God said I would meet you

Lin Jinyu knew nothing about what happened in the rental house.

The teachers in the administrative department of the hospital were very airy. He took a copy of the document and ran up and down a few times, and finally got it all done.

He was not familiar with the teacher in charge of administration, and his face was a little stiff from smiling all the way through the official accent. Lin Jinyu climbed up the stairs with an expression of being unlovable and not getting close to strangers, stood at the door and knocked: "Open the door, gasp!"

Three seconds later, the door opened, and Lin Jinyu rushed forward, almost crashing into Zhang Xinli's arms.

"Hey, I'm scared to death." Looking around the small private room, he glanced back, but he didn't see Wang Xiu, and asked a little strangely, "Why are you alone, where is Wang Xiu?"

"Let's go," Zhang Xinli sat on the edge of the bed and waited for him all afternoon. He looked at Lin Jinyu and said, "Why, miss him?"

"What do I think he is doing?" Lin Jinyu was exhausted and didn't want to talk much. He signaled Zhang Xinli to let him in, and looked around: "Where did you go? When will you be back?"

Zhang Xinli said, "I don't know, I'm not coming back."

"Not coming back?" Lin Jinyu frowned: "Then where is he going? He has nowhere to go."

"You don't care where he goes," Zhang Xinli turned to him, "Why do you care so much about him?"

"Isn't it right for students to ask questions of concern?" Lin Jinyu didn't know that Zhang Xinli had admitted to Wang Xiu about their relationship, and he was still a little angry at the moment. He knew Wang Xiu's situation better than Zhang Xinli did. He was really desperate, and he said angrily, "Tell me, where did you go?"

Zhang Xinli didn't answer, just said: "I'm your classmate too, why don't you see me caring about me?"

"Aren't you here well? What do I care about?" Lin Jinyu said, "Don't lose your temper... Did you quarrel with Wang Xiu?"

Zhang Xinli said, "No."

Lin Jinyu didn't think so. He knew that Zhang Xinli didn't like Wang Xiu in the first place. In addition, there was such an oolong incident. Before he went to stamp, Zhang Xinli looked unfriendly. If there was no conflict, he I really don't believe it.

"To be honest, did you argue a few words, such a big living person disappeared, you have to tell me what's going on."

"Did I tell you?" Zhang Xinli said lightly, "Why do you ask me if you don't believe me?"

How did this rise to the level of not believing him again, Lin Jinyu said: "I didn't, why don't you make trouble for no reason, always ask, what if something happens? You should care about it out of humanitarianism."

Zhang Xinli said, "Oh."

"Oh what," Lin Jinyu said, "Say it quickly."

"I told you earlier, he's gone."

Gone... Where else can he go?Lin Jinyu asked, "Where did you go?"

"I don't know, go back to his school. He said he really has no money, so he took a hundred from you and let me tell you."

Lin Jinyu went to the table and opened the drawer, and found that the 100 yuan he had left for Wang Xiu to eat was gone... It seemed that this happened so suddenly, he was a little confused: "No... why did he leave, Did you scold him? You... beat him?"

This question made Zhang Xinli very uncomfortable. Zhang Xinli frowned and said, "I'm not violent. Why should I beat him?" He said, "Do you think I discriminate against...him, just like him?"

"Why don't you just ask, why are you reacting so much, what's the other thing," Lin Jinyu said, "Does the word homosexuality make it hard for you to say it?"

"..."

Zhang Xinli didn't know what kind of mentality it was, indeed... he was still reluctant to say these three words, but he had tried his best to face it.

Lin Jinyu didn't know his mental activities at all, but felt that his mother-in-law didn't want to admit that the relationship came first, and they had a quarrel with Wang Xiu, and Gu Zuo said that he was behind, and then said: "It was originally something you kept secret, you are Don't you think our relationship makes you ashamed and hard to talk about?"

At first, Zhang Xinli felt uncomfortable because of Wang Xiu's "morning matter", and he was indeed a little awkward. Now he managed to suppress his temper and was going to talk to him, but Lin Jinyu spoke aggressively and wronged him, and he became angry. , said: "You let him live with you and you made it happen, and you still quarrel with me because of him?"

