single sickness

When Xiang Mo's parents divorced, he had just started elementary school and had no idea about many things.Later, his mother found several men intermittently, but the relationship did not last long.

At that time, Xiang Mo felt that marriage was meaningless, and that love would be buried in the tomb of marriage. However, his thoughts have changed over the years. He believes that love itself is a tomb, and the marriage certificate is just a tombstone.

After San Mao came back from a walk, Xiang Mo combed San Mao in the yard before the sunset.

Large dogs shed hair not so badly. After three strokes of the steel comb, it was full of dog hair.If Sanmao shakes a few more times, the dog hair floating in the air is comparable to fluttering catkins.

"Seeing how hot you are, how about shaving you?" The master was not there, but the stepmother asked.Xiang Mo was upset, so he pointed the finger at the innocent San Mao.

Sanmao let out a "bark", and the eyes of the two dogs were pure and clear, and they didn't feel the "maliciousness" of the stepmother at all.

The combed dog hair was twisted into a ball and became Sanmei's fur ball toy.Even with a big belly, a cat is still a cat and has no resistance to hairballs.

Looking at the carefree two, Xiang Mo sighed, and said to San Mao: "Maybe I won't have a chance to comb your hair in the future."

What is unacceptable is always unacceptable.Just like everyone agrees that the plateau is beautiful, but for people with strong altitude sickness, it will not be heaven, it will only be hell.

To Xiang Mo, the marriage vow is the gate to hell, and it seems that the giant claws of a dragon stretched out from the abyss, trying to drag him into the boundless darkness.

Cleaned up the dog fur in the courtyard, carried Sanmei to Xiang Mo, and walked Sanmao into the house.

At this time, the sound of unlocking the combination lock suddenly sounded. Du Chi pushed open the door of the small courtyard and walked in from the outside.

A simple white T with cropped jeans is still so casual and lazy, no matter how you look at it, you will never get tired of it.

"Honey, I'm back." Du Chi walked towards Xiang Mo with a canvas bag on one shoulder, "Miss me?"

Xiang Mo stood still, his expression unwavering.

Perhaps because he found that the atmosphere was not right, Du Chi walked a step away from Xiang Mo and stopped slowly.

Without paying attention to her hands for a moment, the third sister jumped out of Xiang Mo's arms and slipped into the house.Sanmao has always been Sanmei's follower, so he immediately followed.

"Du Chi." Xiang Mo stood on the steps outside the threshold, looking at Du Chi who was watching him quietly, "Let's break up."

Having rehearsed the lines countless times, he thought it would be easy after he said them, but in fact, Xiang Mo only felt a big stone on his chest, and he was so uncomfortable that he could hardly breathe.

It's okay, he comforted himself in his heart, it's better to suffer for a short time now than to suffer for a long time in the future.

Du Chi's eyes obviously turned cold, and the joy when he saw Xiang Mo at home disappeared at the corner of his mouth, turning into a alienation that Xiang Mo had never seen before.

Silence enveloped the entire small courtyard, cutting off the laughter of passers-by outside the wall.

After a while, Du Chi moved his lips: "Okay."

After finishing speaking, he walked straight into the room without any desire to talk, which made Xiang Mo a little dazed.

that's it?

Why don't you say a few more words?

Does he have no questions to ask?

Xiang Mo hurriedly stepped into the threshold, and stopped Du Chi who was stepping up the stairs: "Aren't you wondering why?"

Du Chi didn't turn his head back: "No."

"Du Chi." Xiang Mo was inexplicably anxious. He didn't intend to mention this, but he blurted out, "Why did you name the studio like that?"

The footsteps going upstairs finally stopped, Du Chi turned around, looked down at Xiang Mo who was beside the handrail, and asked in a flat tone: "Is it because of this?"

Xiang Mo looked away uncomfortably.

He really hates this. He has clearly made up his mind to break up, but he just can't do it freely.

"My dad was urging me to register a studio, so I just thought of a name." Du Chi's tone was calm, and he didn't sound like he wanted to explain. A ready-made use."

Is that so...

