trickster

At this point, I have caught up with the progress of the previous forum, but to be honest, I feel that I have no motivation to continue writing. . .The motivation for writing before was entirely based on the comments from the readers of the forum, but now I can’t go to the Changpei forum, and it is very tiring to have no comments from readers.

So if I update tomorrow, please remember to leave me a message TT or I will really be lazy. (lie

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Lin Huai stood outside the shopping center, but he didn't know where he should go. He walked blindly and found a road extending inwards in front of him. Although he was in the city center, the interior looked surprisingly quiet. According to his experience... …

Sure enough, when I walked in, there was a club inside. There were several high-end restaurants and bars in it. Lin Huai picked one at random and walked in. He picked up the menu. They were arranged vertically, and Lin Huai didn't look carefully because he was upset, so he ordered a bottle of wine casually.

After the wine came, Lin Huai downed it in one gulp, but it was useless, his thoughts were still in a mess.

For a long time, he has never doubted his feelings for Chen Shen. For example, he accepts the fact that Chen Shen will leave in the future. He will not go to extremes like Lin Ya because Chen Shen refuses to be with her, even though he Subconsciously, he knew that his feelings for Chen Shen were actually mixed with a trace of obsession, and it was not entirely out of justice that he stood up against Lin Qu for Chen Shen, but he did not ask Chen Shen for anything in return, so this feeling also nothing.

But Chen Shen has indeed given him what he wants at the moment—to know more about Chen Shen, get along with him, and even offer to live together, which is enough for him. Are you crazy like that?

No... Lin Huai was in a daze holding the wine glass... He wouldn't, even if Chen Shen wanted to leave right now, as long as it wasn't a suicidal act, he wouldn't stop him. Qu reconciled.

But does this mean——does he have no other intentions for Chen Shen?

Ever since he was a child, he has not been interested in the people around him. People around him always approach him and talk to him. To him, Chen Shen is indeed a very special person, so special that it was the first time for him to talk to him. People have the desire to know on their own initiative, and even after so many years, they have not forgotten him.

But...if Chen Shen agreed to Lin Ya, if Chen Shen hadn't disappeared, if Lin Ya and the others hadn't acted like nothing happened, if Chen Shen wasn't so mysterious... Lin Huai was frantically spinning various hypotheses in his mind, Chen Shen as himself If the brother-in-law's words are not missing, he might lose interest soon instead of having a special relationship like he does now.

It was Chen Shen who made him not so superior, and it was Chen Shen who made him start to examine other people's feelings. Although Chen Shen did not participate in this process, he was the root of everything, no matter how many situations he assumed , this point can no longer be changed, it's just...

Is this special really beyond friendship?

Why did Fangshu say that? Did he not realize it, or did he make a wrong judgment because the other party hated him?

At this point, Lin Huai has calmed down a lot. He is sure that no matter what his feelings are now, he can let go of Chen Shen. If this is the case, there is no need to be so afraid that he will hurt Chen Shen like Lin Ya .

Lin Huai sighed in his heart, he waved his hand and prepared to pay the bill, but when he saw the bill, he was stunned - a bottle of wine eleven thousand and two? !

It’s just over 1. In the past, he wouldn’t remember it at all, but now the situation is different, and he remembers that he read the menu, which obviously only cost more than 1000. Fortunately, the menu is still there, Lin Huai After another glance, he discovered the mystery inside.

This vertical menu is designed with a very individual character. The "ten thousand" character for eleven thousand and two is in traditional Chinese characters, and the "ten thousand" character is designed like an icon. He only glanced at it and thought that the "ten thousand" "It's a unified decoration, I only see the one thousand and two behind it...

Ha... Lin Huai raised his head expressionlessly, what should he do now?He doesn't have that much money on him.

Looking for someone to borrow?And it's still the kind of person who doesn't need to ask him to pay it back immediately. Now he is willing to be the person who has been taken advantage of. The only thing Lin Huai can think of at the moment is Wen Li'an. Thinking of this, Lin Huai was about to call Wen Li'an when he suddenly realized that ——It seems that I haven't had a mobile phone in my hand for a long time.

