East Berlin's June Boat Song

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"What's wrong? Want to act like a baby again?" He was woken up by me, and opened his eyes to look at me.

I was about to take advantage of the situation and act like a baby when I suddenly realized that I was not young anymore.With a sigh, I lay down on his warm neck.

"I always feel very uneasy." I stroked his chest, feeling the sound of his heart beating.

He stroked my hair and said softly: "Well, it's normal. The current situation is indeed unclear, and it can even be considered bad."

"I don't care about the situation, because in my opinion, all these confrontations are meaningless. I'm only afraid that I will be separated from you."

"How could it be?" He kissed my forehead, comforted me and said, "As long as I stand still."

"But there are so many people thinking of bringing you down every day! Although I don't know who it is... my dear, you are getting thinner and thinner, are you under a lot of pressure?" I held him in my arms distressedly , Said: "If this goes on, I'm really afraid that you will get sick."

"How can I be so fragile." He chuckled, and the outline of a smile could be seen in the dark night, engraved in the faint moonlight, and it was so beautiful, "Besides, the more chaos here in Berlin is good for us, no one Knows this place better than I do, after all I've been here for so many years."

"That is to say, you are indispensable now."

"Yeah." He nodded slightly, I was suddenly very happy, and bit his neck twice.

Under the complicated situation, we are like birds looking for the cracks in the mountains and rocks in the wind and rain, carefully hiding the secret love in the dark corners, facing the storm outwards, and craving the sweetness of love inwards.There are some things I dare not think about, and I can’t think about them. Maybe I should be stronger and not let the emotions of worrying about gains and losses affect the peace and happiness I finally obtained.

"Go to sleep honey, I have to get up early tomorrow."

He turned over and hugged me in his arms. The tone of this old couple made my heart itchy unbearably. I was so happy that I was about to ascend to heaven, but at the same time I felt inexplicably sad.

Because my position was once suspected by the Soviet Union, even though Milke didn't bother to take care of my business, he still had to temporarily suspend me.

"Half a month, well, you can also cultivate for a while." Milk said so, but his face was displeased: "The manpower is not enough, alas!"

I shrugged: "Can this be my fault?"

Milk rolled his eyes: "Line, what about you, the skills of being an agent are enough, but the brain can't keep up. Although it has improved compared to before, it is still not enough!" He suddenly laughed at himself and said : "But I really can't blame you, who can play with those people? It's just that sometimes I feel powerless."

With a long sigh, he extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray.

"Go out, by the way, don't think too much about some things. If you think too much, you will behave unnaturally, and if you are unnatural, you will be caught. You know what I mean. Rhine, although Stasi can't Give you enough protection, but as a friend, I will remind you that if you want to continue to persist in some things, then you must be strong enough. This kind of strength does not only refer to your personal skills or mind, but also Your mental capacity, understand?"

His expression was rarely dignified and serious. I pressed my lips together and nodded solemnly.

"Understood, thank you, Milk."

He gestured to see him off, and I left his office.

A depressive atmosphere enveloped the entire Berlin. On August 1960, 8, East Germany announced travel restrictions on West Germany, suppressing the number of refugees fleeing West Berlin.A month later, on September 30, 1960, West Germany officially abolished the trade agreement with East Germany, which surprised us all, not to mention us, even Khrushchev was surprised to hear that.Everyone realized that East Germany would suffer huge economic losses if trade between East and West Germany was cut off.

And the farce quickly ended in December, when a new trade agreement was drafted.During the period, the U.S. general election is also drawing to a close in November, and Kennedy has the potential to win.

During these two months, I went to visit Philip and Andy in a rural sanatorium in Brandenburg. They had a good time there. Philip taught Andy how to shoot and how to fight. I heard that When a beautiful nurse was attacked by a strange drunk man, Andy put the strong man down with his weak body, successfully rescued the beautiful nurse, fulfilled his dream of being a little hero before, and also gained a lot love.

