32 days

"The death of the pilot Cheng Siyuan must have reminded Zhou Yan'an of the disaster five years ago. He had no choice, killed people who shouldn't have died, and made his ideals crumble in the storm. But this time, Zhou Yanan had no choice but to retreat. Not only was she unable to retreat, but she also had to bite the bullet and move forward to bear more helpless and unchosen reality.

"Actually, when I first received a call from Zhou Yan'an and heard him talk about the 32nd, I even consulted his psychiatrist in the army. The doctor said that the 32nd was probably just his fantasy to escape from the real world. In fantasy, there are no complicated groups, no political struggles, and so much helplessness. There are only a few people and very simple disputes, and he can solve them perfectly. A place of peace. At the time, I thought that Zhou Yan'an's condition was getting worse, but now it seems that it might as well be just a fantasy, why should it be linked to reality on the 32nd?"

The doctor's judgment on Zhou Yan'an was exactly the same as Yi Alan's psychiatrist Tian Lu's judgment on him.

"I was thinking, why should I say these things to you? Can I really expect you to understand what people like us, especially Zhou Yan'an, are facing all the time? But during the 32 days, apart from you, Zhou Yan'an had no one else. I'm with you." Zheng Duo smiled wryly, looking at Yi Alan.

He didn't see the cheap touch on Yi Alan's face, or express "I understand, I understand" with intense emotions, he only saw a soft and moist gaze.

Zheng Duo paid special attention to Yi Alan.In fact, since Yi Alan joined the emergency team on the 32nd, paying attention to him is a necessary homework for some people.

In Zheng Duo's view, Yi Alan was too silent, even if it was sadness, she licked it alone and endured it silently.This caused many things to shine on him, but they were all swallowed up by him, and there was no obvious reaction to reflect them out.The observer will not receive enough feedback to make a quick assessment of him.

He is often like this—in many meetings, he passively accepts external information, and if it is not necessary, he only listens and does not speak.

However, at this moment, Zheng Duo was comforted by that soft gaze, and he suddenly rejoiced that it was Yi Alan who was Zhou Yanan's partner in the 32 days.Because what Zhou Yanan needs is never encouragement, not to tell him bluntly, "You are right", "You have to cheer up", "You can beat your inner disease"... What does Zhou Yanan need?Maybe he doesn't need anything.Zheng Duo didn't know, but in any case, Yi Alan's quiet and soft existence made people feel less hopeless.

Zheng Duo wiped his face, as if to erase the weak expression that should not belong to him: "Yi Alan, I just want to tell you that Zhou Yan'an is also an ordinary person."

Yi Alan said softly, "I know."

Don't be fooled by Zhou Yan'an's appearance as hard as a diamond, he is as fragile as a transparent glass.

Yi Alan thought that there were only him and Zheng Duo in the dining room, but at nine o'clock that night, the content of the conversation between him and Zheng Duo was delivered to Luo Caiyun's desk verbatim.

After reading the important documents sent by the Ministry of State Security, Luo Caiyun opened the document at one o'clock in the morning the next day.

Afterwards, she handed this thin document to her "assistant" Wen Yusheng—Yi Alan thought that this middle-aged man who appeared suddenly before and rarely wore formal clothes was Luo Caiyun's assistant and secretary, similar to Because of Zheng Duo's role in the affairs team, although this man named Wen Yusheng who had never been formally introduced could always attend some secret meetings that even Zheng Duo was not qualified to attend.

Wen Yusheng is actually a very authoritative psychologist, an old friend of Luo Caiyun, and a psychological consultant hired by the Ministry of State Security.Sometimes the Ministry of State Security will catch some very stubborn criminals, no matter how interrogated, they will not reveal a word of information.At such times, Wen Yusheng will most likely appear on the stage, and in his special way, make friends with the prisoner's friends or on the contrary, directly attack the psychological weakness of the prisoner, so as to break down the prisoner's psychological defense.

Luo Caiyun invited Wen Yusheng to the emergency team after thinking twice.

After reading the document, Wen Yusheng asked Luo Caiyun, "Do you need me to find a chance to talk to Zhou Yan'an?"

Luo Caiyun said, "You should read Zhou Yanan's treatment report five years ago?"

Wen Yusheng said: "I've seen it. He was in serious condition at that time and had already developed physical lesions, but the physical examination report of his enrollment proved that he had actually recovered very well in the past five years, and his physical indicators were almost indisputable. It’s not known whether he came out or not.”

"Do you think his illness will threaten national security?"