Lin Huai froze, he closed his eyes, and recalled, he probably dropped his cell phone at the place where they were eating. Although he could borrow his cell phone to make calls with others, he didn't remember Wen Li'an's phone number. He remembered Lin Qu's cell phone number, which he had remembered since he was a child, and Chen Shen's. He was thrown here with Chen Shen at the time. He thought that the other party would not be friends with him, so when Chen Shen gave him the number, he I was a little surprised and excited, and Chen Shen's number was easy to remember, so I wrote it down after reading it in my mind a few times.

So now he has only one choice left, call Lin Qu or call Chen Shen... Lin Huai fell silent, these two people... neither of them is suitable to call and ask them to pay.

"Sir, what's the matter?" the waiter asked politely.

"..." Lin Huai stared blankly at the front. This was the first time he had encountered such an embarrassing thing about money, and he didn't even know how to explain it. Now he looked like a scoundrel eating a king's meal.

Lin Huai didn't want to contact Lin Qu because of money, which would make him look too ridiculous. As for Chen Shen, he didn't want to see him now either, because he hadn't figured out some things.

It's better to choose how to find a way to contact Wen Li'an... Lin Huai thought, but probably good luck favored him. He found two men sitting at a table not far away, one of whom he happened to know. They are familiar with each other, but they have had dinner several times. Although it was four years ago, the other party should remember me. When they went out to play, they invited each other. It's not a big problem once. Thinking of this, Lin Huai had an idea.

He walked over unhurriedly, and suddenly realized that he didn't know the name of this person. The other party must have introduced him, but he didn't remember it at all.

The man also saw him, was a little surprised, and greeted, "Lin Huai?"

It's easy to say that I still recognize it, Lin Huai breathed a sigh of relief, and replied, "Long time no see."

Seeing Lin Huai greet him, the man showed an obviously surprised expression, maybe he was surprised that he still remembered him, Lin Huai felt a little sweat on his forehead.

"Yeah, long time no see, why are you here, alone?"

"Well, my phone is missing." Lin Huai said, he hesitated to speak more clearly, but the other party quickly understood, and directly took the bill from the waiter behind him.

"Are you ready to leave now?" the man asked after paying the bill, "I'll take you home."

Before Lin Huai had time to refuse, the man said to his companion: "Go back first."

It was only then that Lin Huai noticed his companion, a young man who was not bad, the young man seemed very friendly towards the man, and he showed dissatisfaction with driving him away, the man smiled and said, "Don't make trouble, it's serious business. "

Only then did the young man restrain his expression, tidy up, and left quickly.

At this time, the waiter also drove the man's car over. Lin Huai found that he had no choice, and he couldn't refuse. He couldn't walk back, it was twenty kilometers away, and he finally got into the car.

Am I bothering you..." Lin Huai asked, obviously, these two people are dating, but this person puts himself first and drives his partner away. In fact, it is also about paying, although he doesn't seem Contact Lin Qu, but still rely on the family to offset the money.

"It's nothing like that, I should probably go too." The man replied.

Lin Huai was silent for a while. If it weren't for his family relationship, this person would never have canceled the appointment to see him off. Thinking about it now, it was not impossible to ask the driver to pick him up or call a car, but right now, The relationship between the two made him more concerned.

"Let me ask, why do you think you like him?"

"Like him? You can say that you like him," the man was a little surprised. Lin Huai's question was really inexplicable, but he suddenly figured it out, thinking that Lin Huai was embarrassed to drive him away, "He's not my boyfriend , we are that most common relationship."

"No, I'm just asking, have you ever had a relationship with him?" Lin Huai asked, thinking about it carefully, four or five years ago, this man was not very feminine, he was born.

"Master Lin, I'm four or five years older than you, and I've dated a lot of people, what do you think?" The man didn't know whether to laugh or cry. He asked this question directly. A second ago, he thought that Lin Huai had changed a lot, but now It seems that it really hasn't changed.

"Then why do you like men?" Lin Huai threw another straight punch.

"Sexuality is innate. If you ask me why, I can't answer it."

"Then how do you define liking? If you value someone very much, but you don't want to..." Lin Huai hesitated for a moment, and it was a bit difficult to say, "...is it considered liking if you have a relationship with the other person?"

The man was surprised, and after a few seconds, his expression became serious, and he asked, "Have you encountered such troubles?"

