East Berlin's June Boat Song

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The first thing he called out after waking up was my name, and I hurried to hold his hand.

"Hey, don't rely on me so much..." My eyelashes were wet, and he seemed very satisfied.

"The cry is not loud enough." He smiled and reached out to touch my eyes.The fingertips are very soft, with dense warmth, caressing my eyelids, it is the touch of top silk.

"I have cried, cried many times, but I know you hate me crying the most." I held his hand and pressed it to my cheek: "I don't want you to worry about me anymore."

"Well, it's good to know."

When he said this, I couldn't stop my tears, and threw myself on him and yelled: "I'm sorry, Julian... I really didn't mean it, I didn't know it was you... .”

"Don't worry about it." He stroked my back.

"But I hurt you." I looked at him with tears in my eyes, and stroked his bandage with trembling hands: "How much pain you must have."

He raised the corners of his mouth slightly, shook his head lightly, and said innocently and coquettishly: "If you come back to me, I won't hurt."

My heart was pricked by a needle, and I asked without thinking: "Sasha didn't come to see you, don't you care?"

He chuckled again, and looked at me with rolling eyes: "He has a lot to do."

"Do you think he misses you wherever he goes?"

He smiled and remained silent, acquiescing to my statement.

"Yes, he misses you wherever he goes, and your hearts are always together. If he comes back and knows that I hurt you, he will definitely beat me hard."

"He won't." Julian said, "Sasha will be angry and distressed, and he will only blame me for not protecting myself."

He stroked my hair and asked softly: "Why, do you miss him? Why do you miss him in front of my hospital bed? It's a bit too much."

My heart trembled: "No, no, I just think he doesn't come to see you, and I really care."

He said lightly: "Rhein, this kind of thing has happened to us too much, if we have to rush to the other side every time, then there is no need to do it."

"Are you all so strong?" I burst into tears, but I gritted my teeth so that my voice would not tremble enough to betray myself.

"I wish I could be as strong as you."

"No need." Julian sighed suddenly, his twinkling green eyes filled with tenderness: "I used to always feel that you need to grow up on your own, but now that I think about it, you don't have to be so strong with us."

He looked at me with a smile: "As long as we don't fall, no one will dare to touch you."

The implication is to resist everything on yourself.But Julian, who will protect you?

Who will protect you?

I wiped away my tears and realized that my emotions were going too far and had to be hidden until I thought about it.I leaned down and kissed him, and asked, "Why don't you ask me why I went to see him?"

"If you don't tell me, I won't ask."

He closed his eyes, and said in a weary and impatient voice, "Lest you say that I don't trust you again."

It just passed by so lightly, I couldn't believe it.This man may be plotting something in his heart, he is very insidious and cunning, but I have never been able to play with him, and this time I really hurt him.I lay down beside his bed and listened to his breathing. As soon as I relaxed and tired, I fell into sleep not long after.

It was a warm light. In the twilight, the birch forest was rustling with the wind, and the Volga River was rippling with tender waves.I opened my eyes and saw the familiar pair of gold-rimmed glasses.Behind the lens, the pupils illuminated by the rays of the sun are engraved with tenderness and affection as always.

I pushed myself up and reached out to touch his sad, wet face.

"why cry?"

I leaned forward and saw myself in the reflection of the lens, holding a tender smile, full of sincere pity.

I kiss his soft lips.

"Come back, okay?"

He didn't answer me, just stared at me silently.

I held his hand and placed it on my left chest, every time my heart beat, I was saying 'come back'.I want him to feel it.

Kiss him again, from the lips, to the tip of the nose, to the wet eyelashes.

Tears are bitter and make my heart ache.I took him into my arms and prayed for him to come back.

But he stood still and slowly broke free from my arms.A large expanse of golden sunset surged behind him in an instant, transforming into countless tentacles, grabbing him and dragging him back.His body was light and weightless, like a feather, and he was quickly dragged into the thick and sleepy twilight.

"not coming back!"

I screamed in horror, and rushed forward to compete with those tentacles for him.But everything was in vain, he smiled and shed tears, as if falling into hell, drowned by the golden fire.

I froze, lost all direction.

The twilight faded into darkness.

When I woke up, I looked up and saw Julian's gloomy face, green eyes burning with phosphorescent green, staring straight at me.

I shuddered.

"Sleep beside my bed, but in my dreams I always call Sasha's name."

He supported himself up with difficulty, and supported my chin with his cold hands, his eyes were like a leopard in the snow field showing a fierce light.

"I think I'm hurt now, and I can't deal with you, right?"

The menacing voice made me scream out loud, and I fell to the ground, my face turned pale with fright, and I rushed out of the ward after rolling and crawling.

Crazy, crazy, who can give me some sedatives, my nerves are about to be tormented out of balance!

If this continues, I will definitely get encephalitis and hysteria!

A few days later, Julian was discharged from the hospital and recuperated in the white mansion. Although he was sick, he still insisted on handling official duties and worked on the second floor every day. Sonia shook her head helplessly, and I couldn't persuade him.

God knows how much I want him to rest for a while, maybe the progress of some things can be delayed.

So as soon as he concentrated on his work, I went to harass him.