Based on Xiang Mo's understanding of Du Chi, it is indeed possible for him to do this with his lazy temperament.

In other words, Xiang Mo was thinking too much, it was not a "marriage vow", it was just a big dog being lazy.

Thinking of this, Xiang Mo breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had returned to his comfort zone.

But he immediately realized that his state of mind was very wrong. He said that he wanted to break up, but he was actually waiting for an explanation. He had spent a whole day of mental construction, and now it seems that it is no different from deceiving himself.

Really don't like others anymore.

All kinds of complicated emotions made Xiang Mo feel uncomfortable, and even he himself hated himself like this.

He pursed his lips and said embarrassingly, "Then we..."

Let's continue for a month.

Xiang Mo wanted to say that, but he was the one who just broke up, so he couldn't help saying it.He knew that Du Chi could understand his meaning, and thought that Du Chi would give him a step down, but unexpectedly, Du Chi said: "Let's divide it, I'm tired too."

Xiang Mo's pupils dilated suddenly: "You want to break up?"

"It's you who wants to share, Xiang Mo." Du Chi said expressionlessly, "I don't want to play hide-and-seek with you anymore. Do you think I'm really a dog? No matter how much you push me away, I will use a wet To touch you with the tip of your nose?"

Xiang Mo couldn't help feeling a little flustered. Although Du Chi's eyes were expressionless, he could feel that Du Chi was angry.

"Du Chi..."

"You don't need to come for another month." Du Chi interrupted Xiang Mo, "Either there is no deadline, or you can share now, you can decide for yourself."

no limit?

Xiang Mo was slightly taken aback, and realized that Du Chi was also leaving room, not so resolutely wanting to break up.

So, is it really because you are angry with him?

Xiang Mo also doesn't want to be trapped in a strange circle, but his uneasiness about feelings comes from his experience, which is a fixed concept he has formed for a long time, and it is impossible to change easily.

"Have you ever thought about it," Xiang Mo said with difficulty, looking down, "what if you don't like me in the future?"

In Xiang Mo's perception, this matter was destined to happen.He deliberately asked this question, but Du Chi replied casually: "If you run away now, I don't like you now."

The cat didn't adapt to the new environment, so Du Chi didn't want to appease him at all, instead he threw him in casually.

Really good and bad.

Xiang Mo bit his lower lip, or we should break up.

When Xiang Mo was vacillating, his cell phone rang suddenly.

"Aunt Zhou," he distractedly picked up the phone, then his eyes widened, "Did you fall?"

When Aunt Zhou came down from the second floor, the soles of her feet slipped, she didn't step on the stairs firmly, she sat down on the steps suddenly, and couldn't get up immediately.

She had already dialed 120, but she still called Xiang Mo. After all, she lived alone and her children were all abroad, so only neighbors could take care of her when something happened.

Both Xiang Mo and Du Chi went to the hospital and sent Aunt Zhou to the emergency department of a nearby hospital.Du Chi went to the payment office to go through various procedures, while Xiang Mo stayed by the bed to help contact Aunt Zhou's family.

Fortunately, at this point in time, it was daytime on the children's side, so it was not difficult to contact them.

According to the doctor's preliminary judgment, Aunt Zhou should have a fractured tailbone, which is not serious in itself, but whether it causes other problems depends on the results of the examination.

The children were worried, but Aunt Zhou was calm and calm, lying quietly on her side on the hospital bed, and she was very open about the accident.

But before she fell down, she changed into a cheongsam, and her white hair was disheveled. It was different from her usual delicacy, and she looked a bit vicissitudes.

"Xiao Xiang." I don't know if she was lying down bored, Aunt Zhou suddenly asked, "Did you quarrel with Xiao Du?"

Along the way, neither Xiang Mo nor Du Chi spoke, so it was not surprising that Aunt Zhou could tell that something was wrong between them.

Xiang Mo didn't like to talk about feelings, but he was bored waiting in line for the inspection, so he did have some emotions that he wanted to vent, so he didn't care about it so much, and said, "We broke up."