"A friend around me treats me like this. He seems to care too much about me. I don't know if I should distance myself from him." Lin Huai lied. After all, if this person turns around, he will tell Lin Qu him these troubles.

"Didn't he do something intimate with you on purpose?" the man asked.

"No." Lin Huai said, he never liked to have physical contact with people, and it was always Chen Shen who approached him.

"Are you sure? No intentional physical contact, staring at your neck, collarbone, or some sensitive parts?"

This... doesn't seem to be there either?He didn't deliberately look at Chen Shen more, he looked at the whole person, not a specific area, Lin Huai shook his head.

"Pfft", the man smiled, "Then you don't have to worry, any man with a normal physiology can have no evil thoughts, at least I won't."

Hearing this, Lin Huai had to say that he was almost relieved. Yes, he didn't have any unreasonable thoughts about Chen Shen. The reason was mostly because Lin Ya was too sensitive about Lin Ya's affairs, and he did have feelings for Chen Shen. Fang Shuze's attitude was very special, which made Fang Shuze suspicious, but at this time, he didn't know what Fang Shuze had said to Chen Shen, which made him still not want to face Chen Shen directly.

After answering Lin Huai's question, the man played the role of the driver respectfully and did not speak the whole time. This also made Lin Huai suddenly realize that he could no longer think on his own.

Moreover, Lin Huai thought of one thing. Does the question he asked just now seem to discriminate against homosexuals...?He reacted abruptly. He looked at the man driving the car, hesitated for a second or two, and explained: "I don't mean anything else by asking these questions, and I don't think it's bad."

"I know," the man replied, but it didn't seem to be hypocritical to defuse the embarrassment, he smiled, "They knew that I liked men before, and you were the one who didn't respond the most."? ? ? ? ?Lin Huai turned his face slightly expressionlessly, hiding his expression, what else?Although he didn't know what was going on, either he didn't hear it, or... According to his previous personality, he had a dime relationship with other people who liked men and women.

"However, the person you are worrying about now is not the same as your friend who was a follower in high school."

The man's words were not very polite, Lin Huai realized that something else should have happened: "It's not the same one, what's wrong?"

"Your friend who is a follower is a deep closet," the man sneered, seeing that Lin Huai was puzzled, he explained, "The consciousness of 'deep closet' is that you are gay, but you don't admit that you are afraid of exposing yourself, and you behave very disgusted with homosexuality. Sexuality was exposed, although some people hate it, but it is limited to the expression, and he jumped out and scolded me, and you just told him to shut up, you should still remember?"

In fact, Lin Huai has no impression. He thinks that he has no bad feelings about homosexuality. It has nothing to do with him anyway. But then again, the things he experienced during this period also made him unable to treat homosexuality. What kind of impression do you have? First, I was harassed by the sensuality routine, then I was harassed in the clubhouse, and then I was stolen by someone to make sex with someone. Recently, I don’t know what the six men are doing when I was arrested in pornography... In addition... Lin Huai's heart twitched... Gao Fan... There is a high probability that he is also gay.

The follower friend the man was talking about couldn't be Gao Fan...?

"And I think he probably likes you. After you told him to shut up, his expression was very complicated. He was a little scared and angry, but at the same time he was a little happy. If he didn't shake M, he was subconsciously happy that you don't discriminate against homosexuals."

...Lin Huai was stunned. He thought he was about to forget Gao Fan, but now he was standing at a slightly similar angle to him, which made him unable to stop thinking about the events at that time. He used to think that sooner or later he would be He wanted to go back. After knowing the secret behind Lin Qu's actions, he forgave Lin Qu at that moment, and even regretted not being considerate of Lin Qu before. Thin.

Gao Fan has long been abandoned by his family. He is heavily addicted to drugs. You don’t know what he did for drug money. He tried to murder him twice. After his death, his family even came to comfort him not to feel guilty. He was cast aside by the world Sinner, but... At that time, the conditions for shooting were not met, and he couldn't forget the way Chen Shen looked at Gao Fan's corpse at that time, as if he had expected the ending - the victim.

And Lin Qu, can he really go back, should he really go back?Does he just act like nothing happened?

Lin Qu can do this to Gao Fan, he can also do that to Chen Shen, not to mention he has done it once, but... Lin Qu is doing everything for his family, he is his younger brother...