my scheming human boyfriend

it's out of the question.There is a small voice in my heart, talking to Bai Jinyi.

Childlike voice, immature, stubborn, unreasonable.

He took a step towards Mei Xiangzhen, he wanted to hear a negative answer from Mei Xiangzhen.

"Mom, what are you talking about?"

"Bai...Bai Jinyi!" Mei Xiangzhen finally found her tongue, but at this moment, as if someone stole her daily elegance and gentleness, she panicked, "Listen...you listen to my mother, Things are not what you think they are."

"I know, Mom." Bai Jinyi said, "What's the matter? Tell me slowly."

He looked at his mother, not only the mother in front of him, but also the mother in his mind.

He was comparing, comparing the mother in front of him with the mother in his mind.

He always thought that they were the same.

They are just the difference between the real image and the virtual image, and they are exactly the same.

Are they?

"...Bai Jinyi!" Mei Xiangzhen supported the floor and tried to sit up straight, "What are you talking about, of course you are mother's child!"

"is it?"

"Of course, don't think wildly! Mom was too scared just now, so she didn't choose what to say—" She looked at the Buddha statue, and looked at the file bag that she threw into the brazier and then jumped out of the brazier, visibly shivering down.

Bai Jinyi followed suit.

Jian Wuxu was rescued in time. Only the outer part of the file bag was burned, and the medical records and documents inside were still intact.

He lost his mind for a while, then turned his gaze to Mei Xiangzhen.

"But why is mother so afraid?"

"Well, of course it's because there are ghosts—"

"But don't do anything wrong in your life, and don't be afraid of ghosts knocking on the door in the middle of the night."

"..."

"And mother," Bai Jinyi said again, "we are in a temple. If there are ghosts, there are also gods and Buddhas. There are gods three feet up, right?"

"...Bai Jinyi, what do you want to say?"

"I don't know, mom. But mom, you don't have to be afraid, nothing will hurt you." Bai Jinyi was a little dull.His thoughts were disturbed, like a tangle, all his emotions and reason were entangled in this tangle, unable to escape.He was talking to his mother almost by instinct.

"You...don't you trust mom?" Mei Xiangzhen asked with a trembling voice.

"I trust mom."

"Then you have to trust mom, you are mom's child!"

"But, I also remember, when I was very young, I asked my mother, I said that our family seems to have a big yard, you said I remembered wrong..."

"That's..." Mei Xiangzhen turned pale.

"Did I remember that wrong?" Bai Jinyi murmured, "Later we moved, and Dad wanted to buy a high-rise house, but Mom, you are determined to buy the first floor and the yard, because of the yard I once said words?"

In his mind, there was a gap in the statue of his mother.

"You..." Mei Xiangzhen groped around on the ground like a drowning man groping for a straw, "You actually..."

"actually?"

"You are actually your father... It is the child brought back by your father. It was your father who cheated and was born with other women, and brought it back to me. But I love you. My mother has raised you so much since I was a child. Long time, Bai Jinyi, you know, mom loves you—”

"...But," Bai Jinyi said again, "I remember when I was in school, my father had a car accident and the blood bank was insufficient. I wanted to donate blood, but you refused. In the end, the blood was transferred from another hospital... ..."

In his mind, another gap appeared in the statue of his mother.

"Mother."

Bai Jinyi called Mei Xiangzhen again.

This time, Mei Xiangzhen stared at him blankly, unable to speak anymore.

"Mom." Bai Jinyi whispered, "You taught me, you said, good boy don't lie. I listen to you. I have always listened to you since I was a child."

"Because I think what you said has always made sense.

Because I think you are doing it for my own good, and you want to raise me into a good person.

Many times after that, I always felt that I was not good enough, that I hadn’t reached a better version of myself, that I hadn’t met your expectations, and that your expectations were correct, and it was the goal I had been working hard for…”

He was dazed for a moment.

he asks:

"Mom, why are you pretending to be sick to lie to me?"

