sinking into sand

"Chu weak."

Yu Sha turned the cup in his hand, as if recalling some sad past, pressed his lips slightly: "You should know her, she was a businessman in Pingchunfang, selling rouge powder, incense pills and other things. "

When he mentioned this, Sean thought about the name again, and got a little impression: "It seems that there was a woman surnamed Chu who sold these. I remember that she didn't have a shop, so she went door-to-door with a basket to ask. But ... This was many years ago, and the husband was still there at that time, because she liked her fragrance, so she remembered it when she came to the door, but she never came again. "

Yu Sha nodded slightly, and laughed: "Actually, it has something to do with Mr. Mo. Her mother is the only one in the house, and she is sick. Fortunately, some incense-making skills have been passed down from her family. Make a living from this kind of things. .”

Sien understood: "It's not easy. I remember that her fragrant pills are very good, and the taste is also elegant. It's a pity that she won't come later... Do you know what happened to her later? Why did she have an affair with Mr. relation?"

"It's because Mr. Mo likes her incense, and she made it well, so I got into trouble." Yu Sha said lightly: "Because Peony Academy always buys her incense, it gradually became famous. At that time, there was a family in the city who also bought her incense." The merchant who sold rouge wanted her family's formula for making incense. She refused to sell it after many visits. Later, the merchant got anxious and thought of an idea. He coaxed her mother to make a marriage contract and marry Chu Ruoqiang back. Ruo couldn't disobey her mother, so she had no choice but to serve her husband's family, and gave her the family's incense prescriptions as well."

Si En's eyebrows twitched after hearing this passage, and Yu Sha glanced at it and smiled, knowing that she was angry.

Seeing that he smiled and took it, Si En didn't know whether he wanted to breathe a sigh of relief or to be angry. This person said half of what he said, and it was not the time to worry about it, so he urged: "What happened later? How did you meet her? "

Yu Sha poured himself a cup of tea, and looked at the smoldering tea gas slowly escaping, his thoughts drifted away a little.

When he met Chu Ruo, it was actually very early.

At that time, Chu Ruo was pregnant with Liujia, a first-time woman, and desperately came to the dark alley alone.

It's for abortion.

At that time, the moon was already old and pregnant, and no doctor in the whole Lijiang River dared to do this job.Even if they don't show their pregnancy, these days, only women ask the doctor to ask for a child, and no one wants to abort.Even if there is a method, it should not be used by others, for fear of being involved in trouble.

As a result, she had nowhere to go, so she had to go to the prostitute's house in Pingchunfang, but she said that she could not take medicine this month.After struggling in every possible way, I finally found a dark alley.

At that time, Yu Sha had already gone to Ziheche. Apart from being locked up for training every day, they would also be asked to come out to do some errands in rare cases.

He was the Chu Ruo whom he met in a dark doctor's office.

Chu Ruo was wearing a woman's bun, with a six-month-old belly, surrounded by a group of people, pretending to give her a body check.

Yu Sha was already very familiar with the dark alley, and he knew at a glance that those people were just trying to take advantage of Chu Ruo under the pretext of testing.At that time, he had already mastered the skill of throwing hidden weapons, so he hid directly under the beam and smashed all the jars in the room with a few stones.

Those who took advantage were just ignorant fools. Seeing this situation, they didn't even realize whether someone was playing tricks on them. They thought it was haunted, and ran out yelling.

The matter ended here, but Yu Sha was ready to leave after confirming that those people had been driven away.

When he was leaving, he accidentally took an extra look at Chu Ruo.

At that time, Chu Ruo was not frightened by the strange things in front of him, and he was still sitting there alone, looking like a good wife.It's just that the eyes are very empty, like dead gray.

She stayed like that for a moment, then suddenly clenched her fists and punched her stomach vigorously.

Yu Sha could never forget that one action in his whole life.

Just like Chu Ruo searched for doctors everywhere, but couldn't find anyone to abort himself.In this year and month, there are too few people who will take the initiative to abort, it is a secret among secrets.

It is a woman's bounden duty to conceive and give birth to a child, and to carry on the family line, which has been the normative ethics since ancient times.It's not a nun who became a monk, nor a young girl who has not yet left the court. How could a woman dare to do this?

During that shock, Yu Sha only vaguely understood one thing.

It turns out that not all women are willing to have children.

It has been several months since I saw Chu Ruo again.

At that time, Yu Sha was passing the first pass of Ziheche, and he wanted to kill a baby and hand it over within three days.

To be honest, for Yu Sha at that time, killing someone was not a big deal.But to kill a baby, he still struggled a bit.

Fortunately, the dead babies in the Lijiang River were not too difficult to find at that time. There were abandoned babies everywhere in the dark alleys, waterways that avoided people, and dead alleys where debris was piled up.

He was the Chu Ruo whom he met again in one of the places.

When he arrived, Chu Ruo was already in the waterway.Holding a swaddling baby in her hand, there was no breathing or ups and downs at all.Yu Sha took a second look at the hidden place at the entrance of the alley, and made sure that the child was probably dead.