"No." Wen Yusheng replied very positively, "It can be said that his illness comes from this, but if he is a little selfish, he will not be in trouble."

"Then you don't need to talk to him." Luo Caiyun said, "He has dealt with a psychiatrist a lot, and he will sense your intentions. Not only will your enlightenment not make him feel cured, but it will also put him under pressure. The pressure from the authorities, as if we don’t even allow him to be depressed. We should give him the freedom to be negative, because sometimes even we have a hard time.”

Luo Caiyun rubbed her tired forehead, closed her eyes slightly and thought, maybe this is Zheng Duo's tactful and indirect reminder not to put too much pressure on Zhou Yan'an.Zheng Duo is not a professional agent, but he knows some anti-eavesdropping methods. If he didn't want anyone other than Yi Alan to hear him, he wouldn't choose the safe room provided by the Ministry of State Security.

Luo Caiyun said: "Once a month, the abnormal physical examination on the 32nd day is equivalent to a comprehensive physical examination. If Zhou Yanan's mental illness recurs, or even becomes serious enough to cause physical pathology, the biomedical team will definitely do it first. We discovered it in a short time, so we have nothing to worry about. As for the psychological turmoil, we can trust Zhou Yanan."

Wen Yusheng nodded in agreement.

Occasionally, Yi Alan would suddenly think of Wen Yusheng's seemingly ordinary face, when he was in a daze with nothing to do or when he was going to sleep but couldn't fall asleep.He found that Wen Yusheng liked to watch the speaker in the meeting, and often recorded something in his notebook.Yi Alan was deeply impressed by the eyes revealed when those eyes stared at a person.

It makes people feel like a fish floating up from the cold and dark bottom of the river to the warm water layer, where there is hazy sunlight and warm water flow, and you can swim freely and comfortably, and then bite the bait without warning, and inadvertently The deepest secrets in the heart are taken away by the sharp hook.

After figuring out these things, Yi Alan's attention was immediately diverted by another person.That was Tian Lu, his former psychiatrist. Tian Lu also had such eyes, but he was not as sophisticated and natural as Wen Yusheng.When Tian Lu stared at Yi Alan, Yi Alan could feel that the other party was trying to let her guard down, trust him, and then talk about the cause of the disease.

Yi Alan always wonders whether the current Tian Lu still remembers him as a patient, and whether he still remembers the 32nd day he said.When Tian Lu knew that the 32nd really existed, what would he think of the conclusion he had drawn.

Tian Lu remembered.

Within a few months after seeing Yi Alan, Tian Lu came into contact with 32 days from other sources.

The second one was still his patient. When Tian Lu heard the 19nd and similar descriptions again from the 32-year-old female student who had no relationship with Yi Alan, he was at a loss for a long time.For a moment, he almost thought that this was a prank against him by someone he had offended.

Later, he went to a small local psychiatrist industry conference in Nanlin, and when chatting with a colleague, he learned that he had also encountered patients who claimed to be able to enter the 32nd day.

The colleague who only opened a small clinic in a remote area obviously only met that "patient", and joked with Tian Lu with a smile: "Modern society tortures people so hard that they can't tell, and all kinds of strange mental illnesses come out. .”

Tian Lu carefully asked about the patient's characteristics, and knew that the person was not Yi Alan, nor a 19-year-old female college student.That's three people.

Tian Lu realized that "32 days" might not be that simple.

His preliminary inference is that "32nd" is a kind of brainwashing ideological content similar to cults and pyramid schemes. It may also be a popular game. This immersive way of playing the game expresses some kind of dissatisfaction to the society.

No matter what, it is an interesting social phenomenon. Tian Lu plans to study it when he has time.

Tian Lu, who is well-known in the field of psychology, has never been free, and then he waited for a phone call.

The person on the phone introduced himself: "Junior Brother Tian Lu? I'm Rui Tao. I got your contact information from Teacher Cheng."

Tian Lu knew that Rui Tao, who was a few years older than him, was an excellent person. His mentor at the time, Mr. Cheng, often praised Rui Tao, but Dr. Rui Tao's research direction after that was more focused on social psychology.

Facing Tian Lu's politeness, Rui Tao went straight to the point: "Have you heard of '32nd'?"

Tian Lu became interested: "Brother, have you ever encountered this kind of patient?"

Rui Tao smiled: "It seems that you know, that's good, so I don't need to explain to you what 32 days is."

Tian Lu said: "I don't know what brother thinks about this? Is the 32nd a new trend of thought or just a game?"

