Attempted first love

Something was broken, broken, squashed.

underfoot.It may be a pill box, hard candy, mineral water bottle, but it is soft to the touch. Xia Yan doesn't remember what else fell on the ground, the back of his neck was restrained, and he couldn't lower his head to confirm. He was afraid to step on the valuables, so he dared not move.

The noise of the wind and rain, beating on the glass door, like some kind of ancient horn sound, melodious and stirring, and the changes in the body became more and more intense.

The hard place was pushed repeatedly by even harder bones and joints. The tingling sensation started from the abdomen and extended to every nerve ending. Xia Yan felt that he had turned into the palm tree downstairs, all he needed was a little wind and rain When I hit it, it trembled and couldn't stop.

He was embarrassed and didn't dare to look at Lu Zhouyu, so he could only put one hand around his waist, his head and neck intertwined, his eyes had nowhere to go, and finally stared at the white bedside table between the two narrow beds.

The light was a dim orange, he opened his mouth, exhaled slowly, his Adam's apple rolled, and said, "Don't do it."

As soon as I made a sound, even I was startled, the words were glued and overlapped, like melted syrup, pulling out filaments, and the end sound swallowed the end sound, making people unable to tell whether it was comfort or suffering.

The movement under her body stopped, and Lu Zhouyu continued to rub his waist, ribs, hard and soft, all turned into an old newspaper in his hand, smoothed, crumpled, rolled into a cigarette, and held in the Hands to play.

"Don't you want to sleep with me?" he asked.

Xia Yan couldn't deny it.

In fact, from the moment he picked up the box of condoms by accident in the pharmacy, he couldn't understand himself.I don’t know why I didn’t explain it to the clerk, I don’t know why I hid it at the bottom of the bag, I don’t know why it’s just a petting action—who hasn’t done it by themselves?But through other people's hands and bodies, the reaction was so strong.

"……Yes."

Straightening his body, Xia Yan raised his eyes to meet Lu Zhouyu's gaze. Under the dim light, he was still standing upright, but his half-dry hair was messed up, and two locks drooped from his forehead, covering half of his eyebrows and the ends of his eyes. So much so that the face that was always alienated and indifferent in the past seemed soft unexpectedly.When it got closer, there was sweat on the tip of the nose, maybe it was rainwater. Xia Yan licked it closely, but he couldn't taste it, but he heard heavy breathing.

Blessed to the heart, he asked viciously: "Don't you want to sleep with me?"

He didn't get a reply, Xia Yan reached down with trembling hands, touched the tie on the waist of the sports shorts, and then down, there was a thin layer of fabric that had obvious bulges, and he flicked his wrist, trying to pull it away. When tying the belt, the five fingers are held and held between the two.

"Shaking like this," Lu Zhouyu looked at him from between his fingers, "Are you so nervous?"

Yes.

is so tense.

But he couldn't speak, and even his breathing slowed down, for fear that any organ would be betrayed, which was more embarrassing timidity than nervousness.

After a long time, Lu Zhouyu suddenly leaned over, took his trembling index finger in his mouth, hooked the tip of his tongue around the fingertip and twirled it gently, then went to hold his middle finger again, this time it turned into biting, using real force, as if using force to suppress the unstoppable shake.

"...Leave them alone," Xia Yan withdrew his watery fingers and said, "Kiss me."

Kiss falls like rain, otherwise how could it be damp, wet, and sticky everywhere, the human body is composed of 70.00% water, how much is self-generated, and how much is descended.

This kiss was longer than ever before, Lu Zhouyu's hands tightly wrapped around Xia Yan's waist, as if he was afraid that he would run away or evaporate.

How could I run away, Xia Yan thought, even if it evaporates, it will condense into rain and fall on you, even if you shake it, you won't be able to shake it off, but will you recognize me then?

The two of them were entangled in a ball, and they couldn't remember for a long time what was broken, broken, and crushed. They moved with difficulty, and the sound was louder, but no one cared about it.

Xia Yan once again smelled the after-shower fragrance from Lu Zhouyu's body, the added industrial lemon smell, cheap and rich, but it was strange that when he smelled it again, it was not the same as before, it was sweet and astringent. Like the candy he ate in the car.

