single sickness

In order to match the theme of this exhibition, many small objects with optical illusions are placed in the bathroom.

The flat-lying nut stood up in the mirror, and the black chess piece became white in the mirror. Every small object needs to be carefully observed to understand the ingenuity of the designer.

When Xiang Mo's body sketches were exhibited here, there were also small objects in human shapes in every corner of the art museum, which shows that this art gallery treats every exhibition with care.

Xiang Mo probably knows that the owner of the museum is a collector who often appears in various auctions at home and abroad. Besides, he is very far away from Xiang Mo, and Xiang Mo really can't connect him with Du Chi by his side. .

When he came out of the bathroom, Du Chi was still waiting there.

The light from the painting swept over him, and the beige suit turned into a warm yellow with high saturation, making him look a bit more hazy and gentlemanly.

Not quite right.Xiang Mo thinks.

He seems to have his own filter when looking at Du Chi, but it's just the change of light and shadow, which can show a different temperament.

It's obvious that other people don't look like this.

Back to Du Chi, he said "Let's go" to Mo, and continued to appreciate the paintings along the tour route.

He didn't have much desire to communicate with Du Chi, so he just walked forward one by one.When he reached a certain corner, Xiang Mo suddenly stopped in his tracks.

It's not that the paintings hanging here are so attractive, but Xiang Mo vaguely recalled that in his painting exhibition, there was a work that was quite special to him hanging here.

It was the nude body of an angel in Xiang Mo's imagination. Behind the graceful body was a pair of gorgeous wings, which symbolized the nobility and elegance of an angel, but under the angel's crotch grew ugly genitalia, representing the sacred Humans also have vulgar desires.

At that time, Xiang Mo was bold enough and had an infinite desire to express himself.He will be willing to try new things and will be willing to share his ideas.

But now, as he grows older, his life seems to have lost all passion.

It was still very early when we came out of the art gallery, and the lawn scorched by the scorching sun was rising with water vapor, making the air even hotter and humid.

Du Chi looked at the time and said to Xiang Mo, "I've booked a restaurant."

"No need." Xiang Mo stood still at the entrance of the parking lot, "I'll go home and eat."

The alienated tone put an end to this art exhibition - this is not a date, and there is no need for the two of them to eat.

Xiang Mo thought that his refusal was due politeness among neighbors, but he didn't know that there was an essential difference between politeness and alienation. If he could really be polite, it could show that he didn't care, but his deliberate alienation proved that he was still In a fit of anger.

"Get in the car first." Du Chi said.

"No." Xiang Mo walked towards the gate, "I'll take the subway."

"Get in the car." Du Chi grabbed Xiang Mo's wrist, "I'll make it for you when I get home."

Hearing this, Xiang Mo's firm steps stopped abruptly, as if the solid line of defense in his heart had been hit hard.

Just because he wanted to go home for dinner, Du Chi wanted to cancel the restaurant reservation and go home to cook for him.Why is Du Chi still accommodating him when he is so indifferent?

He has tried very hard to escape, but behind him is like a comfortable net, which makes him deeply trapped and unable to extricate himself.

He couldn't escape, he couldn't hide, his sense of powerlessness turned into deep grievance, why didn't this smelly dog ​​tell him anything?

"Let's go." Seeing that Xiang Mo hung his head and didn't move, Du Chi grabbed his wrist and got into the car.

Five or six o'clock in the afternoon is the evening rush hour, and the navigation is full of red.

Another long-distance traffic jam, Du Chi stepped on the brakes, loosened his tie, glanced at Xiang Mo who was always looking out the window, and said slowly: "Founder Award is a font design award."

"Oh." Xiang Mo still looked out of the window.

"Winning an award will make more people know about my font."

"Congratulations." He spit out two words casually, with a more perfunctory attitude.

The car in front moved forward for a short distance, Du Chi let go of the brake, and exhaled helplessly: "You are angry with me."

"No."

"You can be angry, Xiang Mo." Du Chi's tone was rarely serious, "but you'd better think about why you are angry."

In the matter of introspection, Xiang Mo had suffered a disadvantage.

He was dissatisfied with Du Chi's "movement" at night, and completely forgot that there was also a lot of movement on his side.

The current situation is somewhat similar, he took the initiative to push Du Chi away, but when Du Chi really alienated him, he felt inexplicably angry.

It turns out that drawing the line is not as easy as he imagined. Even if he can behave as usual, he still can't control his emotions.

"I don't like this." Xiang Mo finally looked away from the window, but he didn't look at Du Chi, but just looked at the steering wheel, "I know something is wrong with me, just wait for me to adjust it myself."

The traffic that was finally moving forward stopped again. Du Chi turned off the music in the car irritably, looked at Xiang Mo and asked, "Why do you need to adjust?"

Now Xiang Mo could tell that Du Chi was also a little angry.

But why?What reason does he have to be angry?

"There's something wrong with us, Du Chi." Xiang Mo met Du Chi's gaze, looked into those deep eyes, and was shaken for a moment, then quickly withdrew his gaze, "This can't go on like this."

