiaoyue.

He never said he was bullied, it wasn't that he was kind, he was just forced to get used to not fighting or grabbing in such an environment, and just accepting it.After all, the people closest to him can't even provide him with the most basic needs, so what confidence does he have to fight for others?

Liang Qiu once thought that You Xiaoyue's departure was a good thing, and Shen Nian could always slowly change and get better, but Shen Chongshan did not come back because of You Xiaoyue's departure. Even if Shen Nian wanted to change, he didn't even have anyone to express his appeal. Can maintain the status quo.

Now that Shen Chongshan came back, he was willing to give up his work outside and return home, but he also brought Gu Zhi back.

What is the influence of Gu Zhi on Shen Nian? What Liang Qiu saw was the room, the compromise and concession of the air conditioner, but what didn't he see?Shen Nian wouldn't tell herself these things, but just because Shen Nian didn't say it didn't mean that she didn't.

Liang Qiu couldn't imagine how much wronged Shen Nian had suffered during the time he couldn't see.

It would be fine if Shen Nian was his own younger brother.Liang Qiu thought, he could protect him a little more than now.