[Curse back] Another you in the world

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It’s okay to read psychology books, and it’s okay to try unreliable treatments, but prescribing drugs behind someone’s back is unforgivable, close to betrayal.

And Qingdou even felt a sense of relief, inexplicable fear, mixed with the feeling of a stone falling to the ground, an indescribable mood.He dug out a book from a pile of books and turned to one of the pages: "Mirtazapine, this is the detailed introduction of the drug, including pharmacological analysis and so on."

And Xia Youjie didn't want to watch this, he did something excessive at night, so he wanted to come during the day and apologize.It was he who couldn't do without Haruto, and he knew it well.Will it scare him away?Maybe.

It's just that he wasn't there, so he could only wait a little longer.Because it needs to be used every day, the medicine is placed in a box on the table, and there are two pens and inks commonly used by Qingdou inside. It's a bag of pills with something stamped on it.After a little searching, I found out what it was. It was obvious that Xia Youjie was the only person who needed this kind of medicine here.

Haruto looked at the bag and asked, "Then can you continue to take the medicine?"

Why can he still ask such a question with confidence, Xia Youjie hated him and felt wronged.He threw the bag to Qingdou's face: "So, you came to my side just to drug me behind my back?"

"Then will you obediently follow me to the doctor and take the medicine as prescribed?"

He wouldn't, he wouldn't accept the monkey's definition of a mental problem, but this wasn't the reason why Qingdou gave him medicine without asking or mentioning it sideways.

Haruto naturally knew it too, so he felt relieved at this moment.He squeezed the sealed bag, wiped his eyes, and wiped away the tears that were about to overflow: "I know you won't accept it, but after that, can you continue...continue to take the medicine? I only have one request, it's It really works, and you can feel it yourself, right?"

Around Qingdou, densely packed curse spirits surrounded him, and they were about to pounce on him and tear him apart in almost a second, so what he relied on was not this person, but his medicine?

The brief but dangerous silence was interrupted by the ringtone of the mobile phone, Haruto glanced at the screen of the mobile phone, it was his father.He glanced at Xia Youjie again, and answered the phone: "Dad?"

"Yes, Qingdou, if possible, please take a leave of absence and come back. Grandpa is in the hospital again, and the doctor said that the situation is not very good."

He sighed and hung up the phone directly.Then I stuffed the sealed bag into Xia Youjie's hand: "No matter what, I always hope that you can live happily. The closer I am to you, the more I understand your despair and sadness. I have no choice but to try my best." It is possible to help you maintain a relatively good status quo. If you are more energetic, you will not be so sad when you do your work, right? This is for yourself, not for my request, and it is not for other people to give you any illness definition."

Squeezing Xia Youjie's fingers tightly, Qingdou sniffed: "If you have any questions, I'll talk about it when I come back, is that okay? Half a day, please take care of yourself."

The moment Qingdou turned around, more than half of the door collapsed, he turned his head, Xia Youjie's chest was still rising and falling rapidly, obviously very angry.And now his head is in a mess, and he has no idea what to do.If he wants to go home to see his grandfather, he should also apologize to Xia Youjie.

He can't compare, but he has to choose.Grandpa's side may be the last time, he has to go back.

"Please, I'll talk when I come back... Or, you go back to Awaji with me? At least after I meet my grandpa, it's up to you, okay?"

"Get out." Xia Youjie squeezed out the word between his teeth, and he threw out the sealed bag in his hand again: "Take your things, get out."

Haruto picked up the bag on the ground: "I'll be back soon, I'll be back soon."

It's just that his "soon" is destined to be a relative adjective.Grandpa's health is very poor, and he has been lying in the ICU for four days before coming out. The doctor's expectation is that it will only be a matter of one or two months. Qingdou doesn't want any accidents, so he can only stay with him.

When he was seriously ill, his body would be very painful. In order to make people feel more relaxed, he often fell asleep because of the medicine, and at the same time, there were many people who came to visit him.Parents are busy entertaining guests, and Haruto stays at the hospital all the time, eating and lodging in the hospital every day, which is also very hard.I had a little spare time and tried to call Xia Youjie, but the other party didn't answer at all.

Exhausted.He was still holding the phone that said "beep - beep - beep -", his eyes were facing the darkness outside the window, he didn't know what was going on in his mind.The other party was like this, he didn't answer the phone, he didn't hang up, and just let him dial it, as if Xia Youjie left the call in a corner where no one knew.