Because of Chu Ruo's feat a few months ago, he still remembers her now.She thought that this child was killed by herself after she was born, and now she came to destroy the corpse.

Yu Sha didn't know what he was thinking at the time, Xu Zhen was too shocked by the fact that it happened a few months ago, he just wanted to ask her a few words for no reason.

So he walked over, opened his mouth, and asked what happened to the child in Chu Ruo's arms.

As for Chu Ruo, he wasn't too surprised by Yu Sha's appearance.Her face was very haggard. Although she was still dressed like a good wife, some strands of her hair were not neatly combed, and her complexion was also bad.

She may have been depressed for too long, and a child who spoke up appeared in front of her, and she actually said it too.

She said, little brother, you don't know.I have never wanted this child since I had it.

I've tried all kinds of ways, but I can't get rid of it.No one knows about this, seeing that I worry and lose weight every day, they only say that I have never given birth, so I am afraid.Raised me like a sow, saying that as long as I was born, it would be fine, and it would be fine if I was born.

Later I was born, you said, really, such a child who couldn't get rid of it no matter how hard he tried, came out, I heard that cry.With such a bright voice, the body must be very strong.

I heard that voice, and I recognized it.I just thought, since you are entangled with me and we are destined, I will raise you well.

Then ah, then ah.Chasing grain 'Qu-n two-edge tumor] moxibustion II] 彡 moxibustion, Lu

Chu Ruo's voice lowered down, and when he spoke again, it was the kind of voice that seemed to have died once.

Then, seeing that she was a girl, those people fell to the ground and died.

After Chu Ruo said this, his hands didn't shake, and he froze there.

She said, maybe I really have a destiny with this child. Now I can't be a mother and daughter in the yang world, but it's better to be in the underworld.

Little brother, don't be afraid.I really don't have words, so I have said so much. It is my good fortune to meet someone who can speak before I die.

After hearing so many things Chu Ruo said, Yu Sha looked at the cold child in her arms and spoke.

"Give me the child, and I will teach you a trick."

"What did you teach her?" In the Sajin Courtyard, Si En asked, "You taught your throwing skills? Why do you call it tricks?"

Yu Sha smiled and didn't explain much, just said: "In such a short time, what I taught her can only be regarded as a small trick."

"What happened later?" Sean was very curious, "What did she do?"

A trick of the hand is a person who uses a concealed weapon, who has used it for years to exercise his fingers.As a woman, Chu Ruo really couldn't throw as much force as Yu Sha.

So she found another way and used this trick to prescribe medicine.

She was originally an expert in making incense, so she understood by analogy, so she also knew some medicinal properties and pharmacology.

Husband, mother-in-law, she put the medicine in a quiet place.Later, when something happened, the master's family invited people from the Jinzhan Pavilion and the government to come and see, but they didn't catch her, so the matter ended hastily.

"Two lives were killed." Si En commented: "This is not just for the child who was thrown to death."

After she finished speaking, she pondered for a moment, and suddenly asked: "Then how did she live afterwards?"

Yu Sha pursed the corners of his mouth slightly, and didn't speak any more.

She had a bad time.

These days, a widow and an orphan are not much different.

The property of her husband's family belongs to the family.People bullied her as a widow, unemployed, and had no children. They only gave her a very small amount of money and a house in a not-so-good location, and she was dismissed.

Chu Ruo originally wanted to get back her skill in making incense to make a living, but she was always haunted by the fact that her husband was poisoned.There is always a feeling that the incense that comes out of my hand can no longer be used by good people.

She also has no acres, and no other skills.To work for someone's family?She also felt that as she got older, she had always been the wife of a merchant's family, so she was not good at work.She herself doesn't know any reliable middleman to recommend.

That being the case, there is still a way out for widows to learn from others and remarry?It's ridiculous that she has been trapped in Gangchang all her life, and she really doesn't want to be a wife anymore.

In this world, there are actually not so many ways out for women.

When we saw each other again, it was Yu Sha who was arresting people in the brothels of Pingchunfang because of the scandal of Yang En Tang, and met her by chance.

She is no longer that kind wife.She was wearing the cheapest tulle, and her face was covered with stinky powder.

But Yu Sha recognized her right away.

When we meet again, we are speechless, after a long silence, it is still Chu Ruo who speaks first.

"Don't feel sorry for me. Although I am not happy, I am not regretful."

She smiled and said, "I avenged myself, and I deserve to bear the consequences of this revenge."

Yu Sha looked sad, and wanted to leave some money for her, but was rejected by Chu Ruo.

"Don't help the poor, there are so many people in the world who are worse off than me, can you still see one of them and show kindness?" Chu Ruo said, "I owe you a favor. I thought I would never see you before, but today I meet you." Still want to tell you."

She looked into Yu Sha's eyes and said, the eyes were bright, which didn't match the appearance: "If you encounter any difficulties in the future, you can use my place, just open your mouth, I will definitely do my best."

"Regardless of life and death."