Draw a pen is to draw you

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After checking the results, Qin Xun ignored Li Chengfeng's reaction and slipped away.He first went to the big classroom where Shu Nian used to attend classes, but he didn't see anyone, and then quietly came to the door of the small classroom, but he saw that it was pitch black inside, and it didn't look like there was anyone there.Only by squinting your eyes to make a careful identification can you vaguely spot a figure standing in a corner of the classroom facing the bookcase and with its back to the main entrance.

Qin Xun intuitively felt that the person was Shu Nian, but the room was too dark to see clearly.He flicked the light switch, and the room suddenly brightened.

At the same time, the man suppressed his voice and shouted without looking back: "Don't turn on the light!"

Without hesitation, Qin Xun turned off the lamp again.

The figure in the room seemed to regain a sense of security, and the tense back was obviously relaxed.Qin Xun walked towards him slowly, his footsteps were very light, as if he was afraid of disturbing the little monster sleeping in the dark.The figure obviously couldn't see anything clearly, but he quickly flipped through the album in his hand, just like looking for reference pictures.

He didn't respond, as if he didn't notice anyone approaching him.Qin Xun finally stopped at a distance of half a meter behind the figure, watching his actions silently.

"Is it Teacher Dong?" Shu Nian didn't know if there was anyone behind him, or who it was; he seemed to be talking to the person who turned on the light just now, or he seemed to be talking to himself, "Don't worry about me, I will I'll go out in a while. I'm not...not sad, but I need to take it easy, just leave me alone. I'm fine."

The ending of Shu Nian's voice trembled imperceptibly, as if he was trying his best to endure.

"Really okay?"

Qin Xun's voice was soft and gentle.

Shu Nian turned his head abruptly.

Perhaps because of staying in the room for a long time and adapting to the dark environment, Qin Xun was able to get a general idea of ​​Shu Nian's face through the light from outside the door.

Shu Nian frowned, clenched his back molars tightly, and held on stubbornly.Just looking at his expression, Qin Xun couldn't tell whether Shu Nian was sad or sad, but he felt that there were many emotions hidden in his eyes, doubts about his own ability, lamentation over the results of the entrance exam, dissatisfaction with the results at this stage, and concern for future development. Dazed... All these things are mixed together to create the complicated look in his eyes.Shu Nian's eyes were still holding back tears, perhaps Qin Xun's appearance was too unexpected for him, and the tears poured down without holding back, which startled Qin Xun.

Shu Nian dazedly touched his face, and was startled himself.

He hadn't meant to cry.

"Ouch..." Qin Xun frantically wiped Shu Nian's face with his sleeve, "Why did you drop the glass beads?"

"I didn't, I didn't." Shu Nian immediately raised his arms to cover his face. He wanted to curse, but he couldn't stop the car after crying. ..yes, you? I thought...it was...teacher...."

"Is it wrong? I'm the only one who knows." Qin Xun went to break Shu Nian's hand, but Shu Nian didn't let him see his face at all. He broke his arm and raised it again, like a hedgehog who refused to communicate.

"Let me see if I'm crying... Are you really crying?" Qin Xun put his face into the crevice of his arms to look, hesitantly.

"Crying...crying for your mother." Shu Nian pushed him hard, sobbing.

He usually doesn't swear easily, but it seems that this time he is really in a hurry.

Qin Xun was scolded, but somehow wanted to laugh.

"I'm obviously crying."

Shu Nian's tears fell as if he didn't want money, which was never seen before in Qin Xun's memory. He even thought silently in his heart that he had seen more of Shu Nian than others, and felt a little bit more about it. A bit of nasty satisfaction.

"Come, come sticky, come hug."

Qin Xun stopped teasing Shu Nian, he opened his hands towards Shu Nian, his tone was soft as if he was coaxing a child.

Shu Nian didn't move, he was too lazy to talk to Qin Xun, Qin Xun simply took the initiative to hug him, and hugged Shu Nian tightly in his arms.Shu Nian didn't reject him, he hugged him casually, and he didn't move when he was hugged, so he just stayed quietly, sobbing from time to time, so good that Qin Xun's heart felt uncomfortable.

Shu Nian wept silently, and Qin Xun rubbed his back, slowly talking nonsense to coax him.

