God said I would meet you

"August [-]th, Sunday, we arrived at the B&B outside the remote canyon. I met Wang Xiu, and his boyfriend... In fact, I don't know who it is, maybe it's the boyfriend."

At eight o'clock in the evening, while Zhang Xinli took his clothes to take a bath, Lin Jinyu sat at the table and wrote his ulterior diary by the small dim lamp in the room.

"Xu Zhao said that homosexuality is disgusting. I don't know if most people in this world think like him... Maybe they are, probably people have an instinctive desire to attack things that are different from themselves."

Listening to the sound of splashing water in the bathroom, Lin Jinyu wrote: "I never looked forward to taking a good physiology class in junior high school as I do now, but in retrospect, I never seemed to be taught this in the school textbooks. The teacher seemed to only talk about it. Very simple things like boys will have nocturnal emission, girls will have aunts, pregnancy, basic human physiological structure... and so on, but it has never been said whether there are some people in this world who are born to be attracted to the same sex, and what are these people? Is it normal..."

"Can we choose our own love, choose whom to be attracted to and fall in love with in my short and inconspicuous life?" Lin Jinyu put a big question mark behind the sentence: "Xu Zhao's words scare me , Although I have refuted similar views countless times, it is completely different...I used to think that I was the one standing on the shore watching the fire, but maybe I was in the flames."

He finished writing the last full stop, and before he had time to put the cap on his pen, he heard Zhang Xinli's voice not far behind him: "What are you writing?"

Lin Jinyu was so absorbed that she didn't even hear the bathroom door open.He put his elbows on the table, covered the content with his body calmly, and said, "No, let's move on to the next question."

"Do the questions?" Zhang Xinli turned to him sideways, brushing his hair and said, "Why don't I remember that you brought your homework out?"

"It's just... a small collection of wrong questions. It's not too big. I just put it in my bag."

There was a knock on the door. Zhang Xinli didn't seem to care too much about Lin Jinyu's movements. He wiped his hair until it didn't drip, put on some clean clothes, and walked to the door to open it.

Lin Jinyu quickly took the opportunity to close the notebook, stuff it into her bag and put it away.

The door opened, Xu Zhao led Huang Jiayao, squeezed in with a bag of snacks and drinks, and said hello, "Hey, what are you doing?"

"You guys are here so early." Lin Jinyu stood up and faced the door: "I also said to go and play with you later."

"It's early, it's already eight o'clock," Xu Zhao said, "It's boring to stay here, why don't we get together and chat for a while."

Huang Jiayao raised the bag, the small table was covered with Lin Jinyu's things, there was nowhere to start, Zhang Xinli said, "Just throw it on the bed."

Lin Jinyu pushed away the chair and stood up, and also came to greet them: "What are you talking about? Are you playing games?"

Zhang Xinli and Huang Jiayao didn't play games very much here, so Xu Zhao said, "Forget it, it's meaningless for the two of us to make fun of ourselves, why don't we call Shen Lanxi over and let's chat together."

Lin Jinyu said in her heart: I think you want to stay with her longer.

It was a long night without anyone talking, so Xu Zhao went to the next door to call Shen Lanxi, and Lin Jinyu climbed into bed to eat snacks.

Huang Jiayao turned on the TV, tuned to a random channel to watch, and Zhang Xinli went in to dry his hair.

Not long after Shen Lanxi knocked on the door and came in, Lin Jinyu could smell a pleasant fragrance from her hair.

Xu Zhao followed behind her, closed the door, and said, "Let's discuss tomorrow's affairs first, what time do we meet?"

"At 08:30," Lin Jinyu said, "I came out after four hours of exhaustion. Let me sleep more, and I won't wake up too early."

Xu Zhao said, "Pig."

Lin Jinyu gave him a pillow, Shen Lanxi said: "Okay, remember to bring your own things when the time comes."

Everyone sat on the bed, sat on the chairs, gathered together, Huang Jiayao tuned the TV, there were few channels, and there was nothing to watch.

Xu Zhao said, "It's boring, why don't you come and play a game."

"What are you playing?" Lin Jinyu said, "It's the same old routine every time, truth or dare."

Although I said so, but thinking about it, in fact, a few students can only play this kind of thing at a party. Every time there is a new joke, it is not boring.

Xu Zhao said: "Just add some new gameplay and cover your eyes."

"What?" Lin Jinyu said, "What is blindfolded..."

"It is to stand in a circle, take turns to cover their eyes, and other people who are not blindfolded write the topic, and then point to people at will. The blindfolded one says 'it is him' or 'it is not him', and the pointed one does. "

Lin Jinyu had never played this game before, so question marks were written all over her face, Xu Zhao said, "Oh, you'll know after just one game."