Philip and I sat on the European-style corridor of the nursing home and smoked. We watched Andy and his girlfriend play in the rose garden. The happy smiles on the faces of the two young people made me very envious.But when I think that I have actually had such a moment, I also feel satisfied.

My bewildered eyes were caught by Philip, who asked me with a smile: "It's almost ten years."

"Ok?"

"You joined the Stasi for almost ten years."

I smiled softly and said, "Yeah, I'm getting old."

"You're still young." Philip patted my head: "I think you fought for your friends and colleagues when you were on the first mission, and you were kicked far away, but now it's Stasi's last A powerful agent. Ten years can change a person too much. But there are some things that cannot be changed in a lifetime."

"Like?"

"For example, your kindness, Rhine, you are no longer innocent, but I am very glad that you still maintain your kindness. Many years ago, when you first came to the Stasi, I didn't know that you were sent by the Soviets. I came. Later, when I found out about it and chatted with Minister Zeisel, he said that it doesn’t matter who sent you, because you can’t decide many things. At that time, I had a hunch that you might have been involved in some conspiracy. And a The best way for a good person to become a bad person is to hurt him severely and crush his kind heart, so that he can no longer find himself. I used to worry that you would get lost in one after another In a conspiracy."

He smiled lightly and looked at me lovingly: "But it turned out that they couldn't change you, but you changed them. Maybe people themselves still yearn for beauty."

"Maybe it's just that my brain is too stupid, and I can't figure it out until the last moment. I can't do anything if I try to fool me." I smiled foolishly, but felt a sense of loss in my heart.

"You are not stupid, little Rhine. Wisdom does not lie in strategy, but in how to look at the world."

After Philip finished speaking, he lay down on the rocking chair, and his eyes drifted leisurely to the sunny rose garden. The sweet aroma was transpiring in the breeze. I looked at Andy and the others with a smile, and suddenly felt that the world was so unreal.

I killed so many people, but everyone still thinks I'm a kind person.

It's magical enough.

In December, the tension in the Berlin area only increased, and 12 was approaching. I still remember the friendship between the United States and the Soviet Union at this time last year, but now it has dropped to freezing point.On weekdays, the headquarters building in Karlshorst is always brightly lit. Sometimes when I sit in the car and look at this gray and black modernist building, I just feel out of breath.

It's like a cold cage in which the person I love is trapped, but he has to be in it because he belongs there anyway.The broken cage may be free, but he will lose all protection while being free. He will perish, and I will go with him.

I lay on the steering wheel and stared blankly at the neat rows of windows shining with white light.Like eyes, they are also looking at me.

It was as if the world was watching me.

Suddenly a row of military vehicles passed by, and I keenly saw a few familiar faces, which turned out to be KGB officers. I hurriedly drove to the other side, but still met Yevgeny's eyes in the high-end Volga sedan in the middle of the convoy.

He greeted me with a smile, and I had to force a smile back.This is the first time I've seen him since the review.

"Rhein, come here!" He waved at me, as if he was very excited. Seeing that his gesture was telling me to come over, I obediently got out of the car and walked towards him. After all, this man is a colonel.

I try to make my smile look humble and docile, a little silly.

"The situation is not good now." He kept tutting: "I don't know what you think now, do you think those dreamers in the West will withdraw from Berlin obediently? I don't think so, you know? We in the CIA Information came from the informant that they were plotting a riot in East Berlin!"

I said in surprise, "There's another thing..."

"Of course, but it is only at the stage of thinking now. I heard that the high-level officials there also have objections, but once this kind of thinking appears, it is difficult to erase it. Sooner or later, they will use some means to aggravate East Germany. shocks, there will be more refugees fleeing to West Germany."

"Well, what should we do here?"

I don't understand why he said this to me, but I can only follow his words.

