Draw a pen is to draw you

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"...It seems to be." Shu Nian replied with his eyes closed, "You were lost that day, and I found out that you are a road idiot."

"Haha." Qin Xun smiled under the quilt, "I've been like this since I was a child."

"Then your parents must always be worried about you getting lost." Shu Nian said rudely.

This time Qin Xun didn't answer immediately.

"That's right," he paused before casually saying, "I almost got lost when I was young."

In fact, Qin Xun has been lost before, but the experience of being searched by his parents all over the street has never happened.

The most memorable time was when Qin Xun was just in junior high school. (Qin Xun’s parents divorced when he was in the third year of junior high school, and his mother gave birth to another child when he was in the second year of high school. He was not familiar with him.) During that time, the conflict between the parents had not yet intensified, but there was already some discord between the two of them. Yes, indifferent to Qin Xun.Qin Xun used to go out less often, and he didn't know why that day. When he was alone, he accidentally ran a little far away and couldn't find his way home.

Qin Xun can vaguely remember something now.At that time, he ran into a vegetable market, surrounded by people coming and going, bargaining sounds one after another, fiery and chaotic.The loud voice intensified his inner anxiety.Suddenly coming to a completely unfamiliar place, Qin Xun gradually lost his inner sense of security. He wanted to go home, but he didn't know the way at all.He couldn't even find his way, he couldn't even get out of the vegetable market.

The feeling is suffocating.

That was also the first time Qin Xun realized his problem in knowing the way.

"I gradually calmed down later," Qin Xun murmured, trying to overcome the erosion of sleepiness, "because I found that panic is useless, so I might as well wait where I am. When my parents find out that I'm gone, they will sooner or later will come for me."

Shu Nian asked, "Then did they come looking for you?"

"Well..."

In the end, Qin Xun waited for no one.

No one came to him, and he stayed alone until the market closed in the evening. He had no money with him, so he was hungry all day.

"And then? How did you get back?"

Qin Xun wrote lightly: "After dark, I met the old man who went out to walk the dog in our community, and followed him back. Don't say that the old man is energetic, and he can run so far while walking the dog."

"...Is that so?"

Shu Nian resisted the dull feeling of falling in his heart, and waited for Qin Xun to continue.

Qin Xun finally returned home, but he didn't wait for his parents' concern.The two tit-for-tat people showed an amazing tacit understanding at this time, and agreed that Qin Xun came back so late because he was greedy for fun.Qin Xun was naturally very wronged, so he stubbornly didn't say anything about getting lost, and resisted.

After this incident, Qin Xun began to learn to read maps, and he would no longer go to unfamiliar places alone.Later, when he got a smart phone, Qin Xun downloaded three map softwares manually as soon as he got it, so as to prevent any possibility of getting lost.In fact, he didn't deliberately hide his problem, but maybe he did too much homework, and no one around him noticed it.

Qin Xun said it easily, but Shu Nian silently made up the whole process of being scolded and beaten after the small Qin Xun lost his way, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

"Then do your parents know about this?"

Qin Xun's eyes were sleepy: "I didn't tell them... and I was also deliberately remembering the way, so I have no problem with the road I often take. Before you... no one found out... ..."

Shu Nian closed his eyes and pretended to be sleepy, but actually listened very carefully.But in fact, he didn't quite understand how Qin Xun suddenly said these things.

Shu Nian didn't realize that when Qin Xun got lost in Longxi Town, he never expected anyone to come back to find him. , so when he saw Shu Nian who was walking in the mud and rain, at the moment when his expectations were completely broken, Qin Xun was at a loss for a moment.

It was an indescribable feeling like being hit in the chest.

Qin Xun was still talking, but his voice became smaller and smaller, and the interval between words became longer and longer.Shu Nian guessed that it was time for him to die, so he opened his eyes and stared at the young man's face in front of him in the dark space.

At dawn, he was leaving.

Qin Xun's breathing gradually became steady. Shu Nian couldn't see his appearance clearly, but he could imagine the position of his facial features and the outline of his face.Shu Nian watched him quietly. After a while, Qin Xun let out a snort as if suddenly awakened, and Shu Nian immediately closed his eyes again.

"What?" Shu asked in a young voice.

Qin Xun was a little confused and said, "What did I just say?"

Shu Nian was helpless: "...you go to sleep, don't talk about it."

"No."

Shu Nian: "Don't you have to go home before noon tomorrow, can you get up? Are you not sleepy now?"

"I can get up without being sleepy," Qin Xun said.

He was obviously so sleepy that his eyes were narrowed into slits.Shu Nian boldly predicted that within 3 minutes, this person would definitely have started dreaming.