Shen Lanxi said, "I'm wearing a blindfold!" After speaking, she ran back to get it.

Xu Zhao pulled Lin Jinyu over: "Come on, you come to the first round first, I promise you will be fine."

Lin Jinyu was dragged by him, put on the blindfold in a daze, everyone sat apart, and after making a mess of noises, they asked in unison: "Is it him?"

Lin Jinyu couldn't see anything, couldn't figure out the situation at all, and said casually, "It's him! It's him, it's him, it's him!"

Everyone roared with laughter, Lin Jinyu pulled off the blindfold and found that everyone was pointing at himself.

Lin Jinyu suddenly became furious, picked up the pillow and threw it in Zhang Xinli's direction: "Even you betrayed me!"

Zhang Xinli took it with his head tilted, and said, "There are a lot of them."

"Stop talking! You traitor!"

Xu Zhao unfolded the note he had written earlier, and read: "If you are blindfolded, you can identify people by hand. If you fail, you have to go downstairs to find the boss and ask if there is any shelter nearby."

……

Lin Jinyu was speechless. Mom, what kind of 98 is this? It's too shameful, isn't it?

All the students here are students who have no experience in love. This kind of thing may be the same as eating and drinking in the adult world. It is a normal shopping behavior, but for them...

Xu Zhao smirked, pulled Lin Jinyu's blindfold off, and said, "Follow the rules, hurry up."

In fact, this note was originally written by Huang Jiayao. Originally, there was only the section "Blindfolded Recognition". Xu Zhao thought it was not exciting enough, so he edited it.

The double-layer goggles block out the light very well, and Lin Jinyu couldn't see anything, and could only sense through tactile blur that other people were approaching and standing in a circle around him.

Xu Zhao said: "You can touch from left to right, only touch the palm of your hand, don't say we bully you, guess one correctly and you will pass."

He was sure that Lin Jinyu's guess was wrong. In the first place, everyone had ten fingers and two hands, and they were blindfolded. They could tell who was who just by touching their hands.

At the age of seventeen or eighteen, the hands of a girl and a boy were not as different as those of an adult man and a woman. Xu Zhao asked Shen Lanxi to change her position and stand at the end, urging Lin Jinyu to answer quickly.

Lin Jinyu is super embarrassing, he doesn't want to go downstairs like a pervert to ask what byt, he must guess correctly, otherwise his fame in this life... will definitely be ruined, and he will be ashamed.

The others held their breaths and concentrated, not making any sound, in case Lin Jinyu cheated.

Lin Jinyu took a deep breath, slowly stretched out her hands, and first touched them around to get familiar with the positions, then from left to right, she began to try to identify the owners of these hands by touch.

The expression on his face was very serious, with a sense of death as home, and the wind is rustling, and the water is cold, as if a strong man revolted, and if he fails, he will be benevolent.

Before the start, Xu Zhao deliberately signaled everyone to take off the bracelets, rings, watches and other markers, gearing up and waiting to see Lin Jinyu's byt performance. He even prepared his mobile phone and wanted to record a picture as a souvenir.

Lin Jinyu brushed all the way over, wiped the backs of everyone's hands, then turned them over again, touched their palms with her fingertips, then lowered her head in thought, and didn't speak for several seconds.

"Hurry up," Yu said with regret.Xu Zhao thought he had no clue, so he gave up struggling and prepared to get confused, and urged him: "I can wait."

Lin Jinyu frowned slightly, but still did not speak.Just when Xu Zhao couldn't bear it anymore and was about to urge him again, Lin Jinyu finally reached out and grabbed one of the five or six hands in front of him.

It seems that this is the final choice he made. Xu Zhao wants to see if he gets a funny answer. The chance is [-]/[-], which is about the same as doing multiple-choice questions...Anyway, Xu Zhao's multiple-choice questions have never been fooled. Excuse me.

Lin Jinyu seemed to think for the last second. After a second, he said, "You are Zhang Xinli, right?" He said, "I found you."

Xu Zhao was dumbfounded, Zhang Xinli also seemed a little surprised, Lin Jinyu pulled down the blindfold with the other hand, and looked along the hand held by him, and fell straight into Zhang Xinli's eyes.

"I'll go," Xu Zhao said, "How did you do it?"

Lin Jinyu raised his eyebrows, he guessed right, he knew he would guess right.

He turned that hand over, stretched out his index finger and lightly touched the palm of Zhang Xinli, and said, "Because you have a scar here."

Everyone followed his movements and saw that it was a long and narrow scar that was not new, but not very old. It was slightly raised and ran through the three main palm lines.

