paranoid dependence

Shen Nian entered the north room, the room was even more messy than the small courtyard, the TV screen was broken, a leg of the coffee table was broken, the sofa was displaced, even the stone bricks on the floor had many cracks.

Shen Nian felt uncomfortable in such an environment, and couldn't help but want to clean it up, but he wasn't sure if Gu Zhi would have another madness, so he endured it, fortunately his room was in the corner, During Gu Zhi's madness, he didn't take care of this unremarkable room, so he survived.

It was quiet outside.

Shen Nian who was sitting at the desk could not hear any sound from outside, the chaos seemed to be over.

But Shen Nian didn't move, he saw Shen Chongshan's coldness in Gu Zhi's madness, Gu Zhi didn't change his mind and softened his heart, so he probably wouldn't make a different decision in the future. Otherwise, what's the point of this madness?

If this is really the case, Gu Zhi must take care of it himself, but Shen Nian is not willing.

It's just that if Shen Chongshan really asked for it, what should he say?

When the door of the room was opened, Shen Nian collected his thoughts and looked over. He thought it was Shen Chongshan, but unexpectedly it was Gu Zhi with red eyes. He couldn't stop Gu Zhi, so he wanted to go out, but Gu Zhi unexpectedly got under the bed without even looking at him.

Just like when it thundered before.

This corner of the room seemed to be his final resting place.

Even though Shen Nian was surprised, he didn't intend to disturb, after all, Gu Zhi who was under the bed was much better than him who was insane, Shen Nian gave him the room, left by himself, and quietly closed the door for him.

Shen Chongshan sat on the steps of the kitchen door, buried his head in his arms, as if such an ostrich posture could avoid these things that had happened.

When encountering something that cannot be solved, it is an instinctive reaction to escape, and I always think that it would be fine if it didn't happen.

But when things happen, they happen. No one has the ability to turn back time to avoid that car accident, so avoiding is useless.

This is the truth that even the 15-year-old Shen Nian knows.

He stood quietly at the door of the north house for a while, until the crowd watching the excitement standing on the roof couldn't wait for the new drama to start and felt bored and left. Then Shen Nian took the medicine box that survived the violent rage just now and walked away. He sat down beside Shen Chongshan.

"Dad." Shen Nian opened the medicine box and took out the disinfection tools inside: "Your hands need to be treated."

Shen Chongshan didn't seem to hear his words, Shen Nian waited for almost a minute and still didn't get Shen Chongshan's reaction, so he stopped waiting and went directly to pull his injured hand, Shen Chongshan only reacted a little, and looked at him in a daze. Shen Nian disinfected and applied medicine to him little by little.

He suddenly found that this was a bit too skilled for a 15-year-old kid.

"How did you do this?"

Shen Nian didn't answer, but said: "If you want, I can borrow this money. In fact, you don't have to go this far."

Shen Nian's voice was very soft, but it was clear enough to be heard in a quiet enough small courtyard. Shen Chongshan didn't speak immediately, and Shen Nian was a little tangled up during the long wait. He didn't even know what he was expecting Shen Chongshan to agree to. More, or refuse more.

He agreed, and he was in debt, even though most of the money was repaid by Shen Chongshan, but the affection Liang Qiu gave Shen Nian was impossible to repay in this life.Although Liang Qiu didn't need to pay anything back.

If you don't agree, you may have to bear stubbornness in the future.

Either one is a burden, Shen Nian doesn't want to choose any one, but has to choose one.

It was only when Shen Nian bandaged his hands that Shen Chongshan came back to his senses, stared at the small courtyard for a few seconds, then turned back to look at Shen Nian, and smiled slowly: "You are only so old, you know this is How big a debt is it? Don't worry about these things, it has nothing to do with you. "

Shen Nian wanted to say yes, you handed Gu Zhi to me because it has something to do with me, but before the words came to his lips, Shen Chongshan spoke first, he said:

"Although Dad hasn't made a lot of money in the past few years, he still has a few good friends. If he insists on borrowing this money, he can get it together in one day. You don't need it."

