paranoid dependence

Gu Zhi realized something was wrong and immediately came over and snatched the mobile phone from Shen Nian's hand, put it to his ear and was about to yell at it, but heard a voice that did not belong to Shen Chongshan at all:

"...Xiao Nian, I really can't do anything about it. The hospital has already issued two critical illness notices. I can't bear the responsibility..."

Gu Zhi was stunned by the words he couldn't understand on the phone and looked at Shen Nian, but it didn't take long for him to realize that he wanted to hang up the phone, because there was nothing for him like Shen Nian's college entrance examination tomorrow. More importantly, he does not allow anyone or anything to disturb Shen Nian.

Just took the phone away from the ear before hanging up, Shen Nian, who was sluggish from the beginning, had already reacted and got up, took the phone from Gu Zhi's hand again, and calmly said to the other end of the phone:

"Uncle Chen, I'll buy a ticket to go there now."

After saying this, Shen Nian hung up the phone and prepared to leave.

It was at this moment that Gu Zhi grabbed his wrist and looked at him firmly:

"Niannian can't go, have you forgotten? Tomorrow is the college entrance examination."

How could Shen Nian not know?He has worked hard for a year just for tomorrow and the next two days, to usher in a new turning point in his life, to see places he has never seen before, to walk the road he has never traveled, and to start the future he is looking forward to and longing for, but Shen Chongshan Now that there is an accident, he can't ignore it.

Even if it can be regarded as that this call has never been made, and he will go to the examination room tomorrow as usual, but in case something happens to Shen Chongshan during this period, how will he face himself in the future?

Shen Chongshan is indeed not his biological father, and he doesn't care and take care of him too much, but he can live a stable life without worrying about food and clothing until now, and study without any worries until now, all because of Shen Chongshan, who is this? A fact that cannot be denied.

They don't need to be close, they can have conflicts, and they can even keep silent, but Shen Nian can't ignore his life and death.

Shen Chongshan has been in a coma for three days due to a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, and now it has deteriorated. The people in the same car dare not take this responsibility and sign the surgery consent form. He completely understands, but if he does not go there at this time, Shen Nian No matter what, I can't get over this hurdle in my heart.

If he doesn't go, people may be gone.

In such a situation, even if he passed the exam, he would be able to live in peace and joy in the days to come, but would he be able to pass the test in his heart?Shen Nian is too clear about what kind of person he is, if something really happened to Shen Chongshan during this period, this stone will always be on his chest, and he will always remember what he lost and what he missed.

It's a pity to miss the college entrance examination, it's a pity, it's sad, but the college entrance examination can be repeated, at worst, you can fight for another year next year, but you can't die.

There is no chance for a human life to come back.

Shen Nian doesn't want to live a lifetime with regrets, and neither can he.

"I have to go." Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi: "Don't think too pessimistically, if everything goes well, I still have a chance to come back overnight."

"You didn't!" Gu Zhi didn't even want to expose his words: "If you leave, you won't be able to come back before tomorrow's exam. Can Niannian take the exam well? What are you fighting for the whole year! I don't want to Your hard work is in vain, you have been working day and night for a year, and in the end you will not go, what is this? I don’t agree!"

"Brother Zhi." Shen Nian raised his hand to touch his face, looking at his red eyes, feeling a little helpless: "I know you love me, but even if I stay, I will always worry about his condition. Regret, if I can catch up with the college entrance examination, I will definitely come back. If I can’t catch up, I will work hard for another year. There is nothing wrong with another year. I can still accompany you to high school for a year, okay?"

"Not good!" Gu Zhi's voice was choked up, and his grip became tighter and tighter. At this moment, Gu Zhi was just like his name, stubbornly refusing to give in at all. Shen Nian wanted to say something, but Gu Zhi robbed him. Say to him: "I will go for you, I will sign this letter, you stay and take the exam."

Shen Nian opened his mouth to refuse, but Gu Zhi didn't give him this chance:

"Nian Nian, you are not a doctor. You can only sign the consent form for the operation when you go, and then wait outside. It can't help you. Shen Chongshan is only telling you why on the fourth day after his accident. Isn't it because he is afraid of the repercussions? Are you taking the college entrance examination? Even if you go, he will never be happy when he wakes up and finds out that you missed something, Nian Nian will take the exam well, I will go over."

