she is guilty of loving you

These words were a bit domineering, Jiang Yun didn't say anything else after she finished speaking, leaving Xu Qinrou scratching her head alone.

That's right, Xu Qinrou is not a piece of wood, how could she not see the deep emotions in Ye Man's eyes.

After all...she saw Jiang Yun's cover-up back then, and Ye Man would never be better at covering up than Jiang Yun.

But fortunately, before the seed germinated, Xu Qinrou planned to annihilate the seed quietly. The sore neck was really sore just now, but it was not to the extent that it needed to be kneaded immediately.

Xu Qinrou did it on purpose, and deliberately let Ye Man see the strawberry marks on her neck through such actions, so that her expectations would be shattered.

But now that she was picked on by Jiang Yun, she was still a little embarrassed, and she didn't know what Jiang Yun was thinking.

Looking up, Jiang Yun has neatly put the things she bought into the refrigerator.

Xu Qinrou bought a lot, and finally the few bottles of wine in the refrigerator took up a lot of space.

Jiang Yun stood there thinking for a while, then took out the wine, and then casually glanced at Xu Qinrou.

Xu Qinrou only felt a chill on the back of being watched, smiled at her, then turned her head silently, lowered her head to stroke the soft doll.

Jiang Yun knew that this person had a guilty conscience, so she smiled, turned around and threw all the wine in her hands into the trash can.

Xu Qinrou was sitting on the sofa, watching Jiang Yun's busy appearance, with a gentle smile spreading across her face. She had thought about this scene many times and for many years.

Sometimes it may feel that she is pitiful, and will give her a vague dream.

The most annoying thing about dreams is that everything in the dream is what you think, which will be transformed into the greatest happiness and satisfy all your expectations and obsessions.

But after waking up, you clearly remember the happiness and pleasure that you wished, but you can't remember any details.

The feeling of satisfaction in the dream when waking up is intertwined with the emptiness of hindsight, which is the most uncomfortable.

Xu Qinrou looked in the direction of the kitchen, exerted some strength, and pinched the soft flesh on the inner thigh without feeling sorry for herself, hissing, it hurts, it's real, not a dream.

Probably it was going to rain, the sky outside was dim, Jiang Yun reached out to turn on the light, the light was soft, pouring on Jiang Yun's body completely.

Layers of light and shadow softly faded away, clearly swaying, and Jiang Yun's whole person is beautiful and gentle.

Jiang Yun's slender fingers were covered with water stains because of the freshly washed vegetables, and the fingers were slender and long, covered with a faint layer of water.

The water flows along the edge of the finger, thinly and slowly, and finally gathers at the fingertips, converging into a bright and pleasant droplet.

Then with a small slap, it fell into the pool and disappeared.

It was obviously a very ordinary picture, but Xu Qinrou's face became a little hot when he saw it, and he turned his head away quietly, to soothe his hot and restless heart.

What Jiang Yun said was right, it was a bit boring, it was really going to rain.

Ye Man returned to the school alone, sitting on the bleachers of the playground, looking at the groups of students below, the sense of not belonging came out again inexplicably.

She was at a loss, not knowing what to do now, nor where to go, she looked down at the umbrella in her hand, turned it around in the palm of her hand, and then clenched it tightly again.

I came here today to give myself an end, and also an end to the unspoken feelings.

Because, here, she met Xu Qinrou for the first time, and after that, she couldn't forget it.

At that time, Ye Man was already in the first half of a semester of college. He went home to rest for a month due to physical reasons. He thought that his health would be better, and returning to school would be the same relaxed and harmonious life as before.

But when she came back, she found that the dormitory had undergone earth-shaking changes. In fact, it was not true, but everyone had undergone earth-shaking changes to her.

She didn't know what happened in this short month. Those roommates who were polite and enthusiastic before seemed to suddenly crowd out her.

I stopped calling her during class, and I would leave her alone when I sat down, and only left a corner seat when I was eating.

She couldn't get involved at all, those bustles, those laughs, just watching them laugh and laughing, and the sourness in her eyes almost fell into the bowl.

Like a clown, she lives carefully. She thinks that she is not doing well enough, so she is quiet and tries to reduce her sense of existence.

Pushing away their discomfort, they slowly pulled away, and they accepted it readily, as if they had been waiting for this sentence for a long time.

She sometimes feels that she is free and easy, but in the dead of night, she can't help crying in the quilt.

She was a little lonely, she had nowhere else to rely on, but she had no one to talk to, and during that time she kept her eyes open until daytime, and she couldn't sleep.

No one even told her what she did wrong from the beginning to the end, why she became like this after only going back for a month.

One evening, Ye Man came to the bleachers of the playground and found a nearby seat to sit down. Looking at the crowds of people in twos and threes below, Ye Man blinked for a moment, and tears fell down one by one uncontrollably.