Shen Nian believed this.

"Then why didn't you do this?" Shen Nian said.

You love Gu Zhi so much, you want to give him everything good, and you don't want him to suffer any grievances, why did you suddenly become so cruel and let him suffer?Shen Nian couldn't figure it out.

But Shen Chongshan didn't tell him the answer, but just smiled.

What Shen Chongshan didn't want to say, Shen Nian didn't ask. This is his usual way of doing things, but this time Shen Nian didn't. He wanted to know the reason and solve it. Only in this way, he wouldn't have to shoulder the responsibility of taking care of Gu Zhi. responsibility.

"Xiao Nian." Shen Chongshan still didn't give him a chance to speak, and cut off his words a second before he spoke, and asked, "You...are you unwilling to take care of Gu Zhi?"

Shen Nian looked at Shen Chongshan, and responded without the slightest hesitation:

"Yes, I don't want to."

It stands to reason that this was the first time Shen Nian explicitly told Shen Chongshan that he was unwilling.No matter what happened, Shen Chongshan shouldn't refuse to agree. After Shen Nian clearly no longer had any expectations of him, he shouldn't even respond to his needs.

But Shen Chongshan only looked at him for a few seconds, and the hesitation in his eyes quickly dissipated.

"It's just that you don't want to, it's not that you don't care, right?" Shen Chongshan asked Shen Nian as if he had grasped the loophole in the problem.

Shen Nian's eyes were full of disbelief.

In the past at this time, Shen Chongshan's eyes would always dodge. In his own heart, he would also feel that he owed Shen Nian in this matter and should not be borne by Shen Nian, so he seemed guilty and lacked confidence, but this time Shen Chongshan's eyes were calm, without any cautiousness.

Shen Nian didn't know if he was putting all his eggs in one basket, or after tearing up the relationship between biological father and son, he didn't care so much.

"I know you don't get along very well, and I also know that Xiaozhi doesn't like you by my side, but if I'm gone and there are only you two left at home, it should be much better?" Shen Chongshan smiled: "Little He is a bit extreme in his stubbornness, but he is also a good boy, he will treat you with all his heart and soul, if you take care of him, he will find out that you are good, and he will treat you well in the future."

This matter seems to have been settled on Shen Chongshan's side. Even though he said he was unwilling, Shen Chongshan seemed to be sure that he would accept it.

As for his concerns, that was not something Shen Chongshan considered at all.

"Dad, I..."

"Just be a father." Shen Chongshan said.

In a word, the word "begging" made Shen Nian swallow "I can't accept it" and swallowed it back.

He suddenly understood at this moment why Liang Qiu said that he would use 28 to buy himself a freedom, because Shen Nian was not born to Shen Chongshan, because Shen Chongshan had raised Shen Nian for 15 years, and because Shen Nian felt in his heart that he was also in debt, so When Shen Chongshan said 'begging', Shen Nian didn't even feel qualified to refuse.

Shen Chongshan also seems to understand how powerful the word "begging" is to Shen Nian. After finishing speaking, he didn't even look at Shen Nian's reaction, and didn't listen to his answer, so he got up and started tidying up the small courtyard. It's like nothing happened.

Shen Nian was still sitting in the same place, looking at Shen Chongshan, suddenly realized that Shen Chongshan actually understood himself.

This kind of sharp attack caught his vitals in an instant, leaving him no chance to fight back.

Isn't it just more pathetic?He has always understood himself, but for so many years, he knew what he wanted, but he never really gave it.

As for cleaning up the mess caused by Gu Zhi, Shen Nian should be there to help, he is used to helping Shen Chongshan with everything, and he is also used to doing these things in this house, but this day he seemed to be exhausted and anxious, sitting in the kitchen On the steps at the door, he watched Shen Chongshan tidy up the small courtyard little by little, and went into the north room to tidy up without moving.