Lin Jinyu remembered this scar, which was cut by a knife when Zhang Xinli fought with Gao Wu and his gang for him at this time last year.

The long, narrow, earthworm-like, light-colored scar was engraved on Zhang Xinli's palm, and it would never fade away in this lifetime.

Shen Lanxi's eyes were full of surprise, while Xu Zhao yelled, "I'm so lucky for you, it's a cheating."

Lin Jinyu gave him a slap in the face: "You're the only one cheating, and you're still cheating, you're an idiot."

Zhang Xinli curled up his palms, took them back, and said, "...you still remember."

"I don't have amnesia, how could I not remember," Lin Jinyu complained, "I said, what kind of image do I have in your heart?"

Others couldn't understand what the two of them were talking about, Zhang Xinli replied: "It's pretty good, a very smart image."

Lin Jinyu highly doubted the credibility of his words.

Xu Zhao was very disappointed that there was no byt drama to watch, and he was not even interested in playing the game. After playing for about half an hour, Shen Lanxi looked at her watch and said that she had to go back to take a shower and wash her hair, otherwise she would go to bed too late I won't get up tomorrow.

It was not good for girls to stay in their room too late, so Xu Zhao had no choice but to send her out. After saying goodbye, he came back and lay down on the bed.

Lin Jinyu hurt him: "Hey, yo, as soon as he leaves, you feel like you have lost your soul. Your yang energy has been sucked dry by a thousand-year-old vixen, and you have no vitality at all, half dead."

Xu Zhao hit him with a pillow: "You just... sucked up the yang energy, I can't remember it for a while."

No... What is there to remember, you two haven't even touched your fingertips, have you?

Xu Zhao said: "It doesn't have to be something big to remember, and you can think about it over and over again, such as a few words, a few glances at each other... and so on."

Lin Jinyu stopped laughing at him, because he belatedly realized that he always seemed to recall the little things between him and Zhang Xinli in this way... as big as that night, and as small as some simple daily exchanges.

"Alas," Xu Zhao sighed, "youthful feelings are always poetry."

Zhu Bajie wears glasses, and pretends to be a college student... Lin Jinyu watched him touch the remote control, and began to click aimlessly.

Some TVs in hotels or B&B rooms have built-in functions, such as membership to watch TV dramas, pay to watch movies, etc... There are Hollywood movies or Japanese action movies.

Xu Zhao pressed seven times and eight times, and actually found this function in the corner... The four big bosses have pink artistic fonts: X love blockbuster, or the kind that is 30 yuan for the sky.

Adolescent boys are always full of curiosity about this kind of thing... Xu Zhao didn't even say hello, just clicked in, and then scanned the QR code to pay in one go, without blinking an eyelid.

Lin Jinyu couldn't believe it: "What are you doing?"

"Curious, let's take a look." Xu Zhao didn't blush at all, his face was full of mystery and excitement.

Although boys occasionally gather together...but this... Lin Jinyu never thought that one day he and Zhang Xinli would watch pornographic movies together, okay?

My God, how can there be such a magical function on this TV, what scale is it, if it is too that, he really feels ashamed, okay?

It's totally not a concept to hide and watch with everyone... Lin Jinyu was shy and embarrassed, and didn't know what expression to put on... Although he couldn't deny that he was also a little curious.

Zhang Xinli and Huang Jiayao were behind them, and Xu Zhao randomly clicked on one.

In fact...it's not as exaggerated as Lin Jinyu imagined. After all, it's just a hotel TV. It's impossible to really put an AV there. Most of them are just some third-level Hong Kong movies, but they are exciting enough for them.

A tertiary movie has a plot... But Lin Jinyu didn't care about this kind of thing at all, and only saw non-stop action scenes throughout the film, the kind where the upper body was not missing the lower body.

Still very ashamed...Lin Jinyu didn't dare to look back at Zhang Xinli's expression, and stared at the TV screen the whole time.

The progress bar gradually moved forward. Slowly, Lin Jinyu felt that something was wrong. In addition to the non-stop male and female, this movie seems to have... female protagonist and female supporting role, male supporting role and male supporting role?

Is this actually possible?It turns out that some people would shoot something that involves this type of sex so bluntly... Lin Jinyu was a little shocked. He always felt that this kind of desire was very dark, shameful, and something that should not be seen.

But it turns out that it may be the same as the desire between men and women, and it can be compared?

Xu Zhao was okay when he watched the heroine and the female supporting role, but when he watched the male supporting role and the male supporting role, he had the expression of "Grandpa on the subway looking at his phone": "I'll go..." He said, "It's too harsh. "

On the screen, the male supporting role and the male supporting role began to use each other's hands...Xu Zhao wanted to skip it at first, but was wrapped up in curiosity...in the end, he didn't fast forward.