"Really?" Aunt Zhou didn't respond, she seemed to have taken this kind of thing lightly, "It's normal for two people to have conflicts when they are together, and both parties make room, so that it can last for a long time."

Xiang Mo shook his head, lowered his eyes and said, "It won't last long. How can there be love that lasts forever?"

When he said this, Xiang Mo didn't consider Aunt Zhou's situation.

After the words came out of his mouth, he realized that Aunt Zhou and her husband had a good relationship. Otherwise, she would not have ignored her children's objections and returned to the old bungalow where they used to live after the death of her husband.

"Love doesn't have to be long, it's good to be with you for a long time." Aunt Zhou said, "If you don't find a lover when you are young, you will be lonely when you are old."

Xiang Mo has also thought about this issue. The advantage of being single is freedom, but the disadvantage is also obvious, that is, there is no one to rely on when you get old.

Those who choose to start a family will have someone to take care of them when they grow old after living through 30 to [-] years of daily necessities, so they don’t have to worry about problems after death;

Those who choose to be single can enjoy a good life for 30 to [-] years, but they need to worry about their funeral.

Both have good and bad, there is no absolute perfection, but everyone's choice is different.

Aunt Zhou was talking about the benefits of the former, which Xiang Mo knew, but Aunt Zhou only saw the former, which somewhat dissatisfied him.

"Aunt Zhou," said Xiang Mo tactfully, "are you not lonely now?"

The lover has gone, and those who are left will only be more lonely.As long as people cannot live forever, all relationships will come to an end.

Fearing that Aunt Zhou would feel offended, Xiang Mo said again: "I just think that if you are always alone, you don't need to feel the pain of separation."

Aunt Zhou smiled faintly and said, "It's not what you think, child."

"People are going to die, so why live?

A simple sentence made Xiang Mo feel that something had penetrated his head, and he was hit hard.

Yes, since they are doomed to die, why are so many people struggling to survive?

According to Xiang Mo's logic, love is doomed to perish, and it should not be allowed to grow in the first place. So if love is exchanged for life, should people commit suicide because they are doomed to die?

Of course there is no such reason.

People live to feel, to feel joy and pain, to taste all the tastes of life, and finally to end.

The same goes for love.

Why people want to live is the same as why people need love, because life and love are beautiful things, even if it is accompanied by pain, it is enough for people to have the courage to try.

Aunt Zhou's children called their friends to help take care of them. After all, the neighbors are outsiders, so it's better not to trouble them if they can.

When they came out of the hospital, the moon was already high in the sky, Du Chi walked in front, Xiang Mo walked behind, silence still enveloped the two of them.

When he reached the quiet small garden at the entrance of the hospital, Xiang Mo stopped and couldn't help but shouted, "Du Chi."

Du Chi turned his head to look at him, but didn't turn his shoulders, obviously not wanting to talk.

Another moment of silence.

The wooden promenade in the garden is covered with creepers, and the moonlight shines into the promenade, casting mottled shadows on the two of them.

Du Chi couldn't wait for the next sentence, so he turned his head and continued to move forward.

Xiang Mo hurriedly took a step forward and said vigorously, "Let's be together."

His footsteps stopped abruptly, Du Chi turned his back to Xiang Mo for about three seconds, and during these three seconds, Xiang Mo clenched his palms tightly, never feeling so anxious.

Three seconds passed in a flash. Before Xiang Mo could think about it, Du Chi turned around and raised his eyebrows imperceptibly: "How long?"

That's certainly not a month.

Xiang Mo said, "Until you don't like me."

When he said this, Xiang Mo was still very worried, because he always felt that one day, the relationship between the two would come to an end.

At that time, either he will be injured, Du Chi will be injured, or both will be injured. It will not be a good result.

But Aunt Zhou's words changed his thinking to some extent. Maybe he doesn't need to think about the result, just concentrate on enjoying the process.

What if, the result is not as bad as he thought?

Du Chi's face, which had been dark all night, finally showed signs of relaxation. He closed his chin, curled the corners of his mouth silently, and then looked at Xiang Mo: "Wouldn't it be a long time?"