The home appliances in the house were basically all gone. Shen Chongshan felt sorry for the air conditioner, and carefully disassembled it, thinking about moving it to the home appliance repairer to see if it could be repaired. He was very calm when he did this, without any irritation The look on his face, as if Gu Zhi should have been like this, he had already expected this farce.

Shen Nian got up and walked into the house when his whole body was numb from sitting. There was a hill of waste piled up at the door of the north house. They were all useable but now scrapped. Shen Nian bypassed the hill and put them in the living room. Sit down on the sofa.

Probably no middle school examinee's family would congratulate him in such a welcoming way after he walked out of the examination room.

pretty good.

So different.

No one ate dinner, let alone cook, Shen Chongshan went back to his room, Shen Nian was in the living room, but Gu Zhi stayed in Shen Nian's room and did not come out.

Shen Nian is not interested in knowing what mood and posture he is in, he doesn't even know what mood he is in right now, but according to Shen Nian's understanding of Gu Zhi, he can't maintain this posture for long, he doesn't It may be so stable, he will definitely get what he wants, and accepting reality so quietly is not something he will do.

But Shen Nian had never understood Gu Zhi, and it was the same this time.

He thought that Gu Zhi would go crazy and make trouble again, but in fact Gu Zhi became surprisingly quiet. He walked out of Shen Nian's room the next morning and went back to his own room. Telling everyone 'I'm upset' and 'Don't mess with me', but other than that, there is no action.

Shen Chongshan called them to cook, but Gu Zhi actually went too, but he didn't speak, and he didn't target Shen Nian overtly or secretly.

He seemed to be smoothed out overnight, but Shen Nian felt that the calm before the storm was more terrifying, you never knew when he would erupt without warning.

"Xiao Zhi." At the dinner table, Shen Chongshan said: "From now on, it will be you and Xiao Nian at home, you must be obedient, you understand?"

Gu Zhi didn't react yet, as if he didn't hear it, Shen Nian frowned, but before he could think of what to say, Shen Chongshan looked at him: "The same goes for Xiao Nian, two people at home are better than one person It's much better, if my brother is disobedient, I can teach him a lesson, but we have to rely on each other to help each other in everything, since Dad left, you only have each other."

Shen Nian felt that there was something wrong with these words, but Shen Chongshan didn't give him a chance to ask, so he drank the last mouthful of porridge in the bowl and got up:

"I made an appointment to see the car today, so let's go first."

Shen Chongshan left, and there were only the two of them left in the dining room attached to the small kitchen. Shen Nian had no appetite in the first place, and now he couldn't eat even more, so he put down his chopsticks. Gu Zhi paused briefly because of his action, and after a few seconds After recovering, Shen Nian saw it, but ignored it. When he got up and wanted to leave, Gu Zhi, who hadn't said a word since the quarrel yesterday, spoke:

"Don't think I will listen to him, I don't need you to take care of me."

Shen Nian already turned his back to Gu Zhi, couldn't see his expression clearly, and didn't want to look at it, but his voice was still as stubborn as before, which made people not like it.

"I don't intend to do that either." Shen Nian said.

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As for selling the car, both parties agree that the price is reasonable, but it can be settled on the same day, but when Shen Chongshan comes back and tells them that the car has been sold and the compensation to the other party can be paid in a few days, no matter whether it is Shen Nian It was still Gu Zhi, neither responded, and no one was happy.

Shen Chongshan seemed to know the reason, stood in the living room and smiled wryly, then turned around after a few minutes, and went out with the smashed air conditioner.

The air conditioner was repaired and moved back to the original place, but this time Shen Nian never heard the buzzing sound of the external unit, and Gu Zhi never used it again.

Shen Nian didn't know what he wanted to do, but he always felt that he shouldn't be so quiet.

It's just that in the next few days, Gu Zhi still didn't do anything, he just stayed in this house quietly, like Shen Nian before, like a transparent person, for a few moments, Shen Nian was even in Gu Zhi's eyes. Zhi Zhi saw his own shadow, but was quickly denied by himself.

I am not like Gu Zhi, I am accepting my fate, but Gu Zhi is plotting.