Where did Qin Xun's persistence come from, or did he always stay up late in retaliation for challenging the limits of human beings?If I remember correctly, Brother Feng was teasing Qin Xun on the river beach just now about Qin Xun's feat of staying up all night in an Internet cafe and making up for three or four hours of sleep before being dragged out for dinner by his classmates.And he doesn't do it occasionally, but often does it every now and then.

Those who don't want to die suddenly don't usually do this.

Shu Nian opened his mouth, wanting to piss someone off.

Qin Xun suddenly stretched out his hand at this moment, and hugged Shu Nian through the quilt.

Shu Nian: "..."

I can't say it anymore.

It's not quite accurate to say that it's a hug, he just stretched out one hand and put it on Shu Nian's quilt, as if it was just to stretch his limbs, but Shu Nian became dumb because of it.

...the unfolding seems somewhat uncontrolled.

"...What are you doing?" Shu Nian said after holding back for a while.

"Don't move, that's all." Qin Xun thought of a reason, "When I sleep, I need to hug something so that I can sleep soundly."

Shu Nian: ...I didn't see you have this problem when sketching.

"Time... the time is too short." Qin Xun said again.His pronunciation was a bit slurred and his voice was very soft, Shu Nian needed to listen carefully to hear what he was saying clearly.

Shu Nian followed suit and asked him in a low voice, "What do you mean?"

"I want to...stay with you for a little longer." Qin Xun said, "When I was in school... I often thought about..."

Qin Xun's voice weakened, and Shu Nian couldn't hear clearly. He paused for half a second and couldn't help but ask, "What are you thinking?"

"Missing you... have you eaten, painting... are you tired? At this time, are you writing quickly or are you... listening to a class."

Talking seems to be very tiring when sleepy, and Qin Xun speaks intermittently, making it more and more difficult.

"It's hard to see each other. If I fall asleep... I don't know how long it will be until the next meeting."

"I want to make the time... a little longer..."

Shu Nian blinked, inexplicably feeling a little sore.

Shu Nian took a deep breath, first he waited patiently, and saw that Qin Xun's breathing gradually became smooth and long, his hands were still on his quilt, but he seemed to be asleep, so he quietly opened his eyes.He stared at Qin Xun for a while, then moved closer to Qin Xun, reached out and grabbed the corner of the quilt on his chest, and pressed his forehead to the back of his hand.

From above, it looks like being held in Qin Xun's arms.

Shu Nian closed his eyes and thought to himself, this is probably the closest he can get to Qin Xun.

At dawn, Shu Nian and Qin Xun were still sleeping, their foreheads were touching, the morning light streamed in through the cracks in the curtains, and the room was filled with tranquility.

When Qin Xun was sleeping in a daze, he suddenly thought he was at home, so he didn't react immediately when he vaguely heard the door handle turning. shouted:

"Why..."

"Who?" Yu Ruoyao knocked on the door twice when she heard the voice outside the door, "Niannian? Tong Shunian? Are you awake?"

Hearing his mother's voice, Shu Nian woke up suddenly, opened his eyes suddenly, turned over and sat up.

Qin Xun was also woken up by Shu Nian's actions, rubbing his eyes and trying to sit up, but before he could say "what's the matter" in his mouth, Shu Nian covered his mouth with his hands in a panic, pushed him back on the bed, and covered his mouth. Quilt.

Qin Xun: "..."

This time is completely awake.

Shu Nian's mind was spinning rapidly, and cold sweat almost broke out on his forehead.

"Um, well, I'm awake, I'm awake. What's the matter?" He deliberately pretended to have just woken up, and stammered back in a slightly hoarse voice.

Yu Ruoyao said through the door: "Ah? It's nothing, I thought you were out. Let's see if you are here."

Shu Nian tried his best to calmly say: "...Then, isn't today New Year's Day, I just want to sleep a little longer. Just woke up, just woke up."

Yu Ruoyao let out a groan, turned the handle, and found that it really couldn't be turned, and asked again: "Why did you lock the door?"

Since family members never entered Shu Nian's room for no reason or fiddled with Shu Nian's things, and Shu Nian felt that he had no serious secrets, so he seldom locked the door at home.Shu Nian also suddenly thought of Qin Xun as an unstable factor yesterday, and locked the door just in case, but he didn't expect it to come in handy now.

"What about me..." Shu Nian glanced wildly, caught a glimpse of the coats that he and Qin Xun had put on the back of the chair, and said wisely, "I just got up and was changing, so just lock the door."

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It can only be said that friendship deteriorates in an instant

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