"Mom, what is my life experience?"

Mei Xiang was really in a panic. She retreated steadily from Bai Jinyi's questioning. She sat in a daze, unable to stand up again. Under the lingering smoke and the gaze of the god statue, she finally spoke.

She can still lie.

Lies have already been piled up between the child and the mother, and if there are more lies, it will be nothing.

But this time, under Bai Jinyi's gaze, under Bai Jinyi's questioning, under Bai Jinyi's confusion, she did not lie.

After all, she is still a mother.

"Your father is flawed and can't have children. At that time, your grandma was anxious to hold a grandson and was so anxious. If we didn't have another child, we would have to divorce. So, we can only do this..."

"You..." She trembled her lips, "We bought you..."

"When you just graduated, you wanted to leave us and develop on your own. We were all scared, so..."

She closed her eyes, and two lines of tears flowed from under her eyelids.

"Bai Jinyi, we love you."

Bai Jinyi stepped forward, took the last few steps, bent down, and helped Mei Xiangzhen up.

He is getting closer to Mei Xiangzhen, but at the same time feels that he is getting further and further away from Mei Xiangzhen.

He held the other's wet palm and looked at the mother in front of him, which was completely different from what he imagined.

The image of the sacred and sacred mother in my heart collapsed suddenly.

Bai Jin intends to leave the temple.

Jian Wuxu followed him, he knew it, but he was a little lost, as if he was covered in a transparent shell, unable to communicate with the outside world.

He didn't take a car, so he just walked aimlessly back and forth in the cities where he grew up, visited his elementary school and middle school, visited the streets he traveled thousands of times, and visited his home.

I saw the world that I thought was real but was actually fake.

He finally returned to Shuhua Middle School.

It's already a holiday.

The bustling school in the past has become deserted. He walked through the deserted pasture and came to the familiar teaching building. The roof and windows of the teaching building have been sealed, but there are several teaching buildings in the school. I picked one at random and walked up, and I came to the rooftop very easily.

He stood by the railing of the rooftop, looking at the sky and the city.

He just suddenly realized that today is also a day with a rosy evening.

"Feel……"

Bai Jinyi found the voice, which was obviously his own, but it sounded very strange, like someone else's voice.

It was so strange that he couldn't understand it.

"Like the day I met you."

Bai Jinyi turned his head and looked at Jian Wuxu who had been following him.

Jian Wuxu's face was very pale. He stood two steps away from Bai Jinyi, holding the palm of his hand vigorously, and the Erotic Book was pinched in his palm, already wrinkled.

"Teacher Bai..."

"I pulled you up from the manhole that day, and you said you were the god of death. I was actually quite scared. People who have thoughts of death will avoid death more deliberately."

Bai Jinyi paused for a moment, he was sorting out his thoughts.

"You have always been unreal, and the others have always been real.

but……

However, what I think is true is actually false; what I think is false is actually true.The world I live in is truly amazing. "

"Teacher Bai..." Jian Wuxu's voice was trembling.

"Are you afraid? Don't be afraid, I don't want you to be afraid. It's just that standing here today, the gravity is really strong." Bai Jinyi made a joke.

This is no joke.

After a few short breaths of silence, Bai Jinyi said softly again:

"I'm thinking, your parents have lighted the soul-inducing lamp for you for so long, but you haven't changed. Maybe our previous thinking was wrong. Is that... is it, if I jump from here, you will be able to change Are you back?"

Jane's clueless mind went blank.

The soul-hunting book was held in his hand, he peeked at it, and he knew that Bai Jinyi's death intention was [-]%.

He heard Bai Jinyi's words.

Every word of Bai Jinyi was like a small knife, piercing into his heart, pulling out continuous ups and downs of pain.

"Sorry, did I make you sad?" Bai Jinyi paused for a longer period of time, "I also want to persevere, I told you before, I think I can persist, now it's only a few days It's only a day, I can't hold on, I'm really... I'm really bad."