Although Shen Nian didn't know what Gu Zhi was planning.

Both Gu Zhi's silence and Shen Nian's deliberate plan didn't make Shen Chongshan change his decision to leave. He seemed to be very anxious, anxious to pay compensation, eager to make money, and anxious to leave. It didn't even take half a month from the decision to leave Before Shen Nian's senior high school entrance examination results came down, Shen Chongshan told them:

"I'm leaving tomorrow."

It was at the dining table. Shen Nian knew that Shen Chongshan had something to say since he came back from buying a lot of cooked food. Such a notice was not surprising to Shen Nian. He subconsciously looked at Gu Zhi, but Gu Zhi still There was no reaction, even this sentence didn't even make him blink his eyes more, and he ate with his head down, like a deaf man.

"You don't know if you can come back before school starts." Shen Chongshan said with a somewhat unnatural smile: "But I have prepared all the tuition fees."

After speaking, he took out two bank cards from his pocket, and after confirming the signatures on the back, he put them in front of Gu Zhi and Shen Nian:

"The living expenses are also in it, the password is six six, take it out to pay the tuition when the school is about to start."

Shen Nian's living expenses and tuition fees for so many years have been paid by Shen Chongshan. A long time ago, he thought that he was his biological father, and he should do this. Later, he felt that no matter what happened, he would treat him as his father. He paid for himself, and in the future I will repay him twice and repay him, but now Shen Nian looks at the bank card in front of him and feels a little hot.

It is powerless to have to compromise.

He's got to go to school, he's got to get out, and if he doesn't take the money, he'll just be here forever.

There is no other way out.

Shen Nian couldn't accept that he would live forever like now, he could only accept it, so he took it and said, "Thank you Dad."

Shen Chongshan smiled and didn't say anything, looked at Gu Zhi, Gu Zhi also took it away, but he didn't continue to eat the meal after that, left the kitchen and went back to the north room, Shen Chongshan looked at Gu Zhi's figure outside the window, and didn't slow down until he disappeared. Slowly retracting his gaze, he looked at Shen Nian.

"Xiao Nian." Shen Chongshan spoke in a tone that was almost begging. He knew what kind of gesture Shen Nian would be most unable to refuse: "When Dad is not at home, Gu Zhi asks you to take care of him. You are two years older than him and sensible. With you here, Dad is very relieved."

Shen Nian's knuckles holding the chopsticks turned blue and white due to too much force, but in the end he still didn't say no.

Naturally, I didn't say yes.

He just sat there in silence until the meal was over.

He never knew that eating a meal could be so difficult.

He didn't know what Gu Zhi wanted to do, but he didn't explode when Shen Chongshan left.

It wasn't until this time that Shen Nian realized that he originally expected him to explode, at least one more insanity would be an opportunity, he couldn't go insane, but he expected Gu Zhi to create this opportunity.

But Gu Zhi didn't do that.why?

This question made Shen Nian, who was lying on the bed before going to sleep, suddenly frightened. He wildly guessed whether Gu Zhi wanted to do something to himself after Shen Chongshan left. He couldn't use self-harm to keep Shen Chongshan, so what about hurting himself? ?Will Shen Chongshan have a different choice?

But in an instant, Shen Nian felt that his thoughts were too ridiculous, Gu Zhi should be the one who knew how unimportant he was to Shen Chongshan, no matter how abnormal he was, he would not use such a method to achieve his goal.

What's more, during this period of time, he didn't even take a look at himself, that didn't look like he had plans for himself.

Shen Nian didn't sleep for almost the whole night. When the sky was getting dark, he seemed to hear footsteps coming from outside. He glanced at the time and it was only after 5 o'clock. Shen Nian got up after looking out the window for a few seconds. Shen Chongshan was fully dressed, with his suitcase at his feet, and he was hesitating at the door of Gu Zhi's room.

Hearing the sound, he looked over: "Did it wake you up?"

Shen Nian looked at Shen Chongshan: "He may not respond."

Shen Chongshan nodded, and smiled wryly: "Then let's not talk about it, I'm leaving, you take care of yourself and your brother."