"I, I'm fine." Shu Nian lay in his arms, a little embarrassed by being coaxed, and searched for excuses in his mind, "You know, there are so, so few days every month, something is wrong. Letting off emotions That's it, that's all."

"It's not a girl." Qin Xun laughed.

Shu Nian knew that he had a mustache and red ears, so he lay in Qin Xun's arms and stopped talking.

Qin Xun sighed and hugged Shu Nian a little tighter.

"You, you don't need to worry about me." Shu Nian felt Qin Xun's strength, said not to care about him, but shrunk himself back, "I, will be fine, and I will be fine in a while."

He has always been like this, self-healing, no need for comfort.It was like this when I was a child, and it was like this when I grew up.

"It's okay, Shuda," Qin Xun naturally would not let go, but said slowly in a soft tone, "I know you are not reconciled and are not satisfied with the current results, but the current defeat is only temporary, and others may not Clear, but I know you are great. And you work so hard. Besides, besides the entrance exam, don’t you also have a school exam. The joint exam is not ideal, and there are many examples of getting into a good school in the school exam? You I will definitely be admitted to a very good school, and Tsinghua Central Academy of Sciences can pick any one."

Shu Nian raised his head with a mournful face, "But I might not pass the exam."

"You haven't taken the exam yet, why don't you pass the exam." Qin Xun bumped Shu Nian's forehead and said solemnly, "Believe me, you will become very good in the future, and by then, let those schools that missed you Regret to die."

Shu Nian didn't believe it: "I'm a rookie, how can the school control me?"

"I'll take care of it. If I were the principal, I would think that a talent like you wouldn't even have to take the exam, so I would just snatch it up and offer it up." Qin Xun coaxed, "Don't underestimate yourself. You are not a rookie, you are a big brother Don't worry, there must be good schools vying for you after the school exam, really."

Shu Nian's momentary outburst of emotions just now has almost come to an end now. Hearing what Qin Xun said, he even chuckled lightly.But looking at Qin Xun's eyes full of conviction, it doesn't even look like he's joking.Shu Nian was a little uncertain whether he was kidding himself or really thought so, so he scolded him and said, "Is there something wrong with you?"

Qin Xun said with a smile: "Anyway, in my eyes, you are the one who draws the best."

"..."

Maybe this person said this just to comfort himself, and then he turned his head and forgot, and didn't really take it to heart.But Shu Nian actually found some confidence and courage from Qin Xun's words.Maybe I really failed this time, but at least in the eyes of the person in front of me, I am still excellent and powerful.

Shu Nian didn't move, but Qin Xun actually just hugged him and kept him company.After Shu Nian digested his emotions and sorted out his emotions, Qin Xun let go of Shu Nian slightly, and held Shu Nian's face with one hand.

"Stop crying?" Qin Xun asked with a smile.

Shu Nian patted his hand away and said, "Stop crying."

Qin Xun smiled: "Are you still sad? Do you want to hold me for a while?"

"You don't have to treat me like a child." Shu Nian patted Qin Xun's shoulder vigorously, "I'm not that fragile."

Anyway, Shu Nian's target school is not within the scope of the joint entrance examination. Like the Nine Academy of Fine Arts, some professional design schools and comprehensive universities all need to pass the school entrance examination to enter. He only needs to focus on the next examination , You can turn the tide against the wind, and you will be ashamed.

After the brief depression passed, Shu Nian even had a stronger fighting spirit than before.

Shu Nian blew his nose, Qin Xun turned on his phone and looked at the time in front of him, Shu Nian asked him, "Are you leaving?"

Qin Xun: "It's not time yet, I can stay with you for a while."

"Back to school?"

"No. Today Saturday, I made an appointment to play billiards with my former classmates."

"Oh..." Shu Nian didn't know why he didn't want to hear about Qin Xun's spending time outside, so he changed the subject and asked, "By the way, have you checked your score? How much?"

"Hmm..." Qin Xun didn't answer directly, he asked Shu Nian first, "Guess Shu, how many points can I get?"

"……what?"

Recalling Qin Xun's painting level that he had seen before, Shu Nian didn't know how to answer for a while.

Shu Da didn't want to guess, Shu Da even felt a bit embarrassed.