"My mother is not my real mother. My mother lied to me by pretending to be sick... I used to work hard according to their expectations, but now my goals have collapsed. The things I did in the past suddenly became meaningless... I know I shouldn't do this I think, the things I did in the past have made me who I am today; some of my mother's deceptions do not mean that all of my mother's deceptions, or that all of the past was false.

These...these things are not that serious.

There are many people who are in a more difficult situation than me, never think about giving up, and are still struggling to survive.

I don't want to blame my parents, but I still blame them in my heart.

I don't want to use death to escape, I think I should be able to persist a little longer, why can't I persist a little longer? "

Bai Jinyi muttered to himself.

He wanted to die, and he was afraid of death.

He wanted to escape pain through death, but he also suffered from the cowardly self who escaped with death.

The only consolation for him was that if he jumped down, maybe Jane Wuxu would be able to come back to life.Just thinking about this possibility, the horrible death seems to become tender.

"It would be great if you could come back to life after I die."

He looked at Jian Wuxu, his eyes were as gentle as water.

"You're a much better man than I am."

"I think, when I die, I might be able to go to the underworld to apply for a job as a ghost messenger. At that time, although you can't see me, I can see you. Although I have regrets, this is also very good, right?"

"Teacher Bai..."

"Ok?"

"Teacher Bai... I'm afraid."

"..."

"If Teacher Bai jumps down, I will be scared. Teacher Bai, don't jump, okay?"

"But you are Death."

"I'm not Death, I'm human."

"Then you are also a medical student."

Bai Jinyi's voice, like his people, was always so gentle, and even the words before death were only peaceful and helpless.

"Medical students have seen so many general teachers, why are they still afraid of such things?"

"Because, because I was a coward." Jian Wuxu said, "Didn't Teacher Bai know? I am not only a coward, but also a crybaby. Why can't a doctor be a coward? Although, although I forgot, But I think that I chose to become a doctor because I was very afraid of death. I want to try my best to help everyone get rid of death. I want everyone to be warm, able to talk and laugh, just like Teacher Bai treated me ..."

"I am a cold ghost, but when I am with the warm teacher Bai, I feel very happy, I am the happiest ghost in the world... But I, I am a useless ghost, right? When I am the god of death, I can't seduce people, and when I was Teacher Bai's boyfriend, I couldn't heal Teacher Bai, I'm just a useless ghost..."

"You're not." Bai Jin whispered, "You're fine."

"Teacher Bai is even better, she is the best person, and the person I love the most." Jian Wuxu replied crying.

Silence again.

Until Bai Jin asked:

"...Why are you standing there without moving? If you want to stop me from jumping, shouldn't you come over and stop me?"

"I really want Teacher Bai to stay, I really want Teacher Bai to stay for me, I am very afraid of seeing Teacher Bai's body, I am very afraid of being left behind as a ghost. But I... I don't want to force Teacher Bai," Jane Wuxu said in a daze, "Teacher Bai has been being forced by others, and I have been forcing myself. I don't want... I don't want to force Teacher Bai any more."

The rosy sky descends upon the transparent soul.

Such a beautiful soul.

Bai Jinyi's hand was holding onto the cold railing, he looked down, the ground was so far away, it was dizzy, urging him to jump up, using a momentary pain to relieve the permanent pain.

But Jian Wuxu was standing beside her.

At some point, the face of the transparent soul was covered with teardrops.

Those tears that fell silently finally brought Bai Jinyi back from the railing.

"Don't cry..." Bai Jinyi wiped away Jian Wuxu's tears, "You really love to cry."

"I just love to cry." Jian Wuxu sobbed, "I'm just a coward, can't I? Teacher Bai will also be a coward with me, okay?"

"...Okay." Bai Jinyi agreed, "I'm also a coward. Let's be cowards together."

I'm also a coward.

He heard the sound of the shackles in his heart being loosened.

I'm not that good either.

But I am not that good, in the eyes of the people I like, I am the best.