Lin Jinyu never expected that he would still think so, and said angrily: "I repeat, I didn't share the same bed with him. The root cause is that you are not with me. It is you who feel ashamed, ashamed, and unable to speak out. It's all because of you." It’s my fault, don’t beat me up.” He said, “Obviously you’re the one who made me quarrel.”

"...Okay, I'll make you argue," Zhang Xinli stopped talking to him, and pointed to the table behind him: "Wang Xiu left you a letter on the table, you can read it yourself." After speaking, he turned and pressed the door Push the door open.

Lin Jinyu asked, "Where are you going?"

Zhang Xinli ignored him, opened the door and left.

Here we go again, fuck the cold violence.Lin Jinyu was very annoyed by him, and said in her heart: Wherever I like to go, I hate cold violence the most.

The muffled sound of the door closing made the surrounding walls tremble slightly. Lin Jinyu sat by the bed and lit a cigarette irritably. When she threw the box casually, she saw Zhang Xin's gift bag was still on the bed, with a few pieces of clothes stuffed in it in a mess.

Unlike himself, Zhang Xinli has always been very tidy. Lin Jinyu remembered that when they went to the canyon to play together in high school, he brought a bunch of useful and useless things in a mess and didn't know where to put them, but Zhang Xinli was able to collect everything that should be collected by category. Okay... However, the clothes in that bag were not folded very well, the sleeves were wrinkled, as if they were randomly stuffed in after rummaging through the cabinets, and the towels and other supplies were not separated by clean bags. It was a random ball and squeezed together with clothes.

It seems that the owner was really in a hurry when he went out, and he was too anxious to take care of them as usual.

After smoking a cigarette, Lin Jinyu calmed down a bit. He looked at the clothes and remembered that this morning, Zhang Xinli got quarreled with him on the phone at five o'clock and didn't lose his temper at him. He told him to hurry over and he really hurried Came here without delay.

Lin Jinyu checked today's ticket and found that the earliest high-speed train was at [-] or [-] o'clock, and it took three to four hours on the road, which meant that Zhang Xinli put down the phone and bought a ticket to go to the station... He may not be very good at expressing words, but She has always taken Lin Jinyu's words at ease.

Having said that, he came here this time to celebrate Lin Jinyu's birthday. Zhang Xinli was considerate of his busy schedule and even decided to forget about his own birthday, but he was willing to travel thousands of miles to celebrate with him.

It took Lin Jinyu a few minutes to pull out those clothes one by one and refold them, thinking about it while folding...then she became less angry after folding.

He thought of the closed and boundless mountains, the village where customary laws were rampant, and the many children in the village who learned to smoke and swear before finishing compulsory education... It was an environment that was too closed and conservative, Zhang Xinli could It is not easy to come out of that atmosphere and accept your own sexual orientation. He should not blame him for saying those things. Lin Jinyu thought: Just as Zhang Xinli was considerate of him and accompanied him on his birthday, in fact he also needs his own. Considerate and understanding... although this guy never said it himself.

Isn't that the way to be together, you have to understand each other, make mutual concessions and compromise.

Lin Jinyu folded her clothes neatly, and suddenly she came to a realization. If you don't admit it, you won't admit it, and you won't lose a piece of meat. Anyway, when you come back at night, you still want to kiss him and touch him...

The summer vacation is still more than half a month away. Zhang Xinli did not intend to go back soon when he came this time. Lin Jinyu opened the cabinet in the room, put his clothes and hers together, and turned to look for the letter from Wang Xiu on the table. .

Regardless of whether Zhang Xinli moved his hands or his mouth with him, let’s just do it, there’s nothing he can do if he leaves, anyway, I’ve done my best, isn’t it obvious which one is more important when my man and his high school roommate are together... No one has the same When the elbow turns inward.

Lin Jinyu loves tidying herself, but not tidying up the house. The notebooks, pens, disposable water glasses, and last-time takeaway boxes spread out on the table are in a mess. It took him a long time to get out of the mess. Pull out the letter that Wang Xiu left for him.

... It's more like a piece of paper than a letter, it should be torn from some draft book of his, with their school's LOGO printed on the header of the page, the tear is not very neat, like a dog chewing on it of.