Or maybe they were really eaten, they were attached to the skin, licked and sucked by him, swallowed along the esophagus, flowed through the internal organs, endlessly.

Xia Yan panted unbearably, and said in a low voice, "Go to bed."

At a distance of two or three meters, Lu Zhouyu took his hand and walked to the bed step by step.The bed was too narrow, and when the bed was folded and smashed against it, the desk lamp on the bedside table was shaken, and the shadow reflected on the wall also swayed, rising and falling.

Xia Yan grabbed Lu Zhouyu's shoulders, rolled over and pressed him under him, his desire was balanced, and there was nothing to hide.

and then?

He stretched out his hand impatiently, holding and kneading through the fabric, his palm was too tight to hold, and before untying the tie, Lu Zhouyu bit his earlobe, and suddenly asked, "Do you have pierced ears?"

"...Well, but it's long in the middle."

"When did it hit?"

"The year before last? I don't remember."

"Is there one on the other side?"

"No."

Xia Yan didn't understand how to change the subject quickly, kissed Lu Zhouyu's chin impatiently, but was asked again: "Why only hit one side?"

"It hurts too much, I can't bear it."

He couldn't bear it any longer, he lifted Lu Zhouyu's trouser waist, and got in with his fingertips, "Do you want to do it or not!"

Lu Zhouyu covered his hand, clasped his fingers together, and asked with a smile: "Do you want to sleep with me, or do you want to be slept by me?"

"I want to sleep with you," Xia Yan said, "Is it not possible?"

His fingers were rubbed slowly until the trembling stopped, and then Lu Zhouyu slowly said: "Okay." He let go of his hand, pulled out his arms and stretched them out in large characters, and said to Xia Yan with half-closed eyes, "Come on."

It is too light and fluffy.

Looking at him, Xia Yan always felt that the person in front of him was always erratic, whether he had sex or not, who got on and who got off, didn't matter to him.Even if he is pressing him down, if he is a little careless, he will still run away.This feeling of worrying about gains and losses is not unfamiliar, but at this moment it is so heavy that he feels collapsed from the inside out.

"Mr. Xia," Lu Zhouyu raised his upper body slightly, motioning for him with his chin, "Stop."

The box of condoms was forgotten in the corner of the table.

Not wanting to get up, and not wanting to hurt Lu Zhouyu, Xia Yan lowered his head and bit his lip, handing himself over, he said: "You should sleep with me."

He thought that Lu Zhouyu would ask why, or laugh at him for turning his back on what he said, but he didn't. He just looked at Xia Yan fixedly, and sighed after a long time: "That must work."

Lu Zhouyu patted Xia Yan's back, "Go and get it."

"..." Xia Yan propped his hands on the bed sheet and stood up slowly, "Then don't move."

"Don't move, go."

The arc of the sweatpants was very obvious, Xia Yan felt embarrassed at this moment, so he turned around on the bed with his back arched, only to climb a few inches, his waist was grabbed from behind, he was startled, and before he could make a sound, A painful and numb pleasure came from the lower body first.

"What are you doing..." His tone suddenly rose, and then fell silent again, Xia Yan bit his lower lip tightly, and turned his head to look.

Lu Zhouyu spread his legs apart, pushed his knees between his legs from behind, and reached down with his hands in front, pinching back and forth through a thin layer of fabric.

Xia Yan's legs were weak, and he could hardly kneel. His fingers clenched the bed sheet tightly, and sharp folds spread out from the gap between his fingers. He tried to crawl forward, so as to break free from this painful and exhilarating sense of loss of control, "Don't, don't , Didn’t you say do it, I’ll get the condom..."

Lu Zhouyu pressed his waist with one hand, pressed down, and easily fixed him in place. His voice was soft, as if he was trying to endure, and said, "Go back and do it, it's not convenient here."

Where is it inconvenient?Xia Yan thought, but soon he couldn't think, so he threw the question out of the sky.Maybe it's because he has no experience and can't fully experience it. He always feels that sex is just a medium for emotional catharsis, which is no different from hugging and kissing, so he is not obsessed with it.