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi and wanted to say something, but Gu Zhi was extremely resolute:

"Either Niannian stays for the exam, and I'll go! Or, neither of us wants to leave today. I will definitely not watch you give up your future for Shen Chongshan."

"Gu Zhi..." Shen Nian looked at him weakly: "He is my father..."

"If he is really your father." Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian, "He would also like you to stay and take the college entrance examination."

Gu Zhi did listen to Shen Nian very much, but everything had to be based on not hurting Shen Nian, otherwise he would never give in.

Just like now, he said that there are only these two paths, and he will not give Shen Nian a third choice.

"Niannian..." Gu Zhi held his hand and squeezed it, and said to him in a tone almost begging for mercy: "Can you save the exam? After the exam, there will be time for everything. I know you are worried about me and Shen Chongshan's relationship, but I also know the seriousness, I know he is very important to you, I will take good care of him, you trust me."

"I don't believe you..." Shen Nian said.

There is no disbelief, but Shen Nian still hesitates, he is not sure if Gu Zhi can handle everything over there, he is not yet 16 years old, but when he thinks back, what Gu Zhi said is not wrong, he is not a doctor. It was just waiting there, and couldn't help much, and it was just a signature, so there was nothing wrong with Gu Zhi going there.

He didn't dare to hesitate for too long, and he knew clearly that he couldn't get past Gu Zhi and get out of here smoothly, and the longer the delay, the more useless it would be, so he compromised:

"I'll take you to the station."

Gu Zhi smiled with relief: "Okay."

Shen Nian sent Gu Zhi to the station, bought a platform ticket and sent him on the train. Before boarding the train, Gu Zhi turned around and hugged Shen Nian tightly, telling him:

"Nian Nian, eat something good tomorrow morning. You have to work hard for the exam. You don't have to be the first in the exam. Just be worthy of your hard work this year."

"Okay, I will." Shen Nian hugged him back: "Hold your phone, I will call you tomorrow."

"Do not worry."

This might be the best solution, without delay, but Shen Nian didn't know why he was still flustered and empty.

But Gu Zhi didn't give him an extra choice, he could only stay and give his best for this exam.

Gu Zhi got into the car, Shen Nian kept watching the tail of the train was out of sight, then turned around and slowly returned to the rental house.

Shen Nian didn't sleep well all night, and wanted to contact Gu Zhi to ask him how he was doing, but Gu Zhi took away his mobile phone so that he could contact Uncle Chen when he went to the provincial capital. I didn't know where to borrow it, so I just lay on the bed and slept until dawn.

The next morning, Shen Nian went out, found a public phone and dialed Gu Zhi's cell phone. Gu Zhi was probably waiting for his call, and he answered it almost instantly:

"Nian Nian, good morning."

Gu Zhi's tone was normal and no problem could be heard, Shen Nian also breathed a sigh of relief:

"When did you arrive? What's the situation now?"

"It was just after eleven o'clock yesterday." Gu Zhi said, "Don't worry, there is nothing to do at the moment. I have surgery tomorrow morning. You can come over after the exam."

"Really?" Shen Nian pressed.

Gu Zhi smiled on the phone: "Why doesn't Nian Nian believe me? If it wasn't because Uncle Shen couldn't wake up and speak now, I'd have him say a few words to prove his innocence."

Ever since Shen Chongshan said the words to separate them, Gu Zhi has always addressed him as Shen Chongshan, but now it was changed to Uncle Shen, Shen Nian didn't know if it was because he was next to Shen Chongshan now or for other reasons, he didn't let himself Guess again.

"Where's Uncle Chen?" Shen Nian asked, "Where is he?"

"Uncle Chen has been taking care of Uncle Shen for a few days. After I came, I went to the nearby hotel to rest." Gu Zhi sighed after finishing speaking: "Does Nian Nian still not believe me?"

"No." Shen Nian said, "I'm just a little worried."

"Don't worry, it's fine here. You didn't rest last night, okay? Don't think too much, go eat now, and prepare for the exam. I know you can do it!" Gu Zhi encouraged him on the other end of the phone: "The little fox is not by Niannian's side, so Niannian has to work hard."