It's so casual... Lin Jinyu complained silently.This piece of paper is so cheap, casual, humble, and lowly, just like Wang Xiu.

He complained a few words in his heart and then unfolded the paper...Lin Jinyu had never seen Wang Xiu write. They were not in the same class in high school, and they didn't have much homework overlap with each other. He only knew that Wang Xiu's grades were not good, and he couldn't sit still. Live, always talkative in class, he saw Wang Xiu being scolded by the class teacher when he passed by the office several times.

At that time, he always lowered his head and looked at the shiny office floor with the back of his hands behind his back, as if he listened in and seemed to go in from one ear to the other... Then he continued to be his bad student.

Lin Jinyu always thought that such a person who doesn't study well and hangs out in nightclubs should have ugly handwriting, but to his surprise, the handwriting on the paper is fresh and elegant, thin yet beautiful - it is a beautiful picture Good to see that Lin Jinyu's first reaction was to ask herself if this was written by Wang Xiu.

The first sentence on it said: I'm sorry Jinyu, I didn't know you had a boyfriend, I lent you 100 yuan to go back to school, I hope you don't blame me.

"...I'm a very cheap person, and I don't have many friends, but I'm not cheap enough to like knowing what to do. When he said that you are in a relationship, I was taken aback and thought I was dreaming." Wang Xiu Write: "Do you also think I'm cheap, just like those boys in the class... But it doesn't matter, even if you think so, you are still different from them."

In Wang Xiu's class...Lin Jinyu didn't have much impression of the class next door in high school, but he vaguely remembered that he had never seen any boy playing with Wang Xiu...except himself.

"...Actually, I was quite surprised. I never thought that he would be your boyfriend. I never thought that you could really be together. Maybe I'm too cheap. I thought everyone was as unlucky as me. It is impossible to be liked by the person I like, I forgot that you are different from me."

Wang Xiu said: "Even if they all like men, they are all gay and different from normal people."

In those distant times, those green high school years, Wang Xiu once really regarded the only boy who had fought for him and never scolded him as a sissy in person or behind his back as a heart-to-heart companion. it's the same.

But it turned out not to be the case. Lin Jinyu is so outstanding. He has a good family background, great liberal arts grades, a straight boyfriend like Xu Zhao, and parents who love him unconditionally.

He will not be spat on by the teacher in class like himself, he will not be targeted by the boys collectively, he will not be beaten by his stepfather and mother at home, and he will not be beaten by his classmates at school... Everyone loves him of.

Even Zhang Xinli, who seemed impossible to Wang Xiu, loved him.

"...Do you know," Wang Xiu's extremely serious handwriting on that crude paper said, "In my whole life, only two boys have fought for me, and the first one was the 'day' I told you. ' roommate, the second is you, sometimes I think, if only I met you sooner."

He didn't write why he wanted to meet Lin Jinyu earlier, but changed his style of writing and said: "...but it's fine now, the person you like also likes you, didn't you see the expression on his face when he said he was your boyfriend?" The expression on his face...was both solemn and uneasy, I think it was a difficult choice for him, but he still said it. "

Wang Xiu wrote at the end: "Whale, I wish you happiness. I didn't lie to you when I said that no man has ever been as nice to me as you are."

……

This simple letter ended here, and Lin Jinyu was silent for a long time after reading it.

He never knew that he was like this in Wang Xiu's eyes, possessing so many things, so beautiful...and happy.

And Zhang Xinli...has he come out with Wang Xiu?

The last trace of anger in Lin Jinyu's heart disappeared. He remembered the words Zhang Xinli said before he left the house... Oh my god, what did he say.

It was five o'clock in the afternoon, the sun was very strong outside, and it was still early. Lin Jinyu put away the letter, put on his shoes and went out to find him.

But in such a big city with such a wide street, it is so difficult to find that special person among millions of people.

Lin Jinyu walked around several streets several times, and after an hour or two, her legs hurt even but she couldn't find Zhang Xinli.

When it was time for dinner, the sun was taking back its gift to the world little by little, Lin Jinyu stood a little frustrated under the green trees on the side of the street... It seemed that he could only wait for Zhang Xinli to calm down and come back by himself.

He obviously came to celebrate his birthday with him, how did he make it like this?