At this moment, Tian Lu was even wondering if this was a group psychology experiment conducted by Rui Tao.

"it is true."

"Ok?"

"As your patient said, the 32nd is real. At the end of each month, a small number of people for no apparent reason enter the 32nd, which is a perfect replica of the physical world we live in."

Tian Lu murmured: "This, I have reservations..."

"Because I am also a party."

Tian Lu's words stopped abruptly.

Rui Tao said solemnly: "Since the end of May, I have entered the 32nd five times, each time is like a dream, and each time I will wake up and return to this crowded time and space. At the beginning, even I myself couldn’t help but wonder if I had fallen into a psychological maze. Until I met another patient who confided in me, until I made an appointment with him to meet in the 32nd day, and I actually met him.”

"I'm sorry." Tian Lu said awkwardly, "I may have to digest it for a while. It's not that I don't believe in senior brother, it's just that this matter is too unbelievable."

"In the locked drawer on the left side of your clinic desk, at the bottom of the ledger, there is a photo of Teacher Cheng's wife, a newspaper clipping to be precise."

Tian Lu blushed: "You, you are talking nonsense."

However, he had already walked quickly to the table, opened the drawer, and the newspaper clipping was kept in the most secret corner.The ledgers pressed on top are all arranged in an orderly manner, without any trace of being flipped.

"That's what I saw on the 32nd. I'm sorry to violate your privacy. But I don't do it. I'm afraid it's hard for you to believe me. I don't mean anything to you. You may have secretly admired the teacher's wife, but we We all know that you have never done anything wrong to anyone. Loving someone is uncontrollable and human. I asked Teacher Cheng, if I need a very reliable assistant, he must have good character and strong professional ability. Is there any candidate there? Mr. Cheng recommended you first, he knows everything."

Holding the phone, Tian Lu sat down on the chair.

After a while, Tian Lu asked weakly, "What do you want from me? Even if the 32nd is true, it has nothing to do with me."

Rui Tao smiled and said, "As I said to Teacher Cheng, I need an absolutely reliable assistant."

"What project are you studying?"

"When I realized that there was no danger to me on the 32nd, I also realized that there was great wealth there. I formed an organization called 'Scavenger', including me, and there are already 27 members, from all over the world, all of them are The people who can enter the 32nd day are all from my patients, friends, and classmates. This may be the advantage of the psychiatrist. Too many people choose to go to the psychiatrist when they are at a loss on the 32nd day. help.

"I bring these people together, they don't need to do a lot, just go to the 32nd and complete some of the tasks I assign to them, it's very easy. Similar to, go to the 32nd and destroy the card in your drawer The photo, then you don’t have to worry about who will see it on the 32nd. Don’t worry, I’ve already destroyed it for you.”

Tian Lu opened his mouth and was dumbfounded for a moment.

Rui Tao said again: "Of course, yours is not a big deal. Few people are interested in it. I guess you are not willing to spend money to hire our scavengers to destroy it. But others are not necessarily, their secrets It may be related to wealth, status, wealth and life. If they spend tens of thousands of 10,000+ or ​​even tens of millions to solve their worries in 32 days, they must be willing. They are indeed willing. I have received many orders .

Tian Lu thought for a while and said, "If you are willing to spend so much money to destroy a certain secret, you must not be an honest person."

Rui Tao laughed: "Teacher Cheng is right, your moral bottom line is really high, so I feel more at ease."

Tian Lu didn't feel flattered, and snorted coldly: "I can imagine who your customers are: high-sounding corrupt officials, vicious hypocrites, and criminals who are at large."

Rui Tao smiled and said, "Do you think I'm helping the evildoers? Do anything for money and abandon the bottom line? Then senior brother will teach you a lesson in social psychology. Not only am I not doing evil, I'm still maintaining social stability. Even if it is The country knows what I'm doing and will absolutely allow me.

"For example, this society is a house. Many people are working hard to build it tall, strong and beautiful, but there are also many moths secretly eroding it and gnawing at the corners where the sun and lights do not shine. We all know this, right? Although there is a lot of corruption and crimes, the overall process is still improving, and those moths can be cleaned up slowly. But now that it’s 32 days, it’s like a giant rising from the ground. The sun illuminates all the dark corners, and the moths who usually eat carefully and quietly will be afraid. For safety, they will take crazy measures and twist desperately, which will actually make the wooden foundation of this house unstable. .”

