she is guilty of loving you

Xu Qinrou licked her lips uneasy.

I don't know if she was too nervous, but she just felt that her lips and teeth were very dry. Just when she was about to continue to say something, Jiang Yun suddenly spoke out.

With a clear and cold voice, no emotion can be heard for a while. If the tone was a little gentle at the beginning, it looks like a complete stranger now.

"Xu Qinrou, do you know that your car accident this time was not an accident?"

Jiang Yun seldom called her name, especially with her stern voice, Xu Qinrou only held her breath for a moment, and nodded on the phone.

Suddenly reacted, the man couldn't see, and his voice was a little difficult: "I know."

It wasn't that she didn't notice something was wrong, the car had followed her for too long, and the speed was unexpectedly consistent.

But she felt that there was nothing the car could do when the crowd and the traffic were so concentrated.

But things backfired, but in an instant, the car crashed straight over, so anyway, she wouldn't foolishly think that it was a simple car accident.

Jiang Yun didn't intend to hide it from her: "It's Gu Guoen, so...Xu Qinrou, there's no need to meet or anything, and in the future... same."

Her words were full of indifference, without a trace of reluctance, as if she was just telling herself.

Xu Qinrou's hand holding the phone trembled a little, and her body collapsed straight.

"Why? Why did he do it, you have to veto everything, veto me."

"Because I don't want, I don't want to be in a relationship that hasn't started yet, both parties have to bear the guilt that they can't breathe for each other.

Even if we don't talk to each other, those things are there, and those emotions that will explode at the first touch of negativity are also there.

I don't want you to bear the guilt of those three years to me, and I don't want to bear the burden of being in this car accident because of me.

Even... even in the future there will be other unexpected pressures, I will not be able to bear it, I will collapse Xu Qinrou, do you understand? "

"But, but I don't blame you, it's not because of you..."

"But the fact is because of me, you see, we are all the same, we all carry these emotions in our hearts, but we still have to comfort each other, but the sadness and guilt in our hearts still haven't diminished by half, have we?

You will be tired too, Xu Qinrou, and so am I. Over time, one day we will hurt others and ourselves, so let's not get closer, so that even if the same thing happens again, at least... At least we won't be so sad... "

"So, you won't even see me when I wake up?"

"Yes, it's better to break it earlier."

"Broken earlier? Broken...?"

Jiang Yun was silent for a few moments, did not speak, her lips and teeth were pressed against each other fiercely, and there were still some friction sounds when she listened carefully, but the silent attitude said everything.

Xu Qinrou had already got up from the bed, she was still wearing a hospital gown, she was afraid when she moved, or she was too tired these days, her whole body trembled slightly, she put on the slippers on the floor and wanted to go out.

The phone was still pressed against her ear, water marks slid down the same track, and she only had time to raise her hand to wipe it off.

"Jiang Yun, tell you, I won't allow it, cut it off? Cut it off! What the hell are you dreaming!"

At this time, the usually gentle and polite person was so angry that he uttered obscenities directly, and his tone was unexpectedly harsh.

"You promised to have a try with me. Why do you go back on your word if you want to? If you say you want to make an agreement, you should make an agreement. If you say you want to leave, you should leave. What do you think of me, monkey? Is it fun to play?

Is it because I tortured you back then, and now you want to torture me in such a different way.

Alright, I'll play with you, let's play, but what's broken, you break this year as soon as possible, unless I die, or you die, otherwise you don't even think about it! "

As soon as she finished saying this sentence, the person on the other end of the phone hung up hastily, and did not give her a chance to say another word, but it was enough, her meaning was so obvious, Jiang Yun should have received it.

Xu Qinrou pushed open the door and wanted to go out. There were still tears on her face, and there was a smirk that she couldn't put away in time. This person's expression looked a little creepy under the light of the corridor.

Su Yu looked at the person in front of him and backed away in fright, then patted his chest again in response, and quickly walked over to help her.

"Grandma, you have just recovered from a serious illness, can you take care of yourself, there is another good or bad, how do you let us live?"

Xu Qinrou was unmoved by what she heard, but just fixed her eyes on the person in front of her.

"She asked you to come? Stop me?"

Su Yu subconsciously retorted and swallowed it, a little afraid, seeing such an intimidating Xu Qinrou for the first time, she was terrified.

But at four o'clock in the morning, the phone kept ringing like a death call, and she answered it angrily.

Jiang Yun only said that the people in the hospital might go out later, you should stop her, you must stop her, and then hung up, without giving her a chance to ask any more questions.

Su Yu's attitude had already acquiesced, Xu Qinrou just thought it was funny, she swayed back uncontrollably, leaning against the door to stabilize herself, her whole smile seemed bright.