Lin Jinyu remembered that Zhang Xinli himself didn't even have a birthday this year.

It was he who said the wrong thing... An apology should be a little sincere. Lin Jinyu stood by the street and thought for a while, then turned around and went to a cake shop he had tried very well to buy a small cake.

The big birthday cake must be ordered at least half a day in advance, and it’s too late now. Fortunately, this small cake is small but equally delicate, and it’s probably just right for two people, so it won’t be wasted.

Lin Jinyu asked the clerk for two sets of knives and forks and a plate of small candles. She was just about to go back after leaving the store... Suddenly she turned into a boutique and bought some large candles.

Will it be a bit old-fashioned... Hey, who cares, Lin Jinyu can't tell when Zhang Xinli's anger will subside, and he doesn't even bother to eat, so he goes upstairs with his things, asks the landlord to open the door for him, and then puts the cake on the table In the morning, I cleaned up the house from the inside to the outside for the first time, and then fiddled with it again and again.

The temperature was already high, and Lin Jinyu's back was covered with sweat after everything was arranged. He looked at his watch, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening, but Zhang Xinli still hadn't come back.

It seems that he is really angry... Lin Jinyu thought about it in a different position. If he managed to muster up the courage to admit his relationship with Zhang Xinli to others, and Zhang Xinli misunderstood him... then he would be too angry, angry and wronged, probably He wanted to kill Zhang Xinli.

Lin Jinyu waited for a while, but there was still no movement outside the door. He was a little disappointed, but he quickly cheered up, thinking that it might be reasonable to be a little later... I guess he wouldn't like the sweat he was wearing now when he came back?

Thinking of this, Lin Jinyu got up to look for clothes in the closet. He felt anxious, always feeling that Zhang Xinli would be back in the next minute, the next second, and he was in a hurry to take a bath to get ready... After washing, it was after nine o'clock, and Lin Jinyu put the The candle switch was turned on, the lights were turned off, and she sat on the bed and played with her mobile phone while waiting for the person to come back.

One of the most tormenting things in the world should be waiting. Lin Jinyu watched the dark red pointer on the luminous dial move forward one by one. A quarter of an hour passed, half an hour passed, and an hour passed... The pointer went away Zhang Xinli still didn't come back after a long time.

Lin Jinyu had nothing to do, he was tired from sitting, leaned back on the bed, and vaguely remembered that once when he was a child, he seemed to be lying in the room like this waiting for Zhang Xinli... What was the reason for that time, it didn't seem to be for some good thing.

The darkness seems to have a magical power, which makes people's thoughts very active... He thought about many things, those middle school days that seemed a little far away.

There were a few moments when Lin Jinyu was a little depressed. Just when he thought that Zhang Xinli might not be coming back, suddenly there was a "squeak", the keyhole turned slightly, and the half-new anti-theft door of the rental house opened.

There is no light in the dark room, only the golden and white electronic candles are brightly lit, forming a beautiful heart shape on the floor.

Zhang Xinli opened the door and came in, stunned by the gorgeous candlelight. Before he could react, he heard a very familiar voice whispering beside him: "Happy birthday to you...Happy birthday to you~"

It's probably an old-fashioned and uninnovative gimmick, but when the lover who is still a student is really willing to spend his time arranging such an ocean of light for you, the old-fashioned and uninnovative still become moving.

Zhang Xinli paused for a few seconds, gently closed the door from behind, and said, "...today is not my birthday."

"I know," Lin Jinyu lit the 6-inch cake on the small table on the bed with a lighter: "I made it up for you, happy birthday...don't be disgusted."

Zhang Xinli stared at his eyes slightly illuminated by the candlelight, and said after a while, "Oh."

Lin Jinyu also looked at him, and the two of them stared wide-eyed for several seconds, Lin Jinyu said, "Come here, what are you doing standing at the door all the time, are you meditating?"

Only then did Zhang Xinli take a few steps towards him by the light of the electronic candle, Lin Jinyu took his hand and motioned him to sit down around the small table with her.

The dim candlelight on the birthday cake illuminated his face. Zhang Xinli's arms were covered with sweat, as was his face.Lin Jinyu said, "Where have you been?"