After saying this, Shen Chongshan left the north room without the slightest nostalgia, and then walked out of the small courtyard.

Shen Nian heard the sound of the door opening and closing, and stood there for a long time in a daze. He seemed to be puzzled by how the relationship between the father and son who was not his own was better than his own.

He originally thought that their good relationship would last for a long time.

At least not this short.

After Shen Chongshan left, Shen Nian returned to the room. The drowsiness of a night without sleep swept over him. He fell asleep in a daze. When he woke up again, it was only around noon. The outside was very quiet, as if he had fallen asleep a long time ago. Still wake up is the kind of quiet quiet.

Shen Nian had the illusion that this nearly a year had been a dream, but after the illusion passed, he knew clearly that there was another stubborn person in the next room.

A stubbornness that he doesn't know how to take care of, but seems to have to take care of.

Shen Nian lay down for a while, got up and left the room.

It's July, and it's already hot. Calculating the time, it's time for Liang Qiu to go to Shanghai to see Uncle Liang after finishing his high school exams. Maybe he should call Liang Qiu and ask.

Shen Nian walked to the living room while thinking, when he passed by Gu Zhi's room, he found the door was open, Gu Zhi was standing with his back to the door, did not move, at least Shen Nian didn't know what he was doing, Gu Zhi seemed to feel him When he came out, he turned his head slightly and looked this way, and went back to maintain that position after a few seconds.

Shen Nian stood on the spot for a few seconds, wanting to say something, but before he could speak, Liang Qiu rode into the small courtyard, and smiled when he saw Shen Nian:

"Xiao Nian!"

Shen Nian also laughed, didn't look at Gu Zhi anymore, and walked out of the north room: "You're back?"

"I came back in the morning." Liang Qiu said as he glanced at the small courtyard. He always felt that something was different. Shen Chongshan heard what he said, and Liang Qiu pressed his voice and asked, "Where's Uncle Shen?"

Shen Nian smiled: "Going out."

Liang Qiu breathed a sigh of relief: "Has the little pervert gone out too?"

Shen Nian froze for a moment before saying anything, Liang Qiu opened his mouth again, not noticing the expression on his face:

"Since there is no one at home, how many days will you stay at my house?"

Liang Qiu's words almost pierced Shen Nian's heart.

After Shen Chongshan left everything and left, Shen Nian had no choice but to stay at home because school hadn't started yet, because he had nowhere to go, but now Liang Qiu gave him a choice, he could leave, he could ignore it, he could escape, even if it was just A few short days were enough for him to catch his breath.

"Okay." Shen Nian said, "I'll tidy up my clothes."

"Okay, wait for you."

Liang Qiu parked his bicycle and walked around in the small courtyard before stepping into the house. He was taken aback by Gu Zhi who was standing in the room. He cursed secretly and ignored Gu Zhi, and walked towards Shen Nian's room. Shen Nian was stuffing some clothes into his schoolbag when Liang Qiu came over and leaned against the desk:

"That little pervert didn't go out with Uncle Shen?"

Shen Nian always felt that Gu Zhi wanted to play a big game, but until now, he still didn't know what it was. The only thing that was certain was that when he went crazy, Shen Nian couldn't stand it, so Shen Nian didn't want to provoke him at all, he didn't want to, Liang Qiu No, no one knows what will happen when Liang Qiu's temper that doesn't take a loss meets Gu Zhi.

"On the way."

Liang Qiu was taken aback when he heard the words, but he didn't ask any more questions. With Liang Qiu, Shen Nian always said what he said.

Liang Qiu and Shen Nian went out, and when they passed by Gu Zhi's room, he was still in the same posture, Shen Nian paused for a while, looked at the direction he was facing and couldn't tell why, but he still said something;

"I won't be back for a few days."

Gu Zhi seemed to respond, but he didn't turn his head, so Shen Nian ignored it and walked away.

