paranoid dependence

This is a very beautiful little boy, although he is only 2 years younger than himself, but he is not as tall as the ten-year-old son of the corner grocery store owner.

Shen Nian smiled and responded to him: "Hello."

Shen Chongshan intentionally let the two of them develop a relationship, and wanted Gu Zhi to play with Shen Nian for a while, and then went to install the air conditioner in his room, but Gu Zhi said nothing, he hugged Shen Chongshan's neck tightly and didn't let go, and Shen Chongshan didn't let go either. Way, Xiaoxiao led him into the yard, and told Shen Nian by the way:

"There is still a suitcase belonging to Xiao Zhi in the back bucket, Xiao Nian helped take it down."

"it is good."

Shen Nian walked over to get the suitcase, and was asked a few words about Gu Zhi by several people. Shen Nian answered vaguely. After all, even if they would know about this matter in the future, they shouldn't say it by themselves, not quite. Well, what's more, Shen Nian didn't know much about Gu Zhi.

Liang Qiu, who had been silent by the side when he was walking back with his luggage, grabbed his arm and stopped him:

"What does your father mean?"

Even Liang Qiu, a friend, knew that Shen Nian was afraid of heat. During the dog days, his whole body was covered with prickly heat, and he would suffer from heatstroke from time to time. However, as his father, Shen Chongshan said that Shen Nian was not afraid of heat. Liang Qiu couldn't accept it. feel wronged.

But Shen Nian didn't seem to think so, and seemed to be used to it, so he didn't say anything.

Liang Qiu got angry and asked again:

"This child is only ten years old, and he has no other family members? Where is the mother? Where are the grandparents?"

"My father asked him and said that his mother had passed away a long time ago. As for the others, they haven't appeared since his father's accident." Shen Nian said, "Probably gone."

"This child has a very hard life." Liang Qiu said not very sincerely: "But I think you are even more unlucky. Is this child going to be on your household registration book? Is he really your brother? Be careful. I think your dad treats him better than you."

Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds and smiled:

"It's just foster care, not in my household registration book, don't worry."

Liang Qiu didn't know what to say, and wanted to follow in for fear that Shen Nian would be bullied, but thinking about it, even if he was bullied, he wouldn't be able to help him, he could only get angrier, maybe what he said would embarrass Shen Nian, so he went He didn't follow him in, found a reason to leave, and Shen Nian didn't keep him.

When we got back to the small yard, the installer was still waiting in the shade of the yard, holding the towel around his neck and fanning himself. When he saw Shen Nian coming over, he urged:

"Ask your lord, where is the house, we are in a hurry to go back."

Shen Nian responded and stepped into the room.

Gu Zhi had already come down from Shen Chongshan's arms. Shen Chongshan came out of Shen Nian's room holding his hand. Seeing Shen Nian coming in, Gu Zhi subconsciously hid behind Shen Chongshan. Shen Chongshan stroked his hair and looked at him. Xiang Shen read, opened his mouth and said:

"Xiao Nian, the room for Gu Zhi is too dark, he is a little scared, I..."

"Okay." Shen Nian nodded without waiting for Shen Chongshan to finish speaking: "I will trade with him."

Gu Zhi cautiously poked his head out from behind Shen Chongshan, looked at Shen Nian, submissively as if he had made a mistake.

After the air conditioner was installed, the workers also left, but the neighbors in the alley crowded the courtyards and rooms. Seeing that the air conditioner was installed in Shen Nian's house, Grandpa Zhang said with a smile;

"That's right. How can anyone be more affectionate to other people's children than to their own son? I just bought the air conditioner, but Xiao Nian also needs to use it."

Shen Chongshan seemed to realize something after hearing this sentence, and subconsciously looked in Shen Nian's direction. He was concentrating on packing his things at the desk in the room, as if he didn't hear this sentence.

Because there was no electricity, everyone couldn't feel the coolness of the air conditioner. It was very hot with so many people crowded together. They left after a while. After they left, Shen Nian moved his things to the side and made them smaller. to the room.

In fact, there is not much difference, but it is darker and boring.

He has lived in that room for more than ten years. He has a lot of things, and he can't move them all at once. Just when he wanted to go back and move again, Shen Chongshan walked in and stood at the door:

"Xiao Nian, you go to live in Dad's room, I will sleep in this cabin."

"No need." Shen Nian said, "It's pretty good here, and it's quiet, so it's more suitable for studying."

Shen Chongshan wanted to say something more, but Shen Nian stopped him:

"I spend most of my time at school, and I just sleep when I come back. You have a lot of things in your room, and it's too troublesome to move, so let's do it."

Shen Nian was very persistent. Shen Chongshan remained silent for a few seconds and said nothing but still did not leave. He seemed hesitant to speak. Shen Nian looked at him silently and waited quietly. Shen Chongshan and Shen Nian met their eyes. Then he smiled awkwardly:

"Xiao Nian, about the air conditioner..."

"If I'm hot, I'll sleep in Gu Zhi's room." Shen Nian said, "That room is big, it's good to install it there."

Shen Chongshan nodded and smiled:

"Yes, if it's hot, sleep with your brother. You will be brothers in the future, and you have to take care of each other."

It took almost an hour to move the things here, and it was already evening when they were tidied up. Jianjia Lane called, Shen Nian heard the shouts of the children in the alley, he turned on the light, and put the last unmade bed So I took a change of clothes and went to take a shower.

For dinner, Shen Chongshan went to the deli on the street to buy a lot of cooked food, and kept putting it in Gu Zhi's bowl, and occasionally gave it to Shen Nian, but he himself was reluctant to eat it.But Gu Zhi probably didn't have a good appetite, he didn't eat much, and Shen Nian didn't eat much, he spent the afternoon tidying up the room in the hut, it was somewhat hot.

