Qu clear as promised

Liang Hui paused, turned his head and stared at Zhu Zhiyi blankly, his mind went blank, like thunder on the ground, frost and snow flying in June.

He paused for too long, so long that Zhu Zhiyi was inexplicably flustered and couldn't bear it, Liang Hui looked at him with shock, puzzlement and many...complicated things that he couldn't understand, those emotions were too strong Too full, stabbed Zhu Zhiyi's heart inexplicably heavy and painful, but still puzzled.

Is it too sudden?Maybe he shouldn't have dragged on for so long, but a few days ago, the imperial doctor didn't let him get out of bed at all, and he was not allowed to move around at will, let alone leave the palace. Finally, his health has improved, and it is a good time to cut the mess quickly. If this is the time Don't say it, and if he gets deeper, he won't be able to say it.

Liang Hui pursed his lips very tightly, standing there lonely, not like a king over ten thousand people, but like a prisoner sentenced to death, his voice was a little hoarse: "Is there something wrong with me?"

Zhu Zhiyi was startled: "No."

Liang Hui remained motionless, and he whispered again: "No."

It's just that this is a decision he made before returning to Beijing.

"I, you..." Liang Hui forced himself to calm down, took a deep breath, lowered his eyes, and asked cautiously, "Does Qinggui know what I mean?"

This sentence of love and liking, he originally wanted to wait for Zhu Zhiyi to get well, and then solemnly and formally tell the other party that he wants spring flowers and autumn moons, high mountains and flowing water, all romance and grandeur for him, and no psychological burden or worries at all. follow.

Zhu Zhiyi deserves the best in this world, but before he gave it away, Zhu Zhiyi pushed his hand away and said he didn't want it anymore.

Zhu Zhiyi said frankly, "I probably know something."

"That's... Qinggui doesn't like me?" Liang Hui's heart ached, and his eyelashes drooped.

Zhu Zhiyi rolled his eyes vainly and said vaguely: "People like us talk about what we like or don't like."

Liang Hui narrowed his eyes, Zhu Zhiyi met his gaze straight away, and said softly, "The emperor should understand what I mean best, right?"

Although they haven't said it openly, he believes that Liang Hui understands that it is really difficult for two people like them to be together sincerely, equally, and without reservation.

Liang Hui's whole body froze, as if he had been hit hard by his words, and the light in his eyes was completely lost, like a prodigal dog that was discarded.

Zhu Zhiyi couldn't bear to watch it. No matter how many times he looked at him again, he would still be hit in the heart by Liang Hui's face, but the identities and situations of their monarchs and ministers determined that there would always be natural confrontation, trade-offs, jealousy and calculations between each other. Game wrestling.

Since ancient times, emperors have been so lucky, and human nature cannot withstand deep investigation. Zhu Zhiyi knows what kind of person Liang Hui is, suspicious, utilitarian, and ambitious. He knows Liang Hui's nature and is still attracted to him. This is his way of protecting himself. Canine tooth and snake letter, even the canine tooth is beautiful, and he also loves the snake letter, but this does not mean that Zhu Zhiyi is willing to feed the tiger with her body.

Zhu Zhiyi loves his claws and is also afraid of his claws.

Liang Hui is like a precious sword to him, beautiful, sharp and full of attractiveness, but it cannot be worn close to the body, otherwise it will be hurt by the sharp blade.

Zhu Zhiyi has never been Liang Hui's opponent. It is understandable to be so false and flattering in the past, and you can test me. Liang Hui's calculations and occasional half-truths are taken for granted. It is fair to exchange and cooperate.

But if he really decides to be with someone, he will devote himself wholeheartedly and unreservedly to deliver his sincerity, but Liang Hui probably won't.

Liang Hui will always have leeway and will always be able to do his job with ease, but this cannot be blamed on Liang Hui. This is the nature engraved in his blood, and it is also the armor he cultivated in the thorny jungle, and even his charm. , that is not Liang Hui.

Husband and wife are different from monarchs and ministers. It is a disaster for a person who is passionate and scheming to meet someone who is scheming. Zhu Zhiyi even knows Liang Hui better than Liang Hui himself. fish.

In such a position, loving such a person is a big gamble. The emperor's fortune is like a spring dew, and it is undoubtedly a gamble that loses his family and life to deliver his sincerity to an emperor without reservation.

Zhu Zhiyi was born with prudence and rules, and never dared to make a wrong step.

He didn't understand love in the past, but Liang Hui taught him later. It's not like he didn't imagine that "I would like to have a person with one heart and never leave each other", but Liang Hui is the least likely to be this person.

The identity of the emperor of a country and the responsibility of spreading the branches and inheriting the family also determine that he cannot "have only one heart and one heart and stay together forever" with anyone in this world.

Zhu Zhiyi has never asked for anything for herself since she was a child, but after falling in love with Liang Hui, she had selfishness, delusion, jealousy and loss of gain and loss for the first time, which was terrible, and it made him jealous, bitter and twisted. Not like Zhu Zhiyi, he felt strange to himself.

I didn’t understand, didn’t like, and didn’t care before, so it didn’t matter, and I was even very generous, but if I really fell in love with someone, it seemed that I couldn’t do it anymore. There was no way for Zhu Zhiyi to be the tolerant, generous and decent queen of the past, and there was no way. Seeing his beloved and other women full of gold and jade.

He can't share the person he likes with so many people. This is his bottom line. It's very unrealistic, and it's also ridiculous from his identity. Even if he married into the emperor's family, he should reserve a little innocence and delusion for himself at last.

