32 days

Large and small puddles can be seen everywhere in the city washed by the torrential rain, and the blazing sunlight was cut into chaotic light curtains by those puddles.

Zhou Yanan and Yi Alan wandered aimlessly through the emptiness and the twinkling of the sun.Some rotting substances are in the sewers with the rainwater rushing to the edge of the area, so the smell of this unattended city is not bad, like a gift for the two on their first date on the 32nd.

Sometimes they hold hands, sometimes they walk one after the other, sometimes they pick up something from the ground, let another person look at it, and throw it away after looking at it.

There is no set formula for dating, as long as both of you are happy.

Yi Alan accidentally stepped on a loose tile on the sidewalk, and the mud splashed instantly. Before he could warn the people beside him, Zhou Yan'an quickly got out of the way, and the mud landed on another tile.

Yi Alan smiled: "You react very quickly."

"Basic operations." Zhou Yan'an said lightly.But there was a small smugness in his eyes.

If you are not very familiar with Zhou Yan'an, you may ignore the look in his eyes at the moment.Yi Alan didn't know Zhou Yan'an for a long time, and it's only been half a year, but they are very familiar with each other, and they realize that the fleeting pride is as bright and dazzling as the rain passing through the clouds.

Yi Alan couldn't help leaning over to hold his hand, just now it was a childish expression of emotion, like a primary school student, even if he is good at turning flower ropes in front of the person he likes, it is something to be proud of.This kind of emotion is displayed on Zhou Yan'an, who has always been mature, stable and calm at all times. Compared with many sweet words, Yi Alan's heart is moved by it.

They were very close together and walked crookedly close together.

Yi Alan's gaze was always scanning various objects in the road ahead, looking for opportunities for Zhou Yanan to continue to perform.Most of the roadsides are green belts and lush sycamore trees.There are many small lanterns wrapped around the trees, and perhaps at night, this street will become a well-known illuminated night street in the city, attracting couples flocking here.

How could he hide his abnormality from Zhou Yan'an, Zhou Yan'an didn't know his specific intentions, but he didn't run away as a prank.So when he came under a sycamore tree with drooping branches, Zhou Yan'an rushed in front of Yi Alan who had just made a move, jumped lightly, slid his palm across the branch, and landed in front of him, turning around and watching with a smile.

Yi Alan, who was still in place, was completely drenched by the falling water drops.

Both of them were a little confused.

Yi Alan was preempted because of what she wanted to do, so she didn't react for a while.

Zhou Yan'an was because the water accumulated between the leaves after the rain was far more than he imagined, and it almost poured Yi Alan from head to tail.

But the two soon laughed again, Yi Alan wiped her face, and threw water at Zhou Yan'an angrily: "Damn it, you saw through it."

Yi Alan seemed to want to repeat the old trick, and when he got under a tree again, his muscles tensed up.Zhou Yan'an didn't try to expose him when he saw it, and even stood in place very cooperatively. This time, apart from water drops, there was also Yi Alan who jumped up and landed in his arms.

Zhou Yan'an hugged him tightly, raised her head, and kissed Yi Alan warmly to welcome the fresh rainwater accumulated by the leaves.

The wet two finally found a men's clothing store. Zhou Yan'an picked up a mop that someone had forgotten to take back from the side of the road, and smashed the window glass.The buzzer should have lost power and has no response to the vandalism.

After the two entered, they took a cotton t-shirt and wiped their hair while picking out clothes from the racks.They both avoided each other intentionally or unintentionally.

"There are underwear here." Zhou Yanan said in front of a corner wall of the shop.

"Oh." When Yi Alan walked over, Zhou Yanan had already chosen to leave, and he also chose a suitable size, and continued wandering absently in a different direction from Zhou Yanan.

Silence, the world is silent, the huge silence squeezed into this small men's clothing store, amplifying the limited sound waves continuously: water dripping on the wooden floor, footsteps being polished, clothes being casually handed The sound of flipping through, the movement of undressing, shoes being kicked away, the sound of breathing, the sound of gradually heavy breathing.

Can't tell whose it is.

Yi Alan was holding a shirt, his heart was heaving, and when he turned his head, he saw Zhou Yanan looking at him from the other side of a few rows of hangers, with his upper body naked and his eyes wet.

A kind of tacit connection was created, and they began to approach each other, hugging, kissing, and touching each other.

Nothing more to do.The two of them just suddenly understood that there was nothing between them to avoid.

The night lights up the stars, and the evening breeze is gentle.

When Yi Alan passed by an electrical appliance store, he saw a projector and suddenly wanted to watch a movie.So they ran more than half of the city, and finally found a video store, where they found a Blu-ray disc of Andrei Tarkovsky's "Stalker" that might be the store owner's collection, and took away the owner's Blu-ray disc by the way. machine.

Expensive projectors and cinema-sized curtains were placed on the Fountain Square in the center of the city, and Zhou Yanan found a diesel generator to supply power.

After everything was ready, they sat on the steps in front of the fountain that was no longer surging.

"I don't know if you like to watch it or not." Yi Alan said.

"I'll know after I read it." Zhou Yan'an said.

In the middle of the movie, Zhou Yan'an leaned on Yi Alan's shoulder with a crooked body.

Yi Alan thought that Zhou Yan'an could not stand the boring plot and fell asleep, so she turned her head to look at him, but what she saw was a face focused and serious, her eyes fixed on the curtain intently.He didn't fall asleep, he just leaned on Yi Alan's body.

Yi Alan's shoulders sank slightly, but her heart softened.He remembered that Zhou Yan'an had told him very early on that you would make me feel safe too—not by force, but by spiritual security.