"Xiaozhi." Shen Chongshan said, "Your elder brother Xiao Nian has very good grades. If you don't know anything about your studies in the future, just ask him."

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian, and Shen Nian also looked at him, and then heard him thank you obediently: "Thank you, brother Nian Nian."

Shen Nian actually doesn't quite understand why he calls himself Brother Nian Nian, even if it's not Shen Nian, he should be "Brother Xiao Nian" in Shen Chongshan's mouth, but he seems to have his own ideas, calling himself Nian Nian Brother, no one has ever called him Nian Nian when he grows up to such an age, but now it feels fresh to hear it.

Perhaps it was because Gu Zhi had just come home, Shen Chongshan cared about Gu Zhi very much, and noticed that after a meal, Shen Nian hardly took his eyes off him, Shen Nian occasionally saw Shen Chongshan's eyes looking at Gu Zhi, and realized that he seemed to have never looked at Gu Zhi. I have been to Shen Chongshan and seen someone like this.

Shen Nian thought, Gu Zhi's father should be a very important friend of Shen Chongshan.

After the meal, Shen Nian habitually cleaned up the dishes, but was stopped by Shen Chongshan:

"I don't need you. I'll come. You and Xiaozhi go back to the house. He hasn't packed his luggage yet. Help him."

Shen Nian was not feeling well, so he didn't force himself, and went back to the north room with Gu Zhi.

There are two houses in the small courtyard of the Shen family, the north and the west. The yard is paved with tiles. The north house is the living room and bedroom, and the west house is the kitchen and small dining room. Later, Shen Nian took care of it instead. In summer, besides the creepers all over the wall, there were also many roses blooming there, which was very beautiful.On the south side is a utility room, which is filled with old things that are never used and are reluctant to be thrown away.

At this time, Shen Nian and Gu Zhi entered the north room, the first room on the right hand side was Gu Zhi's, Gu Zhi didn't seem to want Shen Nian to enter, he stood at the door without moving, his back was facing Shen Nian, Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds:

"Is there a lot of things? May I help you sort it out?"

Gu Zhi looked back at him and said, "No need."

Shen Nian was a little surprised, not because of Gu Zhi's refusal, but because of his eyes and tone, he was very different from the one who called himself 'Brother Nian Nian' in the small courtyard just now, like two completely different people. people.

It seemed that he was on guard against him, and also somewhat hostile.

Maybe it's not familiar yet, Shen Nian didn't care, let alone force it, and nodded lightly:

"Okay, then you can call me whenever you need something."

Gu Zhi didn't respond to this sentence, Shen Nian didn't wait, and walked back to his room.

Back in his room, Shen Nian turned on the electric fan, fixed the direction to blow on himself, because the room was a bit stuffy, he didn't close the door, and lay on the bed enduring wave after wave of headaches.

It seems to be really heatstroke.

He got up and drank two bottles of Huoxiangzhengqi water and lay down again. Although he was uncomfortable, he was really tired. After a while, he became unconscious. In a daze, he heard footsteps hovering at the door, stopping and going, as if He wanted to come in, but in the end he left without making a sound.

When Shen Nian woke up from a dazed state, she raised her eyes and glanced at the door, it was empty and empty, like a dream.

In the middle of the night, Shen Nian was woken up by the heat, and the fan didn't work, so he simply got up, turned off the fan, and left the room, preparing to sleep on the roof.

People in the villages in the city are like this. When the heat becomes unbearable in summer, they go up to the roof and spread quilts or mats on the roof. If there is wind, it will be much cooler, but even if there is no wind, it is better than being stuffy in the room. The ladder was right outside Gu Zhi's window, Shen Nian didn't want to disturb Shen Chongshan, nor did he want to wake Gu Zhi, the movement of climbing up the ladder was very light and careful, but even so, he almost fell down halfway.

It wasn't that he didn't catch it well, and it wasn't that it was too dark to see clearly, but that when his gaze casually swept across Gu Zhi's window, he found a figure by the window. It came out from under the figure, and the next second he saw a face with a sinister smile.

Shen Nian let go of his hand almost subconsciously. It was only a second before weightlessness that he remembered that he was on the ladder and held on tightly again. When he stabilized his figure and looked again, there was no one at the window, only The curtains were shaking slightly, so that Shen Nian was not quite sure whether what he saw just now was real or an illusion.

He slowed down halfway up the ladder for a while before regaining his senses, and went up to the roof.

If you get up early, you can hear the neighbors talking in the air, and those who are far away can even shout at the top of their voices, but at this time, the entire village in the city is asleep, except for a few birdsong and the sound from the roof not far from the next door. The sound of snoring was eerily quiet.

I don't know whether it was because of the heat or the fright, but Shen Nian lay down for a long time but still couldn't fall asleep. He remembered the face illuminated by the flashlight, and also remembered the sound of Shen Chongshan walking back and forth outside his room before going to bed.

Maybe some people will get angry when they see what Shen Nian has experienced, but Shen Nian, as the person involved, has no temper at all.

What are you losing your temper with?He couldn't find a reason to lose his temper.

Even though he and Shen Chongshan are on the same household registration book, they are legally father-son, but he is not Shen Chongshan's biological son.

This is a secret he discovered when he was ten years old, a secret they didn't tell themselves, and they thought they didn't know.

So Shen Nian is really not angry. From the standpoint of an adoptive father, Shen Chongshan is good enough for himself. Although he may not care enough, he has never been short of himself. It's not his son, why should he support himself, why should he support himself after You Xiaoyue is gone?

But Shen Nian never opened his mouth, not because he was worried that he would have no family if he asked, but because he felt that whether he asked or not, Shen Chongshan was still his father. If this was the case, the question would be meaningless.