God said I would meet you

"...Don't you think you're really a bitch?"

As bedtime approached, Lin Jinyu nestled on the wet floor covered with bedding, watching Lin Ye lay on his back on the bed, and continued to worry about his personal problems while swiping his phone: "Who am I dating, and what does it have to do with you?"

"It has nothing to do with me," Lin Ye said after finishing the sentence 'completely forget that person who cannot be mentioned', "You said you let go."

"I let it go," Lin Jinyu said, "How many times do I need to emphasize it? Are you busy every day?"

"Don't get excited." Every time Lin Jinyu was mentioned, he would get angry. Lin Ye put one arm behind his head and said without changing his expression, "I'm stating the facts you emphasized. Why are you excited?"

"Am I...excited?" Lin Jinyu choked a bit when he said that, looked down at her phone, and pretended nothing had happened: "I'm not excited."

Lin Ye flicked the software and smiled: "Oh."

For a few seconds, no one spoke.Just when Lin Jinyu thought the world was finally quiet and she could finally fall asleep in peace, Lin Ye's voice sounded again: "I think you should really think about Evan."

Why are you here again? !

Lin Jinyu asked suspiciously: "Did you take any favors from him? Or did you promise to introduce him to someone before, so now you use me to pay off the debt?"

"Of course not," Lin Ye said, "Why do you think that way? I just took you to the store to play that day. As for who you will meet, it is your own fate."

Fate... This simple, non-distinctive word once again evoked Lin Jinyu's memories about that plain, old necklace and someone he didn't want to mention.

At that time, Lin Jinyu lied to him and said that among the more than 50 people in the class, if Zhang Xinli really happened to win the gift he prepared, it meant that they were destined.

But it was just a scam. The note with the student number on it was slipped to him secretly by the entertainment commissioner who colluded with him, and he couldn't accurately pick out Zhang Xinli from the scattered crowd of more than 50 people.

All the things, together with the unspeakable love carried on them, were specially prepared by Lin Jinyu for him alone. Now that necklace, that memory, and that person have all been thrown away by him.

Lin Jinyu said silently in her heart: No, I have already forgotten all of this, I didn't think of it, I didn't think of anything....

Lin Ye stared at the phone on the surface, but in fact, he was always paying attention to the expression on Lin Jinyu's face, the contemplation of memories, the astonishment of realizing that he was actually recalling, and duplicity. people's faces.

Why bother...he thought: Remember if you remember, never forget if you can't forget, love if you still love, accept your heart, your heart never lies to yourself.

Lin Jinyu slapped herself hard in the heart, and then finally pulled out her thoughts from the thoughts and memories, and continued: "You mean that Evan and I are destined?"

Lin Yeye continued: "Yeah, I think it is very destined. Now that you have come out, let's develop with him... If you really don't like this type, let me think about it... Then I will introduce you to others , do you like that kind of cute little 0, I can also introduce a few, oh yes, I remember you are biased towards 1, right, it’s just that you used to..."

Lin Jinyu looked at him sideways, as if his eyes were about to kill, Lin Ye cleverly changed the topic: "Oh, sorry, sorry, I forgot again, I can't mention it, my fault, forgive me."

Only then did Lin Jinyu look away, and Lin Ye thought to himself: As far as the frequency and strength of your statement that you are not allowed to mention it, only a goldfish whose memory can only last seven seconds would forget it.

He turned his expression a little more serious, and then said: "Lin Jinyu, don't think that I persuade you to contact Evan because you are full and have nothing to do. I am 27 years old this year. As someone who has experienced it, I understand what people like us want better than you. How hard it is to find a person who is sincere and go on together, if you let go, let yourself go, really say goodbye to the past, and use the good years you still have to find your true love."

... If you can't let go, just admit frankly that you still love him very much, and then think about whether you want to do something about it.

He didn't say the second half of the sentence.

"...OK, you're right."

Lin Ye's tone was neither condescending nor aggressive, as if he was not preaching, but just exchanging life experiences between friends. Objectively speaking, these words were indeed quite upright.

Lin Jinyu is not completely untouched, 30 years old seems to be a dividing line, gays under [-] are normal gays, have the natural human rights of love, and all those over [-] will soar, and become another kind of social invisible creature. The kind that people take care of.

... Before I even said hello, I clicked on the other party's homepage and saw that '[-] and above do not disturb' was written in advance in the signature profile.

Not worthy of dating, not worthy of looking for a lover.

He can't be 20 forever.

Lin Ye said: "I really told you seriously."

There was another period of silence, and after a long time, Lin Jinyu spoke again: "... Evan asked me if I would like to go drinking with him alone when I have time."