This is real.Yi Alan smiled quietly.

Both he and Zhou Yan'an are like tiny dots without support, moving with the waves in the unpredictable situation.When they met, they realized that although they were just an insignificant point, they were the coordinates of each other.With coordinates, there is a basis for existence.Like the one-size-fits-all point set by the intersecting latitude and longitude lines, no matter how crazily the earth rotates and how the world changes, they still exist firmly.

In the music of "Ode to Joy", the movie ends with a miracle.

A film of more than two and a half hours tells a seemingly wonderful story with extremely slow shots.Many years ago, a meteorite fell and caused a horrible and desolate area. Many people died because of it. The army was fortified and no entry was allowed.However, according to the legend, there is a mysterious secret room in the area called "District", which can satisfy the deepest desire of people's subconscious.So some people seek to go to the secret room, and a guide who leads the way to avoid the army and inexplicable dangers is born. This is the "stalker".

The story begins when a stalker takes a writer and a professor to the district. Because of their completely different identities, the three have many disputes and debates on the road, and these debates mostly point to the soul, existence, meaning, and desire of people. Wait for something metaphysical.The plot is not important anymore. In fact, the whole movie does not show the ups and downs of the plot. Most of the time, there are only these three main characters. The army only fired a few symbolic shots. The unpredictable danger never seemed to have really happened, and the three of them only stopped at the door of the secret room in the end.

What's more important are those graceful long shots, the detailed description of objects and light and shadow, the capture of various gestures of water, and the dreamlike mirror movement, which makes the philosophical thinking in words integrated into each frame.Watching this movie is like walking in the fog. I tried my best to watch it, but I could only see a blurry image. I thought I couldn't take anything away. After I walked out, I suddenly realized that my whole body was wet by the fog.

Zhou Yanan asked softly: "What is this movie about?"

Yi Alan thought for a while and said, "Believe it."

"Believe in what?"

"Believe what you believe. You can believe in God, you can believe in people's hearts, and you can believe that the world will be a good place after all...It doesn't matter what you believe, but the belief itself. As the stalker shouted, 'The important thing is that you believe'!"

To believe means to completely entrust one's heart to a certain medium, and it means that there is a bridge connecting the complex and subtle subconsciousness of human beings with the contradictory outside world; The world where the body exists has the possibility of a perfect fit.

Zhou Yanan smiled: "Does the 'district' mentioned by the stalker look like the 32nd? He said that the 'district' is a maze full of traps. He doesn't know what happens when no one is around, but once humans appear, Everything is changing. The path has become indescribably complicated, and death traps have appeared in places where there were no traps."

Zhou Yan'an was silent for a while and then said: "The stalker also said that the 'zone' is not for good people to pass and bad people to die, but for desperate and unhappy people to pass through."

Yi Alan followed his train of thought, but felt sad: "The professor in the movie thinks that the district will not bring people happiness, but will make the bad people satisfy their evil intentions and bring disaster to the world, so he wants to destroy the world that can satisfy people's subconscious mind. The secret room of the deepest desire. Tell me, in our world, there are many people like the professor who think that the 32nd will bring variables and disasters and should be completely destroyed."

Zhou Yan'an squeezed Yi Alan's hand, this comforting gesture already expressed his answer.There are not a few people who think this way. Although the changes brought about by the 32nd are still under control to some extent, in fact, the chaos of official powerlessness has gradually been revealed.

However, if the 32nd is destroyed, where will the people in it go?Can you get out safely?

If Yi Alan turned on his computer at this time and logged on to the forum on the 32nd, he would find that he was not the only one holding pessimistic thoughts.

In the general area of ​​the forum.I don’t know when a multinational organization called the Self-Help Association appeared. It is already small and large. The founder of the organization is a very far-sighted person. He believes that the 32nd will eventually bring chaos and disorder, even if some 32nd people do nothing. , will also be implicated, and will be cleared because of suspicion. Whether there are innocent people in the 32nd is not the concern of the high-ranking decision-makers. All of them will face the official iron fist.He called on as many people on the 32nd as possible to unite and use their identities in reality and the convenience of the 32nd to find a feasible way out for everyone and themselves.

The organization also asks Joker for help in the forum, hoping that Joker can help them cover up their network traces in the real world, so as to avoid being found out that they are 32nd people; they also hope to find a way to counteract the real world with Joker, in order to achieve two worlds get along with balance.

It's just that Joker hasn't responded.

Even if Yi Alan saw this post about the Self-Help Society, he might not be moved. No one knows the true intention of the so-called Self-Help Society.Just as people in the real world and on the 32nd can't trust each other, neither can people on the 32nd trust each other.

Thinking about it, Yi Alan clung to Zhou Yan'an in the cold wind in the middle of the night: "Do you have something to believe in? Anything is fine, as long as you have a firm belief in it."

Zhou Yanan said, "I believe in you."

Yi Alan closed her eyes with trembling eyelashes, and leaned against Zhou Yan'an's arms.The time is fast approaching and the 32nd is coming to an end.They are so close, they will be separated in an instant.Then, Yi Alan needs to face her own destiny alone.

Yi Alan seldom has that kind of belief throughout, but he will believe in something indirectly for a certain period of time.For example, during this period of time, he still chose to believe in Yan Fei, believed in the high evaluation made by the government in view of Yan Fei's various past events, and even believed in the deep pain of the girl named Lin Menghuan in the video Yan Fei showed him. and despair.Although he was coerced by Yan Fei, he still chose the most obedient to Yan Fei among various struggling methods.

Now, he has done everything that should be done and can be done.He just has to wait.