Yevgeny smiled cordially, reached out his hand from the car window and patted me on the shoulder, and said earnestly: "Our road to communism has a long way to go, they just want to discredit us, Rhine, you, as Stadt The deputy director of the Western Anti-Japanese War and General Azrael's informant, you have to charge forward and contribute your own strength when the time comes, you can't just run away!"

I froze for a moment, then reacted and said quickly: "I won't run away! If there is any riot in East Berlin, I will definitely be the first to go!"

Yevgeny narrowed his eyes with a smile, and his tone became cheerful: "Okay, great! This is our good friend! Rhine, don't blame me for the last review, you must know that everything is done according to the rules, we all He is a man of rules and reason, right?"

"Yes, Evgeny, of course I understand."

"That's good, right..."

Just when Yevgeny was about to say something, he heard a familiar voice from afar.

"Rhine!"

I straightened up and looked back, and saw Sonia coming out of the headquarters building. Her vigorous body like a leopard was sexy and powerful under the blessing of a slim military uniform. Her straight calves were overlapping back and forth under the skirt. Touching, I saw Evgeny raised his eyebrows unconsciously.

She was walking towards us across the road, her curly hair curled up in beautiful arcs under the boat-shaped hat, jumping in the dim yellow light of the street lamps when night fell.She looked solemn, with a trace of fatigue hanging on her brows, obviously after a busy day.

"Ah, it's our Major Dunechka." Evgeny stretched out his hand from the window and said, "Sonya, I miss you so much and want to kiss your soft hand."

Sonia stretched out her hand out of interest, and Evgeny held it meaningfully, and kissed the back of her white and smooth hand full of piety and love.

"You are my queen, Sonia." Although he said that, he had no intention of getting out of the car.Sonia just looked at him lightly, with sarcasm in her eyes.The two seemed to be arguing about something awkward.

"Okay, Evgeny, what are you doing here?" Sonia glanced at me.

"Oh Sonia, I'm discussing the current situation in Berlin with our little Rhine! Yes Rhine, your views are quite interesting."

"Ah? My opinion? I don't have any opinion?" I hurriedly explained and looked at Sonia embarrassingly.

Sonia snorted softly, and her eyes fell on Yevgeny who was smiling complacently in the car.

"What can he think? He hasn't even read a lot of books. He is illiterate. Yevgeny, it's getting late, and your favorite wild boar will come out at night. This time, you should say hello, don't call me, I know ?"

"Oh, my dear Sonia, the premise is that there is nothing wrong with my infrared telescope, otherwise, how can I shoot randomly with my marksmanship?" Evgeny smiled at me again: "Okay! Little Rhine is just cute, put my Sonia snatched it all away. Why, you guys want to go to the general’s mansion for dinner together? How long have you not invited me? It’s too embarrassing. Others can forget it, Sonia, you know, I am sincere to you Nah."

"Thank you for your kindness, my dear Yevgeny, but how can I respond to your sincerity?"

Sonia suddenly laughed sweetly, but there was an indistinct danger in the sweetness. She slowly bent down, leaned into the car window, kissed Yevgeny's face, and then kissed him again. With a whisper in his ear, Yevgeny's smile froze on his face.

But the stiffness was also fleeting, and Yevgeny soon laughed again, which was hearty and cheerful.

"Very good Sonia! I will not bother you, here, friends, you can only be called friends if you make each other happy. Goodbye, farewell, my queen, my dear Sonia."

Yevgeny smiled playfully, and the car drove away, Sonia stared blankly, the playfulness on her face was so thick that it was about to ooze out.

"Sonia..." I shook her arm, "going?"

"Well, let's go back to eat. I'm exhausted, and Julian simply doesn't know how to be sympathetic."

"I wish I could help you too."

"Then you have no chance in your life."

Sonia poked my head and took my arm with a smile.When we looked back, we found that Julian was walking out of the headquarters building with a group of his staff officers. From a distance, he was surrounded in the center and got into the special car driven by Alyosha.

The staff officers watched him go, and then dispersed.

Sonia and I boarded my car and headed to the White Mansion together.