Only Xu Zhao was talking in the room, and he said, "This actor is actually quite handsome...Whale, do you think his mouth looks a bit like yours?"

In fact, the face is not very similar, but there is a slight similarity between the lips and the jaw.

Lin Jinyu looked at the movements of the actors in the movie, and blushed uncontrollably... because it reminded him of that night...

As soon as no one spoke, the panting sound coming from the speakers became extremely loud. Lin Jinyu grabbed a pillow from the side and hugged it. He didn't really have much interest in movies, but he couldn't guarantee that he wasn't right about the repetition in his head. The imaginary reaction that pops up.

Everyone knew what was going on when he suddenly went to hug the pillow. Xu Zhao laughed twice, and quietly finished watching the movie without mentioning him.

Most of the scenes are male and female, and it is the first time for several of them to watch this kind of movie, which is generally very exciting.

Xu Zhao threw the remote control away and said, "Damn it, it's exciting enough. This is much more provocative than the direct nudity scene, but the mess in the middle is quite shocking."

Huang Jiayao said: "It's normal for Hong Kong movies to have such plots. Borderline sexual behaviors between same-sex people are not very uncommon. You don't have to be gay to have sexual contact with same-sex people."

Xu Zhao was not interested in this kind of topic at all, but Lin Jinyu pricked up his ears, and he asked, "Impossible, it's not gay after all that."

"Not necessarily," Huang Jiayao said: "You have also seen that the couple in the movie, the young lady and the maid, were just helping each other physically, and did not produce any 'romance'. Similarly, studies have shown that between friends of the same sex who are very close, Some of them will have borderline sexual behavior... You can search for this definition, but it is not a real sexual behavior.”

Lin Jinyu vaguely understood, Xu Zhao yawned, and said, "I'm so sleepy, let's go back to bed first, you guys get up early tomorrow, don't be late." Saying goodbye, he got up and went back to his room.

With the muffled sound of the door closing, the room was once again silent.

Lin Jinyu hadn't been embarrassed to watch Zhang Xinli since the beginning of the movie, and she wasn't too embarrassed now.

A few seconds later, Lin Jinyu heard Zhang Xinli say, "Wash your face and brush your teeth, go to bed early."

……

Hot water rushed down from the shower, Lin Jinyu stood in the bathroom for at least 5 minutes.

This is the first time he has come into contact with such straightforward things about "sex" between boys... He thought he would be a little bit repulsive, but he didn't.

Not only not, but also... Lin Jinyu couldn't deny that she had some unspeakable physiological reactions to this.

Ordinary people would feel uncomfortable seeing this kind of plot, Lin Jinyu thought to herself: I am really 'uncommon'.

He took a shower, but he didn't dare to go out, because those beautiful images kept circling in his mind, and he couldn't suppress them no matter what.It was the hottest day, and it was even hotter in the closed bathroom filled with water vapor. Lin Jinyu leaned against the glass door, closed her eyes, and her breathing gradually began to loosen. (modified)

I can't let Zhang Xinli notice it, Lin Jinyu thought: No one would like to have an abnormal pervert sleeping next to him.

The steam in the bathroom was steaming, Lin Jinyu's breath mixed with the steam, his slightly wet forehead was disheveled, his eyes couldn't tell whether it was more desire or more sadness.

……

When he finally finished everything and came out of the bathroom after wiping off the water, he found that Zhang Xinli had turned off the headlights, leaving only a small lamp in front of the bathroom and at the top of the corridor to illuminate him.

"I haven't packed my things yet," Lin Jinyu said, "I have to bring them tomorrow morning, so it's too late to pack them in the morning."

Zhang Xinli sat by the bed, turned up the air conditioner by one degree, and said, "I've packed everything, including water, dry food, shoes, and paper towels." He turned on the bed and said, "Go to sleep after washing."

Lin Jinyu had no choice but to walk over, lift the quilt and lie down.Zhang Xinli turned his back to him, sleeping beside the bed, kept a distance from him, and said nothing.

Lin Jinyu didn't dare to sleep too close to him. He was actually a little tired just now, but his brain was in a state of anxious waking, and he couldn't fall asleep anyway.

Go to sleep, go to sleep, I beg you... Time passed by, Lin Jinyu closed her eyes, lying in the dark, counting sheep and stars and moons, and she still didn't fall asleep after counting thousands or eight hundred.

This was the first time he had tasted insomnia. He kept thinking about everything about Zhang Xinli, every expression, every movement, every turn, and then analyzed, analyzed, and analyzed...