"Jiang Yun, Jiang Yun, you really think about everything for me, but you just don't think about me!"

Xu Qinrou sat on the head of the bed in silence, with a somewhat pale expression on her face, her eyes that were always moistened with a touch of spring water, now seemed to be sprinkled with dead ashes, silent.

Seeing her in such a state, Su Yu felt a bit of pain in her heart. She didn't dare to ask more questions. If she asked more questions, she would be asked back. She didn't know how to answer, and whether the answer was satisfactory to her.

But Xu Qinrou's condition was really bad, Su Yu stretched out his hand and held the hand that was placed on the quilt, it was surprisingly cold.

"Are you uncomfortable?"

Xu Qinrou turned her head to look at the person who spoke, her eyes were fixed, as if she was thinking about what the sentence was asking, and she came over for a while before she had any reaction.

She raised her hand, and gently placed her palm on her chest, curling it up slightly and tightly, like a flower that blooms in the morning and fades away in the evening, and after a moment of happiness, it all withers and loses.

"Su Yu, here...it's not comfortable here..."

"All I want is a chance to be with her again, a chance to go to the end once and for all..."

"But why, it's always far away and near, indistinct, obviously... I'm going to get it several times.

Su Yu, I told you, you should know, I was so happy that day, Jiang Yun finally agreed to give me a limit..."

"I thought it would be good to step over there, I must step over there, I want to go to the world over Jiang Yun, I want to stand in the same world as Jiang Yun.

I want to see everything about her, I want to know her sorrows, her joys, maybe... maybe her love for me? "

"I'm about to be able to step over. It's really just a step away, you know? I feel like my hand is on the handle that opens the door, but... But this car accident changed everything, really Yes, that changed everything..."

"I thought that person would soften his heart when he woke up, and maybe he would love me more and love me more, but why? Why didn't he just want me?"

The moment she woke up, she was thankful that she was still alive, and she could truly feel the world, and she could still look at Jiang Yun, and...feel Jiang Yun again.

It’s not that she is not afraid. When facing death, she realizes how much she longs for life and how many regrets she has. She seems to have suddenly entered an illusory world and is about to pass through life and death.

But Xu Qinrou knew it wasn't, this was the real world, and this was her unavoidable accident.

At that time, she only felt lucky that Jiang Yun hadn't agreed to be with her that night. The time was short and her feelings were shallow. Jiang Yun wouldn't be too sad when she died.

After a long time, she will forget her as a person, and then she will live a good life in the future, but she will not have herself.

At that time, I was really lucky, but when I woke up, I was even more sad. She didn't dare to imagine and couldn't accept it. Jiang Yun really forgot herself and fell in love with others.

Just thinking about it like this makes my heart feel like it's about to burst, and I can't breathe in pain, but Xu Qinrou never told anyone about her fear and fragility.

She didn't think it was necessary because she was awake, so Jiang Yun could only be her.

But the fact gave her a hard blow. After waking up, she couldn't see that person. After making a phone call for a long time, she ended up with those two words. Jiang Yun said, "It's broken..."

"Break off? What is it? That person is really funny. Did she think that I was her girlfriend a long time ago, but she didn't give me this chance before? Why? Cut off friends? Became a stranger from now on..."

As she spoke, Xu Qinrou's voice was hoarse, and the quilt she was holding was deformed due to too much force.

Su Yu looked deeply into Xu Qinrou's eyes, which were completely covered with wet water, and the slender brows were tightly pressed together, as if they were enduring great pain.

But it was indeed a great pain, Xu Qinrou rarely looked like this, except for Jiang Yun, there was no other possibility, and there was no one else.

But Su Yu knew the reason, but she couldn't say any words of relief, because she knew that she couldn't give the answer the other party wanted.

Su Yu looked at her eyes full of struggles, Xu Qinrou smiled, this person clearly knew something.

She leaned back gently, the somewhat piercing steel pipe was icy cold, and the temperature was transmitted directly from behind, her heart suddenly tightened for a moment.

Su Yu looked at the person in front of him, Xu Qinrou's long hair was loose, and the whole person was hidden in the light, a little white and empty, maybe it was too sad, and his lips were very pale.

She couldn't bear it, so she leaned over slightly and stroked the tail of her hair that was hanging down her shoulders, a little bit unbearable.

"Qinrou, but you should know, and you can feel it, Jiang Yun cares about you, you still have an unshakable position in her heart, maybe she just..."

After speaking, Su Yu stopped, she didn't know whether she should say it, after all, she was just guessing about some things, and what Jiang Yun and her said was only a half-knowledge.