[Net King] The life accused by the younger brother

Nissan, who walked out of the room, picked up the domestic express mail, placed it on the coffee table, took the scissors, and unpacked it carefully.After opening it, I saw a thick envelope on the top layer. Nissan opened it and saw that there were recent photos of some acquaintances, including family members and the group of people on the Internet.

The family photo is a group photo, and there is only one photo. Grandpa’s eyes are wise and majestic. Mom is holding a chocolate cake and smiling proudly. Dad purses his lips slightly and looks at the camera. Ah Shan tilts his head with a cute face.

And this group of people in the online agency has all kinds of photos, and there are a lot of funny things about each other. The appearance of momo sauce and Haitang Mars hitting the earth and arguing, the appearance of golden partners tacitly playing against opponents, Zhou Zhu still smiling warmly, Zhenzhi is non-stop Recording the crazy appearance of the data, Long held the racket with a look of blood on his face, while Echizen's face was either innocent or sleepy.Even after drinking the dry juice, the annuals whose corpses lay on the ground were photographed and collected here.Nisan lowered the corners of his sharp eyes, thinking, he should be very happy after seeing it with a smile.

While flipping through it, a piece of pink letter paper fluttered out.Bending down to pick it up, fingering it a few times, unfolding it.Nissan had only read a few words before his face turned red, but he still bit the bullet and finished reading.Then he let out a breath, shook his eyes a few times, touched the part where his heart was beating violently, pursed his lips, and clenched his fists.

The smile calmed down after being teased by Nissan, the chaotic breathing, wiped away the tears from the corners of the eyes due to laughing too crazy, crawled out of the bed, and tidied up the scattered clothes that were dismantled by Nissan, out of the bedroom.He happened to see the package placed squarely above the table, and looked at Nissan curiously, only to see that he was holding a thin piece of paper in his hand, but he was very shy.He quickly walked towards Nissan, and asked cheerfully, "Hey, where did you get the package? Nissan, are you shy? What are you talking about?"

When Nisan heard the laughing voice, he turned his face uncomfortably, folded the letter paper and put it in his pocket, handed him the envelope with the photo in his hand, and said lightly, "Mom express delivery Some of the things that came here are said to contain your favorite snacks."

Tilting his head with a smile, he quickly cheered, climbed onto the sofa, and threw himself on Nissan's back.He didn't go to pick up the envelope first, but stretched out his arms to look through the contents of the box, trying to find the snacks made by his mother first.

But the more the smile turned, the more puzzled it was. There were some snacks, maybe because they were afraid that they would be stale, so they only put a small can of dried eel.Then there are two very formal and solemn small suits, two sets of traditional Japanese clothes, and hakama.The four sets of clothes are both black and white, and the accessories are also very complete, ranging from small cuff buttons and white fans to large shoes, socks and hats.

Smiling, he muttered in Nisan's ear, "Why do you put so many clothes? They are all formal clothes." He continued to take things out.Nisan's ears were numb and limp from the hot air when he spoke with a smile.She turned her cheeks sideways, held the smiling arm, turned around and pulled him down, hugged him in her arms, and watched him continue to turn all the items in the package upside down.

At this time, the smile that had turned to the bottom was stunned, and slowly withdrew its hand.After a long time, he held Nissan's finger and asked a little uneasily, "Why did Mom express the box that Takechiyo left behind?"

Nisan hugged his vague smile, kissed his earlobe, and said in a low voice, "Are you still afraid of Takechiyo when you're by my side?"

Nodding with a smile, he shook his head again, tightened one of Nissan's fingers, and said softly, "I'm afraid, even if it's just a memory, I'm afraid. As the memory gradually recovers, apart from the intimacy in childhood, the relationship between me and him When we get along, there is never a peaceful time, either I am covered in blood, or he is seriously injured. I don’t have any good results with him, it seems to be cursed, there is him without me, there is me without him , if the two insist on appearing at the same time, they will have to pay a price."

"If I wanted you to recall everything, and then stop being afraid of him, and make a clean break with the past, what would you do?" Nisan hugged Smiling's waist, turned him over, stared into his eyes and asked earnestly,

"No, I don't want to recall everything, Nisan, why do you want to do this? Didn't you say you wanted to hypnotize me last time to make me forget everything?" The smile trembled in fear, raised his face, eyes hanging down, full of pleading Look at Nissan.

Nisan patted him on the back knowingly, and reassured him, "I have already understood that hypnosis is not so reliable. If it all bursts out during hypnosis, then it will be recalled bit by bit compared to now, and then It would be better to completely ignore its existence. I wonder if you still have any memory of the female doctor we met last time?"

