East Berlin's June Boat Song

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I'm really about to vomit blood, is this child really fainted from fright?Am I that scary?

After shaking him a few times, his lips became paler, and he frowned in pain. Realizing that something might be wrong, I unbuttoned his shirt and found a purple bruise the size of a fist on his chest.

"No, it must have hit somewhere!" I was horrified, and hurriedly said to Du En who was driving: "Speed ​​up!"

"Yes! Boss!"

After rushing all the way to the hospital, the boy was pushed into the consultation room. Du En stood outside and said in embarrassment: "This is bad, how should I explain to his parents?"

I frowned in thought, and said to Du En after a while: "Don't make a fuss about it, start a secret investigation on him."

"Secret investigation?" Du En stared at the big confused eyes, and after realizing the reaction, he let out a low voice: "Oh, you mean..."

"Anyone who comes to me now will not be easy anymore, Du En." I patted him on the shoulder: "Send a small team and keep an eye on it secretly."

Dunn nodded solemnly.

"Don't worry, boss, I will inform you as soon as I have news."

I nodded at him, then went back to my office, and froze in place as soon as I opened the door.

It's Sasha.

He looks a little thinner, and his tall figure is about to be submerged in the orange sunset, but he must be smiling, because the gentle breath emanating from his body is like waves layer upon layer. Flock to me—he's always been so magical.

"Sasha."

I stood where I was, watching him come out of the setting sun.His steps are very light, the elegant cotton shirt is plated with a layer of high-saturation pearl in the twilight, and the golden watch on his white wrist is shining with dreamy colors.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Rhine."

He stretched out his arms and wrapped me in his arms, letting out a contented sigh from the depths of his chest.I was a little overwhelmed and raised my arms and put my arms around his waist.

"Are you feeling better?"

"Much better."

"That's good, I've been thinking about you these days."

He let go of me, I suddenly thought of something, smiled and went to the desk, opened the drawer and took out the stone I picked up in Suzdal.

"Give you."

He was a little surprised: "This is?"

"Stones by the Suzdal River."

He pursed his lips and smiled softly, staring peacefully at the pebble that became translucent and lustrous under the setting sun, stretched out his hand to take it, and said, "Thank you, Rhine."

"You miss your hometown very much."

He put the stone in his trouser pocket and shrugged slightly: "Listen to the truth or lies?"

"Of course it's the truth..."

"The truth is that I don't want to." He smiled melancholy, walked slowly to the window, and was once again hidden in the twilight.

"why?"

He tilted his head slightly, blood-colored light flickered on the golden glasses frame.

"Because I can't go back, I don't think about it anymore."

With a low voice, he glanced at me and chuckled: "However, I didn't expect Julian to take you to Suzdal. I always admire his inner strength."

I smiled helplessly: "Me too, he can do this position..."

Shaking his head with a wry smile, he raised his eyes and met Sasha's playful and playful gaze, which was the first time I saw him.

"But you love him." He smiled wistfully: "Although you have seen his cruelty and ruthlessness, you still love him, Rhine, why is that?"

I was dumbfounded, my heart seemed to be pierced by something, and I said mockingly: "Probably I have never loved someone so much, I gave everything, but it is hard to get over."

Sasha's smile became stagnant, she turned to face me, put her hands in her pockets, and leaned halfway in front of the window sill, indescribably casual and unrestrained.

My figure was reflected in the brown pupils behind the lens, and a rosy glow flowed out slowly.

"Rhein, you know I love you."

The sudden confession shocked me. I was afraid to talk about the word "love" with them, so I took a step back unconsciously and lowered my head sadly.

"If I'm not wrong, you also liked me at the beginning." He approached step by step: "Then why did you choose him in the end? Is it because he slept with you? Rhine, I can do this kind of thing too. "

"No." I stepped back, not daring to look at him: "Don't say such things..."

"Your so-called love suffocates me. I love him more than I want to. If I were given a chance, I wouldn't love anyone."

"Rhein, my good Rhein. Since you are in such pain, why don't you look back? Perhaps, you have other choices."

Sasha came over and put his hands on my shoulders. The warmth in his palms seeped into his skin, making me tremble.

"Other options?" I looked up at him: "Do you mean love you?"

I shook my head in disbelief: "Sasha, you are all wrong, why do you compete with each other like this? You clearly love him, why do you always come to torture me?"

Sasha's eyes trembled: "So, you don't believe that I love you?"

My heart ached so badly that I couldn't even close my teeth, I gritted my teeth and squeezed out a few words: "I don't believe it, I don't believe you love me."

He showed hurt eyes as if he had been stabbed into the heart by a sharp sword, and he staggered back a little, his lips lost all color in an instant, and they moved silently: "It's also..."

He lowered his eyes, laughed a few times sadly, took a few deep breaths, and raised the corner of his mouth and said, "But Rhine, he and I are in the past. If he took you to Suzdal, he must have taken us to Suzdal." The relationship between them told you."

"It's impossible for me and him. That kind of relationship is nothing but dependence. If there is any element of love, it is also the confusion of youth. From the moment he left Cheka, no, it should be the moment we walked out of the Gulag. For a moment, we can no longer have each other, and now, there is no love at all."