After being rubbed, Xia Yan retreated steadily. Before being completely defeated, Xia Yan turned his head, and while Lu Zhouyu was kissing him to relax his guard, he rolled over and went up, knees together, legs entangled with legs, and lay face to face on the bed.

"If you don't do it, then don't do it," Xia Yan backed down, but reached down maliciously, "Then let's do it together."

They were not blocked this time, both of them were wearing loose gray sweatpants, you hold me, I hold you, occasionally bump into each other, and hug each other and rub against each other, I can’t explain why, but it’s even more exciting to be separated by a layer of fabric .

This is too strange, it's a different experience to change hands with the same organs.

It's also amazing, when the bodies touch each other, the hot air in the room seems to turn into water, enveloping everything, and they drown in the water, regardless of you and me.

A certain part of the body opened at the same time, and a liquid thicker than water poured out continuously.Xia Yan leaned on Lu Zhouyu's shoulder and panted, his eyes were lazily squinted. He had to admit that there was still a difference between the carrier and the carrier of emotional catharsis.

Lu Zhouyu's hand stroked rhythmically behind him, from the back of the head, past the neck, all the way down the spine, over and over again, Xia Yan vaguely reacted again, but he didn't want to do it again, the bed was too small, and he couldn't use it again. If he didn't open it, his calf hit the edge of the bed several times.

He protested in a hoarse voice, "It's the same when you touch Kitty."

Lu Zhouyu smiled, put his hands on his waist and did not move, "What will you do if you don't go home?"

"Little Fatty upstairs will help feed it."

"Ah."

"Do you think..."

"what?"

"This scene is very suitable for smoking," Xia Yan said, "Smoking afterwards, isn't it?"

"Don't you think it's bitter?" Lu Zhouyu said, pinched his waist, and said, "I didn't bring it."

"I'm just saying."

While talking, they kissed each other again, the heartbeat slowly calmed down, but the sticky and cold feeling under his body was hard to ignore, when he lowered his head, there was a large wet mass of dark color on his pants, Xia Yan's face became hot again, "I To take a bath."

He stood under the shower, and there was a very small window above his head. Through the glass, he could see that the outside of the window was still gloomy, with raindrops constantly hitting the window, and the rain stains meandered down, disappearing in a blink of an eye.

After watching for a while, Xia Yan felt cold, turned the valve to the highest temperature, and it was still cold.He has some common sense about sex-love, and knows that he is prone to fever after doing it, but this is obviously...will he also?

It wasn't until his whole body was cold that he realized that it was water cold, and there was no hot water, as Lu Zhouyu had told him.After changing his clothes while shivering, he wiped his hair and pushed the door out, only to hear the knock on the door.

"Who?"

"I."

Xia Yan was stunned, and quickly glanced around the room, but there was no one there.Then he opened the door, and Lu Zhouyu stood outside the door wet all over, his trouser legs were mostly wet, sticking to his legs from the knee down—his pajama pants were also wet, so he changed back to suit pants.

"Why did you go out again?" Xia Yan made way for him.

"Buy cigarettes." Lu Zhouyu took out a cigarette case from his pocket and handed it to him, "Have you brought a lighter?"

"I brought it..." Xia Yan took the cigarette case, it was an unknown brand, and there were still water droplets on the plastic wrap, he wiped it off with his fingertips, "I'm just saying, why do you still buy it specially?"

"I want to smoke too." Lu Zhouyu smiled at him, turned around and went into the bathroom to take a shower.

"The water is getting cold." Xia Yan said.

"It's okay." The door closed.

Holding the cigarette case, Xia Yan stood at the door of the bathroom for a while, until he heard the sound of water, then tore off the plastic wrap, bit out one, and went to find a lighter in his bag.

Walking to the table, the lighter dropped on the floor, as well as the mineral water bottle, two candies, and a box of motion sickness medicine, all intact.He looked around again and saw nothing broken, broken, crushed.

After the cigarette was lit, Xia Yan breathed out slowly, thinking wildly, it must be because my heart was pushed into a hole.