She was immersed in sadness, completely unaware that there was suddenly another person beside her.

Until the people around him said softly: "Is the sunset so touching?"

These words were a bit ingenious, Ye Man thought he heard it wrong, turned his head, but only saw a side face, but it had been ten thousand years.

Xu Qinrou was sitting beside her, but her eyes were looking at the setting sun in the sky. The setting sun was warm and yellow, emitting layers of warm light, which lightly imprinted on her cheeks. her black hair.

Some of the hair that was tucked behind the ears fell down a little, covering her beautiful face. Facing the light, Ye Man could only see her eyelashes that occasionally trembled slightly. They were dense, long, and extremely beautiful.

Ye Man only felt that his heart stopped for a moment, and then started beating again at an uncontrollable speed. It was pounding in the chest, one after another.

She was so fascinated by it that she didn't know whether that sentence was said to herself or not.

How can the sunset be touching?Xu Qinrou seemed to be expressing why she was crying?Then does she want to answer?Ye Man struggled and hesitated for a long time.

Xu Qinrou was not in a hurry, as if she was just asking casually, and never looked at her from the beginning to the end, just staring at the sunset in the distance.

Xu Qinrou's attitude was natural and leisurely, as if she was just saying something casually.

But for no reason, Ye Man wanted to confide the depression of these days, under the sunset, by Xu Qinrou's side.

She wanted to tell Xu Qinrou, she wanted to tell Xu Qinrou the sadness that had no place to rest, even if it was just the first time they met, but there was no reason, Ye Man wanted to tell her.

She raised her hand and touched the corners of her eyes. The tears had dried up. She turned her head and looked at the extremely beautiful and brilliant sunset in the sky with a low voice.

"College life seems to be different from what I imagined. I don't know what position I should put myself in. Passively come and go passively...

Ever since I was sick and left for a period of time, I was always excluded from the group of the dormitory. They seemed to have become a whole, and their joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys belonged to them.

And I... can only be a bystander, watching and agreeing, and suddenly feel that I am so bad... I can't even handle simple dormitory relationships.

I often question what I'm not doing well enough, or what I'm doing wrong, but no one tells me..."

"There is nothing wrong with being a bystander. They can see the most clearly and thoroughly, and they are also the fastest to get out. Right and wrong won't affect you. This position is the cleanest and most relaxed.

No matter where you are, you will be shackled, and the only thing you have to endure now is the homework of loneliness, and, don’t you feel tired of blindly finding faults in yourself?

Are you really wrong?Are they really right?Can the boundaries and edges of the inside be clearly distinguished?

You may not be wrong, but some minor details will be infinitely magnified in the eyes of others, and will be considered wrong, and you feel that you are bad, it is completely unnecessary.

You have to know that at the beginning of college, everyone has just entered this small society, and they don't have the ability to distinguish themselves and judge right from wrong.

It is better to say that the instinct will be more to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and choose a better way for yourself, so in the future, you will not be able to systematically accuse a certain person.

But now, you should feel happy, you are not on the cusp of the storm, you are just driven to stand outside the circle, watching people come and go, isn't this already the best? "

Xu Qinrou said these words softly, every word is clear.

Although she still didn't look at herself, Ye Man knew that she was explaining herself and responding to what she said before.

What Ye Man said seemed to understand, but she knew for certain that she was not so uncomfortable anymore, and the dark cloud weighing on her heart was not so impenetrable.

She smiled, watched the setting sun in the sky fall little by little, then turned her head to look at Xu Qinrou, she thought, it's so beautiful.

The two sat together, neither of them spoke, quietly watching the sunset in the sky, falling a little bit.

Until the sky turned black and the coolness also invaded, Ye Man was a little cold, sniffed his nose lightly, turned his head slightly, and glanced at the people around him, still motionless like a mountain, looking at the sky.

Only then did Ye Man realize that she was not watching the sunset, but seemed to be just waiting. She didn't know what she was waiting for, but was just waiting in vain.

The night got darker and colder, Ye Man finally couldn't stand the cold, turned his head and glanced at Xu Qinrou, not daring to disturb her, so he left quietly.

Walking down the stairs step by step, Ye Man turned her head when she was about to reach the last few steps, stared at her for a while, then turned around and left without stopping.

Later, by coincidence, Ye Man found out that Xu Qinrou was the school's English teacher. Apart from Teacher Zhou Rongsheng's admiration for her, she seemed to have always been a loner.

In order to get closer to her, Ye Man specially took her English as an elective, just to be able to meet a few more times.

But now, it seemed unnecessary, Xu Qinrou had already given her the answer today, and it also dispelled the longing hidden in her heart.

Ye Man thought, perhaps Xu Qinrou was waiting for that person, not waiting for the sunset, not for the sunset, nor for the night to spread to find a place to return, but for Jiang Yun.

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There should be another chapter today, I'm not sure if I can update it tomorrow