trace in pocket

At that time, really, I didn't mean to lie to you... I really..."

"Hey, so—" Inoue Rie's chuckling voice seemed to be mocking her overreach and stupidity, and it was only then that Kanako realized that she had indeed underestimated this person before. "But I never thought it was a joke, or a misunderstanding... What should I do, Kanako?"

It's too ambiguous.

No matter the physical distance, or her tone of voice.

Nerve endings seemed to go limp.Being overwhelmed by such an aura...maybe, maybe it's not just because of the other party's aura.She gradually felt that the whole person's vision was blurred, and her eyes missed the other person's shoulders and landed on the juice on the tea table, and she didn't even have the strength to lift her fingers-Rie Inoue smiled when she saw this scene.

"Eh~ Are you surprised? No~ wrong~ oh~ Kanako is so easy to deceive, she has no sense of accomplishment at all. Don't worry, it's not something strange, otherwise how could it take so long to take effect? ​​It's true, serious, just Something to let you sleep for a while~~ Hey, sleep and wake up, everything is arranged, go to sleep, you can see me when you wake up~~"

I don't want to see you at all, okay...

She muttered, wanting to say something else, but the next second, the boundless darkness roared like a beast and pulled her in, and she kept falling in a bottomless space, as if she would never wake up again in this lifetime Come.

……

Maybe it was really the ease and peace during this period that paralyzed me.The only time she relaxed her vigilance, hoping to have a good talk with the other party, but unexpectedly, she got such an answer in the end.

Kanako Hayakawa and Rie Inoue, sure enough, it is best not to meet again in the whole life, to meet again, to have a future, good friends.

In fact, I can't help but sigh when I recall things like this, it's just a very old story.

The girl was still in her second year of middle school at the time, she was awkward, shy and inflexible, so she had a crush on the serious boy next door.

At that time, I liked him so much that I didn't dare to say a word, but I didn't know what I was thinking, and I insisted on pretending that I hated him very much.He sneered at him in front of outsiders, saying that he was just a stinky boy with a straight face all day long.In fact, even if she got an inch of his gaze, she felt happier than getting the first parent to praise herself in the exam, or having someone meet all her requirements.

But she didn't want to tell anyone about her thoughts.

Girls at that age are sometimes like boys, hoping to attract the other party's attention by being different, hating him and being indifferent.Those thoughts are written in the diary, and every time I open it, it is sweet and sour and hard to let go.

However, he remained indifferent, with no expression on his face.

At that time she was still her best friend, her emotions affected her, and she never had a good face towards him.At that time, the girl named Rie Inoue was still the most concerned girl in the school.She is very beautiful, generous, and knows many things.And she's clumsy and dull, can't do anything, and doesn't attract anyone's attention without her.She doesn't have any friends in class except her.

She was ashamed of herself, looking up at her friend who was dazzling like a little sun, attracting everyone's attention, and buried some subtle emotions in her heart for no reason.

At that time they talked about everything except this person.She didn't know what was in her mind, even if she told her that she hated him very much, she said that I hated people Kanako hated.

She stands by her side unconditionally and supports her in whatever she does.

So this Inoue Rie made her feel more ashamed and embarrassed.

Kanako clearly knew that hiding such a thing, just because she was afraid that the other party would notice that person, and was afraid of what they would be like herself... It was really terrible.

But she couldn't resist doing it.

She still feels that at least in this matter, she is really sorry for her.

At that time, she really never owed her anything.

Sensitive and inferior girls in adolescence are struggling between guilt and jealousy, and it is difficult for people who look at themselves to feel the consequences of what they do.

It takes countless lies to make up for one lie.The sweet brew in the diary becomes old and spoiled wine after too long.

She was more and more worried about being discovered and exposed, and on the one hand she was glad that she really didn't notice him, on the other hand, she was constantly gnawing at her vulnerable and unexpectedly firm heart with guilt.

Inoue Rie is really a very smart girl.

On the day the diary was found, she was both relieved and at a loss.

Perhaps, she has actually been waiting, waiting for the day when this lie will come to an end.

even though--

What happened later, even she herself had never imagined.

Kanako Hayakawa regretted buying countless orders for the mistakes she made when she was young.

If I had been more sensible, more frank, and less inferior and sensitive, the situation would not have developed to that point.She will not be more in order to draw a clear line with her former self, so she hopes to become more cheerful and confident.