"Did I ask you alone after I came back from dinner?" Lin Ye lay back and played with his mobile phone again: "It makes sense."

Lin Jinyu said: "...This time, he emphasized being alone."

"Of course you have to be alone on a date," Lin Ye said, "Are you going?"

"..."

Lin Jinyu didn't say anything at first, he was going to politely decline, but...

What Lin Ye said made sense.

Over the past few days, he has been saying to himself every minute and every second, "I'm not sad", "He left me, what's the big deal", "I let go", "I forgot" , he really wanted to let go of himself...maybe let Zhang Xinli go, but no matter what, he would always think of that face.

I think of Zhang Xinli's face when we first met, when he was a teenager, his brows and eyes covered with rain in the rainstorm, the way he wore a golden jersey in a basketball game, and his expression every time he made love.

Every night, he dreams of them making|making love.

Then get a false pleasure in the dream, ten times the pain in waking up.

But he will never let anyone know.

"I..." Lin Jinyu said "I" for a long time before saying, "Either... I'll go."

He showed a no big deal expression and said, "It doesn't matter, I let it go anyway."

……

The place where Evan asked him to drink was the shop that Lin Ye took him to.

In all fairness, as a gay bar, the decoration style of this store is quite elegant and artistic, especially suitable for real and fake literary youths. Lin Jinyu has entered three different nightclubs at different ages, and it is the first time she is in the exploration period of her own orientation. Xiaobai strayed into it, and was very reserved, and the adult atmosphere inside made him feel a little uncomfortable; it was the second time he left the society for the first time, as a staff member who was not very popular for a month or two, and his experience was also very poor, and he was also dismissed as a solid person. It's a mess; the third time is now.

Perhaps different ages, experiences, and different moods really affect people's feelings about things. As a customer of the right age, Lin Jinyu felt neither restrained nor uncomfortable... nothing special.

He arrived on time very punctually, but Evan came earlier and was already chatting with a few friends. When he saw Lin Jinyu coming in, he left the others to greet him and said, "You are on time."

Lin Jinyu said lightly, "Punctuality is the most basic thing."

He was not like this before, he was too lazy to die, he did his own way, and he always went out more than half an hour later than the scheduled time-for changing clothes, Zhang...Someone trained him several times before he learned to be punctual.

"Let me introduce, these are my friends," Evan began to introduce him into his social circle: "Most of them are from the same school as Lin Ye and I, younger brothers and sisters, that one is from the XX band, a northerner, who is coming to Shanghai for a while, just acknoledged."

Everyone greeted Lin Jinyu one after another. Lin Jinyu thought to himself: Even if our school is emptied out, there should not be so many gays. Could it be that there are really more gays studying art?

Among them was a boy who was learning to compose, wearing a pair of glasses. He was thin and had long forehead hair. He looked very handsome. It was the kind that Lin Jinyu felt would arouse his desire to protect.

A group of people sat drinking together, and the distance between drinking and drinking quickly narrowed. The boy was quite outgoing, a bit eccentric, but also very cute. He took the initiative to talk to Lin Jinyu a lot, and he asked Lin Jinyu where he was from , talk about study life, life ideals, ask him for WeChat.

Lin Jinyu didn't dislike this man either. Before she could make up her mind whether to give it to him, she felt a hand reaching out from behind, wrapping his shoulders intimately.

It's the way straight men put their arms around their shoulders, but the half-arm between straight men is of course a brotherhood. Hello brothers, two people who know each other are gay...unavoidably ambiguous.

Evan smiled, as if he was completely unaware of the ambiguity of this action, and half-jokingly said: "Why, let me declare first, you have to pass my test first if you want to attack my friend, you are all big-tailed wolves, with one weakness Dui, I won't let him lead you."

"Yo," a group of people at the table co-operated with his booing very decently, hahaha laughed: "Come on you."

Lin Jinyu knew that, strictly speaking, he had slightly crossed the line, but he remained silent for a while, didn't move, but he didn't do anything, even a little bit of response, and didn't cooperate with Evan to make a joke, but just took a sip of the wine in his glass.

Evan pulls his hand away after a while, like he's never done it before.

"It's boring to just sit and drink." Evan may have seen that Lin Jinyu is not particularly interested in sitting and drinking with them. It was true that Lin Jinyu basically didn't know the people at the table, and the chats were all old-fashioned Social topics are not interesting, he said: "How about I take you to play, there is a private practice room of the boss behind the bar, I know he has collected some interesting gadgets in private, I will show you."

The author says:

(Taiwan accent): You guys are too much, my name is Evan (Evan), why are all of them EvenEven (one article), it’s too worthless~