"...It looks like 220 or so...." Shu Nian thought about it and said a relatively feasible number, but in fact Shu Nian himself didn't believe that Qin Xun could get such a score.

"I didn't expect you to have confidence in me." Sure enough, Qin Xun said, "In fact, I only have 210, and I passed the undergraduate course line very thrillingly."

"Exactly 210?"

"Exactly 210."

Shu Nian even heaved a sigh of relief when he learned the result. In the last period of time, he didn't pay much attention to Qin Xun's painting progress, almost thinking that he couldn't even pass the undergraduate course.

"...Although it is said to be playing on the score line, as long as you pass it." Shu Nian patted Qin Xun on the back and said comfortingly, "The next thing is to pass the art and sports undergraduate line of the college entrance examination. You should be able to choose a pretty good school."

"I don't know if I can pass this one. I think I'm lucky if I can pass the entrance exam." Qin Xun shrugged indifferently, "Let's go with fate."

"Follow the fate...?"

Hearing the sound of "Fate", Shu Nian's face darkened, he hesitated to speak to Qin Xun, he loosened his fist, clenched it tightly, let it go again, and finally said dejectedly: "Forget it."

Qin Xun looked at him with a half-smile: "What do you want to say?"

Shu Nian shook his head: "I've already said what should be said, and it's just repetition. Besides, I..."

I am not qualified to control you.

The two were silent for a moment, and Qin Xun asked, "Shu Nian, do you have a target school? Or a target major?"

"Yes." Speaking of goals and dreams, Shu Nian said without hesitation, "I want to learn animation. I haven't decided on a school yet, but I want to have a better major. For example, I will go for the school exam. There is also Central America, Qingmei, I want to try it too.”

Qin Xun nodded thoughtfully: "Very good. Want to go to the capital?"

"Correct."

"Then the two of us may be far apart by then."

far apart.

Qin Xun jokingly said to Shunian: "If you are rich or honored, don't forget each other."

Shu Nian felt pulled by something, many things ended before they even started.

Shu Nian is very contradictory, his rationality and his instinct are always at odds, just like now, his rationality tells him that it is useless, he won't listen to what he says, what are you and what can you do?Instinctively clamoring again, no, let it go if you don't want to, you can try to pull it again.

He didn't want that.

Qin Xunmingming can have a better future, the two of them can be closer to each other, they may have other possibilities, be friends for life, let this secret love continue without end, in short, more possible.

Anyway, it can't be like this now.

"Perhaps, perhaps, have you ever thought about it," Shu Nian said, with a somewhat eager tone, "As long as you rush now, you can also..."

"No."

Shu Nian's voice stopped abruptly.

Qin Xun said without hesitation, "At least for now, no."

Shu Nian: "..."

Reason is always right.

He suddenly felt a little tired.

In fact, Qin Xun sometimes thought about it, thinking about chasing something.

In the past, he looked superficially at the moon, and had a large group of like-minded friends who didn't know where they came from. Everyone always had fun together, as if that was youth and rebellion, and that's what this age should do.

But what kind of like-mindedness is this? It's just a company together so that I don't look so lonely.

In fact, Qin Xun is always ignored, ignored by his biological parents, ignored by himself, he doesn't know what he wants, he always seems to be forced to move forward, but in fact he doesn't know which way to go.

After the mother remarried, there were fewer chances to see each other, and the only warmth was the phone calls during the holidays and some messages sent in normal times; and Qin Junqing asked him to work hard, in the end, he just wanted this son to go to the place he wanted. Arrange the established path, not to embarrass yourself too much.

Besides, neither side really had any hope for him.

Before he knew it, Qin Xun almost forgot what it was like to be truly loved.

But Shu Nian was different, Shu Nian really wanted him to be better.Shu Nian even carefully concealed this concern, repressed it, and even looked a little humble, so as not to make Qin Xun feel that he was interfering too much.

Qin Xun knew it.But he is used to idleness and dawdling. Once this kind of life becomes the norm, it is not so easy to change it.Instead of waiting for the reality to give yourself a blow after the result fails, it is better to maintain the status quo and let nature take its course.

And Shu Nian... such an excellent Shu Nian.

It's too late to want to stand side by side with him now.

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Shu Nian: It's numb.Can't move.

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