The minute hand was ticking, and the more Lin Jinyu analyzed it, the more excited his brain became, and he was extremely sober.

He reckoned that it was past eleven o'clock now, and he usually fell asleep within half an hour after touching the bed, but today he had been lying down for two hours, yet he still hadn't fallen asleep.

Just when Lin Jinyu opened his eyes and gave up on himself in the dark, he heard a slight sound coming from behind... The bed was first heavy and then light.

It was Zhang Xinli who stood up. Lin Jinyu always thought that he had fallen asleep long ago. I don't know why he got up at this moment... Probably because he drank too much water and woke up at night?

Zhang Xinli didn't turn on the light, and Lin Jinyu's whole body's attention was focused on him. He felt that Zhang Xinli got out of bed, and his movements were very light, as if he was heading towards the bathroom.

Lin Jinyu remained motionless, pretending to be asleep, until the sound of Zhang Xinli's light footsteps disappeared completely.

Then there was a soft "click" sound of closing the door... As expected, it was night, Lin Jinyu thought: Oh my god, when will I fall asleep.

He continued to stay in the dark for more than ten or twenty minutes, but Zhang Xinli never came back.

Lin Jinyu began to feel a little strange, no one would go so long after getting up at night.

The small light at the door was still on. Lin Jinyu used to leave a light on when sleeping, so she didn't turn it off before going to bed.He waited for a few more minutes, and finally couldn't bear to sit up...hesitantly wanted to go and have a look.

Quietly go over and take a look, you probably won't be noticed, Lin Jinyu thought: Slowly...quietly.

He couldn't match the strong curiosity in his heart, and finally lifted the quilt lightly and got out of bed, and moved closer to the bathroom.

Surrounded by silence, Lin Jinyu was afraid of the sound of footsteps, so he didn't wear shoes. He moved to the door of the bathroom and stood still...Through a small piece of frosted glass above, a faint shadow could be seen. Zhang Xinli seemed to have his back turned to him. against the door.

Lin Jinyu gently placed his hand on the door, and the small light at the door fell vertically from the top of his head, illuminating his face, and he seemed to be able to hear the suppressed, extremely slight panting sound coming through the door.

It's as if...

Lin Jinyu trembled, and her nails accidentally rubbed against the wooden door. The almost inaudible panting sound disappeared immediately, and Zhang Xinli's figure reflected on the frosted glass turned around suddenly, and said, "Who?"

This question is true as if he has not thought about it, there are only two people in this room, who else can it be.

Lin Jinyu's first reaction was to run, but then he realized that running too much here would cost 300 taels of silver, so he calmed down, pretending to get up in the middle of the night and just walked to the door, and said, "I, drink too much water. Go to the bathroom."

There was a moment of silence inside, and then Zhang Xinli's voice came, saying, "First...don't come in."

Lin Jinyu was waiting at the door, and there was a sound of cloth rubbing against each other inside. After about tens of seconds, Zhang Xinli opened the door, but did not go under the light, and said, "Go."

In fact, Lin Jinyu didn't want to go to the bathroom at all. He calmly said "Yes" and walked in. Zhang Xinli turned slightly to make way for him.

When Lin Jinyu brushed past him, his shoulder lightly rubbed against Zhang Xinli's chest through his clothes. His neck didn't move, and only his eyes rolled around.

There was no light in the bathroom, it was dark everywhere, and nothing could be seen, and the air had a normal, faint smell of shower gel.Lin Jinyu always felt uneasy. Although there were no clues left here, what he heard at the door at first... The voice was very slight, but it was definitely not wrong.

That was clearly... Zhang Xinli watched him enter the door from behind him, let go of the handle, and wanted to turn around and go out.Lin Jinyu's mind was full of thoughts, and at the moment when Zhang Xinli had completely turned around and was about to go out, he suddenly turned around and grabbed his wrist.

Zhang Xinli didn't move, he turned his face and asked, "What's the matter?"

Lin Jinyu's heart beat faster, he turned around and walked over, hesitantly pressed Zhang Xinli's shoulder without any explanation, and pushed him.

Zhang Xinli didn't know what he wanted to do, subconsciously took half a step back, his back pressed against the cold tiled wall.

The small light in the corridor at the entrance slanted into half of the light along the half-open door. Lin Jinyu calmed down her heartbeat as much as possible, and also took half a step forward, standing face to face with Zhang Xinli.

Their blurred shadows were reflected together on the translucent frosted glass.

The author says:

Break in break in.

"Middle-aged thoughts are as thick as wine, and youthful feelings are always poetry." From Liang Yusheng's "The Record of Washing the Sword on the Glacier".