On the way home with Liang Qiu, Shen Nian was still wondering what Gu Zhi was looking at and what he wanted to do?He can't figure it out, and he doesn't understand Gu Zhi, but if Gu Zhi doesn't do anything, it seems to be the most normal thing he has ever done, but he is Gu Zhi, and normal things will appear to him Abnormal obsession.

Would he really recognize Shen Chongshan's arrangement for him so quietly?

Shen Nian always felt a little uneasy, but he didn't have a definite point of view, he could only think wildly, until Liang Qiu said, "What did you say to me on the way?"

Only then did Shen Nian come back to his senses, staring at the receding trees, said:

"My dad went to run a sports car and left Gu Zhi at home. From now on..."

Before Shen Nian finished speaking, Liang Qiu braked and stopped the bicycle on the side of the road. Shen Nian was caught off guard and bumped into Liang Qiu's back with his nose. Why, seeing the red corners of Shen Nian's eyes froze for a moment, Shen Nian waved his hand:

"fine."

Liang Qiu tore off his hand covering his nose, he was completely relieved when he saw that there was no nosebleed, and then he returned to what Shen Nian said just now:

"What do you mean by sports car? The kind of sports car that didn't come back for more than half a year?"

Shen Nian rubbed his nose and nodded: "Well, he didn't borrow any money, so he sold the van that delivered the goods before, and paid the money to the girl's house, and went to the previous convoy again."

"Where's the little pervert?" Liang Qiu asked, "Is it just thrown to you?"

Shen Nian didn't speak, Liang Qiu knew the answer, and laughed angrily:

"It's really something your father can do. Neither of them is his own son, so no matter how good he was to Gu Zhi before, if something really happened, he would just throw it away. Do you think he is heartless or affectionate? Say no Well, he brought Gu Zhi back from the orphanage with good intentions, and said yes, he seems to be more ruthless than anyone else, he treats the son he has raised for more than ten years, and the half-way son who he likes so much that he can't wait to tear his heart out. can be thrown away."

Shen Nian couldn't understand Shen Chongshan's behavior this time. He sat in the back seat of the car and didn't speak. Liang Qiu couldn't find any new words when he scolded Shen Chongshan. He looked dumbfounded, and couldn't help but find it funny, this person could have this side in front of him.

He raised his foot and kicked the bicycle, the vibration made Shen Nian look over, Liang Qiu raised his jaw:

"What do you think?"

Shen Nian shook his head and didn't say anything, Liang Qiu didn't ask, but instead asked Gu Zhi: "Uncle Shen did this, what's Gu Zhi's reaction?"

"What's changed in my house, you haven't noticed?"

"Damn it?" Liang Qiu laughed softly: "It's indeed something that little pervert would do, it's not surprising, but do you really want to take care of him?"

"I can't take care of him." Shen Nian said, "He doesn't need me to take care of him either."

"It's right to think so, don't stop these things on your body." Liang Qiu stepped on the bicycle again: "You lived at home by yourself when you were 11 years old, and the little pervert is 13 this year, so you won't let yourself starve to death, you You should live in the school, as for the little pervert, whatever you want."

Shen Nian responded, not thinking about these things for the time being, and thinking about them would be incomprehensible. He is too young to change many things.

It's just that he restrained his thoughts, but Liang Qiu didn't know what he was thinking. He straddled the bicycle and didn't start. Shen Nian waited for a while but still didn't arrive, so he asked aloud: "What's wrong with you?"

"Xiao Nian..." Liang Qiu didn't look back, just looked into the distance and asked, "Do you want to go to school in other places?"

Shen Nian almost thought he heard it wrong: "Huh?"

"It's okay." Liang Qiu smiled softly: "Let's talk about it another day. Today I will take you to eat delicious food first."

Liang Qiu was weird, this was Shen Nian's first reaction, but he didn't continue to ask, Liang Qiu never asked about things he didn't want to say because he understood Shen Nian's temperament, but Shen Nian didn't ask Liang Qiu, simply It's just because he is not used to it, he has always been selective in answering what others give him, and he takes the initiative to ask for it, even if it is an answer, he has never had it.