"Haruto..."

He came back to his senses abruptly, hung up the phone, and leaned over to the bed: "Grandpa?"

"Haruto, are you unhappy? Is it because of grandpa?"

He nodded: "Well, not happy. But it's not entirely because of grandpa, after all, grandpa, you are still there. And... because of Mr. Xia You."

"Would you like to talk to Grandpa?"

"Yes. It's because Mr. Xia You is sick and very sick. If I don't treat him well, I'm afraid he will continue to hurt himself, so I gave him medicine behind his back. Before I came back, Mr. Xia You found out After this incident, he... is very sad, and I broke his heart."

Grandpa held his hand with a cold and edematous hand: "So, does Haruto regret it?"

Do you regret it?He thought for a long time: "Regret, I should have told him from the beginning. He trusts me sincerely, treats me very indulgently, regards me as his only friend and younger brother, after we met, he listened to me in many things If I do it again, I should tell him well that he may not be willing to cooperate. Moreover, this drug has side effects, and it is very dangerous and bad behavior to give him the drug without authorization, and his work is also dangerous. What happened was that I killed him."

Grandpa couldn't see very well, he looked at the lamp above his head, it was just a blur of light, and sighed: "Qingdou, if you do something wrong, please ask for forgiveness, and if you regret it, please correct your mistake." Wrong, no matter what the outcome is, don't resent Mr. Xia You, and don't endlessly blame yourself. He is the one who decides the outcome of this matter, and whatever decision he makes, you should accept it. You are still young, and there are many It is an opportunity to make amends, to do the right thing, to do something that will not make you regret it.”

Afterwards, the old man turned his head, he couldn't see his grandson's face clearly, but he could hear his sobbing: "Qingdou, please call your parents over here, you all have things to do, grandpa doesn't want to drag you down .”

"grandfather?"

"go quickly."

When the family gathered together, he didn't tell too many things, he just told his feelings: "I am very tired now, I have lived a good enough life in this life, and most of the time I am worthy of anyone .I hope you have this kind of life too, don't feel sorry for yourself."

Soon afterwards, his breathing became weaker and weaker, and his father didn't even call the doctor for rescue. After confirming that the old man had passed away, he shed tears and cried out lying on the hospital bed.

The funeral was not extravagant and wasteful, but there were too many people who came to pay their respects, so they had to stay for three more days before barely ending.The family crest of the Awaji family is a bit complicated, it is a deformed octagonal yin and yang pattern composed of waves. He wears a black and white kimono embroidered with the family crest to help entertain guests at the door. It is almost midnight before sending away the last few sporadic guests. Then he sat down on the steps at the entrance of the shrine.

Looking at the time, it was almost twelve o'clock.It's been a month since he left Tokyo, and he didn't stay at home for so long during the winter vacation.

After hesitating for a while, he dialed the phone again, but there was still no one answering, and finally hung up automatically.

Back in the house, the adults in the family were also very tired, especially the father. During this period of time, his gray hair has increased a lot.The old man is gone, and the person in charge is not young, so the elders of the family began to urge Qingdou: "Qingdou, you have to come back early to help, you still have a lot to learn. What you need to know You don’t even know people now, that’s not okay.”

He stood at the door and nodded: "I know."

They continued to ask Haruto when he was going to come back to Awaji to inherit the family business, but Haruto hadn't thought much about it yet, so he was very confused when asked.

Instead, his father waved his hand: "Forget it, I'm in pretty good health, and I can last a few more years. In the future, he will have a lot of time entangled with these chores, and now I also hope that this child can relax for a few years. Before Yang He did everything well, and you all praised him for being able to preside over sacrifices at a young age, but after he left, I regretted that I didn't let that child enjoy his time."

This was one of the few times when his father mentioned his brother in front of him.He mentioned his eldest son who died young, and his eyes turned red again: "Especially, seeing Qingdou, he has been very happy when he was a child, he didn't learn these things, and he didn't help the family much, but everyone loves him the same Isn't it? As a child, you should grow up like Haruto."

"Yes, I have always been very happy. Dad's regrets should have been made up for, right?"

He looked at his young son and sniffed: "No, because your brother is your brother, you are you, and it is Yang Yi, not you, that father is guilty of. I can tell the difference very clearly."

What a serious guy, Haruto sighed, and urged everyone to go to bed in the past. There will be a burial ceremony the next day, which is also very tiring.