Smiling and nodding slightly, he buried his face into Nissan's neck, rubbed against the skin of Nissan's neck in panic, felt the warmth and softness, then regained his composure, and said, "The doctor, I have The impression is that she pulled me out of hallucinations twice. The last time, she talked with me for a long time. If I hadn't come to you in a hurry, she would have taken me back to her clinic. So are these her suggestions? Nisan, she was just suggesting, can you just let it go like this? I'm afraid, really afraid, and don't want to know, any of those things that happened."

Nissan sighed, pinched his ears, held his face again, put his fingers at the corners of his eyes, nodded, and said softly, "Are you afraid of Takechiyo, or are you afraid of being hurt by him again? The first strong hug? Your first fear came from that first night, right?"

Feeling Nissan's fingers, the slight pressing sensation when they pressed against the corners of his eyes, he closed his eyes in a ignorant manner, and shook his head, "What is a strong hug?"

Nissan's heart, which had been calmed down, beat violently in an instant, but there was a trace of weakness in his eyes. He closed his eyes and stopped looking at the smiling expression. He was afraid that he would not be able to hold back the kiss, so the topic of today's discussion is Again in vain. "It's that he disregarded your wishes and forced things that shouldn't happen."

Smile was stunned for a moment, and then suddenly realized, "Yeah, Takechiyo is so annoying, he doesn't let me be free, and always likes to hug me and discuss issues with his retainers."

Nisan turned his face sideways, covered his mouth, and coughed violently. After a long time, he raised his eyes to see his close smile, and sighed again, "I made a mistake in teaching."

After touching his forehead hair, brushing away a few strands of hair that covered his eyes, he pecked his lips tenderly, and said helplessly, "Just hug him, just..." Nissan, who couldn't continue, had no choice but to slowly Smile's legs were separated, along the leg seam through the trousers, sliding fingers, pressing on Smile's piss, and in the midst of Smile's exclamation, he lifted his lower back and slid towards Smile's ass .Then quickly withdrew his hand, clenched his fist, turned his face away, closed his eyes, blushed, and asked in a low voice, "Do you understand?"

Smile finally woke up from the shock, and nodded in a daze, "Takechiyo touched me like this. Apart from shyness, he was a little scared, but the most fearful thing was that I would bleed when I was with him. Isn't Nissan How many times has it made me uncomfortable?"

Nisan was also taken aback, his face gradually darkened, he dug out his smile, leaned on the sofa, leaned over him, and asked through gritted teeth, "I made you uncomfortable? Is it comfortable or uncomfortable?"

Looking at the angry Nissan with a smile, he was a little at a loss. He didn't know that his words had angered Nissan, but he nodded honestly, "The feeling that my body can't be controlled makes me uneasy, and I want to cry out to melt. The body that is about to explode urgently makes me a little overwhelmed, it is so uncomfortable, I..."

Nisan didn't let the smile mutter all the words, but just shook off his glasses, kissed it fiercely, and stroked the obedient thing of the smile with one hand, but just touched it a few times, then took it away in a slump, and hugged it With a smile, he turned over and let him lie on his body.

Nisan covered his eyes with one hand, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I forgot your age and your dull personality. It is said in the book that boys are prone to indulge in it and even degenerate after they first meet it. You are an individual like you. You have the memory of two lives, but your personality is so dull. The first night that should have been sweet has turned into a mess due to the confusion of the previous life, making you reject these things that you should enjoy. I don’t know how That's good, I don't know how to teach you this, it would be fine if we never grow up."

The smile was a bit shy and surprised, but after listening to Nisang's words, his heart moved, his pupils also shrank, and he finally understood what Nisang meant, but he just pursed his lips and silently buried his head on Nisang's neck between.

Nissan sighed again, knowing that this topic is no longer suitable for discussion, so he had to put it down for the time being, and look for another opportunity next time.Gently put the palm of his hand on his back, patted it for a while, then picked up the can of dried eel made by his mother, pulled out the button of the air pump, opened the cover, and shook it on the tip of his smiling nose.The originally grim smile was instantly attracted by the strong fragrance of dried eels, with his head half-raised, his eyes rolling, his face full of longing.

Nisan half closed his eyelids, under the eyelids was a small circle of black shadow quivering like a crow's feather, covering his sharp eyes, and he was calmly thinking about everything and stroked his train of thought.With his empty right hand, he gently tapped the back of the sofa, took out a small fork from the jar, and slowly fed the smile in small pieces, sometimes sliding it with a calloused finger. Caressing the skin on the back of the smiling neck, moving it inch by inch, and then stroking and swimming back in circles.

Smiling happily, but twisting his neck from time to time, trying to avoid Nissan's ambiguous behavior, thinking that it would be fine without Nissan's weird touch.However, Nisan's finger was always with him, and he couldn't avoid it. After several failed attempts to dodge, he gritted his teeth with a smile and endured the feeling of bristling hairs and chills in his heart. He ignored Nisan's finger and concentrated on eating again.