"Sasha..." There was a lot of grief in his eyes, it looked very painful, and it hurt me too.

I don't know what to say, so I can only be silent.

"I have also traveled to many places and thought a lot during these days. Rhine, when I was walking on the square in Belgrade, I thought of you and realized that although I feel ashamed of you, what is deeper than ashamed is love. I want to make it up to you."

Sasha's voice was calm and resolute. He grabbed my arms again, very hard, and bent down to stare into my eyes.

"Really, Rhine, you can turn around and think about how you felt when you first met me."

It was almost a begging tone, and I was so sad that I couldn't control my tears.

"Sasha, but what difference does it make to me? From now on, Richard will threaten you..."

I shook my head in pain: "Why did you jump into the fire pit?"

"Why? Why else? What do you think I kissed you for?"

He suddenly became angry, pushed me against the wall, and kissed me without any explanation.A strong and passionate kiss, filled with surging pain.This kiss has been lingering in my memory for a long time. Whenever I think of this kiss, Sasha's despair and helplessness flood me like a tide, but at that time I only felt sad.

His body was trembling, and together with his throbbing soul, he leaned against my shoulder and gasped for breath. The heat flowed on my neck, and his grief seemed to turn into melted tar, oppressing us.I hugged him distressedly, and even felt guilty for not believing that he loved me. I gradually lost my mind. I hugged him, turned around and pressed him against the wall, pinching his jaw.

"Sasha, you really make me suffer, but I can't hate you, because you are also suffering." I kissed him domineeringly, pulled off the collar and kissed his delicate and fair neck.

"Is this what you want? I'll give you, I'll give you everything..."

I gnawed and bit, which must have hurt him, and he let out a low moan from his throat: "How can you say that..."

His cheeks began to flush with excitement, and his voice continued intermittently: "All I want is your love."

I hugged him and pressed him on the desk. The documents on the desk were scattered all over the floor. I pressed on him, my eyes were red, like a bloodthirsty wolf.

"But I can't give you..." I cried tremblingly, kissing and touching him, as if he would disappear: "How can I give you something I don't have myself..."

He smiled blankly, two lines of tears ran down his cheeks, looking at the ceiling, he actually smiled like a child.

He got up and pushed me away, elegantly buttoning the collar of his shirt.

"But I'll give mine to you." He smiled and touched my face, his wet eyes were like the clear sky after the rain in Berlin: "Whether you want to accept it, I'll give it to you."

"Do you know? If you love someone else, maybe I can kill him, or drive a wedge between you and him. But you love Julian..." He smiled wryly and shook his head: "This is so ridiculous, so ridiculous ... Rhine, this world is terrible."

"Without you, how should Julian live?" He said with tears: "He has suffered so much, suffered so much...how should he live..."

"But what should I do..."

"It's all bad, Rhine..."

"Sasha...don't say any more, I can't stand it."

I rushed forward and hugged him tightly, hoping to comfort him, but he pushed me away again.

He adjusted his glasses, wiped away the tears from his eyelashes, and smiled again: "But this is this world."

He kissed me on the lips, with an unshakable will on his face: "I'm sorry to make you suffer so much, but one day, I will prove to you my love for you."

"Sasha..." Seeing him wanting to leave, I grabbed his arm.

"If there is no me one day, can you and Julian go back to the way they were before?"

He looked back at me in disbelief: "What do you mean?"

I grinned, pretending to be relaxed and said: "If you don't have me, you can try to let go of the past and have each other again. After all, you love each other so much..."

He grabbed my arm back in horror, and for the first time his tone was threatening: "Line, if you have any unrealistic ideas, I will never let that idea come true."

He smiled softly again and stroked my head: "It doesn't matter if you are there or not, those who can't go back will never go back."

"You just hate him for abandoning you, maybe you can try..."

"No..." Sasha froze for a moment, "How could I hate him..."

"As for the fact that he left Cheka, even though there was hatred at the time, then there was heartache and regret... After all, he left Cheka for me, but he couldn't say anything, and he carried everything silently. It’s just this kind of character, he always feels that he is very strong, and nothing can destroy him.”

His voice was choked with sobs and his voice was trembling: "It was only later that I found out that Beria threatened him with me and insisted on sending him to the battlefield, saying that he was born to lead troops in battle, and almost made him die in Romania."

"Later, he seized the opportunity of the war, used Beria's relationship to climb up step by step, and finally sat in the position of commander-in-chief of the Soviet Army in Germany, established the GRU, and expanded his power. I also joined forces with him, secretly Otherwise, how do you think Beria fell after the death of Stalin in 53?"

"We fell to Khrushchev at the last moment, exposed Beria's background, sent him to be shot, no, his whole family, including his innocent children...Look, Rhine, We are the kind of people who do some evil things that we can’t even stand with ourselves.”

"Do you think we'll still fall in love with each other like this?"

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happy New Year to all!The boat song has reached a very critical moment, and many secrets will be revealed one by one.Look at Sasha's last words, do you still remember the unanimous smiles of Julian and Sasha in chapter 35?

Thank you for your company for more than a month. I have gained a lot of happiness on this platform, and I will update more today!