"Okay." Shen Nian replied, and gave Gu Zhi a few more instructions before hanging up the phone.

He will work hard and give his best.Since he didn't rush over and chose to stay, then Shen Nian would not let this exam leave any regrets. He couldn't not accompany Shen Chongshan, but also didn't treat the college entrance examination well. becomes meaningless.

Shen Nian is a smart person, so he would not do this.

The two days are very short, and the two days are also very long. During the exam, Shen Nian had no distractions, but in the free time, it was all about Shen Chongshan's situation. There is no bad news, but Shen Nian is still very uneasy.

In the afternoon when the college entrance examination ended, it suddenly rained heavily outside the window. Shen Nian looked up after finishing the last question, thinking about the weather in the provincial capital, wondering if it was raining there, wondering if Gu Zhi was afraid .

When walking out of the examination room, Shen Nian didn't even have time to tell the class teacher, and didn't even wait for the rain to stop, so he rushed into the rain, took a taxi to the train station, and bought a ticket to go to the provincial capital.

But the rain was so heavy that even the train was affected, Shen Nian's train was fully 4 hours late, when he finally got on the train and arrived at the provincial capital, it was already early morning.

The two of them didn't talk on the phone during the period, but Gu Zhi seemed to know that he was coming, so he just squatted in the corner of the exit and waited for him, and he didn't know how long he waited.

Shen Chongshan was sent to the hospital with a sudden cerebral hemorrhage six days ago when he was driving back through the provincial capital. Although he was in a coma for the first three days, the amount of bleeding was not much. He was treated conservatively until the evening before the college entrance examination. Uncle Chen, who was in the same car, notified Shen Nian and the others to sign for the operation.

Shen Nian didn't come, but Gu Zhi came. Although Gu Zhi didn't say any good news, he didn't have any bad news. Occasionally, he could say a few words on the phone to make Shen Nian happy and adjust his mood.

So Shen Nian took it for granted that when he rushed to the provincial capital hospital for the first time, even if he couldn't see a healthy Shen Chongshan, he would at least see a Shen Chongshan lying on the hospital bed.

but no.

Gu Zhi stood up from the corner and walked in front of him, looked at him with a smile, took his hand without saying a word, and walked to the taxi place. Along the way, he deliberately avoided any topics related to Shen Chongshan, and kept talking. Asking about Shen Nian's college entrance examination, asking about his status, predicting in his heart, asking everything, Shen Nian should have been worried about Shen Chongshan, should have asked Gu Zhi what was going on right away, but he unexpectedly cooperated Gu Zhi, has been answering his questions.

Gu Zhi is a talented actor, but this time Shen Nian saw his flaws, he was nervous and uneasy.

Shen Nian seemed to know something somewhere.

Later, Gu Zhi might have guessed something, he calmed down, and quietly held Shen Nian's cold hand.

In the hospital lobby, Shen Nian stood stiffly in front of the elevator and waited. He felt a little flustered and a little cold. He didn't know if it was because yesterday's wet clothes were dried by himself, or if it was the sudden drop outside. Wen.

He hoped that Gu Zhi would tell him something, anything would be fine, even if he asked him about the college entrance examination, he would tell Gu Zhi, and answer the question.

But Gu Zhi was very quiet, as if he had already said all he could say just now, so all he was given at this moment was silence.

The elevator opened, Shen Nian walked in mechanically, and Gu Zhi also followed.

After 6 o'clock in the morning, there were only the two of them in the elevator. Shen Nian didn't know which floor Shen Chongshan lived in, so he didn't reach out to press the floor. He was waiting for Gu Zhi to press, but Gu Zhi didn't move.

It's as if this floor is pressed down and something will no longer be able to stop it.

The silence was so long that it was unbearable, Shen Nian heard his own voice, so tense that even he felt strange, he asked:

"How many floors?"

Gu Zhi was silent for a few seconds and raised his hand to press the button. Shen Nian clearly saw that it was -2.

Shen Nian turned to look at Gu Zhi, his eyes were so calm that it made people afraid, Gu Zhi just looked into his eyes and told him with the same calm expression as him:

"Nian Nian, he is dead."