Smile really wanted to take the fork held in Nissan's hand, so that he could feed Nissan a taste while eating, but just as he grabbed the fork, Nissan squeezed it tightly to avoid it.With a smile, his eyes widened, he raised his head, puffed his mouth, and asked vaguely, "Nissan, don't you want to try it? This should be specially made by your mother for you, and it is also your favorite flavor."

Nisan glanced at the bright red lips with a smile, pinched the center of his brows, put down the jar and fork in his hand, brushed his lips with the tip of his nose, sniffed, and licked the eel juice leaking from the corner of his mouth , and then said in a low voice, "We should eat like this. If it's private time, you can do it. If you don't understand, I will teach you one by one."

He blushed with a smile, stopped chewing, and swallowed it in one gulp, but still nodded obediently to Nissan.Nissan pushed his smiling shoulder, and said lightly, "The game was interrupted before, you can practice with me, Qingxue has already won the semi-finals of the Kanto Tournament, and we can't relax."

Nodding with a smile, he climbed down, stood up, and went to the bedroom to change his sweatshirt.And Nisan rubbed his temples again, closed his eyes in frustration, thought that everything had been settled, but unexpectedly, there were more and more things to solve, and more and more difficult things to deal with.

Nissan took the remote control and controlled to open all the curtains in the room, wanting to let in the sunlight and let in the sweet orange scent that was infused in the room during the room service.It was the fragrance I specially picked for Smile, and the interior layout was as warm, cheerful and bright as sweet orange.

But at this time, I found that the more I was in such an environment, the more I couldn't calm down in my heart, and instead I was stimulated to burst out all the negative emotions.As the curtains were slowly opened, it was discovered that outside the window was a cloudy and rainy day that is very common in Germany.

Nisang clenched his fists, raised his head and closed his eyes, asking himself: Why do I always have to look around, and like to find troubles for myself.If the laughing thing is left for another two or three years, when he reaches his age, it will naturally happen to him.Why is my heart so unbalanced? Is it because my love is obtained through conspiracy and tricks, rather than mutual promises of friendship?Smile has already complied with everything, but her heart is always full of uneasiness. Where is the strong self-confidence that she is so proud of?If this goes on like this, not only will he go back to the old path of his previous life, his smile will also be smoothed out by himself.

"Nissan, let's go, I..." Smile changed her clothes, excitedly carried a tennis bag, and jumped out of the bedroom.Facing Nissan cheerfully, he shook the tennis racket in his hand, wanting to say that he had a sudden inspiration just now, and wanted to try the power of the new trick later.

But he found Nissan standing on the open-air balcony, drenched in the heavy rain, with his eyes closed, his head slightly raised, and standing upright in the rainwater that fell all over his face.At that scene, Nissan seemed to be crying in the rain, making his heart twitch for a moment.

Smiling, he covered his painful heart, bent down, and squatted down, only to feel a little relieved.But then I really want to know what Nissan is sad about, is it the problem of the sad arm?It shouldn't be. Could it be that I got into trouble again?

Smiling, she put down the tennis bag and racket in her hand, stood up slowly, took a few steps while leaning against the wall, rubbed her chest, and then let go, approaching Nissan, no matter what the reason, she planned to give a fuck first Jiao.

Suddenly, he noticed that Nissan's figure was changing and twisting, and the color was getting lighter and weaker. He hurriedly walked a few steps with a panicked smile.As soon as it was within reach, it suddenly dissipated from top to bottom like a white mist, and a gust of wind blew past without leaving a trace.And the surrounding scenes were gradually swallowed by the thick darkness, and the chaotic mist was constantly invading towards the direction where the smile stood.

Smiling and terrified, he ran to the place where Nissan was standing before, and eagerly reached out to grab something, but when he looked down, there was nothing.His head felt dizzy as if it was about to split open, but his body was terribly hot, and his limbs were tightly bound by something cold.Biting his lips with a smile, biting the tip of his tongue again, under the pain for a long time, he finally shouted out in horror, "Nissan, Nissan...don't let me fall asleep, hallucination, hallucination..."

Nisan looked at him falling to himself, and then grabbed his sleeve tightly, smiling for help.Pursing his lips, he picked him up, walked into the bedroom, put him in the quilt, and stuck him on it himself, but he didn't make a sound for a smile.Just kissing his closed eyes over and over again, sucking away the overflowing tears.

Feeling the eyeballs shaking violently under his lips, Nisan pressed his chest and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I will wake you up when the time is up." He took out the silver pocket watch that he had been carrying with him since he came to Germany. After a crisp ding, it was placed beside the smiling pillow.And carefully pried open the jaws of the smile, so that he felt that because of his own existence, he would no longer close the jaws with scruples, biting his own lips and the tip of his tongue, so as to achieve the goal that he wanted to stay awake and survive. The purpose of hallucinations.