"You don't want to fall in love." Du Chi turned his head away, looked indifferently at the front of the road, and finally pierced the window paper.

It exposed the reason why he knew Xiang Mo's escape, and also exposed his own thoughts.

This also explained why he was angry, because he found that Xiang Mo was evading again.

"Aren't you the same?" Xiang Mo felt strange, not thinking about other things for the time being, "You are obviously single, and you said that you find it troublesome to fall in love."

"Yes." Du Chi replied, and turned to look at Xiang Mo, "But I don't mind cooking for you, I don't mind taking you for a drive, and I don't mind going to the art exhibition with you."

"As long as it's your business, I don't bother you."

Xiang Mo was speechless for a moment, staring at Du Chi blankly, but forgot to hide the wavering in his eyes.

"We are still different, Xiang Mo." The traffic started to move again, Du Chi took the steering wheel and slowly controlled the accelerator, "I don't fall in love, because I don't want to spend time for others—at least before. If you don't fall in love, Afraid of getting hurt."

"I don't want to spend time for others either." Xiang Mo turned his head and looked out the window.

"Do you think it takes time to walk the dog with me?" Du Chi asked.

Xiang Mo pursed his lips, he already had an answer in his heart, but he was unwilling to say it.

Maybe it's because Xiang Mo's temperament has already been figured out, his awkward silence actually represents acquiescence, and Du Chi's tone is a little more relaxed: "Don't make being single a disease."

"You are sick." Xiang Mo frowned.

"I wanted to tell you about winning the prize." Du Chi said again, "I was just going to tell you when I came back from the noodle shop that night, but you don't allow me to call you wife."

It turned out to be that time.

Xiang Mo let out an uncomfortable "Oh".

"Do you want me to tell you about me?" Du Chi looked at Xiang Mo and asked.

Subconsciously wanted to say "I don't want to", but Xiang Mo realized that such duplicity was meaningless, because Du Chi knew exactly what he was thinking.

But if you answer "yes" honestly, there will be no boundaries between the two, and the bed partner relationship will turn into a lover relationship.

And Xiangmo needs boundaries to feel safe.

"Du Chi." Xiang Mo's eyes darkened, he didn't answer Du Chi's question, and his thoughts jumped to other places, "Have you ever thought that we will break up. The shelf life of love is very short, and I don't want to worry about it every day." one day."

Xiang Mo didn't say it clearly, but what he really didn't want was to worry about losing Du Chi every day.

Even if Du Chi comforted him that the two of them would not break up and could go far, Xiang Mo still didn't think they could have a good relationship forever.

——It has nothing to do with Du Chi, it's because he doesn't believe in love at all.

"Then set a deadline." Unlike Xiang Mo's expectation, Du Chi did not make an empty promise.

He pinpointed the crux of the matter and suggested to Xiang Mo: "We break up in a month, so you don't have to worry about it."

"One month?" Xiang Mo was slightly taken aback, "Break up?"

"Or do you want to go into the coffin with me?" Du Chi joked.

"That's not true." If you like it, you like it, and you haven't reached the point where you want to grow old together.

"Then it's settled."

Do you want to decide?

Xiang Mo still feels that he has no idea. Doesn't this mean that he wants to break up and fall in love?In essence, there is no difference, but a deadline is added, which can save some uncertain factors.

"Or you think so." Seeing that Xiang Mo didn't respond for a long time, Du Chi said again, "Will you be sad if I move away now?"

When asked here, he glanced at Mo, and said without hesitation, "Don't be stubborn."

"Yeah." Xiang Mo pursed his lips uncomfortably, "Yes."

"So you have a month to come to terms with it."

Xiang Mo immediately understood what Du Chi meant, and asked uncertainly, "You mean breaking up is the prerequisite for our love?"

Unlike knowing that we are going to break up but being together with fear, the two agree on the finish line in advance, so there is no need to have any psychological burden, and they can also make psychological preparations in advance, so that everyone can separate freely.

The new idea made Xiang Mo suddenly enlightened, and he found a comfort zone with peace of mind.

This is actually another kind of bed partner relationship, both the kidney and the heart, the danger is naturally dangerous, but at the beginning, the boundary is agreed, the two people mainly use the kidney, and the heart is appropriate, don't invest too much, Don't worry about not being able to pull away.

"Yes." Du Chi raised his eyebrows and looked at Xiang Mo, "Do you want to come?"

A month of passion, do you want it or not?

Reason is warning Xiang Mo that he is playing with fire.But he hasn't had passion for too long, and the repressed nature in his heart is clamoring to move, let him not miss the opportunity to release himself.

Recalling the angel's desire in a trance, nature gradually overwhelmed reason.

The congestion in front of him suddenly eased at this moment, which seemed to indicate that Xiang Mo would dredge his heart.

He tapped his knee with his index finger thoughtfully, turned his head to look at Du Chi and said, "Okay."

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Du Chi: It was so dangerous, I almost slipped away again.