Shen Nian knew that it was useless to escape, but he still stayed at Liang Qiu's house for four or five days. Su Xiaoxiao was still in Shanghai and hadn't come back. It was only him and Liang Qiu at home. Both of them were about to enter high school, and they didn't even have homework. Worry-free every day is either going to ride a bike or Shen Nian is being oppressed to accompany Liang Qiu to play basketball. As for Gu Zhi, he has never thought about it.

Liang Qiu was right, he started living alone when he was 11 years old, now that Gu Zhi is 13 years old, there shouldn't be any problems.

He just let himself go for a few days in such a deceitful way, and then he still wanted to go back. Su Xiaoxiao came back. Although he was very enthusiastic about him, Shen Nian still couldn't let himself stay in a home that didn't belong to him for too long. I am afraid that the other party will find it troublesome, afraid that the other party will hold back, and fear that the other party will think that I am impolite.

Liang Qiu knew Shen Nian well, he knew what he was thinking since he said he was going home, looked at him helplessly, didn't try to persuade him, just said:

"I send you."

Shen Nian said goodbye to Su Xiaoxiao politely, Su Xiaoxiao sent him to the door, but she winked at Liang Qiu, Shen Nian saw it, but almost avoided it in a hurry, he didn't even dare to explore the look. What does it mean? Liang Qiu's face was a little impatient, but he still nodded and left with Shen Nian.

Liang Qiu wanted to ride Shen Nian back, but Shen Nian refused:

"I'll just take the car."

Liang Qiu found that Shen Nian seemed to be different, and recalled just now, and sighed: "I didn't want to tell you so early, but you seem to have misunderstood something."

Shen Nian wanted to say no, but Liang Qiu messed up his hair: "Play a game with me before you leave."

For some reason, Shen Nian suddenly had a feeling of losing something. Although he felt that he shouldn't have any new feelings about loss, he was still afraid for no reason. What he could lose now seemed to be, There is only one friend like Liang Qiu.

On the basketball court, Shen Nian played with Liang Qiu with all his strength for the first time. Liang Qiu played casually at first, but seeing Shen Nian's rare energy, he also started to do his best. In the end, the two of them lay down sweating. Looking at the blue sky on the empty basketball court, with the breeze blowing, panting.

"What's the matter with you today?" Liang Qiu turned his head to look at him: "I wouldn't fight with me like this before."

Shen Nian smiled: "I feel like I won't have much chance in the future, if I don't have a good fight with you, I will regret it."

Liang Qiu was stunned for a moment, and suddenly got up from the field: "You..."

Why are you so sensitive?

Shen Nian was so tired that he still lay still, he just looked at Liang Qiu and asked, "Liang Qiu is leaving, isn't he?"

Liang Qiu opened his mouth and wanted to say that he couldn't leave, but he couldn't say it, and it would be a lie to say it.Shen Nian looked at him so that Liang Qiu couldn't stand it anymore. While avoiding it, he scratched his hair irritably, but he still didn't speak immediately, and Shen Nian didn't force him. Anyway, he already knew the ending. As for the reason, it seems that Not so important anymore.

To be honest, he never thought that Liang Qiu would leave. In Shen Nian's vision, they would go to high school together. If he was taller, he could even be at the same table with Liang Qiu, and he was not afraid of class division. He majored in liberal arts and science. It's all good, he will go wherever Liang Qiu goes, and he will take the university exam together, and then he will be a college classmate.

But Shen Nian ignored that Liang Qiu has multiple choices in life. He can go anywhere and do anything at any age, but Shen Nian can only stay here until he is able to leave. Without here, he wouldn't even be able to go to school.

The wind was very comfortable, probably because the sweat on the surface of the body evaporated, Shen Nian felt a little cold.