Please forgive the idiot Rhine, he really doesn't know what to do.Richard's path nearly started World War III and made the worst of it for the person on his heels.He was so helpless that he had to take sleeping pills to fall asleep every night to curb his uncontrollable sleep talking.

"Is the bone itchy?" He raised his cold, helpless and doting eyes obliquely, and fixed his eyes on me who was licking his earlobe.

"Didn't you see I was working?"

He stretched out his arms around my waist: "You don't go to work in the Stasi, but you just stay here every day, what do you look like?"

"Milk doesn't need me recently." I hugged him and kissed him: "You need me."

He smiled shyly and pushed me away.

"Take it as soon as you see it." He pointed to the door of the office: "Go out."

"I don't unless you go out with me."

"Rhein, don't be a child, you know that some things have always upset me." He lowered his eyelashes, and a cold light fell in his eyes: "I rarely feel this uneasy."

"Is that still the case?"

"Ah."

A hook caught my heart, and it throbbed again.He crossed his fingers, braced his chin, and lowered his eyes in thought.If I disturb him at such a time, I will really be beaten up. I'm not afraid of pain, I'm just worried about his injury.

I walked out of the office with my mouth curled in dissatisfaction, and shrank to Sonia's side.

Sonia reached out and stroked my face: "I can't leave him like that?"

I turned around and hugged Sonia's slender body: "It's him who can't leave me."

"You also know?" She chuckled lightly: "Rhein, what's the matter? You've been clinging like a child these days. It seems that we dote on you too much, so you won't grow up?"

I ignored the words, just looked up in a daze, and asked stupidly: "Do you miss Sasha? We haven't seen him for a long time."

Sonia's eyes curved: "Of course I thought about it, but what is Sasha's identity, he has a lot of things on his hands."

"No matter how much time you have, do you have to take time to see us, or, should I go to him? Do you know where he is?"

Sonia gave me a blank look: "Rhein, have you done nothing in the Stasi in the past few years? A KGB of Sasha's level, not to mention that he is the deputy director of the Second General Bureau, the real second-in-command, can know his whereabouts There are not many in the entire Soviet Union, even Julian is not qualified. Besides, he is Lubyanka's most... most..."

"What's the most? Why didn't you say anything?"

Sonia smiled coldly and looked up at me: "It's too cruel to say it, because 'best' is not a compliment for him."

With a trembling heart, I stroked Sonia's face, and I couldn't breathe when I thought that this beautiful face would soon be covered with tears of grief.

Sasha oh Sasha, what on earth do you want me to do?

Time passed day by day, and every day seemed like a year to me.In a blink of an eye, the spring of 1959 was over. As the night approached, I sat in the office blankly, staring at the scarf in my hand.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door, and I looked up to see Milk leaning against the door of the office.

"Minister." I stood up and bowed to him.

Milk immediately looked at me with the expression of seeing a ghost, and kept tsk-tsk: "Didn't the stray bullet of our General Azrael hit him? Why do you think it hit your brain?"

I said blankly: "It would be fine if I hit my head."

He chuckled: "I said our Deputy Director Mueller, you have been a little passive and slowing down recently, don't forget that you are working here with taxpayers' money! I'm not criticizing you, it's just that you It’s very dangerous for an agent to look drowsy. Haven’t you been assassinated before? But who is it? The Soviets didn’t let us investigate, tsk, there is a ghost, there must be a ghost.”

This person probably won't be able to change his neurotic tone for the rest of his life. Although I don't doubt the kindness in his words, to be honest, it's easy for this kind of person to have no friends.

"Are you caring about me?" I slumped on the chair and looked at him.

He shrugged: "Shouldn't I be concerned about you? Not to mention that you are the best agent of our Stasi. If something happens to you again, I won't be able to do my job."

I smiled sinisterly, and his face immediately turned red.

"Okay! I came to tell you that Comrade Markus Wolf is now the deputy director of the West Berlin Security Department of our Foreign Intelligence Service!" He triumphantly seemed to ask for credit: "No matter how far away I can't go anywhere, at most go to West Berlin, hehe, when will you two be arranged to perform a mission together!"

I smiled knowingly: "You know me and Mi, no, what was Marcus' favorite thing to do before?"

"what?"

"Go to a speakeasy and find a stripper." I smiled meanly, "Aren't you afraid that Markus and I will go to West Berlin and we'll hang out in some club?"

The corner of Milk's mouth twitched: "You will be maimed by some general."

I laughed, seeing Milk's deflated appearance was very rewarding.

I stood up and coaxed him out, and said with a shy face, "Okay, Minister Milk, it's not easy for Marcus to get to this point, and it's not easy for you, either. You understand my current situation." , some people are very persistent, I am harassed to death, you forgive me! There is nothing good in being close to me, you know better than Marcus. I know he is uncomfortable, he is still a child What! I promised happily in my mouth, but I kept complaining in my heart. I used to coax him often, but now you have to coax him! By the way, it doesn’t matter whether my salary is paid or not, and I don’t want to bully us Socialist wool."

Milk's face was blue and pale, and he was taken aback by me. Finally, he grinned and said quietly: "It seems that you are really not the Rhine Muller you used to be."

He waved his hand at me: "Come on! Do whatever you want, as long as you live."

"Yes, my dear Minister, bye! Have a nice evening!"

Milk gave me a hard, gouged look.