"I didn't help those people do anything substantive. I just maintained the same appearance as before. This is on the one hand, and on the other hand, those who entered the 32nd day are also a huge unstable factor. They have entered a free, open, and transparent world where they can do whatever they want. People have secrets, companies have secrets, and the country also has secrets. Infighting is fine, and foreign forces are most afraid of taking advantage of the opportunity. You say, an ordinary person People who have no hope for most of their lives and the rest of their lives are bought by foreign spies with a lot of money just because they can enter the 32nd. Document, do you think he would like it? Would it be willing for someone whose job is not going well and who is overwhelmed by mortgages? Would it be willing for someone in a desperate situation? Would he be willing for a lazy person?

"But me, I bring these people together, I can make a lot of money without violating my conscience, it's easy and I don't feel guilty, do you think they will easily betray the country? Now you say, what I do, isn't it Are you maintaining social stability and national security?"

Tian Lu was silent.Because he felt that what Rui Tao said was indeed reasonable.

After thinking for a while, Tian Lu asked: "How do you convince those people of the existence of the 32nd and pay a lot of money for it?"

Rui Tao noticed that Tian Lu's attitude was loose, and smiled happily: "Perhaps the general public is not aware of the 32nd, but those high-status people and people with connections have heard about it. Although they also know the 32nd There are very few people, and there are even fewer people who can really cause great damage. But no matter how small the probability is, it is 100% if it falls on yourself. In a society with limited resources, those upper-class people, which one is not through you and me The ones who go up the road, they have enemies everywhere, they are always fighting, they are afraid, and those who have done bad things are even more afraid, in case some opponent who is competing for resources hires people from the 32nd to enter his house to find some negative evidence Well, although the evidence cannot be brought into the real world, they already have clear clues and the correct way to trace, and we are not ordinary people. With these pointers, it is much easier to bring down a person. So, now it is not I wanted to convince them to trust me, but they tried their best to find out about the scavenger, come to me, and offered me a higher price to help him destroy the secret first.”

Tian Lu was not disturbed by his many words, and asked the core question: "What about the first person? The first 'upper person' who asked you to destroy the secret, how did you get in touch with him? How did you convince him? ?”

Rui Tao paused for a moment, and then pretended to smile relaxedly, but his tone was filled with helplessness: "I know what you are worried about, thinking that I am the same as that group of people? Yes, I have a lot of relationship with some big people. Close contact, but that is not what I want. It is ridiculous to say that some people do all kinds of evil, but they will be condemned by conscience, maybe not conscience, but just worrying that one day they will be caught and lose everything. No matter what the reason, those people will also Anxiety and insomnia. In the beginning, a big man came to me and just asked me to hypnotize him so that he could sleep well. But you know, the psychiatrist is always easy to let people down, he said to me when he was relaxing He came to his senses and threatened me that I could only become his so-called 'confidant' in order to protect myself, and the more secrets I heard, the more I couldn't get out."

Tian Lu said, "I know."

"You can understand me, right?" Rui Tao asked eagerly, and he showed some weakness at the right time, which made Tian Lu soften his heart.

Tian Lu really softened his heart: "You have said so much, but you haven't said what you want me to do. I can't go in for 32 days. It seems that I can't help you."

Rui Tao said: "I know you have a lot of research on individual psychology. I want you to come to my organization to observe those who can enter the 32nd day. After all, the 32nd day is so big, I can't confirm it one by one. Did those people do what I ordered, maybe they have their own thoughts? You should be able to tell from their words and micro expressions whether they are lying or plotting something behind my back."

Rui Tao wanted Tian Lu to help, which was actually very similar to Luo Caiyun's reason for inviting Wen Yusheng. It was a natural distrust of people who could not be directly supervised.

Rui Tao added: "I will give you a lot of remuneration, which is enough for you to live comfortably for the rest of your life. Maybe you don't care about money so much? Then you are not interested in their mental state at all? This is 32 days, unprecedented Fantastic events, as a psychology student, don’t you want to know what psychological changes social groups will have in the face of the 32nd? You don’t want to know how those who can enter the 32nd think about the 32nd and the real society? Can they Can they distinguish the positions of the two worlds, will they get lost in this very different switch? Will they see the world from different perspectives? What incredible things will people do in the 32 days... Can they do it? Your psychological research is enough for you to publish several famous books through the ages."

"And, and," Rui Tao sighed deeply, "more importantly, I am afraid that I will get lost. I need a sober bystander, a lighthouse, an anchor, to let me know where the real world is. , Which world should I live in; I can see the subtle changes that may occur in me, the 32nd should be my tool, don't let me become its puppet."

Tian Lu was touched by his last words.