The smile pushed Nisan's tongue away, and he tightened his grip on his clothes. As he became anxious, more and more tears rolled down his eyes. Finally, the smile couldn't hold back, and he murmured vaguely at the end, "Nisan, Nissan..." Finally, he slowly let go of Nissan's grip, and landed on the bed without moving.

Nisan also hugged and smiled with a pale face, and didn't look up for a long time.He moved his fingers suddenly, took out a mobile phone from his trouser pocket, unlocked the screen lock, clicked the time in the white light, and dialed.

"Tezuka Kunimitsu? I knew it was you. Is your little master in trouble?" The beautiful doctor who was about to get off work put down her handbag and continued to sit back.Glancing at the long list of phone numbers displayed on the phone, he thought for a while, then answered the phone decisively, and asked Nissan on the other end of the phone firmly.

Nissan pulled the phone away from his ear, frowned, but still calmed down his voice, "It's me, I followed what you said, let the smile fall into the hallucination, just to make sure, whether the time you set is just nice?"

The beautiful doctor grabbed a strand of long hair from behind with her hand and curled it on her fingers, her face on the floor was displeased, "Are you doubting my professionalism?"

"No" Nissan replied lightly, but the knuckles holding the phone turned white from too much force.

"I am completely convinced by you. I have always been a doctor to persuade a patient. I have never had an experience like mine. You are the first person who made me feel very frustrated. However, you really moved me, otherwise I would I will not teach you to use this method to solve the problems of the previous life. There are also your own problems, so solve them as soon as possible. Don’t carry a bomb that can explode at any time on your back all day. Blast your admirers to nothing."

Nissan pursed his lips, but did not answer.But the beautiful doctor didn't mind that the other party was so indifferent that he was about to ignore her attitude.If it wasn't for that sweetheart, maybe she wouldn't have taken the initiative to call her.

The beautiful doctor curled her lips, and continued to seize the opportunity to gossip, teasing Tezuka, "Germany has the most famous church in the world, the most romantic and dreamy castle, the most leisurely time, the most unpredictable weather, and girls The charming German dudes we dream of most. Well, you pretend I didn't say that last sentence. But Germany is really full of opportunities, and you are still alone. If in the meantime, you still can't get it done Your sweetheart, you are really a failure in life."

Nisan listened to the other party's nonsense and remained silent, but he did not hang up the phone. Perhaps after having this noisy voice, he was no longer so unbearable.

Nisan touched the letterhead still hidden in his pocket, and sighed. The doctor's thinking was exactly the same as that of his mother, except that his mother had prepared even the wedding dress, the household registration certificates of both parties, and the recommendation letter from the German ambassador to Japan. up.I really don't know how my mother did it, she didn't feel repulsed and ashamed of her disobedience and immorality, or refused to communicate with herself.He only supports himself silently, and for his own happiness is willing to announce his son's sexual orientation, admitting that there is a problem with his teaching.Such a traditional mother loves herself so much.

Nisan closed his slightly watery eyes, and the veins popped on his forehead, "I have been selfishly grasping everything I want to master, but I have hurt too many people as I drifted away." Nisan opened his eyes suddenly , shaking his hands and stroking the lips that had already lost their blood in the smile, trembling voice, "I'm guilty, I'm sorry, but I love you! Even if I will go to hell after I die in the future, I will drag you down with me."

The beautiful doctor listened to Tezuka's almost whispering crazy words, the alarm bells in his heart were loud, and he felt that something was wrong, so he fed him a few times, and after making sure that Tezuka was still listening to his phone, he talked nonsense about all kinds of funny things very naturally, He casually talked about his various perceptions of love after seeing too many patients.

Nisan listened more and more seriously, thinking carefully, and slowly let go of the person lying under him, who was constantly sweating.Frowning and looking at the smile that looked even worse because of his too strong hug, he stood up quickly, fetched a hot towel, and wiped him over and over again.Turning on the speaker, while listening to the beautiful doctor's babbling seriously, he untied Smile's already soaked clothes and pants, fetched a new set, and put them on for him.

The beautiful doctor looked at her watch, estimated the time, and was relieved to hear the rustling voice coming from the receiver, and continued to talk about endless topics.In fact, these contents are all cases that are explained to patients when treating mental illness.The beauty sighed, it's too bad, every time I meet this kid who deserves to be beaten, I always suffer, not to mention all kinds of fees, and provide services for free.Of course, except this time, he finally made him pay for the second most cost-effective international phone call. Is it progress?

The beautiful doctor shook her head, watched the sky darken, and flicked on the headlights. It seemed that this kid was going to be on duty until late at night today.

The author has something to say: Well, if you like it, jump out and continue to beat the nest, if you don't like it, let the nest ignore the next morals, and steal a sweet from you~ 噗哩~~