"I... just play on your school playground," Zhang Xinli said, "I have no other place to go."

After calming down with each other for so long, it seemed that they didn't have the anger they had when they quarreled in the afternoon. Lin Jinyu searched all the surrounding streets in the afternoon, but forgot to go into the school to look for it. He said: "Your uncle, I I thought...you were angry, and you weren't going to come back tonight."

"Where will I sleep if I don't come back," Zhang Xinli said, "Who will I sleep with... whoever I will sleep with."

"Then who knows, maybe you have a bunk under the overpass." Lin Jinyu raised her chin towards the cake: "Here... this afternoon... there are things wrong with both of us, I said those words without thinking, you Don't be angry... I will send you a cake and apologize."

Zhang Xinli said: "I don't think you are shameless, I just..." It just takes a little time.

"Okay, let's not talk about this," Lin Jinyu stretched out a hand to hug Zhang Xinli's back: "I know, take your time."

Zhang Xinli turned sideways, put his hands on his waist, hugged him, and said, "I'm sorry."

Lin Jinyu was sticking to his sweaty neck, and Zhang Xinli's manly smell surrounded him... He said, "What did you say I'm sorry for? I'm sorry. I know you've already told Wang Xiu, that's why..."

Zhang Xinli still said: "No, I am sorry for you."

It was I who promised to be with you but didn't have enough courage to face other people's eyes, and I didn't provide you with any good material conditions, but instead made you always ask your family for money.

Lin Jinyu didn't understand why he said sorry, but Zhang Xinli hugged him gently, his tone was very serious...serious but with helplessness and self-blame that couldn't be suppressed, so he patted Zhang Xinli's back lightly, and said, "It's okay, "Lin Jinyu said: "There is no need to talk about this between us, do you know that I am your boyfriend, no matter what we have done for each other, the other party does not need to say sorry...except cheating."

Lin Jinyu grabbed his shoulder with one hand, and suddenly stretched out the other hand, saying extremely ferociously: "If you cheat, I'll chop you off and feed it to the dogs."

"Hiss," Zhang Xinli let go of him, and was teased by Lin Jinyu's pretentiously fierce expression. His expression relaxed a lot, and he was no longer so serious, and said, "You don't have that chance... Besides, you don't have a dog."

"Yes, I really want to keep a dog. My family mainly tells me that my mother doesn't like pets. I will definitely get one when I live in the future."

"You take care of yourself first, then talk about it," Zhang Xinli said, "The house you live in is like a garbage dump. Every time I come, I will clean it up for you."

"Shut up, I think it's fine." Lin Jinyu said, "...Oh, and whoever said I don't have a dog, you are."

Zhang Xinli put his arms around his neck and pressed him: "I'm a dog, so what are you?"

——Isn’t that the dog’s (beep)…

Lin Jinyu pushed him away and scolded with a smile: "Get out."

The quarrel in the afternoon and all the unhappiness naturally dissipated in such a calm and inconspicuous chat. The candle on the cake was half burned, and Lin Jinyu urged: "Hurry up and make a wish and blow out the candle."

No one has ever done this for Zhang Xinli, he seemed a little hesitant, Lin Jinyu said: "Quick, I'll play with you."

Zhang Xinli said, "Only cakes, what about gifts?"

Gift... Lin Jinyu didn't prepare it. Zhang Xinli was due to arrive next week according to the original plan. He planned to use this weekend to go shopping in the city center and choose a gift for him that was several hundred dollars cheaper... No way, there was an extra Open your mouth to eat.

"I..." Lin Jinyu said, "Can I supply you tomorrow?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Isn't it my birthday today? What kind of birthday gift is it tomorrow?"

"..." Lin Jinyu thought for a while, but couldn't think of any remedial measures. He scratched his hair in embarrassment. He didn't expect that Zhang Xinli would take the initiative to ask him for this: "Then what should I do? Tell me, what do you say? No."

He didn't think that Zhang Xinli could make any unattainable demands. In his mind, Zhang Xinli was a very conventional person, pragmatic, a bit stubborn, slow-moving, and sometimes not easy to get along with, but he was not very troublesome.

"I said..." Zhang Xinli's eyes flickered, he looked at Lin Jinyu, and said slowly, "Kiss me."