Yet she still didn't make it.

Hayakawa Kanako still doesn't please everyone.

She's still a coward.

Bystanders will always see these things more clearly than those in authority.That's why when she woke up and heard Kikuchi Xiuyi scolding her for being insane, she felt guilty and embarrassed.She would be silent under Kikuchi Hideichi's aggressive questioning because it was actually difficult for her to describe her feelings for Inoue Rie.

This silence may appear to the other party as resistance.He looked as if he had been punched, and looked more and more disappointed in her, and even had such a sneer at her for the first time, mocking and indifferent. "Hey, Hayakawa Kanako, don't you think you're so powerful?"

"..." She dared not answer.

Kikuchi Hideichi's face became even colder.

"Aren't you afraid to speak? Do you still think you're handsome? Even if you just hide and hide year after year, you can't hide. You stretch your neck along her knife and say, 'Come on, I'll plead guilty', If you’re alone, you’re happy, and you’re done, and everyone else doesn’t care? Do you still feel that you’ve handled it smartly, that you deserve it after being suppressed and beaten by her for so many years? Yes or no?"

It was rare for him to make such a long speech, and the big hats were put down one after another. Finally, Kanako couldn't help it, and raised her eyebrows weakly and retorted: "...No..."

Seeing his increasingly disappointed and indifferent eyes in a blink of an eye, I felt really guilty and afraid for some reason.Fearing that he would be really angry and ignore her, she smiled shyly and flattered him and said, "I really didn't... I didn't realize it at the time, she was so smart, I thought she would be fine , I really didn't expect her to suddenly become like this, it wasn't intentional, don't be angry, I really won't do it in the future."

"..." The corner of the other party's mouth tugged slightly, and the curvature of the lips looked like self-deprecating, and also seemed to be mocking someone unknown.He quickly looked away and stopped talking.

Kanako felt guilty and knew she was wrong.She still wanted to make some excuses, but seeing the other party's face, she dared not speak out.

This time she was indeed careless.If Yushi Ninzu hadn't been paying attention to this place, probably no one would know who killed her.She really didn't expect Rie Inoue to do such an amazing job this time. The other party even brought a series of tools to feed her sleeping pills one after another when she was asleep. When she was found, Kanako was still unconscious and tied up with a rope, almost was sent for gastric lavage.

Although she never saw her again after waking up, Kanako couldn't help being afraid.She didn't dare to tell her parents about this. When she opened her eyes, she saw Kikuchi Shuichi, who was so angry that she had been fighting coldly with her. While lying on the bed, besides thinking about the ins and outs of the whole thing in her head, she couldn't help thinking——

Ninja Yushi was paying attention to the movement here.That person also knows, right?

Having not yet adapted to the period of running away with pets, Kanako in a trance slightly misses the figure of the other party jumping up and down on the sofa.The brain nerves have been tired of dealing with Rie Inoue comforting Shuichi Kikuchi for the past few days. She rubbed her temples and came back to her senses. The person beside the bed was no longer angry for some reason, but looked at her with complicated eyes.

"?"

He looked at her for a moment, his eyes moved, and suddenly turned his head away again quickly.

"fine."

But what kind of emotion is like the emotion that is constantly surging under the ice layer, it only needs an exit, and it will slam, and it will collapse all the way, and it will be defeated.

he saw.She never noticed.

23 Who is it?

An ignorant girl is the most fearless.

The ignorant Kanako is the most invincible.

Carrying a bag and following Kikuchi Hideichi, chatting with him while walking out of the hospital, smiling without any trace of haze.In essence, she is a stupid girl who is not afraid of pain when she is not injured, and forgets when she is in pain, and never learns a lesson.

In fact, the most fortunate thing is that except for being drugged and unconscious at the beginning, she has no memory of the rest.That's why Kanako has the leeway to belch and fight nonsense as usual when she wakes up.During the hospital period, only Kikuchi Shuichi appeared and took care of her all the time, and her attitude has always been very positive.It's rare for the other party to get angry with her once, and she honestly lay down and coaxed and was scolded at the same time, playing cute, rolling and acting like a baby.

It's just that I recalled it alone in the middle of the night. Besides my fear, in fact... She really couldn't understand, did she really hate herself so much.

But she couldn't find anyone to answer her.

When we were friends before, we never thought that we would really fall to such a step.For a long time after that, Inoue Rie