The identities, status, ancestral system, and etiquette that lie between them are like an insurmountable gap between mountains and seas. Zhu Zhiyi believes that Liang Hui understands.

Liang Hui should be the most sober and understanding person.

Liang Hui was silent for a long time, and said: "Qinggui can't forgive me, right? From the moment I pushed you out——"

Zhu Zhiyi immediately said: "No! I have never blamed the emperor!"

"Really." He said sincerely.

It was he who was going to be a hostage himself, even if Liang Hui hadn't made this decision, he would kill him first and then go. He must go, this is his responsibility and mission, and no one can stop him.

He and Liang Hui's incompatibility had nothing to do with this matter, it was due to their identities and natures.

Not this battle of Jindu City, there will be the next battle of Jinguan City and Jinxiu City. Life is so long, there will be countless battles after that, or there will be billowing sand and dust, or there will be no gunpowder smoke. A test of humanity.

Zhu Zhiyi has always been the most respectable person, and he doesn't want this unforgettable warmth to become unrecognizable in the repeated confrontation games and calculations, because love and hatred are the most regrettable and most vulgar things in the world, he doesn't want his own His feelings ended in such a sad end.

Liang Hui's heart was tormented like a fire, his eyes were deep and dark, and he contained calm paranoia: "Then the rules don't believe me? Don't believe my liking, don't believe my love."

He thought that his past behaviors were really hard to be trusted by the other party, wearing a mask, duplicity, half-truth, sentimental and ruthless, Zhu Zhiyi had long since distrusted him.

Liang Hui lowered his voice, bitter and helpless, and laughed at himself: "Zhu Zhiyi, you won't know what kind of life you live without me, and you won't know how much I like you." He raised his eyes and stared straight at Zhu Zhi Yi, the turbulent heat in the eyes can burn people, "Because I didn't know it before."

The sadness and sorrow of more than 1000 days and nights in the past three years seemed to return to Liang Hui's body in an instant, clamoring wildly, his temples were wet with sweat, and his eyes were dark and sincere: "Zhu Zhiyi, I know myself You have a shoddy heart, you are not a good person, and you are not worthy of your honesty, pure kindness and loyalty."

"I can change it. In the past, I didn't understand, I was self-righteous, and I was blinded by the power and vanity. I didn't know what I wanted and what was most important. Now I know. I knew it from the moment you lost the news. gone."

Such a Yushu Lanzhi, Fengshen handsome man stood there silently and painfully, his black eyelashes trembled slightly, his teeth were clenched, the panic of gaining and losing and the heavy sadness almost overwhelmed him: "You are the most important thing. , I will never doubt you, test you, embarrass you, abandon you, I will regard you more than my life, even if you may not believe it, I have already regarded you as more than my life Heavy."

"Without you, everything is meaningless. Zhu Zhiyi, tell me what you don't like, and I will change it, okay?"

"No, that's not what I meant." Zhu Zhiyi declined anxiously and sincerely. Those personalities are Liang Hui's "traits", not a "mistake", and there is no need to change them.

It's just this "characteristic" that makes them unsuitable to be together. Zhu Zhiyi has always been the most reasonable: "The emperor is very good, but it's just a mountain of jade and a stone. It's hard to build a square, and jade is fragile, so you can't force it."

Zhu Zhiyi is a person who can always say the most decisive words in an extremely calm and gentle tone: "The emperor and his ministers, it is good to be a pair of monarchs and ministers."

Compared with a husband and wife, the monarch and his subjects are neither far nor close, harmonious but different, can advance or retreat, although not intimate, but do not need to possess, a relationship that does not require possession will be much more decent.

To a certain extent, he and Liang Hui share the same goals and interests, and it is another kind of perfection for a good minister to meet the emperor and keep the prosperity and peace together.

Zhu Zhiyi was gentle and firm, and assured him: "If the minister really recovers and returns to the court, he will definitely do his duty, dedicate himself to his life, serve the emperor, and guard the beam to the death."

"Just treat it as a minister... Wouldn't it be better to accompany the emperor in another way?"

Liang Hui's eyes turned red suddenly: "Not good."

His face was pale and blood was gone, he pulled the corners of his lips in self-deprecation, and murmured in a self-deprecating way: "Then you might as well kill me."

"??" Zhu Zhiyi was taken aback, and stared at him with wide eyes. The darkness and paranoia in the eyes of the other party were very strange, like a pool like an abyss, thousands of feet deep, shocking.

He, too, became a stranger in Zhu Zhiyi's heart, and Liang Hui's eyes were full of sorrow, as if there was a raging dark river flowing, and it seemed like heavy snow was falling all over the sky, which was unbearable.

"Anyway, I already died once when you disappeared."

"No, no," Liang Hui approached step by step, and slowly tilted his head, his calm and dead eyes were locked on Zhu Zhiyi, his handsome face was decadent and lonely, and a weird smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, Tell him softly, "I've died a hundred times and a thousand times in the days when you're not here."

"It's just that when I think that I haven't found you yet, I'm not reconciled, and I don't dare to die. I'm afraid that if I die, no one will really look for you. I'm afraid that if I die, what will you do if you come back, so I don't dare to die. I will live on." Day after day, life is worse than death, and I finally waited for you to come back."

His smile was weird and gloomy, and the abyss was hidden in his eyes: "But it seems that you don't need it, and you don't want it."

Liang Hui lowered his eyes and murmured: "I don't want my late love, I don't want the sincerity offered by my hands, I don't want to stay by my side, and I don't want...me, do you?"

"Zhu Zhiyi, isn't it?"