That's enough.

The moment Bai Jinyi came back from the railing, the Soul Ecstasy book held by Jian Wuxu began to heat up. In the book, the death value belonging to Bai Jinyi dropped from 100% all the way.

90%.

80%.

70%.

……

0%.

Jane lowered her head in a daze. He saw his pocket, his cross chain, his cloak, his small sickle...all of them turned into light spots floating around.

Then, his body also began to gradually turn into spots of light.

In his sight, the hospital and himself lying on the hospital bed seemed to flash past.

"Teacher Bai..." Jian Wuxu suddenly understood, he saved a soul, he can go back, "I feel like I'm going back to my body..."

When the rose's soul disappeared and turned into a rainbow-like streamer, it disappeared before the eyes.

Bai Jinyi ran down the rooftop and rushed to the hospital.

He ran across the school, across the street, and all the way to the hospital ward. When he broke open the door and entered, he saw Jane Wuxu lying on the hospital bed open her eyes.

He rushed over, and Jian Wuxu also struggled off the bed.

They fell to the ground under the window.

The wind blows, blows up the white gauze, and embraces them tenderly.

"Teacher Bai, Teacher Bai..."

Jian Wuxu curled up in Bai Jinyi's arms, and read twice, from jerky to familiar.

"Yan Wang is indeed a liar. Sure enough, the seductive soul can't be revived. There is no way to save life after death. Teacher Bai, you are always very smart, and this time you are almost going to become a fool."

"Well," Bai Jinyi said, "I'm an idiot."

"Then am I smart?"

"You're a smart ghost." Bai Jinyi nodded seriously.

Jian Wuxu is happy, and Bai Jinyi is always so happy when he is with him.His eyes stared at Bai Jinyi brightly.

"This time, we really met, didn't we?"

"Yes." Bai Jinyi also let out a long breath. He completely relaxed and hugged him, "We really met."

Cicadas chirped outside the window, loud and distant.

Spring is gone, summer is here, and they really met.

The author has something to say:

Some words to end the text:

At the beginning of the design, I was hesitant to delete the abduction part of this book, because Bai Jinyi’s plight does not come from his own or not his own, but a pure epitome of East Asian families.

The reason why this layer of foreshadowing is still retained in the end is to increase the dramatic conflict and to enhance the motivation of Bai Jinyi's character to break the game.

The final reconciliation of this article is based on Bai Jinyi’s self-reconciliation, not the reconciliation with his parents. The premise of reaching this reconciliation is that at a certain moment, he realized that the "paternal rights" and "maternal rights" are not Perfection, so as to find the covered self in the original family, and then self-awaken and reconcile with life.

Bai Jinyi is a character in a novel. After artistic processing, he is more "obedient" than you, me, and him in real life. To break this "obedience", apart from the external influence of Jian Wuxu, there are also "non-biological" "Pretend to be sick" double buff superimposes.So the sense of drama is preserved.

I left blank the plot about the partial reconciliation with my parents. First, I don’t want to write it, and second, I don’t want to watch it myself.This kind of dilemma is extremely difficult to break through in reality, and sometimes seeing the reunion of this kind of film and television works makes me feel uncomfortable instead.

However, it is feasible to realize the existence of the self and complete self-reconciliation. This seemingly "selfish" behavior is an opportunity to break the situation in my opinion.

He took a step forward, and his parents fell from the moral high point in the drama story, and they would naturally take a step back.The story is naturally HE.

I also hope that every reader who sees empathy here can get some relief from Bai Jinyi's struggle and Jian Wuxu's redemption of him.

You have all grown up to be wonderful human beings long before your parents knew it and you didn't realize it.

At the same time, life is pain and death is fear.There is no shame in being a coward who fears death.

And, as I write this, I still feel that the original name of "Spring Reverie" is very suitable for this article. I will apply for a name change with the editor on Monday, and there may be one or two small episodes after that. Don't you not know Teacher Bai and the cute ghost (.