"You also know that my dad has been in Shanghai for more than half a year." After a long silence, Liang Qiu finally said: "I said before that I was going to do a project, but now the project is basically set in Shanghai. In a short time, five or six I won’t be back for a year. My dad is chronically ill. My mother can’t rest assured that he is alone and will be with him. But I’m going to high school soon, so she doesn’t worry about me, so they let me transfer to Shanghai, but they also respect my decision. If I want to stay here, my mother will stay here, and run around on Saturdays and Sundays, I..."

"How far is Shanghai from here?" Shen Nian caught Liang Qiu's embarrassment.

Liang Qiu looked back at Shen Nian, without saying a word, Shen Nian smiled and sat up in Liang Qiu's sight:

"I have never traveled far, but the geography textbook shows that Shanghai is far away from us even in a straight line. How long does it take by car? I will visit you during the holidays. You take me to the Bund, to the Oriental Pearl Tower, and I also want to visit Huangpu Jiang, I still want you to take me to eat delicious food."

"Shen Xiaonian." Liang Qiu raised his hand and pressed heavily on Shen Nian's head, making him lower his head: "Don't laugh if you don't want to laugh, it's so ugly."

Shen Nian really didn't want to laugh, so he kept the posture Liang Qiu gave him for a long time, but what other expressions could he make other than laugh?Crying and saying don't go?Those were Aunt Su and Uncle Liang, who had been kind to him since he was a child, and existed like family members. The relationship between him and Liang Qiu was good, and the good thing was that Shen Nian was unique, but how could Shen Nian open his mouth to let him be separated from his parents? Choose yourself among yourself?

Even Shen Nian felt that she was not important.

Later, Shen Nian raised his head and looked at Liang Qiu again, but he had already replaced the forced smile that Liang Qiu didn't like, and replaced it with the most genuine helplessness, saying:

"You can come back to see me, I may not have much money to see you."

Liang Qiu felt uncomfortable, and blurted out:

"Do you want to come with me?"

Shen Nian froze for a moment, looked at him, as if he didn't understand what he was saying.

Liang Qiu made his own meaning clearer: "Transfer schools with me, go to Shanghai together, and leave Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi alone, and the real surname will be Liang from now on, okay?"

Shen Nian looked at Liang Qiu, didn't speak for a long time, and then laughed at him: "Are you childish or not?"

"You're tempted." Liang Qiu said, "You want to go too."

In front of Liang Qiu, Shen Nian's only secret is his blood relationship with Shen Chongshan. Besides, he is like a blank sheet of paper in front of Liang Qiu. He also admits that Liang Qiu has seen through him at this moment. He can even Nod honestly and say 'yes, I want to go'.

But thinking and doing are always separated by obstacles.

Shen Nian can't do this.

He knew that Liang Qiu was serious, and if he really wanted to make such a choice, Liang Qiu would definitely find a way to get Su Xiaoxiao and Liang Chunchao to welcome and agree, but why should he?Why open your mouth and ask another family to accept yourself who is completely unrelated by blood?

What's more, there are some things that need distance.

Now Su Xiaoxiao and Liang Chunchao are treating him so well because he is always a guest to the Liang family. Treating him well is the courtesy and upbringing of the Liang family, not what he deserves with peace of mind.How long can this kindness last when Shen Nian also becomes an accessory of the Liang family?

Shen Nian didn't want to think about it, didn't want to destroy it, so he would rather keep this good from afar.

This is a candy, if he licks it when he is bitter, it may last a lifetime, but if he puts it in his mouth, it may disappear soon.

What to do after that?Where would he find the next candy?

Furthermore, he already owed Shen Chongshan, and he still didn't know how to pay it back, so how could he owe the Liang family?

The sun gradually set in the west, burning half of the sky red, Shen Nian looked up at the west side, and said: "Everyone yearns for a good life, and I am no exception, but Liang Qiu, not everyone is born in the sun, I have to Only when I walk into the sun can I stand with peace of mind.”

Liang Qiu looked at the setting sun and surrounded Shen Nian in the soft light, as if giving him all the tenderness of this world, but he knew better than anyone that it was the indifference of this world that softened Shen Nian. You have to let yourself compromise again and again, and be flattened and rounded by life again and again in order to survive with difficulty